Update on Life

Finally! I'm glad. The second event for my club is starting soon.

I'm happy we came this far. Looking back to a time where we had no members.

The hardships taught me a lot. Even now I'm still learning new things as we progress.

Even though there are many things we can improve on, and we are far from perfect. I still appreciate what we've got. And we're really bringing some change to the college.

It's exciting to see people who do not even know how to play ping pong join our event. It's really about participating and just getting experience and living college life to the fullest.

I tried really hard to have a females category going in our ping pong tournament, and it really happened.

Previously, I could easily say that not many girls would participate in a tournament, but now that we actually have the category running, people will start to change their opinion about that.

To those who joined, despite not knowing how to play, hats off to you. It shows you have the guts to do what other people who CAN play but are too afraid to do, which is join the tournament.

I can't thank you enough, to everyone, including participants, and my members, for all the support. We'll definitely make this tournament a success as well, just like last time, no, we'll be even better now.

We're going to really make a name for ourselves. We can do it. Even though many obstacles await, we shall challenge them and move forward.

Within the club I created a culture.

We laugh a lot. A hell lot.

We review books. A hell lot.

We play games. A hell lot.

We have fun. A hell lot.

We have events. A hell lot.

Where there is little laughter, there is little success :)

Someday, I hope that KBU's culture will change too. Everyone will be active. Positive. Happy. That day is yet to come, but I'm building towards it :)

I said this many times since a long time ago. If I can't even change my college, then how can I make a change on a bigger scale?

Even though for now my goal is to get married, my even longer term goal really is to change the world.

When I was younger, it really was my hope to change the world. It's possible, it appeared in my thoughts after all.

Even though that time I was less confident, and less courageous.

I still believed. Today, I still believe it will happen.

Just like how I believed that the female category WILL happen. And it did.

The power of truly believing in something, is really amazing.

I look at my members now and wonder... My, how young they are :)

Sometimes they are easily angered

Sometimes they are so active

Sometimes they are so emotional

Sometimes they surprise me

Sometimes they their potential shines like the light

Sometimes they disappear, and I don't see them for a while

Sometimes they don't realize that a really bright and happy future awaits them

But all the time, I believe in them.

They remind me of myself a few years ago when I first entered college.

I was a real rascal :) Now, I really have toned down a bit.

Still, I must say, my final year in college really couldn't be better :)

It's like... you could say it's a wonderful conclusion for me. Haha!

It's so strange... My circle of friends really change from last year. It's like a 180 degree turn.

Im fine with it though, I don't mind change, I think change is good once in a while :) Change teaches you many things.

hm... I suppose that's pretty much it for today :) no fancy pictures, I just wanted to express myself a little. :)

Great things are to come, and I cannot wait! :D

Gnite :)

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish

"Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish"

Those were the words of the late Steve Jobs.

Now, I know I'm not in much of a position to comment since I'm personally not an Apple user.

But after reading up about him, I discovered that he is quite a man.

He literally revolutionized and changed the world when it comes to handheld device technology, as well as various other areas.

Before we go on, I would like to share this video of a speech he gave at stanford 6 years ago, at the age of 50



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If you have watched it, then it will be easier to relate to what I am going to say.

This man is a powerful man.

You ask if this man has led a successful life? Yes.

Why? Because he has lived everyday as if it was his last.

He mentioned that knowing that death was nearing caused him to avoid feeling shame, pride and all other negativity in his life, and just make the decisions which made apple so great as it is today.

How many people can do that? Live every day as if it were his last?

If today was your last day, would you do what you would be doing right now?

If it is always no, then the time for change has come.

You can see from his speech that he is a real genius not only at his work, but also in life itself.

He knew that you have to love what you do, and he DID love what he did for a living.

How many of us can say the same?

We all know that we have to find our passion in life, but a lot of us are in fear, just sticking to what feels safe to us.

But not this man. He dropped out of college, and because he dropped out of college, he found what he loved doing.

Because he got fired at the age of 30 from Apple, he started two very successful companies, Pixar and NeXT, and eventually became CEO of Apple again.

Look at this man. Every bad experience that he went through just made him even better.

He even said that those experiences were what made him successful today.

How many of us can say the same? Just look at his exemplary life and tell me you could say the same about yours. The way he handled failure was incredible.

When you die, will people make tributes outside your companies stores? Will they make several Facebook pages just to show how much they care?

Will people weep tears of sorrow and anguish when you leave this world?

For Steve Jobs, the answer is Yes. People care, people weep, because they know the world has lost an invaluable inventor and individual.

This man has become a legend. A revolutionary.

What about you? What about me? Are people going to remember us when we die?

I don't want to die without leaving an impact to the world.

As much love as you give to the world, you receive in return, when you leave.

He has given love to the world through the passion and love for his work.

The whole world feels it,

And the whole world mourns. Come on, I'm not even an Apple user and I feel he's really a great man.

That's how far his influence extends. People can see if you lead a successful life, people aren't all blind.

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The reason I'm strongly affected by this is because I too...

Want to be a powerful man.

My failures are still small compared to what others like Steven Jobs go through.

Being kicked out of your own company has GOTTA be tough!

Yet I'm feeling like a failure already because I couldn't even get a Ping Pong tournament to get started since there wasn't enough participants.

If this great man can achieve so much and bounce back from failures, then I can too.

I can.

Too.

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People are going to remember me when I leave this world.

It's No Joke

We all know that the road to success is one filled with tons of lessons and hardships

It really isn't a joke at all.

Your emotions run wild. You feel like such a failure. You feel so useless.

It feels like all hope is lost.

Yes. That's what failure feels like.

And honestly, I feel a little like that right now.

Inside us is a wheel.

It constantly rotates.

At one point, you are at the top of the world.

Before you know it, you're back down at the bottom. Feeling a little miserable.

It's hard to go through failure, or to feel like you've failed someone, or even yourself.

Now I look at all those successful people and say..

"What did you guys really go through to get there?"

It must've been tough. But you guys, you guys pulled through.

You guys are amazing.

Can I be like you guys?

I ask that question, even though I know only I can answer it through my actions.

Sometimes you wonder, why do you work so hard?

Sometimes you wonder, why is it that you feel as if there is so much burden to carry?

Sometimes, sometimes... You just bottle up all emotions.

Until one day, you get so mad at yourself you just explode.

Other people around you are caught in the blast and are hurt.

It's really because we couldn't handle ourselves properly that we hurt ourselves as well as others.

It's hard to explain what I'm feeling right now.

To sum it up, I feel I can do a lot better than what I am now

But I don't know how. How? I just want an answer.

No answer comes.

What do I do? Just wait?

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Sometimes, sometimes.. I feel like a hypocrite too.

Honest to god.

I talk so much but do so little.

I still fail to do what I said I would do.

I no longer smile so much.

I no longer laugh so much.

It looks like a balanced life is really key to happiness.

I tend to overindulge in things, it makes you unhappy, you know, when you overindulge in something. Though at the moment you feel it's nice.

My two biggest weaknesses. Not doing what I said I would do.

And getting excited over an idea, and then not following it through to the end.

I hate it so much. Why can't I change?

I don't expect perfection but I do expect a lot more from myself.

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So after all, the person I was really angry with was myself, wasn't it?

Right now, I don't really know what to do.

But in life, there isn't a pause button. Life is always on play.

So what will I do now?

Sleep. That is what I will do.

The body needs rest. Perhaps I am over-thinking.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

That's why we shall start anew :)

Semester Begins

Ah. It's raining. Great weather to write out my thoughts. Lately much has been going through my head.

Semester just started today, and I'm quite happy, most of my classes start at 1pm

God must want me to enjoy my year 3 :) I'm thankful.

I also know what title I want to do for my final Year 3 project (it's 40 credit points out of 120)

Knowing what you want to do in life is really important. And I'm happy that I have made a decision on what topic to do for it. Not being able to decide would just be terrible, like what many of my friends are facing now.

Also, my game improved, in League of Legends. Overall, more wins than losses. That's great :) I shall continue winning.

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I've also made a decision.

Yes, we all need to make decisions and not hesitate when we do need to make one.

Was watching SNSD's 1st asia tour concert videos.

I was so touched by their performance.



It was their 1st album, so their songs had a more softer melancholy to it back then, it makes your heart feel touched in a way, when they perform.

I said to myself "If I don't ever see these girls live in concert, I will never forgive myself on my deathbed"

Yes. I must see them live. If they come to Singapore, or if they are in Thailand, that's close enough for me.

Next year I start working. I will save up money to travel to see them. Distance isn't a matter for me, these girls are worth the effort and time. Definitely. Without a doubt.

All of their concerts are always full house. Always. Man, if I could be there in the crowd cheering them on... What I'd give for that.

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Oh yes, I am most likely going to choose 3D-modelling and Virtual Reality for my optional subject in year 3.

I heard virtual reality has to do with games, so the choice is obvious :)

I have a wonderful life, I gotta learn to cherish it even more :)

I know one day, I will be wealthy not just in riches, but also at heart.

I know one day, I will be strong not just as a guy, but as a man.

I know one day, I'll get to see SNSD in concert, and I will enjoy it to the fullest to see our 9 angels perform :)

I know one day, I'll get married to the girl of my dreams. Someone I can truly love.

Why do I know? I just know :)

A friend told me I was getting tame. Not so crazy as last time.

True, perhaps I'm maturing quite a bit :) I'm 20 already, after all :D

Sometimes I feel like my life is already all set out for me. Good things come most of the time, and generally everyone is happy around me :)

That's really great, isn't it?

Some people think of me as an inspiration and role model.

I'm actually super pai seh when they say so. I'm flattered to think that this once shy boy (before college) could actually be highly regarded as a good individual to follow.

It's true when they say positive attracts more positive into your life :)

Well anyhow! On to the new semester ^_^! Good luck to everyone, may you live a blessed life.

Thoughts Thoughts

Surprisingly, many people wondered why I didn't go for the Pangkor trip

They're saying hey! Danny is the life of the party! A trip wouldn't be a trip without him!

I'm flattered :) but I think it's a little over exaggerated haha! Pai seh la!

Sure it'd be fun, but you know what

I didn't actually see a reason to go

Although it is slightly a little expensive, but the main reason is because there isn't a reason to go, at least for me.

Usually, you go on trips with people who you are really close to

But in this case, since I've left the council, even though I may know many of them, I chose not to go since the real point of the trip is so the members, the juniors can bond better with each other. That's the whole point.

I'm not a junior, there really isn't a reason for me to go. And spend rm200+. LOL.

People tell me I am overthinking it. No, I'm not, it's the truth. Why go for a trip if there isn't a reason to go?

Fun? I have fun anywhere I go :) It's all about perspective.

Danny Siah doesn't go where the fun is, the fun goes where Danny Siah is. Period.

You see, if it wasn't a council trip, maybe I would consider more about going.

But it is called, SC Island Trip for a reason!

Yes I know I am a senior member, but hey, it's time for the younger generation to have their fun :)

Man, if they really can't learn to have fun without me I'd SERIOUSLY be disappointed!

Having fun is really important, and you just need to go with the right company.

And look, what does a senior member do anyway? It's such a grey area. I haven't had to do anything ever since becoming a senior. Haha!!!! So what's the point really???

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If people still cannot see my point as to why I didn't go for the trip, then you must rethink it all over an look at it from a wider perspective.

The last SC trip I went for a few months ago, I was still a member. So I did go. It applied to me. But being a 'senior member' feels like you're sort of retired.

Do you go for a company-trip if you're retired from the company?

From what I know the main purpose of such trips is to build bonds so that future projects can be more easily executed because everyone knows one another better.

But then you add in all this.. outside unrelated friends and then... Is it really a company trip anymore?

No, it isn't.

The people who were not in SC who came along with us during the last SC trip would actually feel left out. Unrelated to the cause and the organization which is the council!

So I think that the organizer may have missed the point of organizing a Student Council trip. Everything must be done with a purpose, a reason. Why go for a trip just to have fun? Why not have a more deeper purpose? If you wanna have fun I can introduce more cheaper alternatives, if you JUST wanna have fun. I'm serious.

My family is just making ends meet on our overall household income. So if I can save a little, I think I should.

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And if SC really did organize it JUST to have fun, I would also be seriously disappointed. Everything must have some deeper meaning to it.

Otherwise you're just wasting time. I'm not saying fun isn't important, but fun isn't the only element you have to think about.

Yes, so that's my two cents on the reason why I feel it is a little pointless/inappropriate for me to go for the trip.

I believe strongly of my reasoning powers, and if anyone still doesn't understand, that is still alright.

You may have your own reasoning, and in fact you may be right as well, but it doesn't mean that I am wrong :) hehe

Well, just wanted to get that out in the open. Toodles! :D

Friendship

Friendship is a very peculiar thing

I can't remember the last time I wrote about it, it must've been a long time. My, time flies. Or was it recently? I can't remember. It's too late at night.

Lately this month I've come to realize

Friendship is something like uno stacko.

At first, when you meet a friend, and friendship begins, it's like the uno stacko game begins.

Each time you hurt a friend, accidentally or intentionally, you take a block out of the uno stacko, and you place it on top.

Again, you hurt someone, again you take a block out and put it on top.

Each time you put it on top, you return the block, and the friendship continues.

Each time, again and again, you keep building it higher, higher and higher

Until one point, when you take out the block, it falls. Apart.

Thinking back. I honestly can say, even though sometimes you look back and see that you really treat your friends so well all the time,

Just one wrong phrase, one mistake could cause it to crash and fall like the uno stacko.

Yes. I can say that I really treat my friends as best as I can. But I also understand that no matter how well I treat the uno stacko, one day it will fall, after all we all make mistakes.

When it falls apart like that, you can either leave it there, or build it up again.

Leaving it there in crumbles means the friendship comes to an end.

Building it up again from scratch means you want to save the friendship. You want to make it stronger. And you're willing to start all over if that means it's what it takes.

You start building, one block after another. Each time being good to your friend. Building, building, building, and crash.

There we go again. And then we start building and building and building. And crash.

But wait. Each time it crashes, we get more blocks. Now we can build it higher.

It crashes again. Now we can build it even higher.

Friendship is a lot like that. Every time you do something wrong, you crash your friendship. But once you restore it, it becomes strengthened. And the process repeats.

Most people view those crashes as a bad thing. In actual fact, it serves to strengthen the friendship only if you know how to see it as a good thing instead of a bad thing.

Most people do their best to avoid those crashes. But hey, if you never fight and never disagree what friendship is there?

I just crashed twice this month, but I will start to build them both up again. Definitely. Failure is never final.

Each of those blocks are precious. I feel that deep down, I have done my best to treat them well as friends. And regardless of whether it is true or not, I shall continue to build. I may not be able to control how others think, but I am able to control me. So I continue to build.

I can stop and think about how bad the crash was. Or I can just build on.

I can look at how many blocks or good deeds I have done. Or I can just build on.

I can leave the blocks crashed and not build them again and just look at it forever. Or I can just build on.

1 bad deed is enough to make you bad , even though you did 100 good deeds previously. That's why it's hard to be good. But that is also why being good is a greater challenge, the tougher part, and the harder road always reaps more experience and teaches so much more about life itself.

In both times I didn't actually mean to be bad. I was just being myself. I never intended to hurt them. But in fact I did. Somehow. Such is friendship. Such a fragile thing.

For now, that is. After a few times, no longer will it be a fragile thing. First, it was plastic blocks. Easily blown by even the winds. Then it became wood, even stronger than before.

Then finally it became steel.

But becoming steel was not enough.

Each time that steel is piled atop one another, it is melded together.

So every good deed stays. in tact. And after a while, it may no longer fall. And even if it does fall, it only continues to become stronger. As long as I am willing to start from scratch.

Funny, how life revolves around itself, how uno stacko can be related to friendship, how food can describe life, how your personality personifies itself through everything you do.

Friends. Even if some of them will only be close to me for a few years, I will make those years as memorable as possible. Then even if I see them many years later, I will smile and reminiscence the old times over a cup of hot coffee with them :)

So, that's the man I want to be. What about yourself?

Do you continue to build?

Grandmother said this...

OH MY GODDDDD!!

Last Monday (4 days ago) I went out for breakfast with a good friend of mine :)

We talked about lots of stuff

Then we came to the topic on masked riders (nerd topic alert)

I told her, I've always been wanting to watch kamen rider kabuto (I saw the advertisement somewhere)

Take note that my friend studied psychology at help and is currently working... She said OMG KABUTO IS AWESOME!!!!!! (or something along those lines)

So, trusting my friend's one line review of the series

I decided to go home and watch!

OH MY GODDDD!!! I LOVED IT!!!!!!

The first few episodes are the warm up episodes, when it gets to the deeper part of the story... Man there were so many WTF moments I really lost count!

That's one thing about any japanese drama/series

They can somehow come up with the craziest storylines and make you go WTF! This applies for any jap drama (if you have any past experience with jap drama's im sure you know what I'm talking about)

In this series they made the main character, Tendou Souji, simply GODLIKE!

And watching Kabuto makes you hungry cuz.. Tendou is apparently a GODLIKE chef as well (you can see his little sister's expression of deliciousness after each time she eats his cooking)

Also, the AMAZING and UNIQUE thing about this series is the AWESOME...

"Grandmother said this:" quotes! HAHAHAHAHA!

I absolutely loved them!

Tendou kicks a monster's ass? "Grandmother said this..."

Tendou cooks awesome food? "Grandmother said this..."

Tendou makes an unprecedented comeback? "Grandmother said this..."

SERIOUSLY EPIC!!! I LOVED IT SO MUCH!!!!

Also, food is a very huge part of the series, it lightens the mood of the series and makes it more fun to watch :)

And yes, I never get tired of seeing Jyuka (Tendou's lil sis) express how delicious her brother's cooking is EACH AND EVERY FRIGGING TIME! XD

Also, I mentioned earlier that there were quite a number of WTF moments in the series. Yeap, and that's what makes it even better (cuz it's unpredictable and not cliche like power rangers.. lmao)

Tendou's godlike-ness just makes the series even more enjoyable for me. I like it when the main character has this sort of arrogance that compliments his personality and abilities. Tendou is just Tendou :) That arrogant attitude suits him PERFECTLY.

And it suits him because his strength is REAL.

His opening line is as follows:-

"Grandmother said this: Walking the path of heaven, the man who will rule over everything. Tendou, Souji"

Tendou - Path of Heaven
Souji - Ruler of All

LOL!!!!! They really made him a bad ass rider :)

Also, the series forecasts many other riders (of course, Tendou is the best )

But each character has some depth to them and as you go along you'll find out the past of these characters. (Yes, some really WTF moments I tell you.)

I loved the transformation style too. It's only my second Kamen Rider series, and yeah! It's pretty cool! I like the whole "Rider Belt" idea (though it's probably not new)

Nevertheless it still looks awesome :)

The only bad thing I can say about the series is that.. hmm... After the second half of the series it gets a little slow.

But honestly I was breezing through the episodes so fast (i finished all 49 episodes already) that it really didn't affect me.

Still loved it to bits.

Enjoyed all the WTF moments.

Enjoyed all the awesome grandmother quotes

Enjoyed the awesome transformations.

Enjoyed Jyuka's smile :D

Enjoyed the storyline

Enjoyed Tendou's godlike-ness

Enjoyed the FOOD and COOKING!!! :DDDD

This series is like a 9/10 for me! Awesome! Maybe even 9.5!! :DDDD

Realistically, I don't think any series would achieve a 10/10, simply because nothing in this world is perfect :)

But who knows! Maybe there'll be one who would just tickle my fancy :) hehe!

Okay! Thanks for reading! If you did read this far, you are either

a) A kamen rider fan
b) A danny siah fan
c) A ceiling fan (i'm kidding XD)

Or you were just bored! Probably one of the above XD

Anyhow, if you are interested to watch this series of Kamen Rider Kabuto, you can do so at

https://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=207033499319363

All the links are there! (Yes, you can watch the ENTIRE series on facebook without downloading)

Or if you prefer to download, you can get the ENTIRE series on

http://tokuzilla.com/kamen-rider/kamen-rider-kabuto-complete/

Yeap! That's all folks! Hope you enjoyed it!

Hopefully more people can enjoy this awesome series filled with compassion, love, humour, kindness and FOOD! XD


Some people claim it is the best rider series ever (by 2 of my female friends, in fact!)

But is it for you? It's up to you to judge :)



(Note, this is a special episode, the zector bugs don't talk in the real series haha)

Gnite! :D