Just a thought.
The best way to know if your lonely is to be alone.
If your a lonesome person. You'll start to feel alone and miss the people who are closest to you, or matter most to you. Could be your family, bf/gf, close friends. etc.
Well, some people aren't lonesome at all even when they are alone.
Just a thought I had today. Go figure =))) I'm too tired to write too long, so that will be all for today, ciaoz :DDDD
Monday, August 23, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
The Sun
Ahhhhh, it's a long day once more =))) Been having a rough weekend with the lack of sleep!!
BUT why am i here blogging!?!?!? HAHAHA!! A friend of mine like... read my blog and said it was interesting! OMG I WAS SOOO TOUCHED!!!!! XDDDD and i felt inspired to blog!!!!
Thank you readers who read this blog of mine XD I know it's super long!! And to think that you really do make effort to read through... IM SERIOUSLY TOUCHEDDD!!! to all my fans out thereeeeee, THANK YOU!!! :D
I appreciate it :DDDDD
You know, I've said this many times but, it's really the little things in life. That make us happy. Not so much of the big things, but the small things =)))) Like how I felt inspired to write this post just because of a compliment =))) those small things are what makes life worth living
But then, you wonder how come?? Why the small little things? What about the big things?? Aren't they important as well?
Lets us think.... Imagine Wedding. That's a huge thing. Its a huge happy memory. The small things come before and after. How you open the door for your girl, how you take out the trash for your girl, how you remember your important dates for your girl, and how you notice something different about her, no matter how small.
I would say the little things. Make a big thing. It compliments the bigger things. It is the very essence that leads up to the big things in life. You can't build a sand castle immediately. Buckets and buckets is required to build a big one. And the small things keep us connected to each other. More frequently than not haha~!
Another example would be.....
Many more examples, but in short, it's the little things =))) I'm sure you guys know it too =)))
.
.
.
.
Recently I discovered, most people aren't all that happy with their lives. There's always some problem in their lives letting them down. You know the funny thing?
There are people who can still be happy with their lives, eventhough they have problems. Everyone has problems.
So why is it some people can be happy with their lives, and some can't?
I think, it's because they actually put effort to try and make themselves happy. Even over the little things.
You saw your friend today. BE happy! It's a good thing to see that your friend is good and well
But most of the time we just... say hi and bye.
On the other hand, even the smallest things can make us sad. And we tend to exaggerate it, and we cause our own day to be ruined because of it.
It's good to exaggerate the happy moments in life, but not the the sad moments in life.
It's funny to see people get sad over the small things in life =))) when actually most of the times they could just let it go and not let it get to them. Funny =)
It's even funnier that we take the good things in life for granted. Everyday, we see our parents. They're the most important people in most of our lives. But a usual day, we just treat it normal to see our parents. We don't really express much happiness in seeing them safe and healthy and alive.
That's just a few examples, so many more I could list down =)))
.
.
.
Then when it comes down to me.
Myself.
I.
Asked myself, who I wanted to be, what I wanted to be in front of others
I truly honestly want to be
Someone who, could brighten other people's day.
Someone who, could put a smile on anyone's face.
Someone who, could be happy himself and be happy for others.
Someone who, is the sun. That brightens up everyone's day. And brings happiness and energy and warmth to the world.
That's what I wish to be.
But right now. My world. It's so cloudy.
I see myself. Hardly brightening up people's day.
I know that, if I'm not happy I can't make help other people smile and be happy too =)))
I'm too concerned with my own worries, and I forget that I should think of others too, and not just myself
When others are happy, then I will be happy too... Everyone in this world... deserves happiness in their lives.
The sun is kind. It brightens up the day, everday, without fail, it shall rise, without concern of its own lifespan. It does not think of convserving energy. For it has too much, that's why, it shares its rays with the rest of the galaxy =)))
I want to be... like it. That's what I want to do. But I still feel... I'm too weak to be like the sun. I need to be stronger, But sometimes I also think, I'm just all talk... But I must still keep telling myself I can do it.
I hope, somewhere, somehow, I have at least brightened up your day a little bit =))) even if, just a little bit =))) I hope to bring happiness and joy to this world. That's my wish.
And I wish not for anything in return. For you have already given me hope by being happy =))) That in itself, is most rewarding as it is!
But I know I have a long way to go =))) as always =)))
And what about yourself?
What represents your character?
Do you truly know yourself?
Once you know yourself, do you know which way yourself wants to go?
Even if your character now is not what you want it to be, will you have the courage guts determination to change yourself to be better?
To admit that your not where you want to be?
The journey of life. Never ends. As long as life still exists, within each of us
And so it is for me as well =)
I'll do my best!
p.s. be, the sun, danny =) even when life gets you down
BUT why am i here blogging!?!?!? HAHAHA!! A friend of mine like... read my blog and said it was interesting! OMG I WAS SOOO TOUCHED!!!!! XDDDD and i felt inspired to blog!!!!
Thank you readers who read this blog of mine XD I know it's super long!! And to think that you really do make effort to read through... IM SERIOUSLY TOUCHEDDD!!! to all my fans out thereeeeee, THANK YOU!!! :D
I appreciate it :DDDDD
You know, I've said this many times but, it's really the little things in life. That make us happy. Not so much of the big things, but the small things =)))) Like how I felt inspired to write this post just because of a compliment =))) those small things are what makes life worth living
But then, you wonder how come?? Why the small little things? What about the big things?? Aren't they important as well?
Lets us think.... Imagine Wedding. That's a huge thing. Its a huge happy memory. The small things come before and after. How you open the door for your girl, how you take out the trash for your girl, how you remember your important dates for your girl, and how you notice something different about her, no matter how small.
I would say the little things. Make a big thing. It compliments the bigger things. It is the very essence that leads up to the big things in life. You can't build a sand castle immediately. Buckets and buckets is required to build a big one. And the small things keep us connected to each other. More frequently than not haha~!
Another example would be.....
Many more examples, but in short, it's the little things =))) I'm sure you guys know it too =)))
.
.
.
.
Recently I discovered, most people aren't all that happy with their lives. There's always some problem in their lives letting them down. You know the funny thing?
There are people who can still be happy with their lives, eventhough they have problems. Everyone has problems.
So why is it some people can be happy with their lives, and some can't?
I think, it's because they actually put effort to try and make themselves happy. Even over the little things.
You saw your friend today. BE happy! It's a good thing to see that your friend is good and well
But most of the time we just... say hi and bye.
On the other hand, even the smallest things can make us sad. And we tend to exaggerate it, and we cause our own day to be ruined because of it.
It's good to exaggerate the happy moments in life, but not the the sad moments in life.
It's funny to see people get sad over the small things in life =))) when actually most of the times they could just let it go and not let it get to them. Funny =)
It's even funnier that we take the good things in life for granted. Everyday, we see our parents. They're the most important people in most of our lives. But a usual day, we just treat it normal to see our parents. We don't really express much happiness in seeing them safe and healthy and alive.
That's just a few examples, so many more I could list down =)))
.
.
.
Then when it comes down to me.
Myself.
I.
Asked myself, who I wanted to be, what I wanted to be in front of others
I truly honestly want to be
Someone who, could brighten other people's day.
Someone who, could put a smile on anyone's face.
Someone who, could be happy himself and be happy for others.
Someone who, is the sun. That brightens up everyone's day. And brings happiness and energy and warmth to the world.
That's what I wish to be.
But right now. My world. It's so cloudy.
I see myself. Hardly brightening up people's day.
I know that, if I'm not happy I can't make help other people smile and be happy too =)))
I'm too concerned with my own worries, and I forget that I should think of others too, and not just myself
When others are happy, then I will be happy too... Everyone in this world... deserves happiness in their lives.
The sun is kind. It brightens up the day, everday, without fail, it shall rise, without concern of its own lifespan. It does not think of convserving energy. For it has too much, that's why, it shares its rays with the rest of the galaxy =)))
I want to be... like it. That's what I want to do. But I still feel... I'm too weak to be like the sun. I need to be stronger, But sometimes I also think, I'm just all talk... But I must still keep telling myself I can do it.
I hope, somewhere, somehow, I have at least brightened up your day a little bit =))) even if, just a little bit =))) I hope to bring happiness and joy to this world. That's my wish.
And I wish not for anything in return. For you have already given me hope by being happy =))) That in itself, is most rewarding as it is!
But I know I have a long way to go =))) as always =)))
And what about yourself?
What represents your character?
Do you truly know yourself?
Once you know yourself, do you know which way yourself wants to go?
Even if your character now is not what you want it to be, will you have the courage guts determination to change yourself to be better?
To admit that your not where you want to be?
The journey of life. Never ends. As long as life still exists, within each of us
And so it is for me as well =)
I'll do my best!
p.s. be, the sun, danny =) even when life gets you down
Saturday, August 21, 2010
That Fine Line
Yooooo peeps. I can't sleep~!
It's been like that for 2 days now. Woke up at 4am. AGAIN!! T_T
Only difference is today I actually got out of bed.... To sit in front of the comp XD
Hey... If I can't sleep must as well do SOMETHING
Guess I'll just write a bit then try to go back to sleep hopefully I can get a few hours shuteye
I was just thinking.
In many situations, I'm always the middle guy. I don't really know why, but a lot of times it happens to BE that way.... for some unknown reason.
Sometimes I enjoy it, sometimes I don't, I do feel guilty sometimes. Somehow.
It's like this. Sometimes in relationships I become the middle man. Sometimes in the club/organization I feel like the middle man. Sometimes in between a few clubs/organizations I feel like the middle man. I've come to realize I sort of walk that fine line between many things in life.
Of course I do have times where I AM on a certain side. But mostly.. It's like that
Why???? I always always feel like I'm in the middle. Knowing both sides of the story. Sometimes. Or most of the times.
It's a good thing? Perhaps? But I feel at times, it's such a huge burden. And such a huge responsibility. To listen and understand the burden of both parties
To try and understand them both. To try and get them both to understand.
The worries and woes of the other party. But usually.
I don't think I'm doing such a good job of it. I feel guilty mostly.... For not being able to get both sides to understand each other and work together
I feel that's the responsibility of a middle man, you know? But I never understood why I'm always that middle guy???
Is there some characteristic about me that makes me suitable for that role? Am I meant to learn through trial and error how to be a middle man???
But I did learn one thing. Its that both sides usually have a story of their own. Even though they are actually talking about the same story.
Meaning you wont really get the clear picture of the original story unless you hear both sides. And perhaps it'll be even better if you can find someone (third party) who witnessed the story from a third person point of view (very rare , because humans tend to take sides , and those that don't usually don't bother to know what's going on)
I'm facing problems? Merging and forging a strong bond between both sides. And I wanted to try and be a bridge too last time. And I wanted to forge strong bonds too last time. But I can't.
I'm.
Just.
Not.
Brave.
Enough.
I'm not confident enough. Sometimes I just get so frustfrated with myself. Why can't I just be brave? Bold? Confident? I believe I could use a lot more of it.
What does it take to be confident? Mostly for me you need to be observant with people's behaviour... And just be more knowledgable than others. Then your more than halfway there I suppose. The final phase is probably just executing. Daring to say what you think is right.
Sometimes I'm not observant enough. Sometimes I'm not knowledgable enough. Sometimes I don't dare enough.
I still can be, so much better.... I'm lacking so much. For a guy. I can't believe I'm like this. I can be... so much better... I don't believe I've tapped into my full potential yet.. And the same goes with millions of other people...
I feel so.. Limited... My capabilities are only this much? That's it? I think I should really start taking risks... Make a few mistakes... Probably I can learn more. It's not like me to play safe at all.
Im someone who takes risks in life. And someone who does projects quickly , and swiftly. That was the old me.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Personal scale though, I've been improving =)))) hahaha... Friends have told me I'm back to my usual horny self. After sooooo long.
I haven't felt happy for a longggggg time =)))) but it just seems like there's something missing... Something important... I cant puy my finger on it. If I can find out what it is I'm missing within me.... Probably I'll be really back to my usual self =)))
Maybe I'm not being totally honest with myself? I should be.... I don't know. It's a bit hard to tell my own emotions too sometimes.
I'll find out the source for sure =)))
But that's okay, life is about discovery, and many times in life you rediscover yourself. It's a learning process like any other =))) or maybe not like any other? hahahaha....
It's nearly 4.30am.... Got 3 meetings to attend later
I think I should get some rest.
I gotta get physically more fit/stronger for the end of this week =)))) i can't wait!! I have to be stronger so my friends won't have to worry about me =)))
So I can't do this to my body.
I suppose, I should go and try to get a few hours sleep =))) got meeting at 10... gotta wake up at 8.30.
Wish me luck in SLEEPINGGGGGGGG!!!!!! gniteeee!!! :DDDDDD
p.s. It can't be... What I think it is.... right?
It's been like that for 2 days now. Woke up at 4am. AGAIN!! T_T
Only difference is today I actually got out of bed.... To sit in front of the comp XD
Hey... If I can't sleep must as well do SOMETHING
Guess I'll just write a bit then try to go back to sleep hopefully I can get a few hours shuteye
I was just thinking.
In many situations, I'm always the middle guy. I don't really know why, but a lot of times it happens to BE that way.... for some unknown reason.
Sometimes I enjoy it, sometimes I don't, I do feel guilty sometimes. Somehow.
It's like this. Sometimes in relationships I become the middle man. Sometimes in the club/organization I feel like the middle man. Sometimes in between a few clubs/organizations I feel like the middle man. I've come to realize I sort of walk that fine line between many things in life.
Of course I do have times where I AM on a certain side. But mostly.. It's like that
Why???? I always always feel like I'm in the middle. Knowing both sides of the story. Sometimes. Or most of the times.
It's a good thing? Perhaps? But I feel at times, it's such a huge burden. And such a huge responsibility. To listen and understand the burden of both parties
To try and understand them both. To try and get them both to understand.
The worries and woes of the other party. But usually.
I don't think I'm doing such a good job of it. I feel guilty mostly.... For not being able to get both sides to understand each other and work together
I feel that's the responsibility of a middle man, you know? But I never understood why I'm always that middle guy???
Is there some characteristic about me that makes me suitable for that role? Am I meant to learn through trial and error how to be a middle man???
But I did learn one thing. Its that both sides usually have a story of their own. Even though they are actually talking about the same story.
Meaning you wont really get the clear picture of the original story unless you hear both sides. And perhaps it'll be even better if you can find someone (third party) who witnessed the story from a third person point of view (very rare , because humans tend to take sides , and those that don't usually don't bother to know what's going on)
I'm facing problems? Merging and forging a strong bond between both sides. And I wanted to try and be a bridge too last time. And I wanted to forge strong bonds too last time. But I can't.
I'm.
Just.
Not.
Brave.
Enough.
I'm not confident enough. Sometimes I just get so frustfrated with myself. Why can't I just be brave? Bold? Confident? I believe I could use a lot more of it.
What does it take to be confident? Mostly for me you need to be observant with people's behaviour... And just be more knowledgable than others. Then your more than halfway there I suppose. The final phase is probably just executing. Daring to say what you think is right.
Sometimes I'm not observant enough. Sometimes I'm not knowledgable enough. Sometimes I don't dare enough.
I still can be, so much better.... I'm lacking so much. For a guy. I can't believe I'm like this. I can be... so much better... I don't believe I've tapped into my full potential yet.. And the same goes with millions of other people...
I feel so.. Limited... My capabilities are only this much? That's it? I think I should really start taking risks... Make a few mistakes... Probably I can learn more. It's not like me to play safe at all.
Im someone who takes risks in life. And someone who does projects quickly , and swiftly. That was the old me.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Personal scale though, I've been improving =)))) hahaha... Friends have told me I'm back to my usual horny self. After sooooo long.
I haven't felt happy for a longggggg time =)))) but it just seems like there's something missing... Something important... I cant puy my finger on it. If I can find out what it is I'm missing within me.... Probably I'll be really back to my usual self =)))
Maybe I'm not being totally honest with myself? I should be.... I don't know. It's a bit hard to tell my own emotions too sometimes.
I'll find out the source for sure =)))
But that's okay, life is about discovery, and many times in life you rediscover yourself. It's a learning process like any other =))) or maybe not like any other? hahahaha....
It's nearly 4.30am.... Got 3 meetings to attend later
I think I should get some rest.
I gotta get physically more fit/stronger for the end of this week =)))) i can't wait!! I have to be stronger so my friends won't have to worry about me =)))
So I can't do this to my body.
I suppose, I should go and try to get a few hours sleep =))) got meeting at 10... gotta wake up at 8.30.
Wish me luck in SLEEPINGGGGGGGG!!!!!! gniteeee!!! :DDDDDD
p.s. It can't be... What I think it is.... right?
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Time is Near
Today, I am happy with myself =)
After a longgggggg day, I sat in the van for a few minutes, just singing along some nice songs on the radio (even though I can't sing, but its okay my van is soundproof)
Okay not soundproof, hope my neighbours didn't drop their fried chicken while eating dinner
Why happy? In a way today I was selfish. And in another way I was not selfish =)
Slowly paving the way to selfless-ness. To put other people before yourself.
For instance, being able to put the needs of your organization or your team before your own needs and personal vendetta.
I still could not , so in a way , I was selfish =)
I discovered something else even more important today.
They say a lot of times, you have to be selfish and greedy when you want something
But in my experience, generalization is never a good thing
I can't say all girls are needy
And I can't say all guys are jerks (though most of us are, to be honest)
And they say all the time, love is selfish
Really? Is love really selfish?
I think otherwise
People tend to ask, how can love not be selfish? If we love someone we must keep that person close, because how can we love someone if we are not close to them? We can't lose them to someone else.
For me
As long as, the girl I like,
Is with the man she loves
And she is happy
Then I am happy as well =)
Even if that guy is not me
Then people ask, but she would be more happy with me, not with him
And people would say, I would treat her so much better than her current boyfriend
It is always a two way thing, you may think so, but the other side may not feel that way
We should always care about what the other side thinks as well, he or she may have a whole different point of view
If he or she is already in a relationship
It is only right to respect people in a relationship
More so to respect his or her decision to be with another person
If you can be selfless
Then you are one step closer to achieving peace from within
My time is near
I sort of feel it
I'm at a very definitive crossroad in my life
The path I take will ultimately change the course of my future
It's.... been a while since I was at such a huge crossroad =)
Imagine the two paths. Both leads to different career, different families, different experiences.
The people you meet along those paths will be different as well
But I do know, which is the path I wish to take. The path I have to take
Yes, the time is near. It is so near =)
That's, the third thing I discovered today =))) somehow indirectly =)))
I'm extremely happy. My life is filled with a lot of hope and joy. And I am happy I chose this path.
Eventhough, there was some sadness along the way, but I understand that we have to go through the bad times to appreciate the good times
I understand relationships a little bit more
I understand people a little bit more
And I understand myself a little bit more =)
I am still egoistic, stubborn and unreasonable. I need to humble down more.
More... humble.. than I am now
And I still believe I am not a good son =)
Perhaps some day... I can tell my parents I love them... I'm waiting for that day
Someday when I have grown up, I will have the courage to say it
Someday when I have grown up, I will have the courage to be able to love a girl
The person I am now is not suitable. I know that all too well
I have to change, over and over again until I become the best I can be in my own traits =)
It's never about changing yourself to be what the person you like wants
It's about changing yourself to be better than your current self
That's what life is about. Understanding yourself completely, and from there do what you need to do in order to grow spiritually, mentally and physically.
Then.
Only then.
Can you go out and help the world.
I am waiting.
My heart is waiting.
For my soul. Spiritually.
For my mind. Mentally.
For my body. Physically.
To be good enough. To make a change.
That is. My life's
Ultimate challenge.
.
.
.
.
Everyday is a new adventure, Love life baby =)
After a longgggggg day, I sat in the van for a few minutes, just singing along some nice songs on the radio (even though I can't sing, but its okay my van is soundproof)
Okay not soundproof, hope my neighbours didn't drop their fried chicken while eating dinner
Why happy? In a way today I was selfish. And in another way I was not selfish =)
Slowly paving the way to selfless-ness. To put other people before yourself.
For instance, being able to put the needs of your organization or your team before your own needs and personal vendetta.
I still could not , so in a way , I was selfish =)
I discovered something else even more important today.
They say a lot of times, you have to be selfish and greedy when you want something
But in my experience, generalization is never a good thing
I can't say all girls are needy
And I can't say all guys are jerks (though most of us are, to be honest)
And they say all the time, love is selfish
Really? Is love really selfish?
I think otherwise
People tend to ask, how can love not be selfish? If we love someone we must keep that person close, because how can we love someone if we are not close to them? We can't lose them to someone else.
For me
As long as, the girl I like,
Is with the man she loves
And she is happy
Then I am happy as well =)
Even if that guy is not me
Then people ask, but she would be more happy with me, not with him
And people would say, I would treat her so much better than her current boyfriend
It is always a two way thing, you may think so, but the other side may not feel that way
We should always care about what the other side thinks as well, he or she may have a whole different point of view
If he or she is already in a relationship
It is only right to respect people in a relationship
More so to respect his or her decision to be with another person
If you can be selfless
Then you are one step closer to achieving peace from within
My time is near
I sort of feel it
I'm at a very definitive crossroad in my life
The path I take will ultimately change the course of my future
It's.... been a while since I was at such a huge crossroad =)
Imagine the two paths. Both leads to different career, different families, different experiences.
The people you meet along those paths will be different as well
But I do know, which is the path I wish to take. The path I have to take
Yes, the time is near. It is so near =)
That's, the third thing I discovered today =))) somehow indirectly =)))
I'm extremely happy. My life is filled with a lot of hope and joy. And I am happy I chose this path.
Eventhough, there was some sadness along the way, but I understand that we have to go through the bad times to appreciate the good times
I understand relationships a little bit more
I understand people a little bit more
And I understand myself a little bit more =)
I am still egoistic, stubborn and unreasonable. I need to humble down more.
More... humble.. than I am now
And I still believe I am not a good son =)
Perhaps some day... I can tell my parents I love them... I'm waiting for that day
Someday when I have grown up, I will have the courage to say it
Someday when I have grown up, I will have the courage to be able to love a girl
The person I am now is not suitable. I know that all too well
I have to change, over and over again until I become the best I can be in my own traits =)
It's never about changing yourself to be what the person you like wants
It's about changing yourself to be better than your current self
That's what life is about. Understanding yourself completely, and from there do what you need to do in order to grow spiritually, mentally and physically.
Then.
Only then.
Can you go out and help the world.
I am waiting.
My heart is waiting.
For my soul. Spiritually.
For my mind. Mentally.
For my body. Physically.
To be good enough. To make a change.
That is. My life's
Ultimate challenge.
.
.
.
.
Everyday is a new adventure, Love life baby =)
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Me? My story?
Was talking to a friend just now, and I just had inspiration to blog once more.
I start to wonder as I once did many years ago about my own life. It's purpose.
The reason we find a soulmate? Perhaps so we could find a different kind of love.
The way we express our love to different people in our lives is what makes that love. Different.
For me, I just need someone who can support me, throughout my life, even when I'm at my worst.
Being able to care for someone is one such way of expressing love.
Humans want to care for one another, but often times we are hurt by one another, also
That is why we are so afraid. To love.
That's why we are so afraid, to make the same mistakes again, because the pain of betrayal is not an easy one.
Then again.... We cannot live without being able to love somebody else. At least, some point in our lives, we have fallen in love.
Not once, not twice, maybe we forgot how many times.
Emotions are what makes us human. Ignoring it would mean ignoring what makes us human. Then we become... monsters?
Yes, I've seen many heartless people who dont have emotions.... Who truly resemble monsters. Let us not be one of them.
Instead let us embrace our emotions. Wisely.
The brain and the heart must be synchronized if one is to achieve piece from within.
When the heart and mind disagrees, so much friction occurs within.
So much, so that tears flow like a river, never ending and never stopping.
I've seen people who are deprived of love. It is a sad sight.
Yet I am unable to love. Not completely, yet. I feel that is one of my greater or perhaps greatest weakness.
Perhaps I still cannot face the truth, in certain aspects. Perhaps, I haven't understood love fully?
Or perhaps, love is not something that is meant to be understood?
But I know, love is giving, and not selfish, it is willing , and not unwilling, it is filled with hope, not with despair,
it is a source of strength, not a weakness
it is a human emotion, not a child's play toy.
We should always take someone's emotions seriously.
Mess with it and risk calling forth irrepairable damage.
Yet. We find it so hard to love someone.
If, we try to love someone, and failed at loving that person
It means , that was not love
It means, we did not know how to love that person properly
Because love does not hurt somebody. It brings joy and brings smiles to people all around us.
I do not believe that love can hurt somebody.
I always, always, try.... my very best, to make people laugh =)
because it is what brings joy to people =)))
happiness and laughter is the what fuels and feeds the soul.
Even if i humiliate myself a little bit... but so what =)))
It's nothing compared to being able to see people smile =)))
it is... such a small price to pay for me =)))
If you can be selfless
Then automatically, eventually, emotions like jealousy and hate, will automatically disappear
But it takes quite a person to be able to reach that level =)
I would like to believe that I am able to love and not hate, but that is not yet so, I believe =)))
I have a long way more to go , on a spritiual and mental level , at the very least =)
So I will, try my best, to understand and give love =)))
Love
is
Beautiful =)))))
Greatful =)))))
Joyful =)))))
Wonderful =))))
and most of all, it gives us, a good enough reason
TO LIVE
.
.
.
Love life ^^
I start to wonder as I once did many years ago about my own life. It's purpose.
The reason we find a soulmate? Perhaps so we could find a different kind of love.
The way we express our love to different people in our lives is what makes that love. Different.
For me, I just need someone who can support me, throughout my life, even when I'm at my worst.
Being able to care for someone is one such way of expressing love.
Humans want to care for one another, but often times we are hurt by one another, also
That is why we are so afraid. To love.
That's why we are so afraid, to make the same mistakes again, because the pain of betrayal is not an easy one.
Then again.... We cannot live without being able to love somebody else. At least, some point in our lives, we have fallen in love.
Not once, not twice, maybe we forgot how many times.
Emotions are what makes us human. Ignoring it would mean ignoring what makes us human. Then we become... monsters?
Yes, I've seen many heartless people who dont have emotions.... Who truly resemble monsters. Let us not be one of them.
Instead let us embrace our emotions. Wisely.
The brain and the heart must be synchronized if one is to achieve piece from within.
When the heart and mind disagrees, so much friction occurs within.
So much, so that tears flow like a river, never ending and never stopping.
I've seen people who are deprived of love. It is a sad sight.
Yet I am unable to love. Not completely, yet. I feel that is one of my greater or perhaps greatest weakness.
Perhaps I still cannot face the truth, in certain aspects. Perhaps, I haven't understood love fully?
Or perhaps, love is not something that is meant to be understood?
But I know, love is giving, and not selfish, it is willing , and not unwilling, it is filled with hope, not with despair,
it is a source of strength, not a weakness
it is a human emotion, not a child's play toy.
We should always take someone's emotions seriously.
Mess with it and risk calling forth irrepairable damage.
Yet. We find it so hard to love someone.
If, we try to love someone, and failed at loving that person
It means , that was not love
It means, we did not know how to love that person properly
Because love does not hurt somebody. It brings joy and brings smiles to people all around us.
I do not believe that love can hurt somebody.
I always, always, try.... my very best, to make people laugh =)
because it is what brings joy to people =)))
happiness and laughter is the what fuels and feeds the soul.
Even if i humiliate myself a little bit... but so what =)))
It's nothing compared to being able to see people smile =)))
it is... such a small price to pay for me =)))
If you can be selfless
Then automatically, eventually, emotions like jealousy and hate, will automatically disappear
But it takes quite a person to be able to reach that level =)
I would like to believe that I am able to love and not hate, but that is not yet so, I believe =)))
I have a long way more to go , on a spritiual and mental level , at the very least =)
So I will, try my best, to understand and give love =)))
Love
is
Beautiful =)))))
Greatful =)))))
Joyful =)))))
Wonderful =))))
and most of all, it gives us, a good enough reason
TO LIVE
.
.
.
Love life ^^
Monday, August 9, 2010
Fellowship And Professionalism
HEYYYYYY~!!! I just had some brain food today. Always feed your brain with plenty of food everyday so you don't get rusty =)))) like.... thinner??? it removes rust right??? RIGHT?!!?!? XD
Today I was thinking about this.
In any clubs or organizations, we are always taught to be professional, people have been telling me over and over again to be .... professional.
Fair enough, it is important to be professional.
What is professionalism?? It includes not taking your emotions into account when it comes to work or club matters, for one.
But let's FACE it. We cannot just let our emotions slide. In the working world, it's all about taking sides, favouritism, and politics? perhaps? Inside the organization.
IF we were truly professional then there would not be any of those things. Does this mean to say that all organizations are unprofessional?
I dislike it when people tell me to be professional. Honest. Because I know, that ALL of us cannot just ignore our emotions. We are human beings whether we like it or not.
When you like that person you will be more obliged to do something for him or her
When you dislike that person you'd rather not work with him or her.
You can call this favouritism, to put it simply.
So, if being professional means ignoring your emotions THEN :
-you can't show that you are more friendly when working with ur good fren
-you can't show your disliking-ness when your working with someone you dislike
In other words....
Professionalism is almost like wearing a mask. (hiding your true self)
Or maybe it IS about us wearing a mask?
It can be, depending on how you look at it
It's a matter of perspective.
Maybe wearing a mask is a crude way to put it.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
In the clubs I attend in college, there are two
one, I feel, is not really professional, its all about the emotional talks and bonding and stuff like that
Another one, tries to implement professionalism, but I feel it is not effective
When you are in a club in college, why isit we can't just enjoy ourselves? Must we be wearing masks in front of each other?? Must we really be so professional??
To be honest I think we should not be that way, in the working world, perhaps we can make exception but come on WERE STUDENTS!! Can't we just enjoy our college life??!?!?!?! what's with all the professionalism bull crap????
I just want to have a good college life. Having fun in the college clubs. But what with all the professional stuff... I just don't enjoy it.
The second club usually has fellowship gatherings to help bond with each other.
But hey hey, doesn't this contradict professionalism??? Doesn't this cause us to close one eye because we know our members on a personal level??? EXACTLY!!
It just contradicts itself. I don't understand. Why do we need fellowship if the club wants to be PROFESSIONAL!?!??!!?!?!?!?
This is what I don't get...
Professionalism can't exist alone
It exists with favouritism, politics, and everything else there is in an organization. It's part of it.
But then you say.... "what if even though we know our friend, we still be professional and just ignore their feelings when were doing work?"
That's just..... in my honest opinion, a bit heartless. I don't wish to treat friends that way, at least not in my college life....
However in the working world probably this cannot be helped. We must put on masks. We must ignore the other person's feelings in order to get the job done.
Are the clubs supposed to teach us to put on masks??
I disagree. Clubs are supposed to teach us how to be leaders and how to work with others. Putting on a mask... at this level should not be so necessary.
We need to be close and honest with each other and gain each other's trust to work effectively. Putting on a mask is the total opposite.
It's not the kind of club I want..... I'm going through certain problems too, myself, at this point in my life.
I'm trying my best to deal with it, but it is truly hard for me to put on a mask and ignore my feelings.
BUT it is however, no excuse =)
I must do what it takes, i think i can use both professionalism and fellowship to run the club effectively.
Professionalism, to communicate with those who wish to be professional
Fellowship, to communicate with those whom I can get close to and earn their trust.
If I can separate these two and use them effectively in different situations....
Then perhaps things will change for my club =))))
I hope things work out ^^ I'll do my best.
I must make
A
Change.
Today I was thinking about this.
In any clubs or organizations, we are always taught to be professional, people have been telling me over and over again to be .... professional.
Fair enough, it is important to be professional.
What is professionalism?? It includes not taking your emotions into account when it comes to work or club matters, for one.
But let's FACE it. We cannot just let our emotions slide. In the working world, it's all about taking sides, favouritism, and politics? perhaps? Inside the organization.
IF we were truly professional then there would not be any of those things. Does this mean to say that all organizations are unprofessional?
I dislike it when people tell me to be professional. Honest. Because I know, that ALL of us cannot just ignore our emotions. We are human beings whether we like it or not.
When you like that person you will be more obliged to do something for him or her
When you dislike that person you'd rather not work with him or her.
You can call this favouritism, to put it simply.
So, if being professional means ignoring your emotions THEN :
-you can't show that you are more friendly when working with ur good fren
-you can't show your disliking-ness when your working with someone you dislike
In other words....
Professionalism is almost like wearing a mask. (hiding your true self)
Or maybe it IS about us wearing a mask?
It can be, depending on how you look at it
It's a matter of perspective.
Maybe wearing a mask is a crude way to put it.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
In the clubs I attend in college, there are two
one, I feel, is not really professional, its all about the emotional talks and bonding and stuff like that
Another one, tries to implement professionalism, but I feel it is not effective
When you are in a club in college, why isit we can't just enjoy ourselves? Must we be wearing masks in front of each other?? Must we really be so professional??
To be honest I think we should not be that way, in the working world, perhaps we can make exception but come on WERE STUDENTS!! Can't we just enjoy our college life??!?!?!?! what's with all the professionalism bull crap????
I just want to have a good college life. Having fun in the college clubs. But what with all the professional stuff... I just don't enjoy it.
The second club usually has fellowship gatherings to help bond with each other.
But hey hey, doesn't this contradict professionalism??? Doesn't this cause us to close one eye because we know our members on a personal level??? EXACTLY!!
It just contradicts itself. I don't understand. Why do we need fellowship if the club wants to be PROFESSIONAL!?!??!!?!?!?!?
This is what I don't get...
Professionalism can't exist alone
It exists with favouritism, politics, and everything else there is in an organization. It's part of it.
But then you say.... "what if even though we know our friend, we still be professional and just ignore their feelings when were doing work?"
That's just..... in my honest opinion, a bit heartless. I don't wish to treat friends that way, at least not in my college life....
However in the working world probably this cannot be helped. We must put on masks. We must ignore the other person's feelings in order to get the job done.
Are the clubs supposed to teach us to put on masks??
I disagree. Clubs are supposed to teach us how to be leaders and how to work with others. Putting on a mask... at this level should not be so necessary.
We need to be close and honest with each other and gain each other's trust to work effectively. Putting on a mask is the total opposite.
It's not the kind of club I want..... I'm going through certain problems too, myself, at this point in my life.
I'm trying my best to deal with it, but it is truly hard for me to put on a mask and ignore my feelings.
BUT it is however, no excuse =)
I must do what it takes, i think i can use both professionalism and fellowship to run the club effectively.
Professionalism, to communicate with those who wish to be professional
Fellowship, to communicate with those whom I can get close to and earn their trust.
If I can separate these two and use them effectively in different situations....
Then perhaps things will change for my club =))))
I hope things work out ^^ I'll do my best.
I must make
A
Change.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Possibly Impossible?
Mannnnn, the last time I edited was 2nd of May can you believe~!
I still had my long hair that time... MISS IT MUCH~!!! :D
Didn't think that I would blog for a long time... I'm so random at times XD
I remember the days where ppl really enjoyed reading my blog, the hentai posts and the weird things i put up. It was really fun ^^
Wish those days could come back, but I think it takes too much time to blog :D
Much has changed since that time. I didn't think my life would change this much. I've become more serious, but lately at least I know the crazy side of me still exists somewhere in me XD I don't ever want to lose it ^^
Have you ever wondered about the future? I do all the time :D Perhaps I think too much. Sometimes I feel I'm living not for today, but for tomorrow.
I feel that's the wrong way to think.. Or is it?
Let's say you know your gonna die tomorrow, would you live today like a normal day? Or would you go out and do things that you want to do before you die?
If it were me I'd try and lose my virginity XD HONEST!!!!!! come on... ain't dying a virgin man XD
Orrrrr... If you knew that someone special to you would pass away soon... would you not try and spend more time ? with that person? Yeah, we definitely would...
There are so many views. On this. Some people say that if they knew the future they would be happy.
Some say that if they knew the future, they would find life boring. Because they know what would happen
Some say that the future doesn't exist until you create it. So there's no way of knowing what it'll be.
But the fact is IF we DID know about the future, our present would change. A lot. Sometimes so drastically that you feel life is so surprising and so unexpected =))))
I still had my long hair that time... MISS IT MUCH~!!! :D
Didn't think that I would blog for a long time... I'm so random at times XD
I remember the days where ppl really enjoyed reading my blog, the hentai posts and the weird things i put up. It was really fun ^^
Wish those days could come back, but I think it takes too much time to blog :D
Much has changed since that time. I didn't think my life would change this much. I've become more serious, but lately at least I know the crazy side of me still exists somewhere in me XD I don't ever want to lose it ^^
Have you ever wondered about the future? I do all the time :D Perhaps I think too much. Sometimes I feel I'm living not for today, but for tomorrow.
I feel that's the wrong way to think.. Or is it?
Let's say you know your gonna die tomorrow, would you live today like a normal day? Or would you go out and do things that you want to do before you die?
If it were me I'd try and lose my virginity XD HONEST!!!!!! come on... ain't dying a virgin man XD
Orrrrr... If you knew that someone special to you would pass away soon... would you not try and spend more time ? with that person? Yeah, we definitely would...
There are so many views. On this. Some people say that if they knew the future they would be happy.
Some say that if they knew the future, they would find life boring. Because they know what would happen
Some say that the future doesn't exist until you create it. So there's no way of knowing what it'll be.
But the fact is IF we DID know about the future, our present would change. A lot. Sometimes so drastically that you feel life is so surprising and so unexpected =))))
Then people ask, why think about a possibility that couldn't possibly exist?
A lot of things which did not exist now COULD exist in the future. People used to laugh at the wright brothers who are now the pioneers(creators) to aeroplanes. People used to laugh at Thomas Edison, who created light bulbs.
Don't ever dismiss the possibility of something impossible. There is and will be more and more pioneers who will make drastic changes to the world. Are you the ones who laugh ? Or are you the ones who will make a change to the world?
I want to change the world... And that part of me will never change... When faced with the world, of course we'd feel small. Alone, that is =) All this while I've had the mentality that I should just do everything alone. By myself.
But there are so many things in life we cannot achieve, if we don't work together. How could I expect to do it alone? I'm so foolish thinking that way =))) I want to change the world, not alone, but with people who have the same goal as I do =))) That passion and burning desire, I am looking for people who have the same as I do.
So what is my future? Where will I be 10, 20, 30 years from now???? Will I have a family? Who will be my kids? My wife? Where will I live? So many unanswered questions. The future is a mystery. But if I did know now.
Then I can change it, at will. That is the power of knowing the future. Life is made up of choices and paths, and along the way we will probably stumble into a few paths which do not coincide with our life's goals. But we have to go through it anyway =)
Finally ppl would ask, what's your own personal viewpoint on the future regardless?
My answer is.... Who knows =) My future is as much of a mystery as yours =)
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I don't think i'll have a normal life =) i think it'll be pretty exciting and full of incredible experiences =)
love life baby ^^
