Yah....
Honestly, I don't know why I'm blogging at this time. I hardly update
Was watching another SNSD video and I cried again
It started to make me think a lot
How I've changed, how it's easier for me to be emotional these days
In a good way of course
You know, most people still don't understand why I can be so involved in SNSD, in an emotional way.
Well, all I can say is I've never met any other 9 girls who could make me feel so touched! Really... I rarely cry. But I tear up easily whenever I watch touching videos of SNSD.
And these are 9 girls whom I don't know at all personally. When was the last time I cried for a girl I knew in person? It was ... a long time ago.
But these are 9 great girls.
You know what's the funny thing.
So many people keep wondering why I'm so crazy over SNSD and stuff.
But look, if you don't go crazy in life your not really living life.
Why live such a reserved life? Why don't you just be yourself and stop caring about what others think?
I love snsd! So what? Why do you care? Why can't you go and oggle over your own groups instead of wondering why I love them so much? My life must be so much more interesting if you're taking an interest in WHY I like my favourite girl group so much :)
Unless.... you don't have such a group that could make you feel the same way? Yes, honestly I pity you, but really, mind your own business.
Honestly, sometimes it's like I'm not even allowed to express how much I love them.
And I get so sick and tired of people who give me such remarks! So I just learn to ignore them. It's really not necessary to have haters cloud your view. Seriously.
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If you're still reading, then you're probably interested to know further.
And you're probably not a hater at all. No worries, my comments earlier was just directed to people who can't respect other people's own personal feelings.
Sometimes when people say mean things about snsd, i get hurt but I don't say anything in return.
You know why? Because I care about the 9 girls.
I would think... "would the girls want me to get angry over this?"
and I would also think... "i must keep the girls images, me as an SNSD fan cannot show a bad attitude towards haters..."
So usually I don't say anything. SO that's why I'm here, blogging in my own space. So I hope you guys understand why I'm letting it out here.
I believe I can be a more mature fan.
I believe I can be one of the best SONEs around
By putting their needs before mine when it comes to topics about them.
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Did you guys know how happy I am to come to know SNSD? It's like I don't even care if I'm single anymore. I love them! Whenever I feel sad I just turn on some SNSD videos and my sadness is GONE!
I'm supposed to be doing my assignments now, but after watching SNSD my worries are GONE! Though I should get back to doing it after this post.
Did you know? I actually always wanted to be more emotional, not in the bad way, but in the good way.
You don't get what I mean do you?
Well, dont you know how some people can be so... emotionless? Mostly guys, they are less emotional than girls, and I'm talking about the GOOD aspect of being emotional, not the bad aspects
Good aspects such as you know... feeling touched... feeling serenity... just feeling life man.
After watching those kind of amazing and touching stories about snsd and the troubles they faced, I couldn't help but feel touched.
I cried. I cried when tiffany talked about how she lost her mom at the age of 14, and how she was thankful to her mom and god that even though her mom is gone, she was left with 8 wonderful amazing sisters....
I cried when I saw their into the new world concert. In the song 'complete', there was a moment where the song stops. And they gather in a circle and pray in silence for 10 seconds.... It was so touching.. I'm tearing up now thinking about it...
I cried, when I was in singapore, on the second night, they sang the song 'into the new world'. I cried. I just cried. I let it all out. All my emotions out. I felt so........ so emotional. In a good way. I was happy. Girls' Generation made me feel this way. Me ,a guy who could not be emotional in a good way. I'm happy thanks to them that I could feel such amazingly wonderful emotions.
I don't cry much. Even when I'm sad. Unless I'm extremely extremely depressed. Last year I didn't cry much at all.
If you are, as curious as everyone else as to why I love them, you will understand if you watch enough SNSD videos, come to love them and be passionate about them, and just understand them. They are so amazing girls. I'm not the only one who says this. Ask the hundreds of thousands or millions of snsd fans. They'll tell you.
I'm sure we all have our favourite artists. Usually we just like them to a certain degree. But this, is a whole different level. This is actually getting involved in their story. Knowing as much about them as possible. Watching their videos whenever there's a new one.
It's different, its not just liking them. It's a real emotional connection.
I really can't tell you how it feels. It has to be felt for yourself
When the girls are having fun and laughing, I'm happy and I laugh along.
When the girls tell their sad stories, I cry too. I'm sad too.
When the girls are just being their funny dorky selves, me too, I become myself too, I express how much I love their personalities and dorkiness.
It's just an amazing experience
I hope that you too, have a favourite artist or group. It doesn't have to be SNSD, it can be any artist.
And I hope that you too can get involved in that artist's life, not just on a fan level, but on an emotional level as well. It's just so touching when you get so involved with them ,you know? There's no other feeling like it.
I don't expect anyone to understand just by reading this. As I mentioned, you HAVE to experience it for yourself.
I'm proud to be a SONE, and will Forever be a SONE.
Oh yes, I cried too when I watched fan made - videos about SNSD. It's really touching... I've said this about 10 times now aha... but yes, SNSD's story is so touching...
I thought only girls will cry when it comes to sad stuff. Usually it's the case, as a guy I will hold in my tears.
But not for SNSD. I let it flow.
Because that's how much I love them, and I want to have my honest feelings come out. I don't want to hold it in. I don't want to hide it. Why should I? Life is for living. Without emotions we'd just be mindless zombies.
So you. If you do not have such any group you idolize to an EMOTIONAL level, its alright. But do try. It's totally different once you have such an... obsession? Haha, no no, that's not the right word. It's not like it's something bad right? I ain't doing drugs or anything like that.
On the outside it seems like I'm obsessed with SNSD, but please, look further into the matter. Obsessed is a word used for immature people.
Meaning that if your husband or wife is obsessed with you, he or she is immature for not looking at the big picture and understanding your emotions.
So that's why, it may seem like I'm obsessed with them, but actually, I'm obsessed in a mature way, you could say. I can't find the right word for it, so 'obsessed in a mature way' will do for now.
So yeah, just wanted to get it off my chest. I feel better now after ranting. It feels good. Even though maybe less than 5 people will read this LOL. Can't blame you guys haha... This post is long and... I don't update my blog often. And I'm talking about something most people can't really relate too unless they have the same kind of .... experience.
Well, that's all for now, even if 1 person read this I'd be a happy man :)
Hope you enjoyed , and to you amazing reader for reading so far, thanks! Though maybe you just came here by accident and had nothing to do or you googled 'danny siah loves snsd' and got to this page, yeah... just another average day :)
TOODLES! :3
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