D S Z E

What Kind of a Person am I?

2012-01-26T07:53:00.000-08:00

It's just one of those days where you feel motivated to write about something.

Have you ever wondered how much you understand yourself?

Lately, I've come to understand a few things about myself.

I'm starting to see myself more and more each year. Perhaps one day I'll fully grasp the concept of 'me'.

The first thing I noticed lately is that, I'm really the kind of guy who, gets excited over something very easily.

But because I get excited very easily, I also lose interest very easily.

So you'll find that in my history of my life, there are many unfinished projects. Things I wanted to do but never did.

Secondly, I'm the very extreme type. This means that I like to do things in extreme. For instance, I like food that is extremely spicy, sweet and salty. I just like things that have a very strong taste.

What I also mean by extreme is, when I do something, once I get focused on it, I don't stop. It's like momentum. For example, I'm the type that does projects last minute. That's why, once I start, I don't stop. I can keep doing it for 4-7 days. Or even longer, in my year 1 I think I spent an entire month not going out, just doing project at home. It's crazy I know. But that's who I am. I'm really not the type that does something and stops. Once I stop, I most of the time don't start again. So when I do something, I do it till the end.

So you see, sometimes I can go on a hiatus. You may see me going crazy over something, doing it over and over again for several days straight. It happened with climbing, badminton, games, so many more examples. But once I stop, I usually don't start again anymore.

In certain ways you can say it's like quitting. That's why this is one of my main concerns. My solution to it is to start and finish it without stopping. Like if I start a project, I must do it until the end with full focus without anything else disturbing me. That's my biggest challenge for this problem.

What else have I discovered about myself?

Well, in relationships, I'm the type who is quite open-minded. I'm not that possessive of my partner. If I were to have one , that is. I will understand the boundaries. But because of this I may have some problem getting really close on a non-physical level to my spouse. I need to work harder in this aspect.

Also, I'm not the type who gets jealous that easily. I do get jealous, but only if its a very good reason to get jealous. I don't get jealous over small things that really aren't worth getting jealous about. So only for things that I feel is important to get jealous about. Oh yes, and I don't show my jealousy easily.

Ah yes, I also believe in respecting people who are in relationships. That is why, you will never see me try to get close to someone's girlfriend. Not in a little bit. I prefer to keep my distance. And I will never steal anyone's girlfriend. Ever. I'm really not that type. If I were to take someone's girl what does that make me? That's right. Also, if the girl really left another guy to be with me, are you sure that's really the type of girl you want to be with? She should make a clean breakup and perhaps wait for a few months or more before starting another relationship.

Also, if I were to go after a girl. I do it directly, but not in a very quick manner. I don't go and say "hey let's go on a date". I am the type who gets to know someone slowly first. Be friends first right? That's how I feel. When we're close enough things will happen naturally. Why rush it? Relationships are built based on stages. And it starts from friendship. Personally, it's how I think.

Another thing, when I do get rejected by a girl, I do feel sad, but I will let go of it. This applies for both direct rejecting or indirect rejection. Though until today, I've only been rejected indirectly, if I'm not mistaken. I do let it go, and I don't put any blame on the girl. Everyone has their freedom to choose who they want to be with. I mean, if someone doesn't love you in return it's really not right to force them to love you. So honestly, I'm the type where people can be direct with me. I'll accept the truth and move on. Simple as that. Don't worry about caring about my feelings. It would really hurt more if you lied to make me feel better. The truth hurts, but not as much as a lie. Because if you really cared about me, you know I deserve the truth. It's all I want.

One last thing about me when I'm in relationships.

I'm the monogamous type. What is monogamous? It means that you will only have one partner. Like you know, penguins are monogamous, once they find a partner they will stay together forever. Men in general are polygamous. They can have several women in their lives. By nature I should be polygamous, but I have a mind that can control my actions. So I am monogamous. I hope all guys out there will have the same mentality.

So in other words, I'm the loyal type. You won't see me two timing or cheating if I am in a relationship. That's just the type I am. If things don't work out I'll be sure to have a clean break up before moving on. We both deserve that much, I believe. If possible I'd want my first girlfriend to be my wife. So in a way I will be completely monogamous, having one partner throughout my lifetime. That's my ideal relationship life. Ya know?

Also, when it comes to social life. I discovered one thing.

I'm not the type to get close to anybody. I have good friends, but never really best friends. I had really really good friends before, but never really onto the best friend level. If I had a best friend, then today we'd still be best friends. So... as of now I don't have one. I rest my case.

You never see me hang out with any particular gang. I'm usually one person walking around. It's like I can fit in anywhere, and I don't stay in one place for that long.

It's both good and bad. I never get too close to anyone. But because of that I also sometimes do feel alone. But not very severe case la, I'm still okay with it. It's just the feeling you know.... Sometimes when you have those regular friends you hang out with, I kind of want that feeling every once in a while. But deep down, I know I'm not the type who gets close to people easily. Some cases, if I'm too close I get uncomfortable. Then I will distance myself again.

On life itself. I'd say I'm the type who is very sacrificial.

What do I mean? Well, you see... If 10 people including me were locked in a room, and one of us had to die so that the 9 others could live, I would give my life. Without question. Why? Because I'm like that. I won't be able to live with myself if someone else had to die for me. Why wasn't I the one to die for someone else? As a man, I won't be able to take it. I would honestly feel guilty forever. Especially when I had the choice.

So usually, in games you'll see me playing tanks. I'm the front man. I'm not the sneaky type. I'm quite direct. I'll take the blow for my team. A tanks job is to die so that the team-mates survive. That's why tanks suit me really well. Though now a days I'm playing different types of heroes.

Ah, yes. I did mention I'm the extreme type, right?

For those of you who know me for a while now, you can see that when I became a fan of SNSD, I really go all out. Buy their merchandise, watch their videos almost everyday. Actually. I think its everyday lol. I even went to singapore by flight with friends and slept outside the stadium just to be in front of the line to see them. Go figure.

So what type of an SNSD fan am I?

I'm really the crazy type. Like crazy...... Some fans are the collectors type. They collect everything they can meticulously. I'm not so particular about what I own. I show them support verbally, by telling friends about them, sharing videos and photos. To the public. Even though people may say I'm doing too much of it. But hey, I'm not hurting anyone, so I don't see why I can't do so. People really need to lighten up. Sometimes they make certain things sound like a crime. Even though the real crimes are the one that need attention.

I'm not afraid to express it. Why should I? I will be myself. Even if people tell me not to. As long as I don't hurt anyone, it's totally fine to be myself. People should care more about themselves than others. Sometimes people comment too much about others, only to forget that no one is perfect. No one can fulfill your desires of seeing a perfect living human being. Perfection does not exist. It is only there to allow us to work towards it, but never to be achieved. I could go on and on about perfection so I'll just leave it at this.

in SNSD, there are 9 girls, and my favourite is brighter than gems Tiffany :)

Yeap, I love her to BITS. And I'm the loyal type. She'll always be my number one favourite in the group. There's no changing that. SNSD will always be my bias group as well. I won't change once I've decided on something. I'm stubborn/loyal in that way, depending on how you look at it. Life is all about perspectives, anyway, right? That's why people can look at the same thing and have likes and dislikes about it. Makes life really interesting, no?

Finally, even though I may be such a crazy fan, I am in a way, a mature fan. You know sometimes when you're so crazy over something, not everyone can understand why? Yeah, everyone is just different, that's all. The thing is, sometimes people keep wondering why I'm so crazy over them. Sometimes they even say mean things and I really did get hurt a few times. But you know what... After a few times, I realized, I should really not get mad at those comments. People just have a different perspective, and they can say what they want. It's up to me how I want to take it. I don't have to take it personally or in a hurtful manner. I have a choice. We always do. So I just learn to ignore it. Also, I start to think about the 9 girls. What will others think about them if I react negatively to such comments? I don't want to give a bad impression about SNSD, so I as a loyal fan, will NOT reply rudely to negative comments. It just makes the situation worse. Don't be immature. That's what I keep telling myself. It's one of the biggest challenges of being a fan. You have to control your emotions, so that you do not give your favourite idol group a bad name. If I were to reply, I'll be sure to make it sound proper and give the right image.

When it comes to emotions, I can be really emotional. But I will try to hide it when I'm in public. But only when it comes to negative emotions like anger. I try not to show that I'm angry or unhappy. But usually people can sense it.

If I'm not cheerful like I usually am, then I'm probably feeling some negative emotions and trying to hide it, haha. When I'm at home, where I'm most comfortable, I tend to show it easily. So my family knows how I really am like. Lol. But I'm sure that's the case with most of us. At home and outside we're totally different. Haha, you know I'm right about that :)

Wow, I wrote a bunch of stuff huh?

I start to think, wow, I do know quite some things about myself. But there are loads more. I believe that we are ever expanding and growing. I think even in 6 months I might have changed a few times already. I'll be working and doing different things from now. Maybe I'm living outside?

Who knows? But as of now, I know at least this much about myself :) I hope you guys enjoyed reading. I think I missed a few important points, but I guess I can write again next time. No rush right? LOL!

Well, have a good night, and thanks, even though I think most people don't read this blog anymore HAHA! TATAAAA~! :DDDD

I Just Realized.... SNSD

2012-01-12T06:35:00.000-08:00

Yah....

Honestly, I don't know why I'm blogging at this time. I hardly update

Was watching another SNSD video and I cried again

It started to make me think a lot

How I've changed, how it's easier for me to be emotional these days

In a good way of course

You know, most people still don't understand why I can be so involved in SNSD, in an emotional way.

Well, all I can say is I've never met any other 9 girls who could make me feel so touched! Really... I rarely cry. But I tear up easily whenever I watch touching videos of SNSD.

And these are 9 girls whom I don't know at all personally. When was the last time I cried for a girl I knew in person? It was ... a long time ago.

But these are 9 great girls.

You know what's the funny thing.

So many people keep wondering why I'm so crazy over SNSD and stuff.

But look, if you don't go crazy in life your not really living life.

Why live such a reserved life? Why don't you just be yourself and stop caring about what others think?

I love snsd! So what? Why do you care? Why can't you go and oggle over your own groups instead of wondering why I love them so much? My life must be so much more interesting if you're taking an interest in WHY I like my favourite girl group so much :)

Unless.... you don't have such a group that could make you feel the same way? Yes, honestly I pity you, but really, mind your own business.

Honestly, sometimes it's like I'm not even allowed to express how much I love them.

And I get so sick and tired of people who give me such remarks! So I just learn to ignore them. It's really not necessary to have haters cloud your view. Seriously.

If you're still reading, then you're probably interested to know further.

And you're probably not a hater at all. No worries, my comments earlier was just directed to people who can't respect other people's own personal feelings.

Sometimes when people say mean things about snsd, i get hurt but I don't say anything in return.

You know why? Because I care about the 9 girls.

I would think... "would the girls want me to get angry over this?"

and I would also think... "i must keep the girls images, me as an SNSD fan cannot show a bad attitude towards haters..."

So usually I don't say anything. SO that's why I'm here, blogging in my own space. So I hope you guys understand why I'm letting it out here.

I believe I can be a more mature fan.

I believe I can be one of the best SONEs around

By putting their needs before mine when it comes to topics about them.

Did you guys know how happy I am to come to know SNSD? It's like I don't even care if I'm single anymore. I love them! Whenever I feel sad I just turn on some SNSD videos and my sadness is GONE!

I'm supposed to be doing my assignments now, but after watching SNSD my worries are GONE! Though I should get back to doing it after this post.

Did you know? I actually always wanted to be more emotional, not in the bad way, but in the good way.

You don't get what I mean do you?

Well, dont you know how some people can be so... emotionless? Mostly guys, they are less emotional than girls, and I'm talking about the GOOD aspect of being emotional, not the bad aspects

Good aspects such as you know... feeling touched... feeling serenity... just feeling life man.

After watching those kind of amazing and touching stories about snsd and the troubles they faced, I couldn't help but feel touched.

I cried. I cried when tiffany talked about how she lost her mom at the age of 14, and how she was thankful to her mom and god that even though her mom is gone, she was left with 8 wonderful amazing sisters....

I cried when I saw their into the new world concert. In the song 'complete', there was a moment where the song stops. And they gather in a circle and pray in silence for 10 seconds.... It was so touching.. I'm tearing up now thinking about it...

I cried, when I was in singapore, on the second night, they sang the song 'into the new world'. I cried. I just cried. I let it all out. All my emotions out. I felt so........ so emotional. In a good way. I was happy. Girls' Generation made me feel this way. Me ,a guy who could not be emotional in a good way. I'm happy thanks to them that I could feel such amazingly wonderful emotions.

I don't cry much. Even when I'm sad. Unless I'm extremely extremely depressed. Last year I didn't cry much at all.

If you are, as curious as everyone else as to why I love them, you will understand if you watch enough SNSD videos, come to love them and be passionate about them, and just understand them. They are so amazing girls. I'm not the only one who says this. Ask the hundreds of thousands or millions of snsd fans. They'll tell you.

I'm sure we all have our favourite artists. Usually we just like them to a certain degree. But this, is a whole different level. This is actually getting involved in their story. Knowing as much about them as possible. Watching their videos whenever there's a new one.

It's different, its not just liking them. It's a real emotional connection.

I really can't tell you how it feels. It has to be felt for yourself

When the girls are having fun and laughing, I'm happy and I laugh along.

When the girls tell their sad stories, I cry too. I'm sad too.

When the girls are just being their funny dorky selves, me too, I become myself too, I express how much I love their personalities and dorkiness.

It's just an amazing experience

I hope that you too, have a favourite artist or group. It doesn't have to be SNSD, it can be any artist.

And I hope that you too can get involved in that artist's life, not just on a fan level, but on an emotional level as well. It's just so touching when you get so involved with them ,you know? There's no other feeling like it.

I don't expect anyone to understand just by reading this. As I mentioned, you HAVE to experience it for yourself.

I'm proud to be a SONE, and will Forever be a SONE.

Oh yes, I cried too when I watched fan made - videos about SNSD. It's really touching... I've said this about 10 times now aha... but yes, SNSD's story is so touching...

I thought only girls will cry when it comes to sad stuff. Usually it's the case, as a guy I will hold in my tears.

But not for SNSD. I let it flow.

Because that's how much I love them, and I want to have my honest feelings come out. I don't want to hold it in. I don't want to hide it. Why should I? Life is for living. Without emotions we'd just be mindless zombies.

So you. If you do not have such any group you idolize to an EMOTIONAL level, its alright. But do try. It's totally different once you have such an... obsession? Haha, no no, that's not the right word. It's not like it's something bad right? I ain't doing drugs or anything like that.

On the outside it seems like I'm obsessed with SNSD, but please, look further into the matter. Obsessed is a word used for immature people.

Meaning that if your husband or wife is obsessed with you, he or she is immature for not looking at the big picture and understanding your emotions.

So that's why, it may seem like I'm obsessed with them, but actually, I'm obsessed in a mature way, you could say. I can't find the right word for it, so 'obsessed in a mature way' will do for now.

So yeah, just wanted to get it off my chest. I feel better now after ranting. It feels good. Even though maybe less than 5 people will read this LOL. Can't blame you guys haha... This post is long and... I don't update my blog often. And I'm talking about something most people can't really relate too unless they have the same kind of .... experience.

Well, that's all for now, even if 1 person read this I'd be a happy man :)

Hope you enjoyed , and to you amazing reader for reading so far, thanks! Though maybe you just came here by accident and had nothing to do or you googled 'danny siah loves snsd' and got to this page, yeah... just another average day :)

TOODLES! :3

My 2011?

2011-12-31T08:18:00.001-08:00

Yehhhh, it's 2012 now.

2011 is officially over! Anddddd there's a ton of homework waiting for me to finish XD

Honestly, I just wanted to express my thoughts so here I am writing. It feels good to write again after a long time.

Truth be told, this year, many things and many times I made mistakes. It just makes me realize how human I am, you know? Mistakes define human existence

I realized I didn't always keep my promises. I also realized I didn't do everything I said I was going to do.

Most of the time, I'd say in my mind 'okay, I'm gonna do this', but in the end, I never did it.

If there was one thing I'd want to change about myself in 2012, it's this. This one thing. This habit of not doing the things I promised and said I would do.

Why? I believe that a weak mind cannot control his actions. A strong mind, however can control the body and perform well.

The best case scenario, is that in 2012 I can overcome this huge obstacle and really do what I say I'm gonna do. Get myself more organized. And everything.

Surely, it's no easy task, but that's why it's worth doing, ya know?

I had this same problem in 2010. Not sure if I improved much in 2011.

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Hey, I know I know, it's not good to only focus on my bad points. I did do some good things in 2011 too.

Sometimes in public I do help people out. There was once in a book store I lent someone in front of me my popular card so she could get the discount.

I also helped a guy move his stall in Singapore when I was there for SNSD's concert

it feels good to do these kind of small deeds, it's hard to explain the feeling, but yeah. This year I did help quite a few strangers.

Mm... I must say, many good things happened to me this year too.

Memorable ones are like when I went for SNSD's concert in Singapore. Seeing them was already a huge thing for me.

But I also received fan service from Tiffany, my favourite SNSD member. The flying kiss, heart, two thumbs up and bright smile she gave me, those 5 seconds I will remember forever.

I also managed to see SNSD off at the airport. Only those who had a flight and were inside the terminal could see them board the plane. The rest were outside the terminal (cause they don't have a flight) I was one of the lucky ones (only about 5-8 other people were there compared to the hundreds of people outside)

My love for SNSD grew a lot. Ever since the concert. I became even more loyal.

It's hard for people to understand. I know how people can wonder "how can they be so crazy over SNSD? Are they that special?"

Truthfully though, I don't blame anyone for making that kind of remark. Why?

Because you can't fully understand the reason, without seeing the situation for yourself

Does anyone really know why we love SNSD so much?

Most of my friends think I love SNSD because they're so pretty and gorgeous.

Yes, but that is only 20% of the reason I love them.

Think about it. If we loved them ONLY for their looks, then our loyalty would never last. Why? Because there are definitely so many beautiful artists around. Same thing if you are with someone because of their looks, it won't last, because you will meet someone who is better looking than your partner one day.

Yes, I don't love them just for their looks. It's their personality. It really captured my heart. Hundreds of thousands of people like me have also fallen in love with them. That is why, everytime we see a picture of them, we always talk about how wonderful they are.

When we say they look beautiful, it means that they look beautiful inside and outside. And it shows in the pictures. How many people can understand?

There are 9 girls in SNSD. Each of them have beautiful personalities, and they are special in their own way, they compliment each other's personality well. If you fall in love with any one of these girl's personalities, you will slowly start to learn about the other members in SNSD and realize how close they are, how beautiful their hearts are. It's because we know how they really are like, that we can love them so much. It's not just about looks. True SONEs will understand what I mean (SONE = SNSD fans)

Most won't understand, until they see for themselves, how the girls truly are behind the scenes.

That's why. Do you see me saying anything bad about another k-pop group? No. Why? Because I don't know their personalities. I don't know how they're really like behind the scenes. I don't know, and because I don't know, I don't judge any of them. I think all k-pop groups are great, and they all are helping spread the hallyu wave. Why hate any of them? It's a waste of time. Unnecessary hatred is generated.

But I can tell you this, I know what the girls are really like. And I'm the kind of guy who tries his best to see everything from a neutral perspective.

For instance, you know that Sooyoung from SNSD has her own solo version of Sway by Michael Buble, where she does a latin routine dance with a professional male latin dancer.

A friend of mine commented "not as good as the original michael buble sway"

I agreed with him. It's true. Sooyoung did pretty okay with her vocals, but it isn't as good as the original. But the dance routine was amazing. Sooyoung totally nailed the latin dance. My jaw hangs wide open whenever I watch it.

I still look at things from a neutral perspective, even if SNSD is my favourite girl group.

And as for those who give nonconstructive criticism and hatred, I just learn to ignore it. There'll always be such people, and I don't believe they deserve to be a k-pop fan if they put in so much effort to hate any k-pop group. They should grow up and just concentrate on loving their favourite group.

Aigoo, you can see, half of this post I talked about SNSD. That's how much I care for SNSD at the moment. It's a big part of my 2011

Becoming a SONE, that is (SONE = SNSD fan)

Yeap, it happened in May 2011. I'll never forget :)

SO if you ask me, yes, 2011 was an amazing year.

2012 will be even more amazing!

Resolutions for 2012?

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It's a simple one, finish college and start living life :)

Of course, to support SNSD all the way too

One day, I'll have my own cozy home. I'll be sitting at the veranda, admiring the dark starlit sky, loving everything about life. That day will come soon, I'm sure :)

p.s. Life keeps getting better and better :3

p.p.s Thank you fany! You made me so happy at the concert! May you stay happy always and meet the man of your dreams! ^___^

Tears

2011-12-03T10:19:00.000-08:00

Never did I realize the real beauty of tears up till now

It's so magical

It's almost like leaving a small, yet meaningful part of you behind

Don't you think so?

Tears show that you care

So much, that you want to leave a portion of your memories there

When you part with friends, you cry, because it's so sad to have to leave

It's just... so touching

As a guy, I understand the value of tears

When someone cries for you, never take it for granted

They truly care for you so much

That they are willing to shed tears that signify how important you are

We go through life, meeting and leaving friends

Though you may meet friends, you will not always be with them

Your life may take a path that requires you to be somewhere else

So you have to leave

The important thing to remember is that

You won't be with a friend forever, but your parting won't be forever either

You will meet again :) I promise

When that time comes, you'll be much happier

The more painful and sad it was when parting, the happier you will be when you meet again

So smile!

Be happy! Life is to be happy :) all the time!

Those memories, will forever be locked within us.

The joy and the sadness of parting

The great times spent together achieving miracles

Even if we may not see each other for a long time, I will never forget all the friends that have come into my life

For they are the ones who made my life richer and more meaningful

Those memories I will cherish, forever :)

People often say, emotions are so dangerous, people who lose control will do terrible things

But without emotions, we lose one of the things that makes us human

That's why, emotions are beautiful, aren't they?

Tears, are beautiful, aren't they?

Sometimes I look at my life and think

You know, the best things in my life are really simple

It's just being able to feel powerful emotions

To understand that by using our attitude to produce the proper emotions, we can get through the hardest days in our lives

Right now, I feel so touched, and inspired, after watching how human bonds and relationships can be so beautiful and precious.

It's really true when they say, the most special things can never be seen, they can only be felt.

Such as love.

I also understand that as a leader, I have to understand human emotions well.

Being able to project the proper emotions is so important.

It could even change someone's life.

For me, there's a long long way to go in life, and I can feel great things await me up ahead.

And I'll be sure, to savor every single heartfelt emotion.

That's what makes life special.

Even if we had the brain to think rationally, without emotions we would just be robots.

I think today was a day well spent!

Goodnight everyone :) May everyone have an awesome and wonderful life!

Being Yourself

2011-10-28T09:35:00.000-07:00

Today! Is such a good day for me! XD

I went to watch Real Steel! Awesome movie, totally added to my wonderful day!

Good and touching story, it is a TOTAL must watch! No regrets watching it :)

Also, since I was waiting for the movie to start I wondered into the CD shop and bought SNSD's latest album the Boys! XD

No regrets purchasing it! RM70!? Meh! I love SNSD too much for that to be expensive!

Plus they give lots of photocards and a HUGE poster! Awesome! Love it! It's on my room wall right now XD

I SWEAR it's bigger than the size of my computer table!

The first album I ever bought! I'm so proud! Never thought I'd buy an album! When you really love something you'll do anything to make it happen. I promise!

To be honest, its not always easy sharing your love for your favourite group with other people. I get mixed feedback when I share news and photos of SNSD on my wall.

Some love the eye candy, some are SONEs like me so they don't mind at all, some just get irritated that I post so many stuff.

It kind of bugs me... I wonder why they don't change the settings on my page sometimes. Then they won't get spammed so much. If they from 'subscribed' to 'important only' or 'unsubscribe' then we would all be happy, no? It's strange. People can be really selfish even though I have the right to post stuff on my wall however I want and how MANY I want.

I won't change for anyone, except if I myself want to change. You gotta know your own rights. You have the right to be yourself, even when other people condemn you for being yourself.

So people can judge me all they want, I'm a true blue SONE. (it is pronounced so-one) A SONE is the term used for an SNSD fan. (for those who are wondering) I know that the girls will do a great job and make a global impact.

They are now number 3 on the youtube charts along with worldwide artists such as LMFAO and Justin Bieber.

They are leading the K-wave.

We all have to understand one very important thing. All the things we do in life, not everyone is going to like it. Instead of trying to please everyone, just be yourself.

I realize that among K-pop groups SNSD does have haters. Not that many, but many compared to other K-pop groups. I always wondered why. They are really nice girls, and they never really offended anyone, why all the hate? Why all the 'oh they probably had plastic surgery?' Who cares? Listen, 50 years from now everyone will be getting plastic surgery. Lean in with the damned era man. We're changing.

Listen good, no one is perfect. Everyone has something bad about them. That makes us human. So are the girls.

I for one know that they work so hard. They deserve to be on top. Haters are just jealous. And really... Haters are just HELPING promote SNSD to the world.

Do you see me hating on another K-pop group? No. Because I respect the other k-pop groups for putting in their effort into being successful.

Years from now, you will see the legacy that SNSD has created. They are the chosen group to lead the hallyu wave and bring K-pop to a global scale. And know that I am a fan from now until forever, and if I had known them a few years back I definitely would have been their fan even earlier when they first started.

Someday, girls generation will be known as global generation. They will break records and make history forever.

Do you know how close these girls are?

Think about it, can these girls achieve the success they have achieved today without teamwork?

No! It is clear to me that these girls have done a great job in having tight bonds with one another and.

It is only when a team is in synchronized harmony that real STRONG impact can be made with their actions.

People may think its their looks that makes them popular and so they pin it on plastic surgery. They try to de-grade SNSD.

Let me make it clear that these girls are NOT flower vases.

What really helped them was their attitude and teamwork. They stuck together through thick and thin. From the beginning, 9, until now, still 9.

These girls have a humble and successful winning attitude. Trust me on this. I'm not blinded by their beauty or anything like that. I call it as I see it.

Again, you may think that it's their looks, but trust me, looks alone will get you NOWHERE in this world.

Let me elaborate more.

I used to only like Tiffany among all the 9 girls.

But the more I watched their variety shows. The more I came to understand all the other girls personalities.

The more I fell in love with ALL of them. You know I actually previously never thought that Jessica was pretty or anything like that.

But now, I honestly think she is GORGEOUS. You know why?

Attitude. Personality. That made her gorgeous in my eyes. That is why some people will NEVER comprehend why we are so in love with these girls

Most people just think its their surface that attracted us to them.

Trust me, their personality plays an even MORE important role in making us like them.

Don't ever just judge this girls based on their looks. They have hearts of gold. I vouch for that any day anytime. Have an open mind about them, and you will soon understand what I'm talking about.

Thank you for reading :) I had to clear my head today haha! lately been receiving a lot of comments that im posting too much SNSD stuff. I always have to tell them to change my profile settings to suit their spam needs.

Seriously man, they make a big deal out of nothing. That shows how free people are, to make a huge deal out of something so small.

Think about it, you think that if you had more important matters at hand you'd actually bother to make an issue about something like this?

The minute someone complains about something small like this, it just tells me how free they are and how small minded they are. Well, toodles :) hehe

Surprising... So surprising...

2011-10-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

We're human. We make mistakes all the time.

Other people are human. Other people make mistakes all the time.

That is why it is our duty to learn how to accept our mistakes and apologize.

Did you know? Right now I could still be angry over what happened over 30 minutes ago.

But I'm not. I'm okay now. So quickly.

Even though what happened 30 minutes ago could have shook the very stability of my club.

Apologizing the proper way, is so important.

Most people can't do this.

The other person was right, I'm not the best president. Not yet, at least. I still don't treat everyone equally, even though I am trying.

I still get moody sometimes, even though I am trying not to be.

I still criticize, mostly inside my mind, about others, even though I am trying not to.

Just now I could have just criticized back about my friend's mistakes.

But I didn't. I held my anger in.

I apologized.

I knew that, no one is perfect, and my friend just pointed out to me my mistakes.

It doesn't matter whether the other person made any mistakes.

What matters is that we need to realize our mistakes first, before anyone else's.

If I made mistakes, then who am I to criticize another?

And just like that, the tension and the anger between my side and my friend's side... subsided...

Just one apology, had that affect.

The power....

On the other hand, what if I had lashed back?

What if I criticized my friend in return instead of apologizing?

I believe now I would still be in a heated argument, angry with myself and my friend.

I'm surprised at myself.

I apologized... even though I was ready to lash back... Why did I do that? How did I do that?

I don't know. Does it make me a better individual? If I'm willing to apologize for my mistakes?

Perhaps. It did make me feel better. It did make the tension subside. It probably would even improve future relations.

I'm a strange guy... Sometimes I don't understand myself either.

Still, I know many imperfections lie within me, most of it makes up who I am. That's what humans are, we're creations of powers from above filled with imperfection, and that in itself makes us beautiful, inside.

After all, we can only be ourselves, in the end.

I'm still sorry for all the trouble I caused for my friend.

I'm willing to apologize whenever it is required.

You apologize if you value a friendship and want it restored.

You don't apologize when you want to severe a friendship.

It's as simple as that.

Perhaps I'm really learning the essence of the bulwark of the ages. It is a shield that absorbs hate and returns kindness and love.

It's something very few people on earth possess. In comparison to the twin-edge sword most people hold in their hands.

Yes, it's so surprising.

I'm still really surprised.

I'll learn to be a better friend and a leader. It's a promise.

Good night :)

Update on Life

2011-10-15T07:22:00.000-07:00

Finally! I'm glad. The second event for my club is starting soon.

I'm happy we came this far. Looking back to a time where we had no members.

The hardships taught me a lot. Even now I'm still learning new things as we progress.

Even though there are many things we can improve on, and we are far from perfect. I still appreciate what we've got. And we're really bringing some change to the college.

It's exciting to see people who do not even know how to play ping pong join our event. It's really about participating and just getting experience and living college life to the fullest.

I tried really hard to have a females category going in our ping pong tournament, and it really happened.

Previously, I could easily say that not many girls would participate in a tournament, but now that we actually have the category running, people will start to change their opinion about that.

To those who joined, despite not knowing how to play, hats off to you. It shows you have the guts to do what other people who CAN play but are too afraid to do, which is join the tournament.

I can't thank you enough, to everyone, including participants, and my members, for all the support. We'll definitely make this tournament a success as well, just like last time, no, we'll be even better now.

We're going to really make a name for ourselves. We can do it. Even though many obstacles await, we shall challenge them and move forward.

Within the club I created a culture.

We laugh a lot. A hell lot.

We review books. A hell lot.

We play games. A hell lot.

We have fun. A hell lot.

We have events. A hell lot.

Where there is little laughter, there is little success :)

Someday, I hope that KBU's culture will change too. Everyone will be active. Positive. Happy. That day is yet to come, but I'm building towards it :)

I said this many times since a long time ago. If I can't even change my college, then how can I make a change on a bigger scale?

Even though for now my goal is to get married, my even longer term goal really is to change the world.

When I was younger, it really was my hope to change the world. It's possible, it appeared in my thoughts after all.

Even though that time I was less confident, and less courageous.

I still believed. Today, I still believe it will happen.

Just like how I believed that the female category WILL happen. And it did.

The power of truly believing in something, is really amazing.

I look at my members now and wonder... My, how young they are :)

Sometimes they are easily angered

Sometimes they are so active

Sometimes they are so emotional

Sometimes they surprise me

Sometimes they their potential shines like the light

Sometimes they disappear, and I don't see them for a while

Sometimes they don't realize that a really bright and happy future awaits them

But all the time, I believe in them.

They remind me of myself a few years ago when I first entered college.

I was a real rascal :) Now, I really have toned down a bit.

Still, I must say, my final year in college really couldn't be better :)

It's like... you could say it's a wonderful conclusion for me. Haha!

It's so strange... My circle of friends really change from last year. It's like a 180 degree turn.

Im fine with it though, I don't mind change, I think change is good once in a while :) Change teaches you many things.

hm... I suppose that's pretty much it for today :) no fancy pictures, I just wanted to express myself a little. :)

Great things are to come, and I cannot wait! :D

Gnite :)

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish

2011-10-06T04:34:00.000-07:00

"Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish"

Those were the words of the late Steve Jobs.

Now, I know I'm not in much of a position to comment since I'm personally not an Apple user.

But after reading up about him, I discovered that he is quite a man.

He literally revolutionized and changed the world when it comes to handheld device technology, as well as various other areas.

Before we go on, I would like to share this video of a speech he gave at stanford 6 years ago, at the age of 50

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If you have watched it, then it will be easier to relate to what I am going to say.

This man is a powerful man.

You ask if this man has led a successful life? Yes.

Why? Because he has lived everyday as if it was his last.

He mentioned that knowing that death was nearing caused him to avoid feeling shame, pride and all other negativity in his life, and just make the decisions which made apple so great as it is today.

How many people can do that? Live every day as if it were his last?

If today was your last day, would you do what you would be doing right now?

If it is always no, then the time for change has come.

You can see from his speech that he is a real genius not only at his work, but also in life itself.

He knew that you have to love what you do, and he DID love what he did for a living.

How many of us can say the same?

We all know that we have to find our passion in life, but a lot of us are in fear, just sticking to what feels safe to us.

But not this man. He dropped out of college, and because he dropped out of college, he found what he loved doing.

Because he got fired at the age of 30 from Apple, he started two very successful companies, Pixar and NeXT, and eventually became CEO of Apple again.

Look at this man. Every bad experience that he went through just made him even better.

He even said that those experiences were what made him successful today.

How many of us can say the same? Just look at his exemplary life and tell me you could say the same about yours. The way he handled failure was incredible.

When you die, will people make tributes outside your companies stores? Will they make several Facebook pages just to show how much they care?

Will people weep tears of sorrow and anguish when you leave this world?

For Steve Jobs, the answer is Yes. People care, people weep, because they know the world has lost an invaluable inventor and individual.

This man has become a legend. A revolutionary.

What about you? What about me? Are people going to remember us when we die?

I don't want to die without leaving an impact to the world.

As much love as you give to the world, you receive in return, when you leave.

He has given love to the world through the passion and love for his work.

The whole world feels it,

And the whole world mourns. Come on, I'm not even an Apple user and I feel he's really a great man.

That's how far his influence extends. People can see if you lead a successful life, people aren't all blind.

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The reason I'm strongly affected by this is because I too...

Want to be a powerful man.

My failures are still small compared to what others like Steven Jobs go through.

Being kicked out of your own company has GOTTA be tough!

Yet I'm feeling like a failure already because I couldn't even get a Ping Pong tournament to get started since there wasn't enough participants.

If this great man can achieve so much and bounce back from failures, then I can too.

I can.

Too.

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People are going to remember me when I leave this world.

It's No Joke

2011-10-05T09:46:00.001-07:00

We all know that the road to success is one filled with tons of lessons and hardships

It really isn't a joke at all.

Your emotions run wild. You feel like such a failure. You feel so useless.

It feels like all hope is lost.

Yes. That's what failure feels like.

And honestly, I feel a little like that right now.

Inside us is a wheel.

It constantly rotates.

At one point, you are at the top of the world.

Before you know it, you're back down at the bottom. Feeling a little miserable.

It's hard to go through failure, or to feel like you've failed someone, or even yourself.

Now I look at all those successful people and say..

"What did you guys really go through to get there?"

It must've been tough. But you guys, you guys pulled through.

You guys are amazing.

Can I be like you guys?

I ask that question, even though I know only I can answer it through my actions.

Sometimes you wonder, why do you work so hard?

Sometimes you wonder, why is it that you feel as if there is so much burden to carry?

Sometimes, sometimes... You just bottle up all emotions.

Until one day, you get so mad at yourself you just explode.

Other people around you are caught in the blast and are hurt.

It's really because we couldn't handle ourselves properly that we hurt ourselves as well as others.

It's hard to explain what I'm feeling right now.

To sum it up, I feel I can do a lot better than what I am now

But I don't know how. How? I just want an answer.

No answer comes.

What do I do? Just wait?

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Sometimes, sometimes.. I feel like a hypocrite too.

Honest to god.

I talk so much but do so little.

I still fail to do what I said I would do.

I no longer smile so much.

I no longer laugh so much.

It looks like a balanced life is really key to happiness.

I tend to overindulge in things, it makes you unhappy, you know, when you overindulge in something. Though at the moment you feel it's nice.

My two biggest weaknesses. Not doing what I said I would do.

And getting excited over an idea, and then not following it through to the end.

I hate it so much. Why can't I change?

I don't expect perfection but I do expect a lot more from myself.

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So after all, the person I was really angry with was myself, wasn't it?

Right now, I don't really know what to do.

But in life, there isn't a pause button. Life is always on play.

So what will I do now?

Sleep. That is what I will do.

The body needs rest. Perhaps I am over-thinking.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

That's why we shall start anew :)

Semester Begins

2011-09-26T09:56:00.001-07:00

Ah. It's raining. Great weather to write out my thoughts. Lately much has been going through my head.

Semester just started today, and I'm quite happy, most of my classes start at 1pm

God must want me to enjoy my year 3 :) I'm thankful.

I also know what title I want to do for my final Year 3 project (it's 40 credit points out of 120)

Knowing what you want to do in life is really important. And I'm happy that I have made a decision on what topic to do for it. Not being able to decide would just be terrible, like what many of my friends are facing now.

Also, my game improved, in League of Legends. Overall, more wins than losses. That's great :) I shall continue winning.

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I've also made a decision.

Yes, we all need to make decisions and not hesitate when we do need to make one.

Was watching SNSD's 1st asia tour concert videos.

I was so touched by their performance.

It was their 1st album, so their songs had a more softer melancholy to it back then, it makes your heart feel touched in a way, when they perform.

I said to myself "If I don't ever see these girls live in concert, I will never forgive myself on my deathbed"

Yes. I must see them live. If they come to Singapore, or if they are in Thailand, that's close enough for me.

Next year I start working. I will save up money to travel to see them. Distance isn't a matter for me, these girls are worth the effort and time. Definitely. Without a doubt.

All of their concerts are always full house. Always. Man, if I could be there in the crowd cheering them on... What I'd give for that.

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Oh yes, I am most likely going to choose 3D-modelling and Virtual Reality for my optional subject in year 3.

I heard virtual reality has to do with games, so the choice is obvious :)

I have a wonderful life, I gotta learn to cherish it even more :)

I know one day, I will be wealthy not just in riches, but also at heart.

I know one day, I will be strong not just as a guy, but as a man.

I know one day, I'll get to see SNSD in concert, and I will enjoy it to the fullest to see our 9 angels perform :)

I know one day, I'll get married to the girl of my dreams. Someone I can truly love.

Why do I know? I just know :)

A friend told me I was getting tame. Not so crazy as last time.

True, perhaps I'm maturing quite a bit :) I'm 20 already, after all :D

Sometimes I feel like my life is already all set out for me. Good things come most of the time, and generally everyone is happy around me :)

That's really great, isn't it?

Some people think of me as an inspiration and role model.

I'm actually super pai seh when they say so. I'm flattered to think that this once shy boy (before college) could actually be highly regarded as a good individual to follow.

It's true when they say positive attracts more positive into your life :)

Well anyhow! On to the new semester ^_^! Good luck to everyone, may you live a blessed life.

Thoughts Thoughts

2011-09-24T00:41:00.000-07:00

Surprisingly, many people wondered why I didn't go for the Pangkor trip

They're saying hey! Danny is the life of the party! A trip wouldn't be a trip without him!

I'm flattered :) but I think it's a little over exaggerated haha! Pai seh la!

Sure it'd be fun, but you know what

I didn't actually see a reason to go

Although it is slightly a little expensive, but the main reason is because there isn't a reason to go, at least for me.

Usually, you go on trips with people who you are really close to

But in this case, since I've left the council, even though I may know many of them, I chose not to go since the real point of the trip is so the members, the juniors can bond better with each other. That's the whole point.

I'm not a junior, there really isn't a reason for me to go. And spend rm200+. LOL.

People tell me I am overthinking it. No, I'm not, it's the truth. Why go for a trip if there isn't a reason to go?

Fun? I have fun anywhere I go :) It's all about perspective.

Danny Siah doesn't go where the fun is, the fun goes where Danny Siah is. Period.

You see, if it wasn't a council trip, maybe I would consider more about going.

But it is called, SC Island Trip for a reason!

Yes I know I am a senior member, but hey, it's time for the younger generation to have their fun :)

Man, if they really can't learn to have fun without me I'd SERIOUSLY be disappointed!

Having fun is really important, and you just need to go with the right company.

And look, what does a senior member do anyway? It's such a grey area. I haven't had to do anything ever since becoming a senior. Haha!!!! So what's the point really???

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If people still cannot see my point as to why I didn't go for the trip, then you must rethink it all over an look at it from a wider perspective.

The last SC trip I went for a few months ago, I was still a member. So I did go. It applied to me. But being a 'senior member' feels like you're sort of retired.

Do you go for a company-trip if you're retired from the company?

From what I know the main purpose of such trips is to build bonds so that future projects can be more easily executed because everyone knows one another better.

But then you add in all this.. outside unrelated friends and then... Is it really a company trip anymore?

No, it isn't.

The people who were not in SC who came along with us during the last SC trip would actually feel left out. Unrelated to the cause and the organization which is the council!

So I think that the organizer may have missed the point of organizing a Student Council trip. Everything must be done with a purpose, a reason. Why go for a trip just to have fun? Why not have a more deeper purpose? If you wanna have fun I can introduce more cheaper alternatives, if you JUST wanna have fun. I'm serious.

My family is just making ends meet on our overall household income. So if I can save a little, I think I should.

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And if SC really did organize it JUST to have fun, I would also be seriously disappointed. Everything must have some deeper meaning to it.

Otherwise you're just wasting time. I'm not saying fun isn't important, but fun isn't the only element you have to think about.

Yes, so that's my two cents on the reason why I feel it is a little pointless/inappropriate for me to go for the trip.

I believe strongly of my reasoning powers, and if anyone still doesn't understand, that is still alright.

You may have your own reasoning, and in fact you may be right as well, but it doesn't mean that I am wrong :) hehe

Well, just wanted to get that out in the open. Toodles! :D

Friendship

2011-09-20T12:06:00.001-07:00

Friendship is a very peculiar thing

I can't remember the last time I wrote about it, it must've been a long time. My, time flies. Or was it recently? I can't remember. It's too late at night.

Lately this month I've come to realize

Friendship is something like uno stacko.

At first, when you meet a friend, and friendship begins, it's like the uno stacko game begins.

Each time you hurt a friend, accidentally or intentionally, you take a block out of the uno stacko, and you place it on top.

Again, you hurt someone, again you take a block out and put it on top.

Each time you put it on top, you return the block, and the friendship continues.

Each time, again and again, you keep building it higher, higher and higher

Until one point, when you take out the block, it falls. Apart.

Thinking back. I honestly can say, even though sometimes you look back and see that you really treat your friends so well all the time,

Just one wrong phrase, one mistake could cause it to crash and fall like the uno stacko.

Yes. I can say that I really treat my friends as best as I can. But I also understand that no matter how well I treat the uno stacko, one day it will fall, after all we all make mistakes.

When it falls apart like that, you can either leave it there, or build it up again.

Leaving it there in crumbles means the friendship comes to an end.

Building it up again from scratch means you want to save the friendship. You want to make it stronger. And you're willing to start all over if that means it's what it takes.

You start building, one block after another. Each time being good to your friend. Building, building, building, and crash.

There we go again. And then we start building and building and building. And crash.

But wait. Each time it crashes, we get more blocks. Now we can build it higher.

It crashes again. Now we can build it even higher.

Friendship is a lot like that. Every time you do something wrong, you crash your friendship. But once you restore it, it becomes strengthened. And the process repeats.

Most people view those crashes as a bad thing. In actual fact, it serves to strengthen the friendship only if you know how to see it as a good thing instead of a bad thing.

Most people do their best to avoid those crashes. But hey, if you never fight and never disagree what friendship is there?

I just crashed twice this month, but I will start to build them both up again. Definitely. Failure is never final.

Each of those blocks are precious. I feel that deep down, I have done my best to treat them well as friends. And regardless of whether it is true or not, I shall continue to build. I may not be able to control how others think, but I am able to control me. So I continue to build.

I can stop and think about how bad the crash was. Or I can just build on.

I can look at how many blocks or good deeds I have done. Or I can just build on.

I can leave the blocks crashed and not build them again and just look at it forever. Or I can just build on.

1 bad deed is enough to make you bad , even though you did 100 good deeds previously. That's why it's hard to be good. But that is also why being good is a greater challenge, the tougher part, and the harder road always reaps more experience and teaches so much more about life itself.

In both times I didn't actually mean to be bad. I was just being myself. I never intended to hurt them. But in fact I did. Somehow. Such is friendship. Such a fragile thing.

For now, that is. After a few times, no longer will it be a fragile thing. First, it was plastic blocks. Easily blown by even the winds. Then it became wood, even stronger than before.

Then finally it became steel.

But becoming steel was not enough.

Each time that steel is piled atop one another, it is melded together.

So every good deed stays. in tact. And after a while, it may no longer fall. And even if it does fall, it only continues to become stronger. As long as I am willing to start from scratch.

Funny, how life revolves around itself, how uno stacko can be related to friendship, how food can describe life, how your personality personifies itself through everything you do.

Friends. Even if some of them will only be close to me for a few years, I will make those years as memorable as possible. Then even if I see them many years later, I will smile and reminiscence the old times over a cup of hot coffee with them :)

So, that's the man I want to be. What about yourself?

Do you continue to build?

Grandmother said this...

2011-09-16T10:58:00.000-07:00

OH MY GODDDDD!!

Last Monday (4 days ago) I went out for breakfast with a good friend of mine :)

We talked about lots of stuff

Then we came to the topic on masked riders (nerd topic alert)

I told her, I've always been wanting to watch kamen rider kabuto (I saw the advertisement somewhere)

Take note that my friend studied psychology at help and is currently working... She said OMG KABUTO IS AWESOME!!!!!! (or something along those lines)

So, trusting my friend's one line review of the series

I decided to go home and watch!

OH MY GODDDD!!! I LOVED IT!!!!!!

The first few episodes are the warm up episodes, when it gets to the deeper part of the story... Man there were so many WTF moments I really lost count!

That's one thing about any japanese drama/series

They can somehow come up with the craziest storylines and make you go WTF! This applies for any jap drama (if you have any past experience with jap drama's im sure you know what I'm talking about)

In this series they made the main character, Tendou Souji, simply GODLIKE!

And watching Kabuto makes you hungry cuz.. Tendou is apparently a GODLIKE chef as well (you can see his little sister's expression of deliciousness after each time she eats his cooking)

Also, the AMAZING and UNIQUE thing about this series is the AWESOME...

"Grandmother said this:" quotes! HAHAHAHAHA!

I absolutely loved them!

Tendou kicks a monster's ass? "Grandmother said this..."

Tendou cooks awesome food? "Grandmother said this..."

Tendou makes an unprecedented comeback? "Grandmother said this..."

SERIOUSLY EPIC!!! I LOVED IT SO MUCH!!!!

Also, food is a very huge part of the series, it lightens the mood of the series and makes it more fun to watch :)

And yes, I never get tired of seeing Jyuka (Tendou's lil sis) express how delicious her brother's cooking is EACH AND EVERY FRIGGING TIME! XD

Also, I mentioned earlier that there were quite a number of WTF moments in the series. Yeap, and that's what makes it even better (cuz it's unpredictable and not cliche like power rangers.. lmao)

Tendou's godlike-ness just makes the series even more enjoyable for me. I like it when the main character has this sort of arrogance that compliments his personality and abilities. Tendou is just Tendou :) That arrogant attitude suits him PERFECTLY.

And it suits him because his strength is REAL.

His opening line is as follows:-

"Grandmother said this: Walking the path of heaven, the man who will rule over everything. Tendou, Souji"

Tendou - Path of Heaven
Souji - Ruler of All

LOL!!!!! They really made him a bad ass rider :)

Also, the series forecasts many other riders (of course, Tendou is the best )

But each character has some depth to them and as you go along you'll find out the past of these characters. (Yes, some really WTF moments I tell you.)

I loved the transformation style too. It's only my second Kamen Rider series, and yeah! It's pretty cool! I like the whole "Rider Belt" idea (though it's probably not new)

Nevertheless it still looks awesome :)

The only bad thing I can say about the series is that.. hmm... After the second half of the series it gets a little slow.

But honestly I was breezing through the episodes so fast (i finished all 49 episodes already) that it really didn't affect me.

Still loved it to bits.

Enjoyed all the WTF moments.

Enjoyed all the awesome grandmother quotes

Enjoyed the awesome transformations.

Enjoyed Jyuka's smile :D

Enjoyed the storyline

Enjoyed Tendou's godlike-ness

Enjoyed the FOOD and COOKING!!! :DDDD

This series is like a 9/10 for me! Awesome! Maybe even 9.5!! :DDDD

Realistically, I don't think any series would achieve a 10/10, simply because nothing in this world is perfect :)

But who knows! Maybe there'll be one who would just tickle my fancy :) hehe!

Okay! Thanks for reading! If you did read this far, you are either

a) A kamen rider fan
b) A danny siah fan
c) A ceiling fan (i'm kidding XD)

Or you were just bored! Probably one of the above XD

Anyhow, if you are interested to watch this series of Kamen Rider Kabuto, you can do so at

https://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=207033499319363

All the links are there! (Yes, you can watch the ENTIRE series on facebook without downloading)

Or if you prefer to download, you can get the ENTIRE series on

http://tokuzilla.com/kamen-rider/kamen-rider-kabuto-complete/

Yeap! That's all folks! Hope you enjoyed it!

Hopefully more people can enjoy this awesome series filled with compassion, love, humour, kindness and FOOD! XD

Some people claim it is the best rider series ever (by 2 of my female friends, in fact!)

But is it for you? It's up to you to judge :)

(Note, this is a special episode, the zector bugs don't talk in the real series haha)

Gnite! :D

Bulwark of the Ages

2011-09-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

Heya! I'm going to update about something non-related to girls today :)

Not really like me eh? Haha! Well, there will always be time in the future for such posts, as for now, on to today's post

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A few years back, I was a different guy. I was more immature, I was more rash, I was naive.

I had less control of my emotions.

It's the truth. I was one emotional dude.

Maybe because it was my teenage years. They say the hormones are raging.

On the other hand, I suppose I did do my part to make a change to my attitude, though there's still room for loads of improvement definitely :)

Lately, I realized how sometimes your words could hurt someone, even if it wasn't your intention.

I think everyone has had their fair share of problems like this.

But not everyone would apologize for it, because they feel it wasn't their fault, since they did not intend to hurt the other person.

Also, most people don't apologize because they feel it would make them look weak. Especially guys, they really hate apologizing. In public even more so.

When you take a step back and look at the bigger picture however, you ask yourself..

Is a friendship worth being jeopardized over these kind of misunderstandings?

No, in fact, it's actually a very small thing

but because no one wishes to apologize, and restore the friendship, things eventually go downhill and what could have been a long lasting friendship is gone just like that.

Something so small, became something so big, because no one wants to apologize and make up. Think about that.

It happened to me before. I lost a few friends this way. I learned a very valuable lesson about life. It's important to be brave enough and man enough to initiate the apology. If you don't do it, no one will.

In the end I sit down and ask myself... Was it worth losing a friend over these kind of things?

No. It wasn't worth it. So is it worth apologizing to restore friendships? Yes.

That's why now, I let my ego down and apologize whenever I can. It doesn't matter whose fault is it, a misunderstanding is a misunderstanding.

Blaming one another simply doesn't solve the problem. I've understood this.

Strangely I learn well through experience, but the price of experience is expensive. You lose valuable things along the way. Relationships, friendships. But I will not let it go to waste. All those things I've learned, I will use it properly.

On the plus side, I've learned to treat friends better. Much better than last time.

Even recently I offended a friend, though I didn't mean to. But I believe our friendship is valuable. It's not something worth losing.

It's hard for most people to do this. You need a lot of self esteem, otherwise you won't be able to apologize. People who have low self-confidence have a lot of trouble initiating apologies. High levels of ego is also another cause for not wanting to apologize.

I didn't care about face, friendship is more important. I was never concerned with my self-image or what others would think of me. I will be myself, no matter what happens :) So that's why for me, it is a little easier to apologize.

Your heart needs to become a shield that absorbs all negativity and turn it into positivity. Your heart must become a negative-to-positive energy converter.

That way, even when people tell you off, you will stay calm and not respond irrationally. Losing your temper only makes things worse when it comes to apologies and such.

Make your heart a shield. That shield is known as the bulwark of the ages, made from a wood called 'self-esteem'. It is rock hard, yet at the same time it will absorb the impact of the harsh words from others.

In that way, you will respond to other people's negative attacks with positive energy. Responding with negativity just multiplies it. Remember.

To me, the greatest example of positivity is the ability to respond to negativity with positivity.

So I will do so :) Since I am one of the few who are on the highly positive scale.

Sometimes I fail, but every time I fail I try again, and I become better. It's really the only thing keeping me going. Never giving up.

So far, it seems like I'm on the right track in life, may everyone's lives be filled with joy and happiness :)

And happy mid-autumn festival! Hope you guys have a blast :)

Gnite!

LoL

2011-09-10T09:12:00.000-07:00

Just a quick post

A thought came to my mind just now

I was playing LoL (League of Legends)

It's an improved version of Dota you could say!

Anyhow, I realized that, whether or not you are a good player isn't based on how many wins you have.

It's based on how many losses you have, and how you view those losses.

I notice that most people, really hate losing. And that's pretty normal. I don't exactly like losing too.

At the same time, I realized that we should take a loss more positively.

Simply because losing means that we can still improve ourselves.

It also means that losing is an opportunity to learn about your weaknesses and improve on them.

Yes, losing is a passport to great wins next time.

And most of us really get blinded by our 'number of wins'

When we should really pay attention to our losses.

Why did we lose? How can I improve?

Instead, what most people do is... "That teammate of mine sucked balls, he's a noob, he doesn't listen to orders, he lacks teamwork"

I admit, sometimes I do blame other people in my team as well for losing

But hey. What's the point? I cannot improve my skills in LoL by blaming others, or being angry at them. Even if I am right, so what? It doesn't make me a better player.

I believe a really good LoL player can make teamwork happen, even in a team that has problematic members in it. Take note that as a team, you go down together, or you succeed together. So relatively speaking, your teammates flaws are your flaws, and their strengths are your strengths.

I must learn better to control my focus and emotions. Sometimes you get so caught up in an argument with a teammate that you forget to focus on the game itself. It is a little immature at times. I've been there, believe me. It has caused me many losses before.

Also another thing I notice, there is a 'surrender' option in the game.

I never use that option. Or at least, I stopped using it.

A man finishes what he started. So he does not give up, even if the enemy is really whooping your ass.

A lot of players give up and surrender half way through the game (or sometimes even earlier) because they are losing by a huge gap.

For me, no matter how bad the situation is, I will always vote no when asked to surrender. Never. I'd rather die another 100 times in that game than surrender.

Also, one more bad habit that some LoL players do (me too occasionally) is that we tend to get negative about the whole game.

Yeah... I often hear negative remarks, like "we are going to lose" or... "boring"... or "you feed!" or "enemy is so strong/fat"

I don't really see how it helps to see how you're going to lose, rather than try to see how you're going to win.

Sometimes I do say negative things, like 'gg' or good game, signalling that the game is already over, but now I only make sure to say it only as the game is about to end.

I try not to take things people say to heart as well. Sometimes they say things because they are angry, frustrated. Sometimes they lose again and again and they just want to take out that anger on someone. Don't take it to heart if people criticize you or scold you.

It's just a game after all :) we're in it to have fun, whether we lose or win.

Being able to handle a loss like a man and avoid whining like a girl/sore loser is a very important skill most gamers need.

Just my 2 cents, thanks for reading :) Even if you may not know the game, what I'm mostly talking about in this post is not the game, but your attitude in the game. And it reflects your life, mostly.

Eye Contact : A way to establish dominance

2011-09-09T05:02:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! It's been a long time since I last updated!

Just enjoying the holidays too much! HAHA! It's been a great one :)

I'm still wondering if I should go for a Pangkor trip ending of this month, It's kinda weird cause I've left the council, so I don't really think it's suitable if I go.

Well anyhow! On to today's topic!

Eye contact, everyone knows that eye contact is a very powerful tool in order to leave an impression. This applies in dating, relationships, and all human contact, in fact.

So I will explain how to use eye contact to establish dominance which will aid you in leaving a strong impression as a guy, towards other females.

Also take note that you can establish dominance over other guys with this technique.

This takes practice, so here we go!

1) You need to be in college, shopping malls, or any place with a lot of people
2) As everyone passes by, look at them straight in the eyes
3) Each time you look at someone, DON'T look away. Keep your eyes locked onto theirs
4) Do NOT look away, until the other person looks away (doesn't matter if it's a guy or girl, it's for training)
5) If its a guy, and he asks you what's the matter, just tell him you thought that he looked like your friend

Now, if it's a girl, you will get various different responses.

First response, she looks away before you, this shows that she has a submissive/passive/timid/unconfident character

Second type of response, she smiles, and maintains eye contact for a long period with you (sometimes 10 seconds or more) Usually this kind of girl is confident, they almost always smile and maintain eye contact with you.

Do return a smile if she gives you one :)

Some girls might even say Hi to you! That's awesome! You get to talk to her just by using eye contact, now isn't that just great?

So, all my male friends, use this eye contact exercise to your advantage, and when you have mastered it, you can easily leave a strong confident impression on those you approach.

Also, remember, NEVER break eye contact first, the one who breaks first shows a submissive character. Now you don't want to appear weak do you? Hehe :)

Alright! That's all for today! I did this post especially for one of my loyal fans! Sheng Khang! He reminded me all about this blog haha! Kudos to him!

Have a nice day peeps ^_^
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A Father's Message to His Kids

2011-07-23T10:21:00.000-07:00

Read an article about a dad who new he had only less than a year to live, and he went on to buy birthday presents for his children's 18th and 21st birthday, filmed DVDs, paid for his own funeral and all those other things, before moving on from life.

So here is his message to his kids when they are old enough to read it. He's such a responsible and wonderful dad.

A FATHER'S RULES FOR FINDING FULFILMENT

Be courteous, be punctual, always say please and thank you, and be sure to hold your knife and fork properly. Others take their cue on how to treat you from your manners.

Be kind, considerate and compassionate when others are in trouble, even if you have problems of your own. Others will admire your selflessness and will help you in due course.

Show moral courage. Do what is right, even if that makes you unpopular. I always thought it important to be able to look at myself in the shaving mirror every morning and not feel guilt or remorse. I depart this world with a pretty clear conscience.

Show humility. Stand your ground but pause to reflect on what the other side are saying, and back off when you know you are wrong. Never worry about losing face. That only happens when you are pig-headed.

Learn from your mistakes. You will make plenty so use them as a learning tool. If you keep making the same mistake or run into a problem, you’re doing something wrong.

Avoid disparaging someone to a third party; it is only you who will look bad. If you have a problem with someone, tell them face to face.

Hold fire! If someone crosses you, don’t react immediately. Once you say something it can never be taken back, and most people deserve a second chance.

Have fun. If this involves taking risks, so be it. If you get caught, hold your hands up.

Give to charity and help those who are less fortunate than yourselves: it’s easy and so rewarding.

Always look on the upside! The glass is half full, never half empty. Every adversity has a silver lining if you seek it out.

Make it your instinct always to say ‘yes’. Look for reasons to do something, not reasons to say no. Your friends will cherish you for that.

Be canny: you will get more of what you want if you can give someone more of what they desire. Compromise can be king.

Always accept a party invitation. You may not want to go, but they want you there. Show them courtesy and respect.

Never ever let a friend down. I would bury bodies for my friends, if they asked me to . . . which is why I have chosen them carefully.

Always tip for good service. It shows respect. But never reward poor service. Poor service is insulting.

Always treat those you meet as your social equal, whether they are above or below your station in life. For those above you, show due deference, but don’t be a sycophant.

Always respect age, as age equals wisdom.

Be prepared to put the interests of your sibling first.

Be proud of who you are and where you come from, but open your mind to other cultures and languages. When you begin to travel (as I hope you will), you’ll learn that your place in the world is both vital and insignificant. Don’t get too big for your breeches.

Be ambitious, but not nakedly so. Be prepared to back your assertions with craftsmanship and hard work.

Live every day to its full: do something that makes you smile or laugh, and avoid procrastination.

Give of your best at school. Some teachers forget that pupils need incentives. So if your teacher doesn’t give you one, devise your own.

Always pay the most you can afford. Never skimp on hotels, clothing, shoes, make-up or jewellery. But always look for a deal. You get what you pay for.

Never give up! My two little soldiers have no dad, but you are brave, big-hearted, fit and strong. You are also loved by an immensely kind and supportive team of family and friends. You make your own good fortune, my children, so battle on.

Never feel sorry for yourself, or at least don’t do it for long. Crying doesn’t make things better.

Look after your body and it will look after you.

Learn a language, or at least try. Never engage a person abroad in conversation without first greeting them in their own language; by all means ask if they speak English!

And finally, cherish your mother, and take very good care of her.

I love you both with all my heart.
Daddy x

So What's Next?

2011-07-21T08:57:00.000-07:00

The badminton tournament is finally over.

So much hard work. And it is over. 4 long days.

Today, the finals, what awesome matches. I really had no idea.

I became so inspired. By the match. It was such a high standard match that it really made me feel. Wow.

Our college's very own national player faced off against the male singles champion.

In the end, the male singles champion won.

But the match was so great that I was really... Astounded.

She (the national player) showed some really amazing skills.

What really impresses me is her clever use of mind games and feign shots.

A smash shot turns into a drop shot just in like that! *flicks finger*

Tactics, strategy, planning. Wow. Just wow.

I feel so inspired right now. By her energy and her fighting spirit.

There is definitely the champion's aura from her. I feel it.

Unfortunately she has stopped playing for a month. Design course. You know how it is.

But if she had consistently trained, I think today's match would have ended quite differently.

She told me her training used to consist of waking up in the morning, training until lunch, then sleep for an hour or two, then train till dinner, then after dinner train till sleep. Everyday.

That's the national level for you.

Jia Lin you are one very amazing girl. Never have I met another like yourself. So that is, a national player for you. No wonder she made it so far.

It's a pity she did not continue training, otherwise I think she doesn't even have to study.

So what do I do now?

I am the president of the Rotaract Club. Our first real event in years I would say. This badminton tournament really made some name for our club.

There is progress.

But now I must focus and think of the very next step.

What should I do?

I already have an idea or a picture of what I want to achieve. Time to start taking action to draw it.

Thank you Jia Lin, for you have shown me the way, indirectly, without even noticing it. While the fire burns hot within me, I will do what it takes to make it happen.

Am I tired? What? Jia Lin played such a tough match while I just sat and watch. I shouldn't be complaining about feeling tired.

It isn't just about smashing hard. It isn't just about dropping the shot. It's about timing and precision of those shots. Where it lands. How to catch your enemy off guard, making them think it is a smash but making it a drop shot. Perfection of strokes.

Okay. It's time to move. Time waits for no man.

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Today I was Praised

2011-07-02T12:18:00.000-07:00

Today a friend praised me

It is a little sad that when people praise you, the level of happiness is not the same as the level of hurt or sadness you feel when you are criticized

So because I should learn to be more happy about that praise, I will write about it

I was praised today.

A friend told me that a nice guy like me would not have trouble finding a girl!

And actually! I am quite happy! I just read that message again!

Sometimes I wonder how far along the journey I have come, and how long more there is to go.

The journey to becoming a real man, that is.

So many mistakes. But none of which I have regretted. For they have taught me so much. Without those teachings I would not be what I am today, so I am grateful, not regretful.

That day, last last Friday, in the Rotaract general meeting

I read a note out loud to the whole room. In front of 20 members.

The note was about my goal to get married by the age of 25. To be able to improve myself financially and also in terms of personal development to become a better human being.

Yes. I said it to all my members.

And because I said it I have to do it. Otherwise I would be a liar.

It was actually a little bit embarrassing to read it... It's the note that I would read every night before I sleep! And in the morning after I wake up!

I knew that it had an impact on a few of them in that room. I know that, a few of them understood the power of reinforcing your mind mentally consistently.

Yes. I got my message across. And I was happy.

Now everyone is waiting to see if it would happen.

Would Danny Siah get married by 25?

Would he?

Does his methods work?

Will it come true?

If I believe in it 100% then it would come true

If it doesn't happen it just means I did not do it correctly

So I must keep trying. Persistently. To make sure I get it done right.

To the few who understood my meaning that day. I hope you write down your goals and read them everyday consistently.

It will surely help you achieve what you want out of life. Do not underestimate the subconscious mind. It does things your conscious mind could only dream of.

And so I was praised today.

And I am happy.

What a wonderful thing to have someone have an impression of you that would let them say such nice things about you?

I will do my best in all my undertakings. I hope that I can learn how to love her properly. Despite all hardships and tough times, I'll learn to make things work and last. I'll read lots and lots of books. And I'll make sure I become as good as I can be as a man, in order to increase the odds of getting married at what most people would consider, a young age of 25, in a first relationship.

Odds are slim. But odds are always odds. They don't beat miracles.

So as long as there is a chance that it will come true I will continue to believe. At the back of my mind it will happen.

Every night before I sleep after I have read those goals. I try my best to picture it. Me getting married. Burn the image into my mind. Feel it. Sooner or later. It will come true.

It must. Because somewhere in the future.

It has already happened.

Goodnight =)

p.s. I was praised today

Danny Siah

Student Council and Rotaract

2011-06-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

It seems that the Council has chosen it's path

It chose the path of professionalism

Today I noticed that, that was the way in which the council is headed

I realized that the executive committee holds the highest influence

And in that, the path of KBU's Rotaract club is in my hands as well

It is such a huge contrast to me

Why?

Simply because I am in both clubs

It gave me a different kind of perspective

There are two ways one could go in a club

The path that emphasizes professionalism

Or the path that emphasizes friendship

Now, the answer is subject to the people who are leading the club

Balance between both? What is the 'right' amount of balance between professionalism and friendship?

The fact is that, this balance depends on the people who lead the club

For person A, maybe 80% professionalism and 20% friendship is the 'right' way to go

For person B, maybe 20% professionalism and 80% friendship is the 'right' way to go

Is there really a thing as the 'right' amount?

Who is right and who is wrong?

There are those who are 50 50 as well

Well, to me, getting the 'right' amount of balance is not as important as having a united mindset

If everyone agrees at a certain amount, then the amount does not really matter anymore

What matters is unity.

Everyone having the same goal and same mindset

That has a higher priority than getting the 'right' amount

So if the executive committee feels that 80 20 is the right way to go, then 80 20 it is

As long as everyone has the same mind set, then slowly, but surely, the 'right' amount will come by itself

And it will not be any kind of fixed figure

Only because as a club we are always growing. So eventually we 'grow' into the right amount

Today, an executive committee said a lot of things

To me, what was most important, was not the words he used, but the 'action' of being able to express himself

That carries a lot of weight in itself. The action.

The words are secondary to his actions

The fact that he was brave enough to say all that he has said, is proof enough to me that he cares.

Understanding his actions, has led me to his intentions. He wishes a greater good for the club.

In fact all of us do. Just that all of us have our own ideal way of doing it

But no, if we all cannot come to follow one person's vision, then we will be lost trying to show each other how to do things 'right'

The important thing is to talk with your leader often, understand his vision, the way he or she sees things, and have faith in him or her. Build bonds. Friendship

In that way, eventually. Both Friendship and Professionalism will play its own role and show the way.

Let there be mistakes, for those are what makes us bond and become closer to one another. If we were too professional, our mistakes would show that.

If we were too friendly, our mistakes would show that as well.

I have made my own set of mistakes and it has taught me so much.

So do not falter. Do not fear. Just keep going. Keep staying together.

Persist, for at the start of everything, it is always hard.

But from there we learn. Thus the bonds are built and things will change. Always. For the better.

Unity within the club, then unity with other clubs, then unity, with all

Thank you, for reading a humble man's thoughts =)

Danny Siah

Depths of Perception

2011-06-25T11:27:00.000-07:00

Finally! I started playing Dragon Age 2 =3

Even though it is the holidays I don't play as much games as I thought I would.

The gaming industry has improved so much and is expanding at a fast rate in most of the genres. You see tons of first person shooter games coming out, RPGs and all kinds of cool stuff :3

So pretty much my holiday is made up of planning for a college event, reading, and playing games!

Awesome? Haha! Okay la =3 I just need to change my habit of sleeping late.

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Have you ever wondered about the concept of perception?

Let me give an example

Let's say you are a perfectionist in a world filled with only perfectionists

Then being a perfectionist would be the normal thing

Because everyone in general has perceived it to be normal.

The same goes, if everyone was happy and expressive, then being happy and expressive is normal

However, in our diverse world, being a perfectionist, or being extremely hyper are seen as being a little more than abnormal you could say.

But that's the beauty of it.

However, I realized we should not be too critical of others, because if we are, then they will be critical towards us as well.

Each of us has at least one attribute which is considered abnormal or strange.

So before you talk about someone else being too... crazy... too hyper... too perfectionist, we should look at ourselves and realize.

That's what makes us humans so special. If everyone was a perfectionist in a world of perfectionist then everyone would be sad because nothing is ever perfect

The same goes if everyone was a hyper crazy person in a world of hyper crazy people then everyone would not get anything done and just want to have fun

So understand that it is our diversity in human personalities that are supposed to compliment one another and make this world a better place

So please, do not judge others for the way they act. We need to accept it as part of being human. I just understood this, 20 minutes ago after seeing my friend's comment about me needing to 'tone' down

I realized that it does hurt a little, when people tell you 'you should not be like this' or 'you should not do that'. I think we should all just learn to accept one another.

It made me open my eyes too. I always judged perfectionists very harshly. I did not understand why they cannot just loosen up and don't take things so seriously.

But that is wrong. I should accept and understand them. Just like how I want people to accept and understand me.

Sometimes you sit down and realize... It is really easy to hurt someone without realizing it. Even though it is not your intention. I think we just have to be more perceptive about others, how they feel, and learn to see things from their point of view.

Also I would like to say that, sometimes I can be a self-centered kind of person. I enjoy the spotlight and the attention I receive. It's the truth. I won't lie about it. I'm just that kind of person.

At the same time, I also realize that I can accept criticism fairly well. Most of the time I would not feel hurt by people's remarks. Except this time it did hurt a little. But a little sting is good if it makes you realize things about the world.

Sometimes I can be really expressive, and type in HUGE CAPITAL LETTERS. That's just me. Full of energy when it counts. And usually with friends I am comfortable with I can spread a contagious kind of energy that gets everyone hyped up and crazy.

Strange how it happens. But I just enjoy seeing others laugh =) So I am grateful to have this ability.

And lastly I must also understand that, most of the time, people don't intend to hurt you with what they say. They just didn't realize it. So you shouldn't take it too personally, or too seriously. Otherwise you will be easily hurt most of the time.

That is why I am working on my self-esteem all the time. It is my shield. So that I will be able to stand up for what I believe in and not be gunned down too easily by people's remarks. If I am easily swayed by what people say then I can never be a good leader.

So that is why. I build a strong wall of self esteem.

It is different from a defensive wall.

The wall of self esteem makes use of the important ingredients. The first of those ingredients is love.

There are 9 more ingredients. But I understand that without love as the foundation, the wall of self-esteem will never be strong, even with the other 9 ingredients.

So that is why I learn to love. Now and forever. For me and everyone else.

I feel much better now! Men are always better at expressing themselves by writing things down instead of expressing themselves verbally.

Thanks, I feel like I can be more forgiving and accepting of people now.

It just seems like any bad experience that happens to me, I always can make something good out of it. I don't know why.

Must be my optimistic nature =)

Well have a good night folks! Thanks for reading ^_^

Environmental Chaos

2011-06-16T11:03:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been thinking

The environment around you surely affects you in one way or another

I've realized that given a situation to a person, say, myself, I would definitely act differently given the different environment and atmosphere

And I would say it applies to all human beings

It affects us even so when we are in our growing up stage

I still ponder about, what kind of environments generate the desired outcome

From my observations, some environments make things feel really competitive.

Some environments make you feel like you have to portray yourself excessively without even noticing it

Some environments feel very relaxed and very accepting

And even some, make people feel tense and they feel like even anything you could possibly say would sound wrong

And I really think that in order to grow the right way, we need to be in a positive atmosphere where everyone accepts one another

Without it, it would affect our mental growth

That started to make me think

What is the environment that I am mostly in?

I would say I am usually either in college or at home

In college, I usually hang out with the SC peeps

I don't usually see my Rotaract peeps often

Only once every two weeks or so

That explains why, I am more prone to be closer to SC peeps

In the house, nowadays I usually watch SNSD

haha... I am so addicted to them

But they are really talented girls and I always smile when I watch them

Only problem is sometimes they have haters, so yeah.

Other than that they brighten my day. So generally at home I have a pretty positive environment

And I am happy for that

Without a constant positive environment, we tend to stray from living the right principles in life

Even someone like myself often gets challenged by environment even when I have pretty sturdy morals and principles about life

It kind of makes you think, hey, maybe if I can control the environment I am in, then the outcome would also be in my control.

Yes. I need to be in control and merge with environment

Only by understanding the atmosphere, can I push it to the way I wish for it to be. Positive.

I hope to find a book about this. Then I can learn a lot more.

However, since I have yet to find something about this, I shall have to make my own observations and proceed from there.

A long time ago I learned about air pressure. Well, it seems that air is always exerting pressure onto our body

And from within our body, air is also pressing outwards

Which explains why, in outer space, our body will explode because the air inside of us pushes outwards due to the absence of air.

The key is balance. Without a balance all things will be destroyed. Our body, minds and soul and even this world requires balance.

And I think that if the environmental influence / aura is too strong, it pushes inwards onto our body

Which, in turn, in order to balance this, our internal thoughts / aura is suppressed.

On the other hand, if our internal body environment and thoughts are stronger, it will push outwards, and environmental influence will be suppressed, resulting in us being able to express ourselves easier

and be one with nature

However this is only my assumption. Things still need to be tested. I will hope to experiment for myself what happens when I strongly express my thoughts, to change the environment to make it within my control

There have been many times I have been unable to control the environment which I am in, resulting in me not being able to be myself, I feel like I am holding everything in. Not good.

So that is why I would like to learn, how to set the environment and atmosphere

I understand that this is very important and relates closely to human psychology.

I also feel that this has a lot to do with controlling your presence

With some method, you can actually suppress your presence, or even amplify it.

Probably with internal energy.

Your internal energy communicates with the external energy which is the environment

You have to feel it to understand it. I do not think that it is so easy to be explained in words

Learning how to control these... variables will aid greatly in putting situations under your control

and avoiding environmental chaos.

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Lately I tried a few experiments

The first one was that I made an event

To go out. I made it happen within 24 hours

I did it by expressing my views very strongly

And I did it with extra vigor and force.

I said we are definitely going to go. I did not doubt it

And we went.

The force was so overwhelmingly strong that others started to plan events as well

However, as of now, most of those events do not seem to be happening

At that moment, I controlled the environment

I made it such that having an 'event' was the in thing

I brought the momentum onto the table

It resonated and it made other people feel it, that momentum.

It drove them to create their events. It wasn't really the words I used, but the expression of those words, do you understand what I am trying to say?

However, when I stopped talking about it, after the event was over, the other events started to fall. They don't have that momentum anymore. It stopped. I was the cause of the momentum. And when it stopped, so did the other events

Only one event other than the one that I made is going to work out. Also partially because I encouraged it aahahaha.

That is one method of environment control.

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The other experiment

I expressed my views extremely strongly

Though it is not the most professional method to use, I did it nonetheless

Because I knew that the risks are low. I believe in them and in myself

I expressed my views about a certain topic which, was actually quite sensitive

And actually, most people would not object

But I made it into a big deal. And now everyone is concerned about it

This is important, because people did not realize that this topic is ACTUALLY that important to talk about.

That topic can cause a very huge misunderstanding and a lot of problems

So I did it. I became the fire-starter once more

The difference is because I am the fire-starter I have some control of where the results will be going

I can choose when to concede

I can choose when to push forward

I can choose when to stop

I can choose how deeply we need to discuss this matter

It is another method of environmental control which I am trying to experiment with.

And because there is so many layers of the organization, I can actually observe the different reactions and different views

It makes me feel in control of the situation

Even though it is risky

But look, I got nothing to lose. Except maybe some face? That's the most. But to me, a little face is worth losing, if I can learn how to control the environment.

Every interaction that I have gives me some experience and it makes me smarter, at least a little bit.

I feel like there is still more to learn about this, and I will continue experimenting

Until then, stay tuned :3

Goodnight, world =)

p.s. It seems the fire-starter methodology suits my aggressive nature very well ^_^

Expectations

2011-06-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

There are so many times where things feel so tough and it feels so hard

The burden of responsibility is never easy

And because I have high expectations of myself, the feeling of not reaching those expectations just brings my heard down a lot

There have been times, especially lately, where I really feel that I am incapable of becoming a good leader

I just really wish so much that I could do a better job

But it also feels like I can't

It just feels like... You know... A leader should be this and that and this and that

And I don't know what to do

It's like... There are people who I really thought had potential, but they really disappointed me cause they didn't show up

If it was once, I would not mind, but it is a few times

It feels like they don't really care, and they don't even tell me that they are not coming

It hurts even more then

Am I such a terrible leader?

I don't want to criticize anyone

So I don't know what to do

But it feels like I should talk to them

Whenever this happens I lose confidence

HOW! TELL ME HOW!

Or am I just afraid of confronting them? Just letting it be?

No, it won't solve anything. If I don't face it then I won't ever become better than what I am now

So if I really want things to work out, I have to talk to them

Certain Things

2011-06-04T06:56:00.000-07:00

I'm back from penang! Actually got back 2 days ago

It was a pretty cool trip! Had loads of fun and ate like crazy. Haha... I think I'll blog about it when I get all the pics =) Haha!

Man Im 75kgs now. So fat. I gained weight after penang. Like 3kgs XD

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Rave is this Friday, I may be the emcee once more. That's both good and bad. Bad because I really wanted to give this chance to some of the newer people to try emcee-ing since my time in the council is almost over =)

Good, because I suppose it would be fun. I don't know what else I would do at Rave other than emcee. That's why if I were to choose, I'd rather be really good at one thing, than be a jack of all traits. Cause people look for quality, and you will be sought after if you are particularly good in one thing.

Lately I've thought that my life, is now a bit messy, I could get organized. I really want to actually. But so many things go on at once, I get confused. A lot.

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Lately I've also been trying my best to talk to myself. To tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will lead a good life and be the man I want to be.

It's a simple process, but it takes discipline and commitment to do it. So in a way it is easy, in a way it is hard.

The smallest things that are done with consistency become a habit. And we must have good habits in order to lead a successful and happy life.

Today, like every other day, is a good day. Although right now I'm not at the peak of the day, there are times where I do feel inspired.

I feel like I could write a book. I feel so vigorous. I feel so filled with energy. But other times, I feel that energy drained. Perhaps I should stop sleeping so late.

What I know is not only mine, but it belongs to everyone. If I don't have the courage and bravery to share what I know with everyone, then what is the point?

Selfishness and everything else negative only brings more negatives into your life. So we shall not go there and practice it.

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I was watching some music videos just now. It made me can't wait to be in a relationship. It must be nice.

I wonder what my girl would be like. It still remains a mystery. And in a way, I like it just like that, and in another way, I feel like I want the mystery to be over.

So the only thing I can do is to tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will get married. That I will have a wonderful and beautiful life with her, whoever she may be. And someday, it will definitely come true.

And the other thing I can do is to continually improve myself. To make sure that I am good enough to be in a relationship. I can't be immature if I really want a successful relationship. Now though, I still got loads to work on, as sometimes I do feel I am childish and unreasonable.

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A man cries when he feels that he is really useless and cannot provide for his family. I know how it feels, at least a little bit. He cries when he feels incapable of being a man. It is a terrible feeling. To know that you are still not acting like how a man should.

I also wish to learn how to achieve peace with one's self. How to meditate. How to be relaxed. How to breathe. All these will enhance your life.

I know. So I shall one day make it a point to read up on these things and learn how to achieve peace. For sometimes I feel I am not calm, and make wrong decisions.

Sometimes also, I feel myself being influenced by negatives. It should not be that way. I should be the one to spread positivity. Not the other way around.

That is because my mind is not clear, it is easily swayed. So unless I start to have a clear mind, I will not be able to think clearly and properly. It all starts from within. External factors should have little affect on you if inside, you are firm and strong.

Mastery of the human mind is such a delicate art. I could not understand it fully. But as the years go by I will understand it more and more and finally achieve mastery in it.

With that, more and more things I will be able to attract to myself, all of which are good. And with that, I will be reborn with new life within me. I await that day.

Patiently.

Growth

2011-05-24T09:26:00.000-07:00

I realized something about myself.

That time when I was younger in secondary school, I was a quiet boy.

And it was in college where I really became the noisy sanguine I am now.

It's just really unexpected. From a quiet boy to a noisy boy who is crazy and loud.

But, I also realize now, that my other trait has not fully revealed itself yet.

I'm actually very stubborn. And I can be really unreasonable at times.

But it doesn't show when I'm in college. The same way my noisiness and talkativeness did not show when I was in high school.

I also realize that, I really lack that stubbornness and firmness that is required to be a good leader.

I do have it, but I only show it at home. At college, I tend to give in and be too lenient. Why? It shouldn't be that way.

I don't wish to instill fear into anybody. I don't want people to say "I'm scared of Danny Siah, so I'll do what he says"

I want people to say "Out of respect I shall do what Danny Siah told me to do"

But I don't know. Things just get really confusing when too many things are going on at once. And it is hard for me to organize myself. God I hate it when I'm like that.

Everything is just so messy... I wish I could have a clean white board and start over. Argh.

But life has no reset button. We know this. No re-runs no retries. There is a game over though.

Sometimes I really wonder if what I'm doing is right. Then again there isn't really any right or wrong.

I just want my mind to be clear and know where I'm headed. But it's... so messy right now.

They say you have to be patient. Ya know? And I may be too hasty sometimes. But I know all too well, that in order to plan things well you can't be hasty. The waiting just kills me.

But if you want things to go well you have to slowly plan stuff out. A tree takes hundreds of years to grow into something strong and sturdy.

At the very start, it is only a newborn sprout, weak, no foundation, and easily crumbled.

And you cannot quicken this growth into adulthood for the sprout. It will take hundreds of years. No short cut.

And the same goes with any organization. I feel like... it really will take years before an organization can fully become strong.

So it made me start to wonder. Maybe all this excess energy is pointless? Maybe I should just focus... On making the most of this time period, to enjoy ourselves? Instead of just PUSHING the growth all the way. Because it WILL take a long time. To become a fully sturdy organization.

It can't be done within a year. But what can be done, is that I can make sure everyone enjoys their time. While it lasts. And lately I'm starting to think not everyone is really enjoying themselves.

What am I doing? It's so hard. I'm just so worried. I don't ever really know if I get enough sleep nowadays. Maybe I should just try to be happy? And not worry so much?

Maybe I do try too hard. Maybe I should just.... yeah... have fun with all of them.

So. I wonder if. Things will be okay in the end. It'll be okay. I'm actually not doing so bad. Just that maybe my focus is off right now.

Okay okay let me just do this and I'll be fine

*(#$*@)#*)!@*#)(@)(!#*)(!%*!@#$*)()(#!)$*)(!*%(*!&$*&!*$&!@#&*(&*#&@*#)*!@)$(*)(!*$)(*)#$*)@(#!)(*)(*@#(*$(*@*#_(*!)$!)#@*$)(!@*#()*)#*)#)*@#)(*!@#!*@#)*!@)#*!)($*!@)#*)!$*&#$*(#@!&$*&@*$(&#@*$&)*#(&$@#&$(*@&$(*&$*(&(*&(&$($&(*$&(*@&#($*&!)*($&@)($&!)($!&*$!*#&~!!!!!

Okay much better now. Haha XD Keep things simple silly! =)

Ive still so much to learn. And it's time to get learning.

Nitez peeps =)

One Dating Tip a Guy Needs to Know

2011-05-21T09:47:00.000-07:00

Heya! So I felt like making another post today. Kinda weird huh but that's me. The god of weirdness and perviness so don't be surprised mah friend =)

WELL!

You must have come here wondering WHAT kind of dating tip Danny Siah wants to give this time?! Haha... Don't take me too seriously. I'm just having fun doing what I do.

Why so serious right? Like the joker says man, like the joker says =3

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This dating tip actually, I learned from a woman. She explained it to me. So this is not from me, but someone else.

And to be honest I would not have thought of it if she did not tell me about it. So kudos to her! And whoever she is, doesn't really matter. What really matters is what you are about to learn.

According to her... This is what she said.

"The best dating tip I can give a guy, is that a guy needs to make the girl feel like he is the best thing that could ever happen to her."

Read that line again. Digest it. Memorize it. Live by it.

To further elaborate, what she meant was, you gotta make that girl feel like no one can replace you. That you are the best. That no one is capable of even coming CLOSE to you. You ARE the best thing that could ever happen to her.

Based on my own observations, I realize a lot of guys really downplay their value. They degrade their own self worth for women. By doing everything for them, being their play-toy and just being their slave.

That is a HUGE no no. You become normal. You become like every other guy who has served her. That's right. You become expandable.

Now, you don't want that at all. You gotta understand your own worth here. Realize that you are special. No one can replace you. You are one of a kind. The best that you can be. And no other guy can come close to your greatness.

Realize what's good about yourself, and magnify it. Concentrate on your good points. Basically everyone can do this, if you know how to play your cards right. Having a good understanding about your good and bad points is vital. To doing this right.

Personally, I do know what's good about myself, and what's bad as well. The trick is to portray what's really good about yourself, to the point where she will be willing to accept you even with your weaknesses.

Once she realizes that you really are one of a kind, and you are the best thing that could EVER happen to her, chances are she won't let you off so easily. And that's what you are aiming for =3

It's like, playing it out in such a way where, you are the one who holds the bargaining chip. She is the one to lose out if she does not see your value. She is the one who will regret her entire life if she lets a guy like you go.

Realize your self worth. It's so important. Without this, you will definitely have a hard time getting girls. And you will end up being played out by girls if you do not realize your own value.

Once you understand this concept, you will start to have a more self-fulfilled life. You'll be happier. Your self-esteem will be better and your confidence automatically rises.

It's all a matter of perspective. Re-program your mind to think in a different way, and you WILL produce different results.

So yea! Don't think too much about it. Don't over think it. It's a really simple concept. Just learn from it, implement it, and I'll see you guys next time =)

Tata~! =D
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Lately...

2011-05-21T04:09:00.000-07:00

Lately I am a little confused about my life.

And lately I get angry a little too easily. I wonder what's wrong?

It's totally not like me at all. Maybe I'm recovering from my sleep debt?

Hmm.. I really wanna start climbing again. But my finger still in the process of healing. It's in much better condition than 2 months ago, but I think give it 2 more it'll heal fully. Or so I hope.

I just feel like I'm holding way too much responsibilities sometimes. It can be a little tiring. Who knew huh? But Just a little longer. Things will be alright soon enough. I just gotta believe.

Ahhhh... Sometimes, secretly I just wanna run away.

To a place where there is no worries. Just for... A little while.

I just wish I could do that. But I can't because reality isn't so comforting.

I used to think, hey.... At least I'll get a break.

But nah, truth be told, it never does get any easier the older you get.

I might think that my life now at 20 is hard, but when I'm 23 or 25 I'm sure things are a lot harder.

The hardest part is you don't really know if it will pay off at all or not. There's no real way to tell. The only thing you can do is take action and pray everything works out.

So I am here. Just minding my own stuff. I wonder if things will be okay? Yeah, they will be. Just give me time. I'll make it somehow. I always do.

Cuz I'm Danny Siah.

Before the Dating Game

2011-05-20T10:53:00.000-07:00

HEYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~!!!

To be honest it DOES NOT really feel like a holiday. Strange huh?

Yeah, I'm busy mostly doing club activities and stuff like that. It's pretty fun.

The only difference between last time and now is I get to introduce my own concept to running a club.

It honestly feels really good. It's just a lil tiring to hold posts in two clubs. So yeah! I gotta finish what I started eh? No going back hahaha!

Anyhow, since I'm back, it is time to begin blogging once again =)
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When you think of it, many of us have this very common mistake when we go into the dating game.

That's really because BEFORE we even go into dating, there is one VERY important step that most of us TEND to neglect.

What is that you ask?

Well, we tend to forget to ask ourselves WHAT we really want out of dating?

Is it a one night stand/hook up?

Is it a long or short term relationship?

Do you just wanna play around with different partners?

Or are you looking for more than that? Are you looking for marriage?

You see, it is SO important to KNOW what you want before you GO and get what you want.

It's like not knowing what you want to buy from the supermarket and yet you go to the supermarket anyway. Kind of stupid isn't it?

But most people DO go to the supermarket anyway. And they just pick up what they THINK they need. (And you wonder why break ups are so common)

Honestly though we should just sit down and ask ourselves, what do we really want out of the dating game?

If you can't even answer that question, truth be told you shouldn't EVEN be dating. Or else you'll just wind up in circles, or making more mistakes than you really need to.

With a clear goal in mind, your results will be different. It applies not only to dating, but really all aspects of our lives. Constantly remind yourself why you are dating. Is it a really good reason?

Cause if it isn't chances are your results are also going to really suck.

Simply because you don't have a good reason to hold on to.

Not everyone would agree with me, everyone has their own opinion, so I'll not hold you to it if you disagree with what I said.

So remember, it is the FIRST thing you should do. Get a clear reason. A clear goal. A clear direction. It'll help get you better results in the dating game. Just by doing this.

If you know what you want, getting what you want becomes a hell lot easier. And if you are able to clearly explain your intentions to your partner, it will enhance the relationship a great deal.

It definitely is not easy to talk to your partner about WHERE the relationship is going, but it is a very vital point that you do talk about it and make sure that you and your partner are on the same page.

Otherwise a lot of conflicts will emerge as the relationship goes on. Because both of you have a different picture (or no picture) about where the relationship should be going.

I cannot stress how important this is. Not talking about it or avoiding this will have more often than not, bad effects on the relationship.

I definitely know what I want. And I'm not afraid to tell others about it or even talk about it.

What about you? Would you be able to bravely express yourself? Not many have the courage to do so.

Don't take society too seriously. Most people just usually want something to comment on so when they find the slightest out-of-the-ordinary thing they'll go all hoo-haa over it.

Just be yourself, find out what you want out of the dating game, and you'll find it'll be easier to make progress since you know which path you wish to take =)

Good luck, all the best, and good night folks =3333
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Assignment Bonanza

2011-04-28T08:05:00.000-07:00

My my my....

Passed up 2 assignments yesterday

A demonstration next tuesday

A code challenge assignment hand in on wednesday

Another demonstration and report to hand in on friday

and the following tuesday and friday, each day demo and assignment

WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKK!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!??!?!!?!?

And the FOLLOWING tuesday and wednesday are my two final papers

OH MAN.

What a busy busy schedule. You guys have no idea how dead I will be by the end of this whole thing.

So let me tell you what just happened.

Yesterday I had to pass up TWO assignments (hurrah that's 2 down 3 to go b*tches)

Okay, so here is the deal.

The first assignment, I started two weeks ago, but it wasn't until last saturday that I seriously started DOING it (hurrah I'm the world's best procrastinator)

By tuesday (which was 2 days ago)

That assignment. I did up till 70 marks out of 100.

I had to build an aircraft online reservation system.

So there was a marking scheme, and I did all the functionalities up until 70 marks could be obtained.

However, it was Tuesday. I had not done the Graphical User Interface (GUI) (So that users can click on buttons to book stuff, instead of typing things in the console window. Just imagine if you had to type stuff for your atm machine for everything other than password and digits. Yeah, that's why they have GUIs. So people just click buttons to get things done.)

The GUI was worth 10 marks, and I had to pass it up the next morning (yesterday morning)

So the thing is. I spent the ENTIRE tuesday just sitting down trying to create the GUI. I started at 10am.

And it was.... Not such a pleasant experience. I was trying and trying to get it to work. It couldn't compile. The code was not working.

So here was my dilemma. I had the OTHER assignment (remember I said I passed up 2 assignments)

Which I have NOT started the report. (It's a report on the documentation of mercurial Hg WORTH a WHOPPING 40% which I have not started )

So I had to decide. It was 8pm. My GUI was not working.

I had to decide. Do I continue doing the GUI. Or do I do the other assignment?

Do I leave the first assignment at 70 marks out of 100, and start doing the other assignment?

Or do I continue trying to get the GUI to work, and risk not being able to finish the other assignment which was worth 40%?

I had to make a decision.

If you were me what would you have done?

And there's really no real correct answer here. Ya know.

So what did I do? Make a guess.

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I FREAKING TOLD MYSELF 70 OUT OF 100 IS FREAKING NOT GOOD ENOUGH HOW CAN I ALLOW MYSELF TO SETTLE FOR SECOND BEST?!?!?!?!?! I DESERVE A FUCKING 100 OUT OF 100 DAMMIT AND I WONT SLEEP UNTIL I DO THE FUCKING GUI!!! YOU GOT THAT?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!!!?

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Sorry I get a little... Emotional when it's my time of the year (because it's the assignment time of the year)

So, I KEPT on doing it, persistently. I just sat there. It kept failing and failing AND failing. I felt so. Discouraged. I felt like giving up.

I even said to myself. "Maybe this can't be done. Maybe there's no way to get it to work".

If I had listened to myself then, and abandoned that assignment, I would not have achieved what I had achieved the following day.

It was around 9pm, I was frustrated so I started to walk around the house. I always do that when I'm thinking about something. Of course my mom just thinks I'm crazy when I'm doing that because I look like a walking bullet train trying to ram an entire city to death do us part.

I sat down again. Then I thought "what if... THIS thing here, THIS portion of the code, was the problem? I might have closed the socket of the server, so that's why the client is unable to send messages to the server and request for booking"

I made the changes. I deleted that part and put it in another section, so that the closing of the sockets only occur when the user CLOSES the GUI.

AND YES OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK HELL YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS IT FUCKING WORKEDDDDDDD~!!!!!!! IT MANAGED TO WRITE DATA TO THE SERVER~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I INCREASED MY POINTS TO 80 out of 100!! IM CLOSER TO MY TARGET!!!!!!!!!

OH HELLL YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!

So then after I did the GUI.. I stopped. I said.

Oh shit. It's 1am. Fuck. I haven't started on my other assignment.

So I said "oh boy, no sleep for me tonight"

So yeah! I started doing the report on the documentation on the mercurial hg which was my other assignment.

I did it until 4.30am. Then I said...

Oh shit... The other assignment is still only at 80 out of 100. I NEED MORE MARKS DAMMIT.

In order to get the other 20 out of 100 marks, I needed to add additional features to the GUI.

I started thinking.. Hey, maybe the user wants to see their history when the next time they login

So I created a button, called HISTORY where when the user clicks it, it will open ANOTHER GUI frame which shows ALL the history of the user's previous activities during their last login to the server.

And I made it so that the server was RECORDING all user activities for each user and storing it in text files.

Also, I made the GUI have a FLIGHT INFO button, so that users can open a list of dates of flights to book.

I finished at 8am.

I waited for my bro, and we went to college.

I entered class. I wasn't walking straight. It was 22 hours of looking at the computer screen. (okay so I did watch 3 or 4 episodes of the big bang theory but hey everyone needs to laugh a little everyday)

I sat down. I copied my program into one of the lab computers.

It wasn't WORKING. DAMMIT.

It was not able to open the project file. It seems that the software in the lab was of an older version hence it could not read the file.

OH SHITTTT~!

But all hope was not lost. I decided to open it, and then. Manually transfer the code, by copying and pasting it into a new project of the old version of that software.

One after another file. Copy, paste, compile. To make sure it works.

After a long while....

I clicked "Execute Project"

The screen came up. I thought SHIT. No GUI screen is appearing. My friends were like teasing me, saying that "hohoho it might not work it might not appear"

And at that point, I was wondering if their curse had really worked. There was no time for me to modify the code anymore at that point.

And then I realized, I only opened the server file. I haven't opened the client file which was where the GUI was. LOL!!!!!!!!

Hahaha, I must've been too tired.

Anyhow, I opened the client file. Logged- in.

Then I waited. No GUI.

..... this can't be happening......

THEN VOILA!!!! THE GUI FRAME APPEARED!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

OMG IT WORKS! I TESTED THE BUTTONS IT WAS WORKING! FULLY FUNCTIONAL WITHOUT PROBLEMS!!!!!!

I RECEIVED A FUCKING 98 OUT oF 100 FOR THAT AWESOMELY EPIC PROGRAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH HALLELUJAH!!!!!! IT'S LIKE THE WORLD IS FILLED WITH WONDERFUL FLOWER FIELDS IN WHICH I AM RUNNING THROUGH THEM LIKE A LITTLE INNOCENT HORNY BOY!!!!! =)))))

OH YEAHHHHH BABY I PAWN THEM ALL!!! THE SECOND HIGHEST WAS 82 OUT OF 100!!!!!! BWAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

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Sorry I get a little emotional when I get too attached to my projects. Hey I spent a lot of time on that baby. I didn't sleep.

Then I was showered with praise.

I felt so happy. Some were sincere praises, some were maybe enviable praises, some might have been jealous. But it doesn't really matter.

What really matters is , I did the best I could and I stuck with my decision. I made a difference. I learned to persevere once again when it felt like there was no way to get that GUI to work.

It made me feel that, on the road to success, there are a few points where you will really feel like giving up. It's a test. To see if you are worthy of taking the road of success. If you choose to give up, then you will slowly start to divert toward the road of failure.

And this has proven to me again, that not giving up, and persevering, is a very important aspect of life. To those who give up easily. You do not know what is waiting for you at the end of the road of success.

That satisfaction. Those praises you get from your friends and perhaps colleagues.

People were telling me "danny, you made a GUI in ONE day?"

"wow, you really did a GUI? It's damn hard you know."

"no one else did the GUI, only you did it. Wow"

"I feel like killing you now danny" (I guess he wasn't so happy with my accomplishment deep down)

"Danny, you are so smart"

To which I replied, No lah, I'm just normal only

Then she said to me, "Just take the compliment la, when people tell you a compliment you say thanks."

So I did thank her. Although I did it quite softly (was hoping she wouldn't hear it)

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So if I had, just given up half way, I wouldn't have achieved that. And it matters, very much to me. It's like the world teaches me good things. Not to give up. Be good to others. Make others laugh. Make others happy.

I don't know.

I was born for a reason. Day by day I start to see the affects of my existence to others.

Maybe I was born smart. I don't know. But I do know this.

I was born to entertain.

I'm an entertainer. I was made that way. To bring smiles to people's faces.

And their smiles bring a HUGE smile to my face.

Being good in my degree is only an added bonus to that.

And it's allright if you don't take my word for it, I understand my level of capability deep down. I have still a lot to improve on. (especially time management)

I went home. Did some stuff.

Went to sleep at 10.35pm. So I was awake for about 37 hours.

BUT FUCK HELL YEA IT WAS FUCKING WORTH IT!!!!!!!

I paid 37 hours to increase my marks from 70 out of 100 to 98 out of 100

Was it worth it?

HELL YEAH IT WAS WORTH ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!! I HAVE NO FRIGGING REGRETS DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There is a price to pay for success. I paid my dues. In terms of time.

But let me tell you this. The price of success, may be expensive.

However, the price of being a failure your ENTIRE life, is WAY more expensive and heavier than the price of success.

So will you pay the price of failure.

Or will you pay the price of success.

Choose. Make a decision.

If you say yes to either of those question, it is no normal yes.

That yes, will determine WHAT the rest of your life will be like.

Everyone will say yes to the price of success and no to the price of failure.

But how many will actually mean their words and do what they say? Actions speak a lot louder than words. The fact is anyone can say anything except if you cannot speak.

IF I had believed that I only deserved 70 out of 100, my marks would have BEEN that much.

But my mindset is different.

You want to know the difference between me and the rest of my classmates? (no disrespect to them, they are all great people)

The only difference is I believed I could do it.

Whereas the others, didn't.

I knew I could do it. I deserved better. I don't deserve anything less than what I believe I can do.

And because I made the decision. I PAID the price.

They didn't have to pay the price, because they made the decision that 70 OUT OF 100 WAS THEIR PRICE. IT WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM. (most of them actually got 76 out of 100 cuz they implemented one additional function at least)

So that's what 85% of the class got as their marks.

It isn't really smartness. That paved the way to that 98 out of 100. Trust me when I say this.

It was persistence. It was belief. It was because I saw in my mind, that I could achieve it. It's not about smartness, I'll say it again.

They thought I achieved it because of smartness. But if I did not pay my 37 hours I would not have achieved it.

Trust me. There are alot of smart people who don't accomplish anything because they do not believe in themselves. They believe they are only worth so much. So they accomplish that much.

I am persistent. I sit and stare at codes all day long. Trust me, ask my classmates.

And I don't get tired. I don't give up.

If I had to choose between having an attitude for life, and smartness

I would choose attitude, definitely. Smartness does not determine where you get in life. Attitude does.

That's why I don't like to talk about my smartness. I never really had before. Very scarcely even on this blog.

I don't want people to just see me for that. I want people to know that I am a persistent person who does not give up. I don't want people to label me for my success just based on my smartness.

I know a lot of people who are WAY smarter than me. The only way for me to beat them is to have a greater attitude than those smart people.

So that is why. I don't talk about it much. I don't really enjoy talking about it. And it's really hard for me to accept it when people say I am smart. Why can't they say I am persistent? Why can't they say I am able to genggam bara api sampai jadi arang? I would be a lot more proud of myself if they could see that in me.

But apparently they haven't. All they see is smartness. When will they ever recognize me for my true worth?

I will pay the price of success, because I do not want to live my life as a failure. And it is my responsibility to make sure I succeed. For me, and for everyone else. How else can I make others laugh if I can't even take care of my own life right?

And I won't this will be a very great life. I will go around making people laugh all the time.

And even when I am down, I will get up again even stronger than ever. Then I'll make others laugh even harder than ever. Every pitfall is an opportunity, not a curse.

I will become and inspiration to everyone who wants to succeed.

I want everyone to say, I want to be just like that guy, who never gave up, who does WHAT IT TAKES to get the job down without excuses.

I pay the price. Will you pay the price for your success?

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Wow , that was longer than usual. I guess I haven't blogged for a while that's why. The war isn't over for me yet. I still got loads of assignments. As long as I presevere, I will do better. I will make a change. I will become a great 1st class honours student.

And because of that my mom will stop nagging me once and for all. (haha)

My adult life, is nearing. Once I leave college, it's the next level. And having a 1st class is a good head start, though it is not the main deciding factor in determining my life's success.

I will do it. For my sake, and everyone else.

Good night ladies and gentlemen. Thank you for reading yet another long Danny Siah post. (Really, thank you if you really read all the way until here it means the world to me if I ever find out who you are I will thank you profusely for doing me the honor.)

P.S. After yesterday's events I had a cooldown period today by watching 23 episodes of the big bang theory and playing resident evil 5 destroying that huge zombie asswipe by blasting my machine gun at his balls. Stress reliever much? Whole day, wasted? Nah, I won't get a break for a long time at the rate my schedule is going, so today was my last day off (in a longggggggggg time)

Ciaoz peeps! I dont know when but I'll SEE YA NEXT TIMEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! =DDDDD

Me? My Personality?

2011-04-20T04:24:00.000-07:00

HEYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

Let me tell you, it's been a CRAZYYYYY week~!

They just had an April orientation for my college last monday, it was pretty great!

We got some new enthusiastic and FUN PEOPLE! in college!

ahahahah! I enjoyed my college life even more the past week.

Although assignments are SLAUGHTERING ME but let us not talk about that XD

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You know what? Today, in the lab, I was actually... Erm.. Class haven't started yet that time

I was watching youtube videos in the lab

and I was actually watching this swimsuit modelling contest( OMFG THE CHICKS THERE ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT)

On youtube, and, um, out of the blue, behind me... "WHAT ARE YOU WATCHING?"

IT WAS MR ARNAND OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! ROFL!! XDDDD

THE WHOLE CLASS STARTED LAUGHING AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! SO DAMN FUNNY LAR!! ROFL!! HE WAS WATCHING ME WATCH SEXY CHICKS ON YOUTUBE OKAY!!!

After class, went out for lunch, came back to college, wanted to do work , but the lab was being used.

SO! I instead went to the student service department.

AND THAT WAS IT LAR. LOL.

I STARTED PLAYING PING PONG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!

MAN! WE LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY LA!! HAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAHA!!! IT WAS LIKE!! I SERVE THE BALL!! AND IT WENT BOUNCING ON THE TABLE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

AND LOADS OF OTHER FUNNY SHIT! EVEN THE PEOPLE WATCHING US WERE LAUGHING!!

hahahahahahahahahaha!! total fun after a day of work! XD

Made some new friends today! I think her name was julie... ermh... YEA! and the guy was... leon. Mm.. They remember me! From orientation ahahahaha!

Cuz on orientation last monday, when vicky gave me the mike I went "IM SO HORNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!"

HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

TOTAL AWESOME FUN!!

So anyhow! Even they started laughing when we were playing ping pong XD Was playing with the new intake guys, they are so AWESOME and FUN! bwahahaha!

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I realized this, my personality is ACTUALLY pretty easy to get along with. Catch my drift?

I have a very ... easy going and likeable personality~! I just realized that!

CUZ EVERYWHERE I GO I JUST TEND TO MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH JUST BY THE WAY I LOOK! ROFL!!! HAHAHAHHAHA!!

AND PEOPLE ACTUALLY LAUGH AND WE BECOME FRIENDS AND THE WHOLE WORLD IS SAVED AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! XDDDDDD

HAHAHAHAHA!

And I also realized that a very huge reason is because of my laugh!

just now around 5.30pm, I was talking to my new friends in the canteen and ANOTHER friend of mine from the floor above SAID SHE COULD HEAR ME!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

ROFL! AHHHHH~!! LIFE IS GREATTTTTT~!! =DDDDD

So in life, we should

fall in love

forgive

laugh with all your heart

remember the good times

love your family

love your friends

have fun

be y0urself

be happy

live everyday like it was your last

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Now, it is kind of weird, but in my experience, falling in love is a really great process. It's actually good for health when you are in love. The brain releases certain hormones that make you feel like you are in cloud nine.

You could say it's a drug? haha! A natural one =)

Don't worry so much about falling outta love. If I had to do it all over again I still would have gone back and fallen in love with the same girls that I did fall in love with throughout the course of my 20 years on this earth.

Its umh... A really good experience, and remember that nothing comes for free in this world, if you want to fall in love you must be prepared to fall out of it as well. And trust me 90% of the time it happens =)

So yes, and I know that I have learnt a great deal from all those experiences. Ya know? So no regrets, forgive quickly, and move on, life's too short to be crying over spilt milk ya know?

THERE ARE SO MANY WONDERFUL THINGS ABOUT LIFE!! AND THE NUMBER ONE REASON ITS SO WONDERFUL IS BECAUSE WE HAVE THE FREEDOM TO DO WHAT WE WANTTTTT~!!! =D

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You know that, I actually, discovered that because of my gift of laughter, I've been able to make others laugh too? Yes, I made others laugh their hearts out! And honestly it's the best kind of pleasure I could ever get. More than watching porn.

I'm happy. Thank you for granting me this treasure, I shall use it to make EVERYONE I MEET LAUGH! =D It's so great.

And I want each and everyone of you to know. That all of you have gifts. Gifts that were specially made for you. Something that makes you stand out and different from one another. That gift makes you special and unique.

Never take it for granted. It is the best thing that could ever happen to you. And to me, each and everyone of you who are reading this right now, deep down I know you are someone beautiful and you have a great gift. It doesn't matter what others say about you or your gift. You gotta LIVE your gift.

People often complain I'm too loud when I laugh. So yes, I apologize to them, but I still believe that my gift is used for the reason of making others laugh. It doesnt waiver my determination =)

When someday, you understand your own gift, and use it to make other people's life wonderful, then maybe you'll understand what I mean =)

It's so wonderful. All of us are so blessed. In ways we couldn't imagine. If everyone saw how beautiful they really are on the inside, and started to love themselves, and start to gain confidence about themselves, then the world, will be a very peaceful place!

So I shall end here for today, it was so great. Today feels like a very blessed day. Thank you. For reading. You never know how much it means to me =)

And to those whose lives cross paths with me, I am sorry if I was not able to make you laugh with my gift, and you are welcome if I DID make you laugh =D

May our paths cross again reader =)

My Gift

2011-04-14T08:42:00.000-07:00

It's been a roller coaster ride of a week, and I was pretty busy, either with assignments or other things.

This week I realized something quite important. And I just had to blog it out, despite not having much time. Otherwise I might forget this important thing.

I realized, that I'm quite different from a lot of people. I don't know if it's a good thing, but I'm definitely different in more than one way.

I realized, that I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO loud. SO SO SO SO SO SO SOOOO LOUD!! Very loud. Loud. VERY VERY loud.

I think you get my point =)

So loud, sometimes, that I might annoy people, so loud, that sometimes I might disturb people, or cause others to dislike me.

But it is also that loudness and craziness that is one of my gifts from above. I am able to put smiles on people's faces just by laughing out loud! It's crazy! I don't know how I do it either, but I do!

It's... Really special... And I just realized this lately. I always thought that I was too loud also. But I didn't realize, that it had that kind of purpose.

The energy that I generate from laughing is so contagious that eventually people around me start LAUGHING! And... I'm really happy when I can do that.

I started to understand my true calling in life.

I am born to entertain. That's Danny Siah. The great entertainer. The greatest one that may have ever lived.

Though I still got lots to learn =)

I'm happy to have lived so much already. Though there is a lot more of life to 'live'. I believe that. And with each passing day, I do feel as though, more and more of what I could be, is appearing. Slowly, but surely.

We are all on a journey to find ourselves. To find our true calling and definite purpose of being on this earth.

Most of the time we are confused about what we are doing here. But I start to understand, a small piece of my own puzzle. In a few years... I would collected even more pieces of my puzzle

And it will form that image. That picture.

An amazing and wonderful picture. Of my life.

The process of life is truly and amazing thing. Thank you for this great gift you have given me, whoever you are who created me =) I will put it to good use to bring smiles to everybody's faces.

Goodnight folks have a wonderful night =)

5 Questions that Will Determine My Next 5 Years of Life

2011-04-07T05:49:00.000-07:00

I solemnly swear upon the next 5 things:

5 Questions that will determine my next 5 years of Life:

1)What do you want to achieve by the age of 25?
I will get married by the age of 25

2) What is the price you will pay to achieve this?
I will make a commitment, to be in an honest, truthful and sincere relationship with the girl I love.

3) When do you want to get married?
The date of my marriage will be 30th June 2016

4) What is your plan to achieve this goal?
I hereby declare that, regardless of what people might think or say, I am serious about my desire to get married by the age of 25 on 30th June 2016. I will make a commitment, to be in an honest, truthful and sincere relationship with the girl I love. I will, get a good secure job. Read more books on relationships, as well as money and self-development. While on a job, look for money through passive income, businesses and investments. Make time to meet potential candidates to be my wife. Become a good listener. The amount of money that will be allocated for my marriage, and honeymoon, would be RM150,000. This amount is to be procured by 1st January 2016.

5) Will you read this, twice a day, once in the morning, and once in the night before resting, out loud?
Yes. I will read this statement out loud. In my room. Even if my brother sleeps next to me and I will have to say this out loud. Even if my mom is cooking in the kitchen next to my room I will say this out loud. I will read this, twice a day, until I achieve this.

And so I read this out loud.

Danny Siah's Personal Creed.

I Dreamt About Her.......?

2011-04-06T20:23:00.000-07:00

OH man.... I just woke up over an hour ago.

I had this very weird dream.... I was... somewhere.. It was night. The buildings were old. It was like a very empty china town.

I can't remember what happened prior to that.

Suddenly the girl next to me broke down

Girl : You never loved me!

Me : No, it's not true! I've... missed you all this while. Everyday... But I'm okay now...

I hugged her. For a long time...

I felt a huge burden off my heart.

That girl... It's her... Why??? Why??? Why????

Ah, it's just a dream. I probably shouldn't think too much about it.

I must've probably been too tired. After all, the past 3 days were quite tiring.

Still though, it's rare.. to remember your dreams. It felt real, it felt like I was really saying those words out loud. Did I? I will never know.

The worst part is... It isn't the first time... To dream about that girl. Fuckkkkk. Why won't these dreams just leave me alone?

Though the other time she was in bed and I was ... touching her ass. And she was on my PARENTS bed.

I don't know about you, but I just think that's freaking creepy and F-ed up!!

FUCK MAN. Why the hell are my dreams so weird???????? I HATE IT!!!

Man I'm ranting like an emotional bitch.

Have you ever had such dreams?

I just find it ... So strange and real and unreal at the same time. I just don't get it. Why couldn't I dream about something or someone else? AND WHY DO I HAVE TO REMEMBER IT?!?!?!

Does anyone knows about dreams? What is the weirdest dream you ever had that you remember?

Maybe I should look it up. They say dreams, have certain meanings. I don't know if it's true.

You ever had that dream where you walked off the cliff? And you really felt like you were gonna fall and woke up?

Yea! I had it too. When I woke up, it felt like gravity was pushing me back down to bed again (thankfully!)

And my leg was really in midair (walking off a cliff position)

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I looked this up on wikipedia

"Dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. The content and purpose of dreams are not yet understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history. The scientific study of dreams is known as oneirology."

"The definition of dream used in quantitative research is defined through four base components: 1) a form of thinking that occurs under minimal brain direction, external stimuli are blocked, and the part of the brain that recognizes self shuts down; 2) a form of experience that we believed we experience through our senses; 3) something memorable; 4) have some interpretation of experience by self. In summary, a dream, as defined by Bill Domhoff and Adam Schneider, is "a report of a memory of a cognitive experience that happens under the kinds of conditions that are most frequently produced in a state called 'sleep.' "

Hmm.. There are more stuff they wrote on dreams. But perhaps I'll read up more on that when I get home. I gotta go, got stuff to do at college =D

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I might not be able to update tomorrow. Going out for international night. So maybe my next post will be on saturday =D Stay tuned =)

2 Steps to Get Over a Break Up

2011-04-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD! Today was pretty Incredible!

I met two AWESOME new friends! Well, you see, I was asked to do some modeling for international night this friday... and the thing is..

~~THE DAMN COSTUME IS SO REVEALING!!!!~~

It's a Murud outfit.. Malaysian native costume. WTH MAN! YOU CAN SEE MY ENTIRE THIGH FROM THE SIDE VIEW!!!

WTF WTF WTF WTF!!! LOL! *tries not to think about friday* XD

Anyhow! I was walking down the alleyway today next to the comp lab, then I saw two familiar faces! They were 2 girls who were also modeling in the 'fashion show'

AND BOY DID WE GET IT OFF!!! I had a great time with those two! ( it ain't what you think pervs )

We started saying Hi to EVERYONE that walked passed by. IT WAS SOOOOO FUN!!! AHAHAHAHAH!!!! SUPER awesome people to hang out with man XDDD So glad I met them! Man I can be SUCH a Sanguine hahahaha! Haven't hung out with such fun awesome crazy people in such a LONGGGGGG time!!! XD

SO JUST SO YOU KNOW YOU TWO ARE FRIGGING AWESOMEEEEEE!! I HOPE YOU READ THISSSSSS~!!!!! =DDDDD

And I was stressing over my assignments (I mention my assignments like EVERY single post now? aha )

Bwahahaha! I'm so happy! This blog managed to reach 100 views in a day yesterday!!! =DDDD AWESOME! I never had such good ratings in a single day before! =D I'm SO glad! Haha! Thank you to all who visit my site! It's a real pleasure writing =))))

Maybe I should go post up my blog somewhere... on networked blogs or something. But I'll have a lot of views, but most of them would be strangers. Hrm. I'll think about that next time =)

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I'm lovin' this girl right here... Mm mm... =333

Most guys I know actually have trouble getting over their break ups. The thing about break ups is..

about 60-80% of the time, it is initiated by the girl, not the guy. (girl dumps guy)

Usually because girls are better at detecting when a relationship is way past gone.

There are exceptions, but definitely, more than half are initiated by girls. Remember, I'm talking about relationships, not flings.

Guys don't always get off so easy, especially if they are still in love with their girl. (Players are an exception)

The process usually goes, you meet a girl, you start to spend a lot of time with her, you feel a surge, a flow of positive emotions within you, and you. Fall. In. Love.

This girl is special. This girl is one of a kind. No other girl has made me feel this way.

You feel like the happiest person on earth. You feel like you can achieve ANYTHING together that comes your way.

Nothing can stop you. That is the euphoric emotion, and beginning stages of falling in love.

Due to this addictive and incredible feeling, breaking up could really just make you fall apart.

Easily. I've had a guy friend who told me personally that he could not eat for a month after his girl broke up with him. Poor guy. But I'm sure the girl was doing what she felt she had no choice but to do.

No one is really right or wrong here, it just happens that it couldn't be.

So the question really is, how DO you get over a break up?

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1) There is an ABUNDANCE of HOT women

Give me a sec while I look this data up....

There are 6,911,287,052 people in the WORLD right now.

(taken from http://opr.princeton.edu/popclock/)

That's right, 6.91 BILLION people in the WORLD.

More than half of them are women! (You do know that there are more girls than guys on the planet right?)

Meaning that more there are more than 3.45 BILLION women on earth!

Let's say that 10% of them are hot in YOUR eyes, that leaves you with 345MILLION hot chicks to OGLE at.

lets say out of that, 5% are women with personality that YOU are attracted to.

Which gives you.... *counts in head*

17,250,000 possible candidates for you to date and marry.

I don't know about you, but if you meet just 100 out of these 17,250,000 WOMEN, chances are you'll fall in love =)

(And I REALLY did count in my head, just so you know, mental maths ftw. I learnt abacus when I was young =D )

So LIGHTEN UP! There are SO many HOT women out there for you, there is no reason to say that there is no girl better than the girl whom broke up with you. You just never know, really!

And I didn't even count the girls who have very attractive personalities, but are sadly not gifted with an equally good look to boot.

But hey, personality way overshadows looks man. In. Every. Way.

Get over your break up by EMBRACING this fact! It's a fact! I ain't lying here. The only thing you can do is move on. Or forever stay where you are, never knowing if there really is someone else out there for you who COULD love you back. Your choice bro.

2) Dig Deep

Remember that time? Yes, that time. That time, you were a capable, self-sustaining and attractive man. Do you remember?

You got women attracted to you. Do you remember? Even if you don't, it's there inside you. He's just not awake at the moment.

Before this relationship, that's how you were

Dig deep, and remember that man! Where are you? Where is the real you? The real you hasn't appeared for so long.

The real you is the most amazing you. And no other you can beat that. Not the sad you. Not the heartbroken you. Not the you who is unable to be honest with yourself.

Connect with yourself

And now, you must take. Action.

See that cute girl over there? GO talk to her!

Who knows. She might be the next 'perfect' girl for you!

What if she's even MORE perfect than the previous girl?

THINK ABOUT THE POSSIBILITIES!

Once you understand the abundance mindset, and once you dig deep and take action towards becoming the real you, you'll find that, life is good once again =)

You'll see life through rose-colored glasses.

And remember that EVERY relationship you go through enriches yourself with experience. So take it as a learning curve for yourself. And I promise you'll do better and become an even MORE attractive person next time round =)

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I hope you enjoyed this bit! Till Next Time Folks!

And oh, go get em CHICKS! =D

p.s. It's my third day with 4 hours sleep. I.Feel.So.Dead XD But t'was fun today =D

Why Women are Great Talkers

2011-04-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

Heya PEEPS! It's another great day~! Hm, had class, then after that went for lunch at cafe de one.

lol. You. Know. What.

I ALWAYS GET SERVED LAST!!!!!! THROUGHOUT THE LUNCH COURSE!!

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Let's just say a very fei mao had something to do with it =3

HEY! Guess what. After practice, had a chat with a few buddies, and I got home, had dinner, opened facebook. ANDDDDD, I received a message from a girl by the name of Phoebe Tay!

She came across my blog here and linked it to hers! HOW COOL IS THAT!!! I linked her at the side so DO check out her blog! >>>>>>>

Also, if ANYONE wants me to link them to my blog, just let me know! =D And I'll have it done in a jiffy~! =) I believe in the win-win spirit! After all we are just helping to promote each other! What's the harm in that ? XD

AWESOME-ness!! I just feel that some people like phoebe are just so friendly!

The best thing is, we don't KNOW each other! XD Man, I sure am getting all psyched over this XD

So anyhow! you can FOLLOW me too! with this link =D So do subscribe and let your friends know if you think reading this blog would help them! =D

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So let's see now.... Previously we talked about what women want from men. And it was for men to listen to them talk and let it all out of their system.

Now the profound thing here is...

As a guy, we can NEVER understand how women are able to talk so much.

It's not really a bad thing, it's just that guys don't talk as much. Why is this so? What makes them good or rather, great at talking?

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The reason is that women's left and right hemisphere are BETTER connected than men.

Imagine a human brain. The thing that links the left and right hemisphere is known as the corpus callosum

And it is more profound and has a much stronger connectivity in women than in men.

Think of it this way, men have a dial-up connection between their left and right brain, while women have a FIBRE OPTIC connection.

This is because the female hormone, oestrogen, is the reason for women developing a better structured and stronger corpus callosum than men. So you could say, women, by way of their hormone, are made for speech =)

The more fluent flow of information in women also brings out one of women's inborn talent.

MUTLI-TASKING

Incase you haven't noticed, majority of women are particularly good at MUTLI-TASKING. They are so good, that they can actually listen and talk to each other at the SAME TIME.

Remember in the previous post, where I mentioned that guys can EITHER listen OR talk? We can't do both.

But women can. Brain scans of women show that while they are talking to each other, the listening areas of the brain are also functioning. Most guys would fail if they had to do both.

I can NEVER do work in class, and listen to my lecturer speaking at the same time. It is extremely hard for me to do both. But women have a better chance of doing it. Both.

Also, women are able to talk about SEVERAL subjects, all at once, in a single sentence, and keep up with the information that is being passed to one another, about different subjects.

Which explains why women can talk non-stop and sometimes men simply get lost in a group of women chatting. (If you ever sat in a group of 4 women or more, and you are the only guy you'll get what I mean XD)

After a while, I usually go like... What are we talking about? Haha!

I agree with the pic, just so you know =3

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So, why else is this connectivity between the two brains important?

The speech and linguistic areas of the brain is located in the frontal area of the left and right brain in women.

In men, the area of the brain for speech and language is in mainly in the left hemisphere, and it has no specific area and is lesser than in women.

Due to this, men take more time to process information out into speech form, explaining why men tend to use 'ah, uh... er...' and pause more often than women.

Also if you realize, most linguistic and language teachers are WOMEN.

While most teachers in maths, physics and science are MEN.

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I have also personally realized this myself. I started to pay closer attention when guys and girls speak.

Yesterday, I was watching 'So You Think You Can Dance', the AWESOMELY FANTABULOUS dance show =3

And I realized the male judges were using a lot of pauses, uhhhh, ahhhhs, errrr... when speaking and giving comments to the contestants

On the other hand, the women judges who spoke, are more fluent and fluid in their speaking, using more words, and they don't really pause a lot, and they don't use all those uhhhh, ahhhs, etc.

It pays, to pay attention =3

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Now let us understand, the differences between men and women when it comes to speech.

MEN, when they watch football. YOU CAN SURE AS HELL BET THEY ARE WATCHING FOOTBALL.

WOMEN, when they watch TV, YOU CAN SURE AS HELL BET THEY ARE ALSO TALKING ABOUT THE BOYS, GIRLS, SKY, EARTH, SUN, MOON, SEA, BOYS, LOVE, FAMILY, PERSONAL STUFF, POOL, PARTY, CELEBS, CLOTHES, SHOES, HAIR, FASHION, STYLE, MODELS, TV SHOWS, THE LATEST GOSSIP, PEOPLE, COLLEGE, DRAMAS, STORIES, and the list goes on and on =3

I am by no means saying that it's bad to talk while watching TV. Just that men and women are different.

Girls, when they get together to watch TV or sleepover, it's really just a reason for some pillow talks and all the juicy awesome gossips. Women are just wired that way, it's not wrong, it's just the way they are.

Guys... Well, when they are watching football, the only time they REALLY start a conversation is WHEN THE CROWD GOES WILD AND GOAAALLLLLLLLLL~!

Yea. Or they just say pass the chips.

Yeah. Men are. Men =D

So understand this, when men talk, it is to talk about facts.

When women talk, it is to build relationships and trust, and make friends.

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Another noticeable thing is that, guys only really call another guy to if there is a REASON to call.

Like, to give or ask for information, talk about business, or something important.

On the other hand, girls can go out together shopping, and when they come back, they call each other and can continue talking for another few hours

Men relay facts, while women bond through the phone.

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Another funny thing I would like to point out.

Whenever my mom speaks to me I never really give very good or complete replies.

My replies sound like... "Ya, mm, ok, yes. allright. ok la. mmmmm. yes la"

LOL! It just goes to show that we aren't very speechy people are we guys? Or maybe it's just me aha!

So usually moms find it easier to get a real conversation out of their daughters instead of their sons.

It's just my guess but it's probably true XD

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So the question is, why are men unable to multi-task?

In olden cavemen days when men were hunters, speech was not part of their job prescription.

Their job was to hunt for food. And they do so in silence, as to not alert the prey. Often times they would wait patiently, alone, for their prey to appear before they launch their attack.

They come back, and gaze silently into the fire, thinking about the next catch.

That's how men are. After a long day of work what most men want is to gaze into the fire. Silently.

We were built this way.

When we are faced with problems, we need to think it over in SILENCE.

However, when women sees a man who is silent, she thinks he has nothing to do or is bored, so she tries to talk to him.

Sometimes, the man reacts badly when interrupted. Remember, he can't multitask.

One thing at a time. That's men =)

The same goes with me personally. When I am faced with problems in my programming, I like to think about it in silence. Wondering why and how. To resolve it.

Once a men is done thinking, then only does he show signs of animation. Otherwise he is thinking in his head.

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On the other hand, this may sound familiar to most people... Women think out loud!

Since their brain is wired for speech, they tend to TALK about their problems.

When a woman has a list of things to do, she voices them out in no particular order.

When a man has things to do, he says "leave it to me" and he's gone.

Haha! However, because of this, once women talk to men about their problems, men tend to think that women are giving them problems to solve.

Cuz that's what men are. Problem solvers.

Women on the other hand, are talkers.

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So here is the CATCH!

If you find that a woman talks to you a lot, take it as a good sign

Women generally use words as a method to bond with each other, and if she talks to you a lot, it shows that she has positive intentions to get closer to you

So if they like you, they talk to you. A lot.

On the other hand, if they DON'T talk to you. It's bad. I'm sure this scene is familiar

Girl : Hey do you want to drop by the petrol station for some coffee?

Guy : No, I'm fine.

*after 5 minutes of silence*

Guy : Err... Honey, did I do something wrong?

Girls : You jerk!

Guy : What did I do?

Girl : I told you to stop!

Guy : *bewildered* Well why didn't you say so?!!?

Hahahaha!

Women are indirect, and if they are SILENT, something... is generally wrong.

So if a woman tells you she doesn't EVER wanna talk to you again, take it as a VERY serious issue.

Yeap! So that's pretty much it for today!

It's interesting how different men and women are, and there are actually scientifically proven explanations, which MAKES IT EVEN MORE INTERESTING! XD

Hope you found it enjoyable, and I hope you could share it to your friends who you think would find this information useful and would help them with their relationships and daily life. Who knows! It really could benefit someone

And remember to follow this blog! =D

Thanks, and have a good night!

p.s. My assignments are waiting... what a "GOOD" night I'm gonna have XD

What Women Want from Men =3

2011-04-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

HEYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~!

It's me, dan the man and Imma BACK~! =D

Man, I sure post stuff out pretty frequently nowadays for a blog. MUST BE A PHASE! Oh well! Enjoy it while this phase lasts peeps! I usually only update 2-3 times a week actually.

And I'm actually up to my neck with assignments, but still, I can manage =)

Had erm... 3-4 hours of sleep yesterday XD MAN I SO NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP! ARGH... Look at all these wrinkles.... *sob*

OKAY that was weird.

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Hm! Now I believe, here is a VERY interesting question.

WHAT do women want from men?

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOOH! The list is ENDLESS.

As the saying goes, "women only want one thing, EVERYTHING"

BWAHAHAHA! I'm serious.

But now now, let us not get carried away.

Although there is some truth in that statement, there really is a few basic things that women want from men.

And really, it is up to you whether or not, as a guy, to provide it.

I'm not here to make your choices, or anyone's choices for that matter.

I'm here to educate men about women. What you do with that knowledge is entirely up to you. I am only here to share.

Why? Because by sharing everyone learns more. Win-win situations are by FAR my all time favorites =3

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Before we go into the juicy details, there is one thing, that I would like to bring up.

WOMEN. LOVE. TO TALK.

Read that again and say amennnnn~!

Bwahahaha!

It's really, the truth =)

Studies have shown that women averagely talk more than men.

Women use about 5000-8000 words a day

2000-3000 vocal sounds to communicate and 7000-9000 body gestures

totaling to 18,000-20,000 communication words that women use on a DAILY basis

Men in comparison use 2000-3000 words, 1000-2000 vocal sounds, 2000-3000 body language gestures.

Totaling.... 7,000?

I mean like... seriously..... 7 THOUSAND??!?!? Thats like 1/3 of women's 20 THOUSAND!!!!

WTH MAN SERIOUSLY?!?!? HAHAHAHA!

Usually, once a man returns back from work, he has finished his quota of 7,000 words, and does not really have any desire to continue talking.

WOMEN, on the other hand, may not have finished her quota, depending on what she has done all day. If she has stayed home all day, and has not met many people, it probably MEANS that her 20K quota has not been achieved yet.

WHICH means, they're gonna talk to you at the dinner table =3

Girl : Hey darling... It's good to see you back. How was your day like?

Guy : Good.

Girl : So did you settle the deal with that business partner you were talking about?

Guy : Yeap.

Girl : Any word from your parents? How are they doing?

Guy : Fine.

Girl : We definitely haven't seen them in a while huh? Maybe we should go back home one of the days?

Guy : Yeah...

And SO ON!

This usually ends up in the guy feeling interrogated, so instead he asks HER a question.

Guy : So how was your day?

Girl : OH! It was so great. I was in the grocery store shopping and GUESS who I ran into? That's right! Our aunt Becky! It's been SO long since I last saw her! Did you hear? She is moving to Bahamas soon! And of all places! Also, the weather forecaster mentioned something about a sunny day, so I decided to wear my blue tank top! You know- the one I bought that day - when we were on holiday over in the states? Anyway, over at my best friend's office they said there was a strike on how the staff are underpaid and.... bla bla bla

She tells him EVERY single detail about her day. When the man, just wants some peace and quiet. This is because she wants to finish her quota of unused words.

The man is a hunter, and he is not used to so much talk after a long day of work.

However, due to this, women tend to feel ignored and unloved after a while.

NOW here is the CATCH.

Women, as you know, LOVE to talk. And that is all they really want to do. TALK.

However, guys, see it as girls asking them to SOLVE their problems.

The man, trying to help, continually interrupts her.

Girl : And I nearly slipped and fell today! it was slippery and I was wearing high hells and it broke and -

Guy : I told you not to wear those heels! They are definitely uncomfortable and you might really slip and fall someday! It's dangerous! Wear trainers, they are safer!

*he thinks, problem solved!*

*she thinks, why doesn't he just listen?*

Girl : And when I got back to the car, the tyre was flat! It was so fru-

Guy : (interrupts) You should get it checked everytime you fill up at the garage! That way you won't ever have to go experience flat tyres again

*he thinks, that's another problem solved, phew!*

*she thinks, why is he always interrupting me instead of listening???*

*he thinks, do I have to solve EVERY problem for her?*

In the end she ignores the interruptions and goes ON talking =)

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Guys, if there is one thing I can tell you about what women WANT.

It is for you guys, to SHUT UP and LISTEN when she is TALKING.

Neither does she want solutions to her problems

She just WANTS you to listen to her TALK.

If she wants solutions, she'll ask for them.

So remember, not to get carried away with trying to solve ALL her problems.

This is actually, very good news for men, because ALL you have to do is SIT down and listen.

After the entire session, she will be happy.

And like they say, a happy wife is a happy life. Believe that =3

In fact she will think you are the BEST listener in the world! And you will be a wonderful man in her eyes =)

We men gotta understand that women express their day-to-day problems by talking, and it is really important to them, and they don't need much else other than your undivided attention when talking.

As long as your responses indicate that you are listening, she will be happy =)

This is how you show women that you can be supportive of them and bond with them.

Really.

I had my own experience about this too.

My friend who is a girl had a crush on this guy

And everyday

She would talk to me. Talk and talk and talk.

About him. And I would just listen

Problem was. I was always TRYING to offer SOLUTIONS!

I always felt... "Damn, what should I say now? Ah... I feel like I can't give her any good ideas"

But now I realize

It's not about offering a solution!

It's all about being a good listener!

She used to tell me that I was a good listener

Cuz all I was doing was listening. And that was all that she needed.

Not very hard to ask for. You don't have to crack your head for solutions to her problems at least XD

In those days, women often belong in bigger families, so they have many outlets for talk.

Nowadays though, families are smaller, and sometimes you become the outlet for talk. So do not in anyway, make her feel rejected

It is important to train your listening skills, for women will really feel appreciated if you seriously pay attention to them when they speak.

And I'm not kidding. It might sound like something small, but it actually is something vital that is a HUGE problem in most relationships.

I'm sure you guys, understand what I'm trying to say, so although we men by nature are problem solvers and lunch - chasers, it doesn't hurt to stop trying to solve everyone's problems and instead just LISTEN.

Next post, I'll talk more in depth about this subject, and help explain why women love to talk, and why they are such great talkers.

TILL TOMORROW!!!!! =33333

p.s. my classmate just tagged me in a post on our assignment due dates on fb. IM.SO.DEAD! XD Anyone wanna listen to my rants? HAHAHA! =3
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How to Approach Women

2011-04-03T06:20:00.000-07:00

WASSUPPPPPPPP peeps! How's it hangin'????

Bwahahaha I sound like one of those 'cool' dudes? TOTALLY not me XD

I took notice that a lot of people find my posts really interesting!

Thank you, thank you, you do not know how much those compliments mean to me

And how much they motivate me to KEEP making posts like these =)

AND REMEMBERRRRRR you can follow this blog !

So yea! SUBSCRIBE!

And follow me on this here blog! Bwahahaha!

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We find that many guys tend to get nervous when approaching women

OF COURSE YOU'LL FEEL NERVOUS!

It's a normal way to feel. Don't worry, it's nothing strange, ALL guys go through this phase initially. Myself included!

As I've mentioned before, it's not really about what girls think or feel about you, it's more about what YOU think and feel about YOURSELF.

You see, women are sensitive to emotional cues that depict how a man feels about himself. Whereas most guys don't have this ability. Women in general are more detail oriented and can catch those minute and tiny signals.

So, the next time you think.... "what if she thinks I'm fat.. What if my hair doesn't look good... What if I don't say something interesting? What if... She rejects me??? What if-"

STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!

You don't need to think about what she thinks about you.

What do YOU think about YOURSELF?

Just think about it, if you go up and approach her with ALL those questions constantly ringing in your head, what kind of signals would she pick up from you?

She will literally FEEL exactly how you feel about yourself.

Those doubts, worries, and lack of confidence WILL be detected by women =)

That is NOT what you want to project to a woman.

So what should you do?

Okay... Let's put it this way... When you see this picture below, what do you see?

*Drools* Wha-?

oh yeah, we were talking about how to approach women XD

Sorry, you know men can only focus on one thing at a time? XD

ANYHOW! When you see that picture, what do you see?

A bunch of SPANKIN' hot women. (Seriously...)

Now, here is where guys often damage their chances.

They tend to think that BECAUSE a woman is beautiful, they HAVE a great personality, is amazing and perfect in EVERY single way.

They become deceived by the illusion of a perfect and beautiful woman.

Reality check, NO ONE is perfect. Every single girl whether HOT or NOT, has flaws in her personality.

HELL, I've met hot girls who have NO personality WHATSOEVER.

Total turn off for me. Even though your hot, but I'm sorry babe, that alone is NOT gonna cut it =)

So when you see SUCH a hot bunch of girls (there is usually one in the group that is not so good looking to make the rest of them look hotter)

Remember, that they are NOT angels, and they are NOT perfect.

Up to this day, I have NOT met any girl who is perfect, so take it easy! The hot babe that you are ABOUT to approach probably isn't perfect either =D

They are normal human beings just like you and me.

Knowing this and actually ACCEPTING this fact helps you not pressure yourself too much when approaching girls.

At the start, you gain confidence only when your approach is a success (after you initiate approach).

But as time goes on, and as you get better, you have enough confidence beforehand (before approaching) to just approach a woman and say ANYTHING!

Being able to do the latter is how you determine your level of confidence =)

And look, don't take it too seriously.

Making mistakes IS part of the learning process.

Take things positively, at least NOW you know what NOT to do.

And eventually you just get better and better at it. Better approaching abilities, better confidence, what is there to lose really?

In FACT, go get rejected ON PURPOSE a few times. Take EVERY failure and rejection as a step forward in the direction of SUCCESS.

After a few times saying things that you KNOW will get you rejected, you will find it really isn't a big deal. This helps you relax the next time you approach girls =)

Then just go up to any woman and say "Hi, I'm _____, you looked fun I had to come and meet you" This is a simple non-needy way to approach women.

All in all, Approaching women really is just, learning how to have fun =)

And feeling really GREAT inside, and learning how to project that to a woman.

Once you have mastered this ability, then approaching women no longer becomes a huge issue, and surprisingly you will find that you will start talking to women anywhere you go.

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P.S. I literally lost track of time for a moment looking at that picture XD THEY'RE JUST SO FRIGGING HOT AND THE PICTURE IS SIMPLY A MULTIPLICITY OF HOTNESSSSSSS!!! XDDD

P.P.S I love women =3

Why Women are Sensitive to Sexual Stimulation

2011-04-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

Yoh~! WHAT'S UPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!

I'm back XD Yesterday I went on a trip to Ampang lookout Point, SO I was not home to update this blog XD

Had a SPANKING good time with buddies =) But was kinda tired from driving (even though I refused to admit it when they asked XD)

Probably cuz I was wearing shoes. AHA! So not used to it after wearing slippers to college everyday XD

OH! Since I was unavailable yesterday, today will be a 2-IN-1 POST! OH YEAHHHH ~!!!! XD

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Have you ever Wondered what is it about women? You go out with friends and the girls in the group start hugging each other, which makes you go

"It's like.... they hug EVERY time they SEE each other."

To us guys, this doesn't make ANY sense at all.

ZERO. NONE. ZILCHHHHH!!

Cause for us guys, we DO NOT hug each other. I REPEAT. US HUGGING EACH OTHER AND GOING TO THE TOILET TOGETHER IS FRIGGING WEIRD.

So why is it that girls LOVE to hug each other and guys not at all?

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To put it simply, the first thing you gotta know is that women have skin that is 10 TIMES more sensitive than men.

Yes. 10. Times.

It was tested that the guys which had very sensitive skin could not even match girls which had low skin sensitivity among girls tested.

Why is this so?

For guys, they were hunters back in the day of cavemen. We needed to be immune to pain and injuries. That is why we are less receptive to pain. We needed to keep fighting even when hurt.

That is also why, men's back are VERY insensitive to pain or any other receptors. It was to protect us from attacks coming from behind.

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On the other hand, in a woman's case, they DESIRE physical touch. Their bodies are wired that way with skin sensitivity that is 10x more sensitive than men. Their skin is much thinner than us guys, if you noticed. They also have an extra layer of fat underneath the skin for more warmth in winter for greater endurance.

This would explain WHY girls HUG each other everytime they see each other.

Oxytocin is a hormone largely present in women that produces the DESIRE and URGE to be touched and fires up the touch receptors.

So when you see a woman holding and cuddling a baby, family members, their boyfriend, or even their girlfriends, you know what's going on =)

It is also said that women who are hugged more frequently, and for longer periods of time recover more quickly from depression than women who don't get as many hugs.

This also coincides with the saying "Don't touch me!". A famous phrase used by women when they are angry with someone. They actually wish to be touched.

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Another way to explain why women cuddle is that children who are often given physical and caring touch by their mom's generally grow into happier, healthier and more fulfilled children. It is nature's way of biologically building a woman into caring for her kids.

Women who suffer from emotional problems tend to seek others out for hugs and physical touch of the non-sexual type, even from other men. Guys on the other hand, tend to isolate themselves when faced with such problems.

So guys, the key is to touch women, not grope them =3

Back to the topic of this post. Why women are sensitive to sexual stimulation.

Just so you know, while a guy only has one 'area' sensitive to sexual stimulation, a woman's ENTIRE body is sensitive to sexual stimulation.

This is why, for most women foreplay is really important. Not just in 'that' area, but over the entire surface area of her body.

And as mentioned just now, since women have skin that is 10x more sensitive than men, it EXPLAINS why her entire body is an.... erogenous zone =) and sensitive to sexual stimulation.

Since we are on the topic of sensitivity here, I must as well add the fact that women are also more sensitive than men in terms of TASTE and SMELL.

Go women =3

Anyhow, while in general guys are more able to discern salt and bitter taste, women overall are superior in discerning sweet and sugar tastes

Which explains why women are often guilty for being chocoholics more often than men =3

During the ovulation period of a woman (the mating period of the month), this sense of smell is even stronger.

Why?

Women's noses are able to detect pheromones and musk-like odours, and the incredible thing is these smells cannot be detected conciously.

This allows a woman to determine the state of the immune system of the man. And allows her to judge whether it is stronger than her own.

This is why sometimes women describe some men as 'attractive' or simply 'magnetic' without really knowing the reason why.

Research has shown that it only takes up to 3 seconds for a woman to determine and analyze these smells when meeting a man.

Nature is at work once more, because a man with stronger immune system than her own would mean offspring with an even stronger immune system.

It just makes perfect sense. Nature oh nature you are simply magnificent.

So guys who enjoy sitting down at home lazying everyday, would consequently, in general have a weaker immune system than guys who are more outgoing and often do sports.

So don't sit at home too much, guys =3

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AND that is the end of the first post!

Now, onto the SECOND ONE! And what is it? IT IS SIMPLYYYY~~!! ME OGGLING OVER THIS GIRL NAMED MELANIE IGLESIAS! THE WINNER FOR MAXIM'S HOMETOWN HOTTIES 2010!!!!

WTF MAN! SEIROUSLY WTFF! SHE IS SO FUCKING GORGEOUSSSS!!! FUCK YOU IF YOU DISAGREE. YOU SERIOUSLY HAVE NO TASTE IN WOMEN IF YOU THINK OTHERWISE.

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GAWDDDDDDD!!!!!

OH TUHANKU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG OMGOGMGMOOGMGOMGOMGOMGMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I THINK I'VE USED EVERY POSSIBLE INCANTATION OF... OMGGGGGG!!!

She is DROP DEAD GORGEOUS OKAY.

SHE'S MIXED Filipina-Brazilian-Caucasian-Italian JUST SO YOU KNOW!!

THAT COMBINATION IS F***ING HAWT!!!!

SERIOUSLY BABE YOU TOP THE LIST FOR ASIAN GIRLS!!!!!

IS THIS SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY POSSIBLE?!?!?! HOW CAN YOU BE SO DAMN HOT IN MY EYES?!?!?!?!?!

IF YOU OPEN THE DICTIONARY AND SEARCH FOR THE WORD 'HOT' YOUR PICTURE SHOULD BE THERE!!!

O.O!!!!! I.CAN'T.TAKE.MY.EYES.OFF.

*HUBBA HUBBA*

*DROOL*

SLRRRRPPPPP

IM SERIOUSLY TURNED ON BY YOUR CURVESSSS =33333

BLOODY HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL =3333

SEXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

OH HELL YEAAAAAAAAA

YOUR DAD AND MOM DID SUCH A FINE JOB

SHE IS ALSO A VERY GORGEOUSLY TALENTED POKER PLAYEEERRRRRR =3

HOW CAN SOMEONE SOOOOOO HOT EXIST?!??!!?!?

I MEAN REALLYYYYY!!!

Omg oamgoamgoaogmoagmoamgaogmaogmoagmoamg

I'm burning up... My fever must be coming back...

OH MY GOD. I'D BE SO DAMN HAPPY IF I COULD MARRY A GIRL LIKE YOURSELF. SERIOUSLY!!!!

O.O!!

*prays hard for wish to be granted*

If my future wife is as HOT as this, MAN I'm blessed. MANNNNNN I would be one happy lucky son - of - a - gun.

It just beats me why guys don't know how to go after her!!!

LOL!!

To end it all, and see how F***ING SEXY and DROP DEAD GORGEOUS she is, here's a

PHOTOSHOOT VIDEOOOOO!!!! =DDDDD

ENJOY.

TILL NEXT TIME FOLKS! I NEED TO GO COOL MYSELF OFF!!!
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Why Women Can't Do Reverse Parking

2011-03-31T06:09:00.000-07:00

*Jeng jeng jeng jengggggggggg~~~!!! *

ZOMG! IT IS THE QUESTION WE'VE ALLLLLLLLLLLL BEEN WAITING FORRRR~! =)

Why.can't.women.do.REVERSE PARKING!??!?!!?!?

Like seriously now. HAHA! I mean no disrespect to women, but truthfully, only 1/10 women can do reverse parking successfully on a first attempt.

~~It might be even less than that~~

Haha! In my very very TOP secret and ultimately CRAZY research, I shall enlighten you to WHY women cannot do reverse parking~!

Oh yes, do take note, that I am talking in general, not ALL women will have problem with reverse parking, but most do. Same goes with men, although generally men are good with it, doesn't mean ALL men can do it well. So remember, it's a general topic =)

Are you ready?

Are you ready?

Are you REALLY ready?

Seriously are you ready?

OF COURSE YOUR NOT! We need a little of...

THIS before we get started =3333

The car just HAPPENED to be in the picture *rolls eyes*

Once again, I do not mean any disrespect to women, I am just here to enlighten and to help people understand why reverse parking is SUCH a problem for women.

Before I go into details, I need to tell you guys a story.

A story about our ancestors long longgggg ago....

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Hundreds of THOUSANDS of years ago, there were cavemen and cavewomen

Men were the hunters. Their job was to hunt for food and bring it back to their family everyday.
He was in other words, the lunch-chaser

The women were nest-defenders that keep the children safe while awaiting the men to return from hunting.

For this very reason, ever since man was created, he was gifted with abilities for hunting.

This included ability to

a) Estimate distances and how long they need to run to reach the target and at what speed
b) Estimate timing when launching projectiles
c) Estimating how long before it hits the target
d) Estimating how far the target prey is
e) Estimating angles
f) Estimate how much force they needed to kill their prey with a weapon

This also explains why MEN have TUNNEL vision (Longer distance)

This ability of men to estimate distances, timing

is what we call SPATIAL ability

The ability to estimate angles, distances, timing, etc etc

It has now developed over hundreds of thousands of years until now

which shows why the top engineers and mathematicians are GUYS.

Once again, I mean no discrimination to women, it is just that women's expertise and abilities are elsewhere other than the field of engineering and mathematics.

Since women were nest-defenders and never had to hunt, their spatial abilities were never fully developed

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Come back to hundreds of thousands of YEARS into the future.

Spatial ability also involves rotating 3-D objects in your mind

Studies have show that, while girls are skilled at 2-dimensional objects, boys have the ability to see a 3rd Dimension, giving more depth

That is why, most men pursue careers related to sports and spatial ability

While women are more prone to pursue careers that require other abilities

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COMING back to reverse parking

Studies have shown that women actually do better than guys in reverse parking during driving training

THIS is because as long as the conditions and surroundings don't change, women excel at performing the task better than boys.

On the OTHER hand, in real life situations, where every corner, every turn represents a NEW situation, women find it really hard to perform REVERSE parking

This is once again, because hunting was never in their job prescription in the old days, it was never much developed.

The spatial ability is located in the frontal right hemisphere for guys

While for females, there is no specific area for spatial ability, hence explaining why women are particularly weak in this area of ability.

You will find that most women will prefer to park their car in a larger space somewhere far off and WALK, than to reverse park into a TIGHT space.

It is USUALLY better to reverse park, as it is safer when you want to come out later. Accidents do occur when you don't have eyes at the back of your head.

But this has not at all appealed to women.

MOST of my girl friends NEVER do reverse parking. PERIOD.

This is because reverse parking requires estimation of distances and angles.

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However, while it is true that guys are better reverse parkers than women

Women are FAR more safer drivers than men.

Testosterone, a male hormone present in men, is what gives them their spatial ability.

At the same time, this hormone provides a kind of competitive attitude and dare-devil kind of feeling that men might find themselves familiar with

Often times they PUT their spatial abilities to the TEST on the roads and drive recklessly

~~I feel guilty~~

On the other hand, since women lacks testosterone, they are generally safer drivers (though sometimes there are reckless women drivers, probably had too much testosterone from her dad or just a mood swing)

An insurance company recorded that, while make more claims per year than men

Men are the ones that make HIGH payout claims and total write-offs

Women have the tendency to wait a few seconds at certain areas even when there is nothing to wait for before proceeding into a roundabout

This caution sometimes leads to accidents

Though they are mostly just scrapes and bumps

So while women cash in the low pay-out insurance more frequently

Men cash our the HIGH-payout insurance, although less frequently

Funny how things work eh?

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IN professional motor-racing, it has been reported that there have been almost no female winner

But when it comes to DRAG-racing, about 10% of participants and winners are women.

Why?

Because in drag-racing, you race in a STRAIGHT line.

WOMEN dominate here, where there are no angles, speeds, corners, overtaking and any need of spatial ability.

The winner is usually the person who has the FASTEST reaction to the green light.

Which is why women have the advantage over men.

Sound familiar? HAHAHA!

I hope you found this post informative, and HOPEFULLY, it has solved your QUESTION on WHY women cannot do reverse parking.

REMEMBER! Women are safer drivers, and they LOVE straight roads and HATE reverse parking! =3

TILL NEXT TIME PEEPSSSS~!! BWAHHAHA!!

I'll be out tomorrow evening, so I don't know if I have time to come back and make a post.

So stay tuneddddddd~! =DDDDD

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The Best Pickup Line

2011-03-30T05:05:00.000-07:00

Heya guys~! Just a little bit about my day before I go into the details of this post.

Funny thing! This morning, I drove in to college, then saw my classmate drive and park her car, and after I parked mine, POOF! She was gone. From her car.

I guess she saw me and walked off real fast into college. LOL! I kinda made her angry the day before, so yeah, I don't know XD Sometimes us men don't realize what we say when we say what we say. XD So IM SORRY! If you are reading this! =D

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Well, first thing's FIRSTTTT!!!! Let me get this straight.

The GOAL and AIM for me to write these kinds of posts is really to educate men about women. And perhaps vice versa.

Sometimes men can be really insensitive and really defensive, so I apologize on behalf of the race of men. And we promise to become better guys to you girls =D

So the more PEOPLE who read this, the BETTER. So do us all a favour and SUBSCRIBEEE over there >>>> andddd SPREAD THE WORDDD to your friends who you think COULD use this kind of information!

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Many men feel nervous and anxious when approaching women to start a conversation.

Going way back, this was when pickup lines were INVENTED

You see, men ARE natural born problem solvers, they think "hey, if this doesn't work, maybe this might work? Or this? Or that?" Men often look for solutions to their problems. (Which is why they are reading this right now)

So they invented the famous thing we call "pickup lines".

It was their "solution" to the problem called "how do I approach a girl?"

But the problem with that is that most of the time, pickup lines don't work

And even if they do, you are being inauthentic. Meaning that you are projecting a superficial/fake image of yourself towards the girl.

And she will not know who you really are. It also clearly SHOWS that you are trying to get her instead of getting to KNOW her. There is a difference believe me.

Think about it, would you want a girl to like you for who you are, or someone you are not? Remember that girls like GENUINE guys. Not fakes, not pretenders.

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So now, how DO you start a conversation with a woman?

When you are a guy who is self-sufficient, self-amusing and able to laugh at yourself and you are generally fun to be with, "How" to start a conversation is the LAST thing on your mind.

That positive energy that flows out of a man is what really attracts a woman. Be that man, and literally anything you say will be attractive no matter WHAT it is!

In FACT, if you can master that positive energy and vibe, sometimes you don't even have to say ANYTHING! Even a handshake, a hi-five, these non-verbal actions COULD start a conversation! Think of the possibilities!

To give some guideline, a possible GENUINE pickup line is "Hi, you looked so adorable I had to come and meet you!" You aren't hiding anything, and you honestly just wish to get to know her. Women want a strong man who will show his intent in his action. Definitely an A.

Or even "Hi, my name is so and so". OR you could comment on something she is wearing like that accessory or dress or shoes etc etc. Believe that you are someone unique with years of experience and someone who DOES have things to talk about.

So the best pickup line is not any line, but the projection of your inner positive energy outwards and hence attracting them females MAGNETICALLY!

You don't need no fancy lines if you have that kind of awesome PARTY inside you!

The ability to generate these positive vibes is the GREATEST asset you can have, and the question of "HOW to start a conversation" will be the furthest thing from your mind! Guaranteed~!

So stay pimpin' and GET THEM CHICKS!

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On a side note, I am actually preparing something interesting to post tomorrow! Stay tuneeeeeeeeed! Teehee! =D

How to Impress a Woman (DAMN! My head.....)

2011-03-29T05:35:00.000-07:00

Yo guysss.... Man!!!! My head is so FUCKED!

Seriously... Argh.... Had some panadol and drank some stuff my mom made me.... Mannnnnnnnnnnn... I felt better but still... urgh.... I can't even do my assignment in this state.

So I thought! Why not Blow off some steam by blogging? Though it is a little bit hard to think. While looking through girl pics also I wasn't really having a good time and they all seemed ugly to me.

Probably cuz I'm not feeling too good.

Well anyhow! I just thought that I should talk about...

How to impress a girl =)

You know it's kind of funny,

Cuz the only thing a man MUST do to impress a girl is actually

NOT to try to impress a girl.

Confused?

Well, you see folks, there are MANY guys, and I mean MANY, who do MANY MANY MANY things to impress a girl.

Buy her gifts

Do things for her

Fetch her everywhere

Take her for an EXTRAVAGANTLY EXPENSIVE MOUTH-HANGING WALLET POPPING dinner =)

Bla bla bla, you know the drill.

JUST to impress a girl.

And yet girls have had GUYS do this to them over and over and over again till they really just get sick of it.

Might I remind you that were in the getting-a-girl phase, not a relationship phase =)

So anyhow, it doesn't really make sense to do ALL of the things above if she isn't even your girlfriend/wife in the first place!

Hell, ask the married husbands if they do HALF of the things above XD HAHAHAHAHAA! You'll get some pretty.... intriguing answers =D

So actually, by treating her special, buying her gifts and always trying to make sure she is happy, does not actually impress a girl

In fact it makes them turned off~! By your advances. Really.

Even if she does like you it's probably gonna be temporary and you're probably gonna feel used by the end of the whole thing.

Meaning that she likes you for the wrong reasons. *Cough* Slave* Cough*

You could go ahead and try this method anyway. Hey, I'm no preacher, you do whatever the hell you want man =)

I'm just here to share what I think is true about the subject

The real one and only thing a man MUST do to impress a girl

Is simply to have a STRONG self-belief in your ACTIONS and DECISIONS in life.

What do you believe in?

No matter how beautiful a girl is, she should not affect who you are as a person.

For some very weird reason, girls enjoy barking commands and getting guys to do certain things

The guys who BEND to their will and follow what they say usually end up becoming unattractive in the girl's eyes. It is the men who REFUSES to bend that attracts a woman.

And this is TRUE, and I have GONE through this before so I know =) TRUST MEEEEEE~! And it sucks to bend to the will of a woman

When a girl asks you WHERE you want to eat, you don't say... "Errr, I don't know..."

or "MAYBE somewhere near?"

or "I THINK we should go to..."

Girls are disgusted by mens indecisive-ness. It is VERY unattractive. And so the next time a girl asks you something, BE DECISIVE.

An even worse thing to do is to BE the one asking WHERE TO EAT.

Like I said before, be CLEAR and have a STRONG belief in your decisions.

Make the decision. Be a man, do the right thing (Russel Peters Quote Bwahaha!)

If you are the kind of guy who does not KNOW where he is going in life, chances are women will be less attracted to you.

SO get your ass on the chair and start thinking about it.

And hey, don't worry so much about making mistakes, we all do sometimes =)

It's part of learning, SO RELAX MAN RELAX!

But don't lose sight of where you want to be. Hell, start off by at least knowing where you want to be.

Even I myself get lost sometimes, but I do talk to people and ask for advice. Then I get right back on track and start feeling great again =)

So yes! Stay alive, stay focused, and get them chicks =)

Like they say, behind every successful man, is a ~~scary~~ woman =D

Teeheee~! Ciaoz Peeps =3
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p.s. Finally feel better after Panadol =)

Why Chicks Lurveeeee Fat Boys =3

2011-03-28T06:56:00.001-07:00

YOU! My friend, have clicked on this blog thinking "What the heck is he gonna talk about now?"

Well hell YEAH, I'm gonna talk about chicks? I got tired talking about myself a bit, so I'm taking a breather from that XD I might go back to doing that sooner than I think though hehe =)

Don't think I'll ever get tired of "certain" things though... hehehe...

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This is practically the conversation we have had at LEAST once with our friends before.

"WHY THE F*** IS THAT FAT DUDE WITH THAT SMOKING HOT CHICK?!?!?!?!?"

"THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR! I'M LIKE 30KGS LIGHTER THAN THAT PILE OF MEAT!!"

Yes, oh, the irony the world presents TO YOU!

Don't you just feel like hanging yourself choking and cutting yourself up, or simply just eating to put on another 30kgs JUST SO YOU CAN BE LIKE HIM!

Yeah, the world can make being fat actually look like a GOOD thing

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Let me explain things subtly, you see......

Guys are visual people. WE NEED TO LOOK AT ZE HOT CHICKZZZZZZZ!!

It's a general rule of thumb that if you just wanna attract a guy all you gotta do as a girl is look SPANKING H-A-W-T =3

On the other hand, girls LIKE a guy based on how they make her FEEL.

Not how many packs you have whether it's one, two, 3, 6 or NO pack.

I've had first hand experience of girl friends of mine who tell me that they really like guys based on how they make them FEEL.

And it's true.

Because guys are physically and visually driven by how a girl LOOKS.

And girls are emotionally driven and it's really about how you make them FEEL.

A lot of guys right now go... "ohhhhhhhhhhh...."

A lot of girls go... "Yeah well we knew that about guys a LONG time ago. NEXT!"

So guys... stop trying to get that hot-rip six pack body and simply FOCUS on learning how to play the dating game.

Cuz really, physical looks is WAYYYYYYYYY overrated for a guy.

And I don't even have to prove anything, just take a look around.

Ever wonder why there are MORE hot girls than hot guys?

*TADAAAAAAAAAA!!!*

"OH MY GOD!! I DIDN'T REALIZE THERE WERE MORE HOT GIRLS THAN HOT GUYS!!"

*GASP~!! SO GUYS DON'T NEED LOOKS TO GET A GIRL?!?!!? OMGGGGG!!!!! CRY*

So there ya go. The evidence presents itself.

Though looks does help, just that it's not the main factor for guys to get a chick.

And hey. Girls actually find fat guys cuddly =3

So when your about to blame your messy hair or your terrible one pack for NOT being able to score a date with that chick, just remember how fugly and fat the other guy looked =D

If you still haven't figured that out, all I can say is... toodles my lovely =3

So the next time you see a fat guy with a chick, don't say "oh, damn, I wish I had such a hot girl"

Say, "Oh damn, I need to take lessons from this guy" XD BWAHAHAHA!

Cuz he sure knows his stuff =3 Either that or he's just, you know, rich =D

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OH! Before I go, just wanted to share something interesting I read yesterday night

I love the nights just reading a book, staring into blank space as I laugh at the books I am reading, they are just so entertaining!

Guys check out girls ALL the time.

BUT THE REVERSE is ALSO TRUEEE~! =) Girls DO check guys out

Just that girls are more discreet, hence they are less likely to be caught~!

When a guy CHECKS out a girl, they literally TURN THEIR HEAD in the direction of the girl.

When a girl CHECKS out a guy(or girl), they do it WITHOUT turning their head

Why?

It's actually because girls have a wider range of sight (WIDER)

Whereas guys have a longer range of sight (Longerrr)

WHICH explains why guys find the need to TURN their heads when they look at girls... unless they are skilled =)

Whereas girls can scout the whole room without really even moving a muscle =)

Girl : Hey, look at that couple over there...

Boy : Where? *turns head*

Girl : DON'T TURN YOUR HEAD YOUR BEING SO OBVIOUS!

Sounds familiar? Aha =)

So yea! Don't believe for a FRIGGING SECOND that girls are innocent =)

Cuz since they are more discreet, it also means they are more likely to check out guys =)

Hoho~!

The end =D TEEHEE~!

Why Assholes get the Chicks =3

2011-03-27T00:23:00.000-07:00

Heya! I've been busy with assignments, but ya know, everyone needs a break hoho =33333

Assign *cough* ments *cough*

So I'll get straight to the point, ever WONDERED why assholes get all the chicks?

You must really feel that ahhh, I should just be an asshole if that's what it takes to get the girls.

But look here, that's not really the point.

The point is that assholes are just being what they really are, ASSHOLES!

Read that line again.

They are not putting on an 'act' or trying to be oh-so 'good' to chicks. They are genuinely being what they are.

And the same goes with everything.

Girls appreciate a genuine person

So if you're horny then be horny!

If your not a virgin don't go and lie about it!

Girls H-A-T-E liers and pretenders.

So if people already found out that your not a virgin, then what the heck! Don't go around trying to prove your some 'angel'. You're just showing that your a phony person.

Based on experience, girls still talk to me even if I'm horny! Fuck hell yeah~!

You think I care what people think about my horniness? I'm being who I am and no one can stop me. Oh yea *heart sign*

So, take a second look at that asshole, and understand that at least he is being genuine about what he really is and not putting on an act in public.

Girls want someone who has a strong personality and belief in themselves.

Not some half-assed actor whose not even brave to embrace his own reality and personality.

Self-expression is an art, so is self-belief, and both can be learnt

So the next time you meet a girl, be genuine and real.

Otherwise, you'll have to face the reality that assholes are just better than you at getting chicks.

Dan the man OUT~! =3

Am I really back? Aha =)

2011-03-25T22:29:00.000-07:00

Hm, I suddenly logged on to facebook yesterday~!

And I replied all my friends who wished me for my bday =D

It's never too late yea! =) Haha... I'M SURE THEY LIKED MY SMALL TOKEN OF APPRECIATION~! XD

Bwahahaha~!

Though I might have offended some people, I don't really mean to XD Usually you have to look at people's intentions instead of their actions

And I understand that there's a critic in every crowd, you can't please everyone =D So I actually just accept everyone's comment~! That's the right thing to do, at least in my opinion

Good or bad, it doesn't matter, the fact that people commented is already such a great thing to have! It shows that they care aha! =D

But I've come down with a slight fever and flu. Hm. Must have overheated from all the hot girl pics I was screening from.

Hey! I spent two hours searching for girls to put in that album ya know! XD HAHA!

Man, some things about me never change XD In fact I think I became more pervy as time goes by.

Man ohhhh man.

At the same time though, I see that we too often label and judge each other. I think we should just accept each other, no matter how hard it is to do so.

To be completely honest not even I am capable of accepting just anybody. I have my troubles too.

But it's the right thing to do. It's not easy, believe me. Sometimes it's really painful ya know? But you still gotta accept it. Otherwise you would never move on. And that's just sad.

the next month is gonna be tough for me. SO yeah, I am so dead XD what a time to go back to facebook?

OH,... It's my mom's birthday. Don't think I'm getting her anything. But at least we are going out for dinner.

I find it nice that some people do miss me on facebook haha! It sure feels good to be welcomed back =)

But still, it does feel... A little different. But hey, look at the bright side! I just put an album of 20 pics of hot sexy steaming girls~! XD well most of them anyway XD

HAHA!

Hm. I wonder if life is really so tough? I have my worries. Ya know. My studies. The club. My personal life. Etc etc.

It must be the transition from teenage-hood to adult-hood.

Man oh man, adult-hood sure does suck XD But hey, at least I'm getting closer to marriage age no?

There are things to look forward to in adult-hood i bet~!

Sometimes I don't really understand the future. How could that possibility be possible? It just seems impossible at the moment for that kind of future.

God, if you are up there, you sure are giving me hell with my feelings right now =) About everything.

Well, some people say you have to go through hell before heaven. I wonder if people ever live through life without ever going through hell?

But if they don't go through hell they probably never will find heaven on earth. It's a gamble you'll have to take if you want to live life fully.

As long as you don't give up, you still have a chance. So why give up now?

But I see many people. Fighting for their emotions. With their emotions. Not really understanding what the heck life's true meaning is.

I guess that when I wanted to avoid relationship problems and emotional problems, I realized that's just not possible if I want to have a good relationship next time.

After all, mistakes pave the way to success.

If you never made any mistakes your probably not that near to success as you think.

So I do agree that if you ever want a real successful relationships, mistakes are bound to happen in that relationship, if not things will never really progress.

Ah, I'm having a slight problem now

I'm procastinating with my projects. Oh man. Oh shit. Oh man. Oh Shit. WHAT AM I GONNA DO?!/!?!?! I'M TOO DAMN LAZY TOO STARTTTT~!! XDDD

I'm so dead... Hohohohoho... Will someone help me?? LOL!

I think I can be a really good student if I actually just DO my projects early XD Hahahaha.

Argh. Argh. ARGH!!!

SO what am I gonna do?

Hm. It seems my neurons for not-procastinating are not used to being activated XD

The mind is a peculiar thing~!

Hey, is it me, or is it nearly april already? that's like 1/3 of the entire year.

What the heck. Haha! It feels so fast.... Hrm. Kinda weird

Hrmhrmhrmhmrhmrhmrhmrm.

I'm just so confused. I wished there was an answer for everything. But at the same time I feel like I'm just running away.

Deep down, I just feel insecure and scared. But I have something to live for.

Do I really have to go through this? Maybe if I just stayed alone then maybe it wouldn't be so hard. Maybe that's why I was trying to live a secluded life.

But at the same time I know that's just a temporary solution. It won't change anything till I face it head on.

And that's the hardest part. Because sometimes I just lack courage.

And really, a little courage is the real magic in life.

I'm just afraid people won't accept me. That's why I tend to not get close to so many people.

Why? Most people are nice. They wouldn't mind being friends with me. But I just couldn't. What do people think about me? What do I think about myself?

I think I'm genuinely a nice guy, just that sometimes a little loud XD but it's usually with good intentions okay! Haha....

But being nice is not good enough to live a full life. You gotta really just stand up. And go for the things you want. Sometimes people get in your way.

It's how we choose to deal with people that depicts the real outcome. Best case scenario you make friends worst case scenario you make enemies. It's easier to make enemies than friends. Mostly.

Why am I avoiding stuff? I feel weak. But I can't show that I'm weak. Unless to close friends maybe. But do I really have close friends. ? If I don't then it's really probably my own fault that things turned out this way.

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Hey you know what? I just realized, I've been talking about generally the same things over and over in the past month. Maybe I'm still stuck here and haven't really moved on? That's one possible answer.

I just can't WAIT for the holidays! Man I'm so looking forward to getting FATTER~! XD I'm 73kgs now, gained 3 kgs in the past month since I stopped climbing (SHIT!)

XD But it's gonna be fun losing that weight again once my finger heals. I wonder how long. Maybe another month before it's healed.

Well, that's all for now =) Dan the man outzzzzzz~! =D

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F***ing Sheer Genius.

2011-03-24T08:47:00.000-07:00

Oh my...

That's it.... That's... The theory of everything.

Man. I'm f***ing speechless after watching that scientific documentary.

Time and space is the same fabric

Whenever matter is created, anti-matter is created.

When light is pushed 10seconds further, its travel is delayed by 10 seconds.

We do not look back to when the universe started, the universe started in the FUTURE. Not the past.

It all makes... more and more sense

We are guided by the arrow of time. It travels in one way. But... something else travels the other way

Oh my god.... I cant' believe it...

IT'S SO FUCKING INTERESTING!!!!!

FUCK WHY THE HELL AM I IN PROGRAMMING!??!!? WHY AM I NOT STUDYING TO BECOME A FREAKING SCIENTIST?!?!?!?

Oh man... It's like... there's so much to learn about the universe... Einstein's Law of relativity... And so many other laws that just... fascinates EVERYTHING!!

The many mysteries that haunt the science world...

Where is the origin of the arrow of time?

Why is there more matter than anti-matter?

Why or what are we?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANY OF THOSE TERMS BUT ITS SO FREAKING UNBELIEVABLY FASCINATING!!!!!

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Our brains, are connected by neurons. Hundreds of BILLIONS of neurons. And our abilities and capabilities depends on how 'quickly' these neurons are activated and interconnect with one another by sending pulses of 'electricity'

All these neurons in our brains govern all our daily actions and thoughts. Eating, sleeping, walking, EVERYTHING.

So for example, a musician, will 'activate' the neurons that are required for being musical

Making it easier and easier for the person to be better at what they do as a musician. The neurons are trained by always being active.

When you first started typing, you were slow. After a long while, your brain adapts. The neurons in your brains, start to pulse quicker, and you react quicker and you type faster after much practice

This means, that we have the ability to adapt to whatever situation as long as we put it into practice. Do you UNDERSTAND what this means?????

This means that the human brain has NO LIMITS!

IT means that we have the potential to MASTER any skill, but it takes one very important ingredient

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Yes! This required us to believe that things are possible. To believe in ourselves. Without that boost of self-confidence, the brain does not release enough... chemicals that encourage stronger and faster inter connectivity between our brains neurons.

Also, by expressing ourselves regularly, through whatever medium, we become more 'self-aware'. We become more conscious about ourselves. We start to be able to look at ourselves from different perspectives, we start to be able to control our emotions better.

The capabilities of the mind are simply limitless...

Ohhhhh, the mysteries. Man I'm in the wrong course. HAHA!

But seriously... Science is so fascinating... There was so much more in that video that I already forgot. All those laws. Those discoveries. Those truths. About the universe. Priceless.

Just imagine...

There are mirror neurons as well, where the brain cannot differentiate between one's self and another. That is why sometimes we require re-assurance from other people. It is like us assuring ourselves. That is why if you often talk to yourself, it becomes a very powerful tool. When you empower yourself. When you believe that you are great, you become something great.

However, let us not mix that with arrogance. Too much of anything is bad.

I need to re-watch that documentary.... It's just... Epic. There's no other way to describe it.

Who did that documentary?

He's. A pro-gamer. Believe it or not. But he's a genius at the same time. A real strategist when it comes to gaming. He has full self-esteem and he is crazy.

Geniuses are crazy. It's how the come. Genius and crazy come in the same package. Just so you know. That's mostly because they are ahead of our time and most people can't relate to them.

Am I making any sense? Probably not, but I still needed to talk about it.

He doesn't think inside the box. He thinks outside the box and he devours the damn box.

People call him the jesus of gaming.

And poker. Real poker.

But enough about him. Maybe next time, I shall speak more about him.

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Hm... I'm pretty tired. It's been a long day. But I kind of enjoyed it. The human brain is such an incredible thing. The skys the limits.

Can you imagine?

Time and space is the same fabric? The same material?

CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!? It means... outer space... consists of time?

Did you know that the needle of a moving clock travels slower than a stationary clock?

DID YOU KNOW THAT?

Fuck. It's like a science orgasm just hearing these things.

It's the theory of everything.

What creates us. What makes us. What connects everything. How everything is created.

Fuck...... I just can't... Man. I just love whoever created this world, if there was a creator. It's sheer fucking genius man.

Everything actually makes sense. Everything can be calculated. It's the patterns, the math, the calculations.

And it actually all relates to human thoughts. HUMAN THOUGHTS CAN BE CALCULATED.

Subconsciously, you have just agreed with me. Do you understand? You knew this all along. That human thoughts CAN be calculated. But up until now, you did not realize it until I mentioned it. But you knew. I know you knew.

What is blocking you from knowing this before? Did you ever think of that? Don't you get it. There are certain things that we know that we don't realize we know. Right now. It's all waiting to be uncovered.

The secrets to the universe.

Lies in our brains.

Which is.

Really.

The center.

Of the.

Universe.

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Have a good night.

p.s. Fuck it's good to be alive.

2 months of HELL ahead =)

2011-03-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

Heya! It's that time of the semester where WE get TONS of assignments! Yes! So that's why I shall call it the 'assignments screw u up' period or rather the 'hell breaks lose when assignments come flooding in' period.

And the latest assignment being, having to create a hotel reservation website with a DATABASE included, (which is the hard part since i've done my fair share of website designing)

Helped a friend out with her website design project, did I tell you that? Maybe, I can't remember, anyhow she told me her lecturer didn't teach her shiz so I ended up doing everything but that's fine cuz I wanted to design better websites anyway so it's good practice =3

She said she wanted to pay me though, I'm like WOOOAHHHHHHH~!! Hold on there girl, no need to pay me! I ain't no professional XD

But hey, some bucks would be good, she did treat me to dinner ~! I guess sometimes you feel guilty if you forget to pay someone back for their good deeds. Literally.

Anyhow, I wonder if I'll die from assignments like I did the previous sem? I was in serious shit last time. Hoho, I wonder if this time will be different? My guess is, probably not.

5 assignments coming up, oo, delicious. I'm so freaking dead. But that's ALLRIGHT cuz I heard from a good friend that YEAR 3 IS A LOT WORSE!

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On a side note, Just got back from a Student Council trip to Port Dickson

Was kinda fun, though the sign where we took our group picture read "Port Dick on" *smirks*

And I've been watching videos about the Japan Tsunami, I pray for you folks

You guys are my main source of porn, please live on and produce MOAR masterpieces =3

But seriously, I wish you guys well =) It's hard to have an earthquake, tsunami AND a nuclear reactor meltdown crisis all 3 at once without anyone is starting a riot.

Incredible.

Anyhow, the trip was kinda good, though the location was bad, we were next to a shit-dumping-site. So yeah, you know those ponds where they dump poop in? That's where we were aha!

At least we were near the beach. Although not nearly near enough (it's about 20mins walk)

Hmmm, had a chat with 2 friends on the beach. Both were guys. I know, gay, but it was fun, and something weird happened. And I don't wanna go into the details oho. =)

It got me thinking that hey, it's kinda sad it was only 2 days 1 night? At least we got to know the members better. We sure have some really good new members with a good heart for the council. I hope things go well for them when their time comes, even though they probably will never read this.

And that got me thinking again. The only real reason we get into the council, or any club for that matter, is really just to make friends.

More than making friends, we learn to create relationships with people. A form of bond that is unbreakable with time. I think that's what really counts, not much else.

Cuz whatever you learn other than how to create relationships, might not be so applicable when you go out into the 'adult world' as they like to call it. It's probably a lot more different and harder in many aspects.

In that department, I suppose I still could use work. It's given me a lot to think about.

In the trip, we had a heart to heart discussion with everyone. In a circle. We talked about the weaknesses and strengths of each people.

I admittedly mentioned that I was secluding myself from people and the reason was I couldn't find friends that had the same kind of mindset with me. I don't like hanging out with people who don't really have clear directions in life. Cuz they're gonna affect me sooner or later.

Sometimes I feel like I should'nt be too judgemental of friends. But from another point of view, how can I help it if I really feel like I don't fit in anywhere?

A friend mentioned that I don't always finished what I started. I get all excited over a new idea, and then *poof!* my enthusiasm and my energy VANISHES. I find that really true. In many ways.

I kind of lack that "stickability" that makes you 'see things through to the end'

It happened A LOT. I thanked him for pointing that out. Gotta work on that.

Generally I don't have a lot of 'stickability'. It's like, I don't have a specific group of friends. I haven't been in a relationship, and I have this ability to go *poof* just like that from anyone's life. It's kind of a weird ability, but it's both good and bad depending on how you look at it.

Yeah, and loads of other stuff. Can't really remember. But I remember not having enough sleep at all.

So yesterday when I got back I slept from 8pm to 8am the next morning

Lovely shit.

And I enjoyed making horny jokes in the trip. Was fun.

I'm sure I gave the new members a real "EXPERIENCE" oho =)

There was one dude who had to do this dare where he had to shake everyone's hand

I shaked his hand and kissed it. Lovely. Hoho... =))))

Oh, and lately, I kind of discovered that corporate life is kind of .... SUCKY? Yeap, not that I experienced it first hand, ohhh no, I just had a SMALL taste of it. And it tastes like crap. Enjoy your student life while it lasts, you'll miss it when the time comes =)

Hate your lecturer all you want, but I'll promise you you'll feel like KILLING yourself when you have a boss =)

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When I was watching philip de franco talk about the japanese tsunami, it was really kind of touching

His mom called him cuz she was worried that he was in venice at the time of the flood, but he was actually in texas at the time.

Then phil said, there are people in the world who called their family, and no one picked up.

When you think about it. It's true. And it's really sad at the same time.

And it made me feel like I'm not doing anything to help people. Not even donating whatever money I have or anything of the sort. When you think of it seriously, humans are nothing without each other, that's why we have all the reasons to help one another. And I don't feel like I'm really doing anything to make a difference. And that thought kills me inside sometimes.

It seems that natural disasters have taken a really huge toll on things. One after another. I'll be shitting my pants when one day Malaysia is no longer safe. Think about it, if this continues not even Malaysia will be safe.

It's so weird, we are so powerless when it comes to natural disasters. Are they really god's punishment to us, if he exists? I'm speaking for both believers and non - believers here.

War is going on in Libya, and well it seems like the bad guys are gonna win this time. Oh, well, it's always about oil isn't it?

Did my writting style change? Yes, a little bit. Hoho, must be philip de franco's influence on me. His shows are good, I like it. He's good at what he does =) So do check him out, and incase you really are curious, I have one of his videos down right here, so do enjoy =D

On a side note, this really is one of his good ones =)

tata ~
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It's rare to feel this way

2011-03-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt that kind of fear?

The fear where, you don't really understand what is it about?

Yes, that fear where, you don't know what or you don't know when or you don't know how

Have you ever?

Yes, I have, several times. To me, I started to wonder what it is all about?

Why is it that some people who are really successful are still happy even though they have way bigger problems than most people could think of?

Does it come with the package of being successful? Is happiness automatically included in that package? What about that special kind of fear?

If you don't know what kind of fear I am talking about, it is quite alright. You may or may not have been through it

But maybe, just maybe, this feeling... this fear, comes from being insecure about something.

I feel vulnerable in that state. I feel like someone could just say words that attack straight to my heart in those moments. But I hold back and pray nothing happens

If so, then what am I insecure about? Is there something that I lack in my life?

If I was not insecure, then I would face my challenges more bravely, and perhaps I wouldn't be so.... morbid?

Being successful sure is a challenge. I respect people who are successful very much. I want to be like them. Just like them.

I wonder if they ever felt insecure about themselves ever? I don't know, but I know one thing

If they did feel insecure about themselves

they always came clean with themselves, always staying honest and truthful to themselves

Not many people realize that they deny their feelings at least half the time

Remember the time when you wanted to ask a question in class but didn't?

Remember that time when you wanted to talk to that girl in a polite manner without intentions, but didn't?

Remember that time, when you really just wanted something so bad, but never it in you to take action?

Yeah, sometimes, or more often than not, we aren't so truthful with our own feelings.

Maybe that's where my insecurity lies?

I don't really understand myself either. It feels like there are a lot of things I would like to talk about but I can't find the words to express them.

We live in a really judgmental world. It's normal to feel insecure in front of people's eyes.

The important thing would be, never to run away when people do judge you.

I started to realize a lot of things about... working adults. So that's just a small feeling of what it feels like to have a boss?

My oh my, the feeling sucks. I'm thankful I only have lecturers now HAHA!

At least I'm a little prepared, at least I know a little bit of what it feels like. But hey, I'm starting to appreciate student life already XD

So what is it that I feel so insecure about?

Is it the fact that I might not be loved? But hey, I'm sure my parents and family love me... But do I love them back? I do not know.

It's hard for me to express myself in certain ways. Sometimes words don't do as much good as action. Sometimes.

But maybe, most of the time. Will I ever find out why am I so insecure?

Am I? Or maybe it's just, an illusion in such a way that I simply crave attention by telling people how insecure I am? Maybe... or maybe not.

Maybe this insecurity comes from not knowing what the future holds?

Maybe it comes from not knowing what responsibilities lie ahead?

Yes, maybe. Decisions are hard. Especially when you're not prepared for it.

But hey, life was never that easy to begin with. That's what makes it worth living for, anyway.

I started to think, maybe, just maybe, everyone has insecurities?

Yes, I think most of us or even all of us do. But why do we hide our insecurities from each other?

Fear? Because we are afraid about what others would say?

Yes..... That would make sense. Or maybe we are just afraid that people won't accept our insecurities?

You know, we hide a lot of things from each other. Humans do. All the time. Even when I'm with others, I rarely do show everything about me. And I believe there are a few sides of me.

Some of my friends know all of me, some just know a few parts of me, and some know only one part of me. We do act differently in different groups of friends.

Sometimes, you just don't know what to say.

They say you have to change in order to be the change. It's easier to change yourself than to change someone else. That's true

So I always wondered, how much do I have to change, really? Maybe I'm just staying still and not really changing at all? Maybe I'm not always facing the problems head on like I thought I was doing?

I always wondered if I would succeed. There is doubt still in me.

What if I go into the adult world and become like everyone else?

Yeah... What if after all the dreams I have in my head, I STILL end up like EVERYONE ELSE?!?!?

What if I fail my relationships?

What if I never get married?

What if I just live a normal, simple, unsatisfying life?

What if my dreams are gone?

I don't know the answers to those questions...

Sometimes I just wish god or whoever created us would just tell us those answers that we want to hear.

Why?

Because with all this dreaming I have, maybe those dreams will just stay as dreams and never come true...

Why?

It just feels... Like I'm straying from what I want to do

Do I really want this?

I feel like I'm really not doing what I want to do.

But I said I would do it. So I don't have a choice. I must.

Because successful people do what they said they would do no matter what.

Not because they feel like it, but because they SAID it.

if you go back on your word, you lose respect from others, and worst of all, you lose respect from yourself.

But I have. So many times. Went back on my words. Not doing things I said I would do.

I hate it. So much. That feeling bites at me like a huge hole is in my heart.

Why am I like this? Why can't I just change? And why am I just complaining about it here in this blog and never really doing anything about it?

I really just.... don't understand myself. Why???? Is it because I'm doing something I don't want to do?

But I said I would do it..

But I this isn't what I want to do...

But successful people do what unsuccessful people don't do....

But I feel unsatisfied...

But taking up responsibilities are a good practice so long as you fulfill it.

Is it?

I don't know.

I'm not making much sense to myself.

But does it matter? Not really.

I'm just

Confused.

Will dreams really just stay a dream?

Am I really just a normal guy?

I want to be so much more to the world.

I want my life to mean something.

Will it really be meaningless?

Is giving up on something you don't want to do, still considered giving up?

Like your job? If you hate your job with a passion, is quitting considered giving up?

Is it??? Sometimes it is for the best.

What about what people think? You said you would do it.

Yes I did. Yes I did.... Then I should just do it and stop complaining and start facing the problems and fears that I have deep down and make a change make a mark and make dreams come true. Why not?

I'm just.... so afraid. Maybe things won't work out, maybe things will be bad.

I hate living up to other people's expectations. What about my expectations?

Hate it. Hate. I.t.

And now

Comes the worst thing about me

When I am down

I always feel

I should never trouble people with my problems

I never look for my friends when I have problems

I never talk to them about my serious emotional problems, when they happen

Never.

That part about me just really sucks.

It's like there aren't any friends that I can trust.

Why can't I just open up? Man. I'm such an anti-social guy when it comes to that kind of thing.

It's probably the fear, but it's gonna eat me up at this rate.

There are people who I could talk to.

But I choose not to. Instead I distract myself by doing other stuff.

How long am I gonna avoid the problems I face in my life?

What is keeping me from talking to people?

I just don't get myself sometimes.

I will never be a leader unless I learn to connect with people.

Nor will I ever be able to love someone else, if I don't start loving myself first.

Sometimes I wonder

Is it better to never go through this kind of phase?

There are people who don't have this kind of problem. Does that mean that I might be making progress?

If problems never ever occur in one's life, then one's life is seriously in trouble.

I'm really not able to make real decisions right now.

I want to make the decision to make a change.

But I can't right now... It just feels so.. disheartening.

Mm... I should stop right here, I've expressed enough. Anymore would do no good for me.

I'll lighten up again, no worries =)

the bright side is that maybe this phase happened for a reason

Just maybe, but it's still a small glimmer of hope, and that's all I need =)

Thanks, if you read this far, it's been a pleasure writing for whoever enjoys reading this blog =) Even though I'm a bit weird at times HAHA! XD

Thanks folks, tataaaaa~~! =)

Tyre Pancit!!!!!!!! O,o!!!

2011-03-11T08:13:00.000-08:00

WOOHOOOOOOOOOO~!!! WHAT A GREAT DAYYYYYYYYY!!!

No, Really XD I made it safe home!

HAHA!!

Ok ok, ACTUALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

today, I went out bak kut teh with my friends! =DDDD

IT WAS GREATTT~!!! Went with wayne, hwei, aaron and angela!!!

HAHAHA!! It was really funny as always!!! Me and aaron click really well HAHAHAH!!

We both exagerate each other's imaginations and come up with some SERIOUSLY weird and silly jokes but I still think they are funny XDDDD

OH MAN! Seriously love them la! HAHA! Such a great night out with great friends!

Wait wait, after eating bak kut teh in kepong kaka, we WENT TO KOTA DAMANSARA!!

WE HAD DESSERTTTTTTTTTTTT!!! (OMG I FEEL SO FAT RIGHT NOW! XD)

It's a place called SNOWFLAKE!! OMG SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS SO DAMN YUMMYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! XDDDD

THE SHOP WAS PACKEDDD!!

Had another session of laughter and jokes XDDDD I was always ejek-ing hwei by making lame jokes!!

me : Hwei! We should write an article called 10 steps to get fat! XD

Hwei : har???

me : Step 1) bak kut teh at kaka!!!
Step 2) then snowflake at KOTA DAMANSARA! XD
Step 3) REPEAT STEPS 1 AND 2 BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! XDDDDDDDDD

Hwei : That was only 3 steps!

Aaron : Step 4 is repeat step 1 and 2 and 3

me : HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Aaron : then step 5 is repeat step 1 and 2 and 3 and 4!

me : ROFLMAO!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! SERIOUSLY!!!!

LMAOOOO!!

Seriously good laughs! Felt so happy XDDDDD

But but, while driving from kepong to kota damansara, I actually forgot to brake and my car went over the bump VERY hard.

So!!! The van was making (my lovely awesome van XD) some very loud noises

We couldn't figure out what the heck it was??!?!?!?

Then I tot something wrong with the engine, but still can move wor

SO! After eating dessert at snowflake (IT WAS AWESOME! I tried their best seller!! The TAROU BALLS ARE SO DAMN DELICIOUSSS!!!! KIAAAAAAA!! XDDD)

We drove home~!!!

After fetching wayne home, went to aaron's house to send him back and pick up angela's stuff

And then and then... after I drove off, Aaron called Angela

he said my van was like tilted one side, might be tyre puncture

So! We drove to angela's place, and then got down to check

TRUE ENOUGH!!

ROFL!! No wonder I felt my right side of my body like lower!! LMAO!!!

And I still drove at 100km/h XDDD man I'm one LUCKYYYYYYY driver HAHAHAHA!!!

I'm ALIVEEEEE~!!

After that hwei told me. SIAH. DRIVE. SLOW!!!!!!!!

LOL!!! HAHAHA!

Okay la, I actually value my life abit so I drove below 80 XD for the rest of the way home

Before hwei got down she told me to text her when I get home incase anything happens (CHOI! XD)

HAHA! But I got home safe! The rubber from the punctured tyre had a burnt smell though. Must be because it really had no more air. It was REALLY flat. Like really. XD

Ahhhh~!! Good day good day~!! XD I'm alive and everyone was alive! Other than the tyre puncture incident I nearly got into an accident to on the way to kota damansara.

NEARLY didn't break in time XD Thank god wayne told me to brakeee XDDD car in front suddenly braked. HAHA! Man I guess I am really lucky! XD

I wonder how long my luck will last??

PRAY FOR MEEE~!! =DDD

Told my dad already, he probably gonna change it tomorrow =)

Oh yea! On the way home, I listened to a nice old song

So meaningful! =D I've heard it before, so I youtube'd it =D It's great =)

When I first saw you, I saw love
And the first time you touched me, I felt love
And after all this time, you're still the one I love

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
You're still the one

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

shania twain - you're still the one

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Life is for Living

2011-03-06T08:28:00.000-08:00

I just finished reading a book

Have I said I'm starting to be in love with books nowadays?

After finishing it, I had tingling sensations inside. Life really is worth living

I haven't been honest with myself lately.

I'm the one making myself feel rejected. Ah, what a fool I am!

The book was a story about how a working woman, had to deal with so many life conflicts.

Came a guy who brightened up her life and thought her how to live life with his child-like ways.

Sometimes having fun just means being a child again.

But she could only see him for a short period of time.

He would disappear after a few months, but she did not know that

Once he has helped her, he must move on to help another person, and hence she no longer sees him. He disappears.

It was a really great romance story.

Surprised that I read romance books? Yeah, I've started to take a real interest into them =) It's really great.

Even after he was gone, his memories still remain.

How he made her smile again, when everyday for her was just work, problems and unhappiness.

And it was as simple as being true to yourself.

After I read the last page, it made me feel, maybe I'm not being truthful to me either.

But how? In my situation, it's not easy to be honest.... With how I feel.

It's been so long since I liked a girl

It's easy to like someone, I realized. But to love someone, that's a whole different story

I wonder if I loved? I don't know for sure. Maybe. Maybe not.

But I respect people who make decisions.

I place that respect over anything else.

If I am unable to be a friend, then I will lose that feeling and then come back to be a friend

That is why, until then, I must stay away.

To forget. Then once I'm okay again, I shall return. To be a friend again.

Otherwise it will just get in the way. So that is why. Though it is really not easy, but I know I can do it.

I still hope to be friends. So that is why I must forget.

Breathe.

It's possible. I can do it. I've done it before. For the sake of the friendship.

Even if people tell me, it's not possible to not care for someone you've cared for before

I know I can do it, because it's all in the mind. I have to keep trying. Do my best. And do what it takes.

I've been looking for things to keep me distracted. I've finished playing mass effect 2 (about 60 hours of gameplay)

I feel like I'm just avoiding myself, and my emotions. It hasn't worked that well for me. And there is work to be done as well soon.

That cold exterior that I put on me. I'm just really crying out for help. Before I erase this and go back to my cold self. I must at least put this down in writing without regrets

Every single letter I type, I feel like deleting. A part of me doesn't want me to be honest with myself. Even though to me honesty is so important. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so guilty about myself.

Come on dan... you gotta smile. You gotta get back up again. You can be friends again. It's still possible. Right?

What's this? Giving up already? Since when are you the kind of guy who quits? Your not like those people who give up half way and just justify themselves by criticizing others faults.

That's... right... I'm not a quitter. Quitters never win. It's those who do not quit when they feel like quitting, who really make it in life. Where everyone else turns back, you still move on without looking back.

That's what I should be like.

And in the end...

I'm sure

I'll find somone

to love

because I too wish to be loved as badly as any other human being on the planet

I'll be

sure to love

that person

back.

Because I know what it's like to be unloved.

And I don't blame anyone for me being unloved. It is me closing myself off to everyone else. It's just how I brought myself up. I really need to change that.

5 years. As long as I keep my focus on that goal. I will be fine. Only less than 2000 days away. I can't wait =)

It's something to look forward to.

Can you imagine living life without a purpose? Without a goal?

It's like your just in life to survive

People can survive, but I want to LIVE life.

So that's why I create my own purposes.

Find my own reason to live. Not just to survive. But to understand life. Live it. Find happiness

Now that I know I'll be married in 5 years

I have something to really look forward to =)

People often wonder

Will it really happen? 5 years? Will you really get married by then?

My answer

If you believe you can walk there, you can walk there. If you believe you can't, then you can't.

Tell me, can you really step out of your house if you don't believe it's possible?

What if I told you there are armed robbers outside the house planning to kill you?

You no longer believe.

It's so simply to kill someone's belief. Just tell them they can't do it.

But don't let it happen to you. Equip yourself with the skills and the attitude, and breakthrough

Otherwise you'll be in the house your whole life not knowing when it's ever safe to come out

It'll never be safe. Until you believe. When you believe you'll find ways to make it happen

Outside, there never were robbers, it's just what people tell you.

Even if it wasn't true, you BELIEVED them.

Your life is determined by what you believe in. Them? Or yourself?

When people tell you you can't do it, you BELIEVE them. And really! you really can't do it.

So that is why, I believe. In 5 years time. It will happen. Several months after my 25th birthday.

It'll happen.

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Hmmm!!

I feel a little better, I guess being honest helps =) But I still think I can be more honest.

Just a matter of time =)

HAHA! It's strange, sometimes you feel like you are a stranger to yourself.

Books are really great. Did I say that they are the best investments I have ever made?

Oh, but this romance book was from a friend =) We have traded books! I need to thank her again when I see her =)

I borrowed her 1 book, and she borrowed me 3! Can you imagine! So generous of her! XD I still have 2 more books to read. Can't wait!

Things can be in your control. But I shall probably talk about that another day. I need rest today =)

I've had a long day finishing mass effect 2 . GREAT GAME! Can't wait for mass effect 3. It's gonna be UBER awesoemmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!! XD

Oh yes! Since I'm feeling happier now, I have a song I like! =D It's called

"All You Wanted" by Michelle Branch =))))))

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

=)

The Pretender

2011-03-04T07:00:00.000-08:00

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in again
They need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready
Are you ready?

I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense

Spinning infinity
Boy, the wheel is spinning me
It's never ending, never ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

In time or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale, oh well
The page is out of print, we are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

I'm the voice inside your head you refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face, mirrorin' your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right, I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that'll take you down, bring you to your knees
So who are you? Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you? Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark, you know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say you're not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

So who are you? Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

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WTH?!?! FEMALE TAIWAN STARCRAFT CHAMPION?!?!?!?!

2011-02-28T08:35:00.000-08:00

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!

WTF!?!??!!??!!?!?!?!??!!?

ANOTHER HOT BABE THAT TOTALLY ROCKS YOUR FRIGGING SOCKS!!!

TAKE A LOOK AT THIS

WHAT THE?!?!? FOR THOSE WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND CHINESE, HERE'S THE TRANSLATION!!!!

English Translate:

Female News Caster: From the entertainment industry comes a girl that makes Taiwan proud. She is the female celebrity Linda. Many would know that she comes from a wealthy family, daughter to the owner of ShowTime Cinemas. Other than her singing and acting career, not many would know that she is also a professional gamer. She has already been playing games for the past 10 years. In the early morning of 2am, she took part in an online international cup for female gamers which lasted for 4 hours and she defeated 30 other gamers around the world to win the title of champion. On behalf of her, the official website has put up the flag of Taiwan and her fans give her thumbs up and praise her for being the pride of Taiwanese eSports.

Linda (00: 30): There's a bit of worry of losing the game. (exclaims ahh:) It's beginning to countdown!
Female Narrator: Linda, fully focused on the game has no moments to talk, she has her eyes fixed onto the monitor, and she is not even blinking. She just came back from her work and started up her game immediately.

Linda (00: 45): I'm currently playing against Zerg.
Female Narrator: Do not look lightly at her, as she just took down 30 other gamers at midnight on November 1st, and won the title of ESL SC2 female international champion for this game.

Linda: (00: 57): I've not get the chance to close my eyes for the past 48 hours. There is actually still 2 hours before work starts again after the cup, but I was too excited, and my hands were trembling from the excitement till the point that there was no blood flowing through my hands.
Female Narrator: On the online tournament format at the 1st position is the flag of Chinese Taipei and the game nickname that Linda is using. At the same time on Facebook, many comments were dedicated to her efforts in playing in this cup to represent Taiwan. Linda says that she had spent the past four hours playing against the 30 other gamers worldwide, and has spent 3 months of practicing against 3 million other users online. Her best records are playing consecutively for 4 days of games while not sleeping, and for winning this female division of the online cup, she has been given the title of 'Gaming Queen' in Taiwan.

The organisers has regulated that the microphone must be on at all times, and when they talk to me 'hello hello', I must reply back to them 'Hi, I'm here, yes yes'. When they are not talking to me, the organisers will be speaking in their German language or English. I was constantly stretching my hands whenever I got the chance during the cup as it was very intense. *Linda shakes her hands*

Female Narrator: Linda has recently taken a fellow entertainment industry colleague, Bai XinHui as student, and both of them often play games together online. Linda states that after winning this cup, she aims to strive to become the next online gaming champion and become the pride of Taiwan online

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WHAT THE HELL!??!!?!

HOW DO YOU FIND SUCH A HOT FEMALE GAMER?!?!?! WTF?!?!

CHAMPION!??!

I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO FRIGGING PLAY STARCRAFT 2 FOR GODS SAKEE!! XDDD

FEMALE GAMERS ARE SEXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY@!!! XDDD

IT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU CAN SOMEHOW RELATE TO THEM EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE GIRLSSSSSSSSSSSS!! XDDDD

THAT'S JUST F***ING SEXYYYYYYYYYYYYY!! XDDDDD

AND SHE'S A CHAMPION IN DIAMOND'S FEMALE CATEGORY?!?!?

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS DIAMOND'S CATEGORY BUT THAT'S STILL IMPRESSIVE NONETHELESS!! xDDDD

OH MY GOD!! YOUR SO CUTE!!!! ALMOST AS CUTE AS THE HOTTEST TEACHER IN CHINA!!! XDDD (refer to my post on the hottest teacher in china XD)

HOW DOES THIS HOT BABE.... TURN INTO....

THIS?!?!?!?!

THIS!?!?!?

Linda Liao:StarCraft II ESL Male Champion Linda Liao joins Team Razer
Razer announces its sponsorship of the celebrity-gamerat multi-talented Taipei Game Show 2011.

Taipei Game Show, Taiwan, February 18, 2011 – Razer, the world leader today marks Precision Gaming, added StarCraft II Most Valuable Player and Taiwanese artist Linda Liao its stable of professional players. This sponsorship deal represents the interests of Taiwan to the Razer eSport scene dynamics, following its collaboration with Taiwan best games of Spider Wayi team last year.

An avid gamer, Linda StarCraft II records are mindboggling. She has accumulated more than 800 games across excluding those on the European servers to refine their skills, paired with hours to watch replays of South Korea pro-gamer. His APM (Actions Per Minute) soars to an average of 220, a figure constantly improving, it is on. For another advantage, she studied the online forums to gather advice and tips from other enthusiasts StarCraft. Because of her dedication, she has mastered the Protoss race, showing an understanding of the amazing race coupled with an intrinsic knowledge of the game.

Linda Liao dedication “Pikachu” game earned her StarCraft II Diamond Rank # 1 in Asia, but her current rank and ESL Championship is not enough for her. Linda partnership with us to improve his game and build her legacy through more battles, victories and championships.

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SO WHAT?!?! THAT'S STILL FREAKING AMAZING!!!

(#&!@)*(#&*)!@*&#)!@*#*!#(

Spot her?

HEHE

BY THE WAY. DID YOU KNOW SHE'S ALSO 30 FREAKING YEARS OLD LIKE THAT SEXY HOT CHINA TEACHER?!?!?! 30?!?!!? WHY ARE GIRLS BORN IN 1981 SO FUCKING HOT?!?!?! AND I DON'T EVEN BOTHER TO CENSOR IT THIS TIME!!@

Team Razer, following their signing of BoxeR and his team, SlayerS, has picked up one of the better known and no doubt the most popular female Starcraft II players out there at the moment, Linda ‘Pikachu’ Liao. Linda Liao (born on the 24th of May, 1981) is a celebrity model, singer and actress. This Taiwanese native came to fame through notable film performances and multiple features on well-known lifestyle magazines. Linda also has a wide range of television appearances from music videos to being a video jockey (VJ) for MTV Mandarin. Yet under all the fame and glamor of Linda lies a unique passion.

GORGEOUS

AMAZING

MAY I JOIN YOU PLEASE?!?!?!?!?!?!

YOU STILL LOOK FINE WITH YOUR HAIR MESSED UP !!!

CUTE!

OO-LALA!! XDDD

Like my chinese speaking classmate always says... "BEAUTYYYYYYYYYYY!!!" XDDD

NICE!!!!!! XD

LOVELY LEGS!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*heart* heart*

OH YEA!!

So that's ALL FOR NOW!! XDDD

Can't believe chicks like this REALLY exist.

Can you believe this world?

next thing you'll see a gorilla playing starcraft

I joke I joke XD

Who knows?!?! Life is seriously crazy.

So why take life so seriously? HAVE FUN.

JUST LIKE HOW I HAD FUN OGGLING AND DROOLING OVER HER PICTURES!! XDDD

BWAHAHAHAHA!!!

NIGHTZ PEEPS! I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT IM SURE GONNA HAVE SWEET DREAMS!! XDDD

p.s. I read somewhere that she can go on for 4 days of straight gaming... WTF!!?!?!?! HOW CAN SHE STILL LOOK SO GOOD??!?!?!?!!??! man... must be something Taiwanese people eat XD

WRITTING ON ZE HAND?!?!!??!?

2011-02-24T07:40:00.000-08:00

LOLLLL!!

Todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I

was

ABUSED BY MY CLASSMATESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! T_T

AT LEAST 5 PEOPLE WERE CONTENG-ING MY WHOLE FRIGGING ARM!!!!!!

)#*$*)!(*#(!@**$&!@$&*!@#$()*@!#*!@#!@

WHAT THE HELL?!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? THIS IS ABUSE!! CHILD ABUSE!! XDDDD

HAHAHAHA! AND I HAD TO DO A PRESENTATION IN CLASS WITH ALL THOSE WRITTINGS ON MY HAND!!! LOL!!!!!

What did the writings say????

"I AM GAY, PLEASE CALL ME"

"THIS IS MY NUMBER 01X-XXXXXXX"

"I'M SO DESPERATE PLEASE FXXX ME!!"

THERE WERE ALSO DRAWINGS LIKE A CHICKEN WHICH HAS A PENIS (they said it's supposed to be me)

AND SOME SERIOUSLY WEIRD SHIT LA OMG!!!! T_T

Ah, yes, so it was QUITE A WEIRD PRESENTATION. ROFL.

My teacher said "just wait for his mom to see those" LOLOLOL!!

To be honest when I came home she was more worried about the ink than the writings HAHAHA!

Oh yes, did I mention... after college I went to digital mall? ROFL!

THE POLICEMAN WAS LOOKING AT ME WITH SOME WEIRD LOOK!!!

IT MUST'VE BEEN THE STUPID WRITINGS!!! I SWEAR HE WAS GONNA ARREST ME FOR BEING A SUSPECTED DRUG ADDICT OR SOMETHING!!!

CURSE YOU CLASSMATES! YOUR PUTTING ME INTO SO MUCH TROUBLE!!!!!

THIS IS BULLY!!!!!!!! T_T

Why isit I'm so easy to bully punya... T_T *emo*

THE WHOLE OF DIGITAL MALL THOUGHT I WAS SOME GANGSTER WITH SOME FRIGGING TATOO ON BOTH MY ARMS OKAY!! I COULD TELL THAT THEY WERE AFRAID OF ME WHEN I TRIED TO BUY THINGS!! LOL!!!

(^$!&@)*#&!&(&!#&!@#*!%&(!#*!@

But other than that, it was a pretty eventful day! (okay, maybe its BECAUSE of these writings =.=)

Oh yes............ THE WRITINGS HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO COME OFF! BECAUSE MY FRIGGING CLASSMATE USED PERMANENT MARKER! AT LEAST PITY ME A BIT LA USE WHITE BOARD MARKER AT LEAST CAN COME OFF RIGHT?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? *!)#)(*!@#(!@

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hahahahaha! Man, life sure can get fun XD

I started reading a new book, it's called questions are the answers.

Wow. WOW.

What a GREAT book! Really! I didn't realize... you could talk to people like that.

It totally didn't occur to me at all. The author is a genius in talking and communicating with people.

But I have to put it into practice. No point just knowing it, although I guess it's better than not knowing it at all.

Hmmmmm, I'm just worried that I might not put in the effort to practice it. But hey, instead of worrying I should just do it.

After reading a few other books, I understand my personality type and my love language. At least now, I have a clearer understanding of myself. That's really good, but I still have to put em all into practice.

Isn't it great? Personal development and growth... Wow. I didn't think it would be so good. It would be a waste not to develop yourself.

There is so much to learn. It's just so exciting! Isn't life exciting?

Life without lifelessly going on facebook over and over to check notifications is actually... pretty okay.

More than what I expected it to be. It isn't so bad once you get used to it.

There is more books to read! I can't wait to buy them and finish reading them. There is a lot to learn! =)

I also started borrowing books to my friends. Borrowed out about 4 books already! Maybe I could ask them to borrow me their books too! =D

Knowledge is too good to be kept to yourself. It could help someone whom you don't even know. Who knows right? So I think it's a good idea to expose it to people. It'll be great.

I don't really expect anything in return. As long as the enjoy reading them, I'm pretty glad already! =D

Maybe someday, I'll really be able to write a book of my own! =D That would be a wonderful day...

But today I was sort of moody in the morning and afternoon, didn't have much energy to do work in class. Though it was pretty okay after we started having some good laughs with the writtings XD

Hm. I should really start sleeping earlier once again. Maybe =)

Tomorrow! It's time to climb! Yeah, my finger... hm. I don't know the condition. It feels... okay, but still a bit painful. But I should be able to manage if I take it easy. Don't wanna get injured now do I? Less finger training, more distance traversing.

Hm. I wonder how the weekends will be like? Maybe I should take the initiative to ask some people to go out. Oh yea! Just remembered I have to book the badminton court... I can get forgetful sometimes! =)

Hope I remember tomorrow.

Well, that's all for now, it was overall a pretty good day! Was a little moody due to lack of sleep. Will rest now! Tata!!! =DDD

p.s. WHEN WILL THIS WRITTING FADE OFF DAMMIT?!?!??!!??! *!#&!&$(!(*&#*@!

Kepongggggggggggg~! I FEEL SO PREGNANT RIGHT NOW

2011-02-23T07:31:00.000-08:00

OH.

MY.

FRIGGING.

GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!

I'VE NEVER EATEN SO FULL BEFOREEEEEEE!!!

LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!

That was a very EPIC and very STOMACH-FILLING bbq and steamboat SESSION LOLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!

I SERIOUSLY FEEL PREGNANT RIGHT NOW! STEPPING ON THE ACCELERATOR AND PULLING THE HANDBRAKE FEELS SO DAMN HARD TO DO!! XDDDDD

Oh man.... That was... I'm speechless, really.

Haha! It was a pretty great time! I haven't been to a bbq/steamboat beforeeee~!

Once again I've not seen Bianca since our lunch a KBU! It's good to see her again~!

Wayne eats a HELL lot man. I eat a lot la, but in the long run, he has better eating stamina ROFLMAO!!!

It's like I'm a sprint eater and he's a marathon eater HAHAHAHAHA!!

Hwei is always the same! =D Cute and funny as always! =DDD HAHA! Man, good times, good times! =D

Meow couldn't make it though, maybe we'll see her next time~! =)

IT FEELS LIKE I CAN GO ON WITHOUT EATING FOR 3 DAYS RIGHT NOW XDDD

Sure is good to go out with friends. I guess staying home too much gets boring after a while XD The busy times resume again.

Was looking forward to it the whole day~! =D

Talked about some funny stuff after eating XDDD

IM SURE BIANCA MISSED MY PERVERTED JOKES BWAHAHAHHAHAH! XD Had a good laugh! =D

Bianca : Eh, drive van today? Where's your Unser?

Me : Where's your question? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd

SERIOUSLY MANNNNNNNN!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Drove them home after eating, just like the old days~! =)))

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Ahh, peaceful days.

I've been more into reading books now adays. Did I say that before?

Hm, don't think so, but yea! I start to love books more nowadays. Books are great friends when none are around.

It's surprising, how some books can really speak to your heart and soul.

Everyone of us carries our own rhythm with us. The music of our own soul. Sometimes books really speak right into your soul. It's something very special in my opinion.

It's almost like a friend who doesn't judge you, but instead talks to you and allows you to sort things out.

After reading a bit, I started to see the areas in which I can improve myself, to make myself a better individual, and in being so, I can help myself and others. In various ways.

Learning from books is great, because the author is bestowing his experience onto you. It's valuable. Years and years of experienced poured into producing that kind of book. It's special. I started to value books more after becoming a more at home guy.

I wish to trade books with friends someday. Maybe there are people who have really good books that I can read sometime. I can't wait. I sure have changed. At least my attitude towards books has changed.

There are books on relationships, love, courage, success, confidence, speaking to people, and tons and tons of books. A lot of experience and knowledge in those books that is simply priceless. Books are really the best investment I've ever made. It's in a sense even better than playing games.

I always always feel that, this change in lifestyle, perhaps really isn't so bad after all. With change, you start to see life in a different way. You can even learn to enjoy it in that different kind of way. If I just stuck to my old ways and never changed, I might have never understood how valuable books are.

A succesful man once said.

Leaders are readers. Read.

Leaders cast vision. By knowing where you want to go, others will automatically follow you if you have the confidence to lead the way.

Leaders have integrity. When you have integrity, it means you say what you SAY you are going to DO.

If you say your going to do it, then DO IT. Don't just say it.

Otherwise, you have no integrity. You are a liar.

Leaders don't make excuses

Leaders don't judge people

Leaders concentrate on how to improve themselves instead of blaming and hating others.

Leaders understand how to build strong bonds with others and work in a team.

Most of all, leaders are able to love themselves, and by loving themselves they are able to love everyone else. Even their enemies. That's true leadership.

I too, wonder if I can be a good leader.

It's true, that at this point, I'm still.. Incomplete in many ways, from the man that I want to be.

Nothing should stop me. As long as I keep believing it seriously, and keep thinking about it, someday..... It will come true. And even if it doesn't, then I don't stop trying until it happens.

I will admit that, though there is a lot of hardship, but it doesn't compare to what most people face. I know that I can't change what's already happened, but at least I can learn from what I've done, and don't make the same mistakes in the future.

There is still some doubt in me. But, if I start learning to love myself more.... If I have the courage to really start loving myself more and making myself feel more emotionally secure. Then I can get rid of all doubt

Like that guy. That guy is so full of confidence and he has no self doubt about himself. Simply amazing, that's what got him so far in life. When people meet him, people understand what an incredible aura of confidence he has just from meeting him! When you look into his eyes, his eyes look into your soul.

He understands people's hearts. He knows how to lead people. He knows how to believe in what he believes in. He knows how not to care about what others think about him. Most of all, he knows how to love himself.

Someone as successful as him, I can learn much from just watching him speak. I am utterly impressed at his self-confidence and self-worth. Simply. Spectacular. Thank you, for speaking, on that day, because I never knew I could learn so much from a man. Not just your words. But your posture, the way you stand, the way you speak. It tells a lot. Body language.

I was looking at a real man. Someone who knows where he's going, what he wants to do, how he's going to do it, by when he's going to do it. He has a goal. A real direction. I don't meet many men like that, not even my dad. He is a good role model. I always needed a good role model to follow as a guy. Not many are around.

In the journey of self improvement, I have to learn to fully love myself first. Just like he does. If I can't do that, then I can never find real happiness. Because I'll always judge myself, and always be unhappy, and always be unsatisfied with life. It's not what I want.

This change is good, although a little quiet sometimes. I like being around activity. But I know that this change is good.

You can't expect life to give you a good and easy path. It's those who take the hard path who eventually find real happiness. You might lead an average normal life, travelling the normal path, but it does not compare to the personal growth and development of taking the hard path. Every successful person can vouch for this.

There is no shortcut to success. There is only one road. The road of hardships. You will be met with all kinds of obstacles and challenges

And if you have the thinking like "oh, I don't feel like doing things I don't like" then you'll have a hard time for sure, and possibly never make it. Why?

Because life doesn't always give you what YOU like to do. Stop being selfish and start doing things that unsuccessful people would never do.

Like take up a huge responsibility and finishing it to the end. Giving up means that you have just give up on yourself. It's going to cost you a lot of self-esteem and self-belief.

Like exposing yourself to more knowledge that the world has to offer. Most people just live in their shells and just think about themselves. That's silly. There's so much things to learn about the world, and here we are thinking "Hey, I'm smart enough, I know everything, what is there to learn anyway? I'm good enough as it is"

You never stop learning as a human being. And if your going to close yourself off to more knowledge, then it's your own loss, no one else's

It's crazy. What I see is just pure focus. Focus focus and focus. That guy just keeps going and going and going and going. Relentlessly pursuing his goals. Non-stop. Full on out. Without a doubt. Like a bullet train. I need that kind of focus. I need that kind of stubborn-ess. I need that kind of energy and motivation and spirit. It is something that most people can only hope to have.

The burning desire to achieve your dreams, no matter what the cost, you desire it so BADLY that you would rather DIE than not achieve it.

You think it's easy to want something? Most people just "want" it.

But succesful people WANT it. WANT it with a burning DESIRE. They WANT IT so BADLY that they would do ANYTHING to achieve it.

That's what differentiates normal people from successful ones. Is it any wonder that they are where they are right now?

They WANT it so bad, that if they had to TALK to people even if they don't like TALKING to people, they would DO IT

They WANT it so bad, if they had to READ BOOKS, they would READ them even if they HATE READING.

They WANT it so bad, even if it takes more than 5 YEARS to achieve it, they would do it, and not give up half way or even way before that.

It's all about knowing how to want something. Once you really truly want something, then your body does what it has to do to achieve it.

It is so much more on a subconscious level than we think it is.

Come on Danny Siah. I know your tired. I know you have a lot of problems that you have to deal with. I know that your studies is getting heavier as time goes by. I know that you have gone through some hardships in the past.

But none of that really matters. What really matters is what you want. Don't you want to get married? By 25?

Don't you want to change the world? Don't you want to help people with their lives? Don't you want to learn how to love yourself and others?

Yes. I do. I do.... I do. Very much. I want all those things, and more. Very badly. If I never achieve those things in my lifetime, then I would regret living this life. I don't want to die with regrets. I want to achieve my dreams in this life. Otherwise my life would have been a complete waste of time.

Then you would do, whatever it takes to achieve them?

Yes. Yes I would.

Even if it meant reading books?

Yes.

Even if it meant a lot of work?

Yes.

Even if it meant sacrificing a large portion of your time?

Yes.

Even if it meant going through a lot of unhappiness and hardships?

Yes.

Even if it meant that you will be hurt by your friends and hurt them along the way?

Yes.

Even if it meant that you would risk failure and bankruptcy to some degree?

Yes.

Even if it meant that you might lose everything that you ever had?

... Yes.

Yes. Yes. That's what I'll do to achieve what I want to achieve.

When your dreams become reality, that's when your life has meaning.

And so, till that day comes, I shall keep dreaming and pursuing it =)

Ciaoz peeps =)

CHINA'S SEXIEST TEACHER WTF OMFG?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

2011-02-13T11:43:00.000-08:00

WHAT THE FUCK!??!?!?!!?

SERIOUSLY WHAT TEH FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

IVE NEVER SEEN SUCH A HOT-SMOKING-GORGEOUS ROUNDED BREASTS

CHINESE WOMAN IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK SERIOUSLY?!?!?!

I DONT KNOW ABOUT YOU

BUT TO ME SHE IS SERIOUSLY THE HOTTEST CHINA GIRL I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!!!

SO FUCKING GORGEOUS

SO FUCKING CUTE

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!?!?!!? SHE'S A FREAKING PRIMARY SCHOOL TEACHER!!!!! WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!

Real Name: Zhu Songhua / 朱松花
Nickname: Yuhua
Occupation: Teacher
Height: 168 cm
Weight: 50 kg
Measurements :85 -67-88
Hometown: Nantong, Jiangsu, China
Blood type: O
Birthday: January 31
Boyfriend Name : Prince_EVO

SHE FUCKING HAS A BOYFRIEND?!?! GO DAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO GOING TO HUNT THAT BASTARD DOWN!!!!!

FUCK I CANT STOP THINKING HOW HOT SHE IS
O_O!!!!!!!!
FUCK ITS THE FIRST TIME I FELT LIKE WANKING SO BADLY!!!YES YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO ACT CUTE AND STILL LOOK GORGEOUS!!! YOU HAVE THE LICENSE!!!

OH MAN THOSE CURVES!!!

YOUR SO DAMN FRIGGING CUTEEEEE~!!!! @_@!!!!!!! *gasps for air*

"According to a Yangtse Evening News report, almost overnight, this lithe and graceful bodied, delicate faced, sweet smiled, fashionably and sexily dressed natural beauty became famous online, with netizens wildly spreading her photographs and videos but most surprised by her identity — an elementary/primary school language teacher. As a result, she has also gained the title of “China’s Sexiest Female Teacher”. "

EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IS SIMPLY GORGEOUS!?!?!?

HOW CAN SOMEONE AS CUTE AND GORGEOUS AS YOU EXIST?!?!?!?!?
ANYONE WHO DISAGREES WITH ME CAN GO TO HELL FOR ALL I CARE!!!!

"Her name is Zhu Songhua, a language teacher for No. 1 Primary School Attached to Jiangsu Nantong, and over the last several days, she has experienced great popularity on the internet but at the same time has also suffered criticism and skepticism. “I’m just an ordinary person, just want to live a normal life, not trying to gain publicity,” this award-winning outstanding teacher said."

I'M A NAUGHTY STUDENT PLEASE PUNISH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! XD
Ahhhhhh, your just so damn gorgeous! No matter how you look!
Such an innocent look... AND SHE'S 30 YEARS OLD?!?!?!?!

UNMARRIED????!?!??!?!? ARE GUYS BLIND OR SOMETHING??!?!!?!? I'D BE AFTER HER IN A FREAKING HEARTBEAT FOR GOD'S SAKE!!

NO WORDS CAN FULLY EXPRESS YOUR BEAUTY! THE STUDENTS IN YOUR PRIMARY SCHOOL ARE SO LUCKY THAT THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW IT!!!

YOU STILL LOOK GOOD WITH THOSE ON! OMFG!!!!!

"In early September, Zhu Songhua appeared on Jiangsu Satellite Television’s “Happy Night” program’s “My Teacher Is Special” segment, and upon going on stage, she caused a stir, with the audience immediately praising her as being pretty/good-looking."

YOU MUST BE AN ANGEL DESCENDED FROM HEAVEN!!!!!!!!! @_@

THAT NATURAL LOOK OF YOURSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
I'D BE YOUR PILOT ANYDAY!!!!!!! XDOH MY GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!

HAVE I EVER BEEN SO CRAZY OVER A WOMAN I DON'T EVEN KNOW?!?!?!?!

"When she was asked on the show about the teaching profession, she replied that she believes there are no bad students, only bad teachers, that teaching students love and responsibility is the most important, and when she encounters a naughty child, she doesn’t severely criticize but rather patiently guides/teaches."

OH I CAN BE NAUGHTY IF YOU WANT LAO SHI!!!! XDDDDD

I'LL MAKE SURE I LEARN ALL THE 'MANDARIN' I CAN FROM YOU!!!!!

=33333333333333333333333

*heart* heart* heart*OH NO DONT MAKE ME IMAGINE SUCH LEWID THINGS!! XDDD

"At No. 1 Primary School Attached to Jiangsu Nantong, it was learned that ever since graduating from Nantong Normal University Zhu, Songhua has been working continuously as a language teacher and tutor at this school to this day. The Zhu Songhua on the internet [photos] appears to be an open-minded, fashionable and trendy beauty, but in she is actually an outstanding teacher while at work.

After becoming famous online, many of her students’ parents have not looked at her differently, believing that females wanting to be beautiful is nature, that a beautiful woman attending class may make the classroom atmosphere more invigorating and relaxed, and what parents care about more is the teacher’s teaching ability."

SOME PICS ARE JUST FRIGGING WORTH LOOKING AT FOR A SECOND TIME!!!!

*)!#$)*(!*$()!*&%(@$*@#_($@_$(@_($ WHY ISN'T IT ME?!?!?!?!?!? WHY?!?!?!!?

"Her colleague expressed, Zhu Songhua loves teaching and has always been exceptionally talented amongst the teaching staff, that she normally does not dress and make-up herself like what is seen in her [online] photographs but rather simply, relying on her outstanding teaching ability and affable teaching attitude to gain the students’ favor [be popular with the students].

In recent years, she has won first place in the school’s young teachers teaching competition, has previously represented the school in teaching competitions, winning the Nantong City Chongchuan District second prize. In addition, she’s won first prize for the Nantong City Chongchuan District chalk writing competition, and has also written many articles published on the province’s periodical magazine."

CAN I BE THE CAR?!?!? CAN YOU SIT ON ME?!?!?!?!

"Flipping the traditional image on its head, fashionably and sexily dressed with a lithe and graceful body and sweet face, Jiangsu elementary school teacher Zhu Songhua has been named “China’s sexiest female teacher” by netizens.

In early September, while appearing on Jiangsu Satellite Television’s “Happy Night” program’s “My teacher is special” segment, she caused a stir, with the male special guest immediately shouting “pretty/good-looking”, and even the male host Peng Yu unable to hide a shy expression.

Zhu Songhua is No. 1 Primary School Attached to Jiangsu Nantong’s 3rd grade language teacher and tutor. With regards to the her teaching profession, Zhu Songhua said on the show, “there are no bad students, only bad teachers, when I encounter a naughty child, I will patiently guide/teach.” With such remarks full of caring and patience, no wonder netizens have said “Encountering this kind of teacher, I hope I never graduate!”

( I NEVER WANT TO GRADUATE EITHER!)

Zhu Songhua is 30-years-old this year, unmarried, 168cm tall, weighs 50kg, and her measurements are 34, 26, 34.

Indeed very gorgeous/glamorous, and I bet the children all like attending her class. However, are the children in the class listening to the lesson or just staring at her?"

WHYY?!??!?!? WHY CAN'T YOU BE MY TEACHER?!?? DON'T GIVE ME THAT SWEET INNOCENT LOOK I'LL SERIOUSLY MELT IN MY CHAIR!!!!!

I SWEAR I WOULD BE A NAUGHTY STUDENT SO I'LL GET ALL YOUR ATTENTION!!! XDDDD

And perhaps some alone time hohohoho =333333

BWAHAHAH!!

Seriously, she is the HOTTEST SEXIEST MOST GORGEOUS WOMAN I've EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

SHE'S TOTALLY MY TYPE!!

WHY AM I BORN IN MALAYSIA?!?!?!

WHY CAN'T I BE IN HER CLASS?!?!?!?!!? WHY1?!??!?!?!!?!?

TELL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! XDDD

HAHAHAH!

I DON'T THINK I CAN SLEEP TONIGHT!

IT'S ALREADY 5AM!!

I WAS SURFING ALL NIGHT LONG FOR HER PICTURES!!!!!!!!!

WELL I THINK I SHOULD GO NOW!! CLASS STARTS IN 4 HOURS!!

GOOD NIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!! XDDDDD

Zhu Songhua =333333

p.s. If I ever met a girl like her I'll definitely go after her!!!!! XD IF YOUR A NORMAL GUY THAT'S WHAT YOU WOULD DO! XD I'VE NEVER MET A GIRL WITH SUCH HIGH LEVEL OF ATTRACTIONS BEFORE!!!!! XD

Go china =)