My 2011?

Yehhhh, it's 2012 now.

2011 is officially over! Anddddd there's a ton of homework waiting for me to finish XD

Honestly, I just wanted to express my thoughts so here I am writing. It feels good to write again after a long time.

Truth be told, this year, many things and many times I made mistakes. It just makes me realize how human I am, you know? Mistakes define human existence

I realized I didn't always keep my promises. I also realized I didn't do everything I said I was going to do.

Most of the time, I'd say in my mind 'okay, I'm gonna do this', but in the end, I never did it.

If there was one thing I'd want to change about myself in 2012, it's this. This one thing. This habit of not doing the things I promised and said I would do.

Why? I believe that a weak mind cannot control his actions. A strong mind, however can control the body and perform well.

The best case scenario, is that in 2012 I can overcome this huge obstacle and really do what I say I'm gonna do. Get myself more organized. And everything.

Surely, it's no easy task, but that's why it's worth doing, ya know?

I had this same problem in 2010. Not sure if I improved much in 2011.

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Hey, I know I know, it's not good to only focus on my bad points. I did do some good things in 2011 too.

Sometimes in public I do help people out. There was once in a book store I lent someone in front of me my popular card so she could get the discount.

I also helped a guy move his stall in Singapore when I was there for SNSD's concert

it feels good to do these kind of small deeds, it's hard to explain the feeling, but yeah. This year I did help quite a few strangers.

Mm... I must say, many good things happened to me this year too.

Memorable ones are like when I went for SNSD's concert in Singapore. Seeing them was already a huge thing for me.

But I also received fan service from Tiffany, my favourite SNSD member. The flying kiss, heart, two thumbs up and bright smile she gave me, those 5 seconds I will remember forever.



I also managed to see SNSD off at the airport. Only those who had a flight and were inside the terminal could see them board the plane. The rest were outside the terminal (cause they don't have a flight) I was one of the lucky ones (only about 5-8 other people were there compared to the hundreds of people outside)

My love for SNSD grew a lot. Ever since the concert. I became even more loyal.

It's hard for people to understand. I know how people can wonder "how can they be so crazy over SNSD? Are they that special?"

Truthfully though, I don't blame anyone for making that kind of remark. Why?

Because you can't fully understand the reason, without seeing the situation for yourself

Does anyone really know why we love SNSD so much?

Most of my friends think I love SNSD because they're so pretty and gorgeous.

Yes, but that is only 20% of the reason I love them.

Think about it. If we loved them ONLY for their looks, then our loyalty would never last. Why? Because there are definitely so many beautiful artists around. Same thing if you are with someone because of their looks, it won't last, because you will meet someone who is better looking than your partner one day.

Yes, I don't love them just for their looks. It's their personality. It really captured my heart. Hundreds of thousands of people like me have also fallen in love with them. That is why, everytime we see a picture of them, we always talk about how wonderful they are.

When we say they look beautiful, it means that they look beautiful inside and outside. And it shows in the pictures. How many people can understand?

There are 9 girls in SNSD. Each of them have beautiful personalities, and they are special in their own way, they compliment each other's personality well. If you fall in love with any one of these girl's personalities, you will slowly start to learn about the other members in SNSD and realize how close they are, how beautiful their hearts are. It's because we know how they really are like, that we can love them so much. It's not just about looks. True SONEs will understand what I mean (SONE = SNSD fans)

Most won't understand, until they see for themselves, how the girls truly are behind the scenes.

That's why. Do you see me saying anything bad about another k-pop group? No. Why? Because I don't know their personalities. I don't know how they're really like behind the scenes. I don't know, and because I don't know, I don't judge any of them. I think all k-pop groups are great, and they all are helping spread the hallyu wave. Why hate any of them? It's a waste of time. Unnecessary hatred is generated.

But I can tell you this, I know what the girls are really like. And I'm the kind of guy who tries his best to see everything from a neutral perspective.

For instance, you know that Sooyoung from SNSD has her own solo version of Sway by Michael Buble, where she does a latin routine dance with a professional male latin dancer.

A friend of mine commented "not as good as the original michael buble sway"

I agreed with him. It's true. Sooyoung did pretty okay with her vocals, but it isn't as good as the original. But the dance routine was amazing. Sooyoung totally nailed the latin dance. My jaw hangs wide open whenever I watch it.



I still look at things from a neutral perspective, even if SNSD is my favourite girl group.

And as for those who give nonconstructive criticism and hatred, I just learn to ignore it. There'll always be such people, and I don't believe they deserve to be a k-pop fan if they put in so much effort to hate any k-pop group. They should grow up and just concentrate on loving their favourite group.

Aigoo, you can see, half of this post I talked about SNSD. That's how much I care for SNSD at the moment. It's a big part of my 2011

Becoming a SONE, that is (SONE = SNSD fan)

Yeap, it happened in May 2011. I'll never forget :)

SO if you ask me, yes, 2011 was an amazing year.

2012 will be even more amazing!

Resolutions for 2012?

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It's a simple one, finish college and start living life :)

Of course, to support SNSD all the way too

One day, I'll have my own cozy home. I'll be sitting at the veranda, admiring the dark starlit sky, loving everything about life. That day will come soon, I'm sure :)

p.s. Life keeps getting better and better :3

p.p.s Thank you fany! You made me so happy at the concert! May you stay happy always and meet the man of your dreams! ^___^

Tears

Never did I realize the real beauty of tears up till now

It's so magical

It's almost like leaving a small, yet meaningful part of you behind

Don't you think so?

Tears show that you care

So much, that you want to leave a portion of your memories there

When you part with friends, you cry, because it's so sad to have to leave

It's just... so touching

As a guy, I understand the value of tears

When someone cries for you, never take it for granted

They truly care for you so much

That they are willing to shed tears that signify how important you are

We go through life, meeting and leaving friends

Though you may meet friends, you will not always be with them

Your life may take a path that requires you to be somewhere else

So you have to leave

The important thing to remember is that

You won't be with a friend forever, but your parting won't be forever either

You will meet again :) I promise

When that time comes, you'll be much happier

The more painful and sad it was when parting, the happier you will be when you meet again

So smile!

Be happy! Life is to be happy :) all the time!

Those memories, will forever be locked within us.

The joy and the sadness of parting

The great times spent together achieving miracles

Even if we may not see each other for a long time, I will never forget all the friends that have come into my life

For they are the ones who made my life richer and more meaningful

Those memories I will cherish, forever :)

People often say, emotions are so dangerous, people who lose control will do terrible things

But without emotions, we lose one of the things that makes us human

That's why, emotions are beautiful, aren't they?

Tears, are beautiful, aren't they?

Sometimes I look at my life and think

You know, the best things in my life are really simple

It's just being able to feel powerful emotions

To understand that by using our attitude to produce the proper emotions, we can get through the hardest days in our lives

Right now, I feel so touched, and inspired, after watching how human bonds and relationships can be so beautiful and precious.

It's really true when they say, the most special things can never be seen, they can only be felt.

Such as love.

I also understand that as a leader, I have to understand human emotions well.

Being able to project the proper emotions is so important.

It could even change someone's life.

For me, there's a long long way to go in life, and I can feel great things await me up ahead.

And I'll be sure, to savor every single heartfelt emotion.

That's what makes life special.

Even if we had the brain to think rationally, without emotions we would just be robots.

I think today was a day well spent!

Goodnight everyone :) May everyone have an awesome and wonderful life!

Being Yourself

Today! Is such a good day for me! XD

I went to watch Real Steel! Awesome movie, totally added to my wonderful day!

Good and touching story, it is a TOTAL must watch! No regrets watching it :)

Also, since I was waiting for the movie to start I wondered into the CD shop and bought SNSD's latest album the Boys! XD

No regrets purchasing it! RM70!? Meh! I love SNSD too much for that to be expensive!

Plus they give lots of photocards and a HUGE poster! Awesome! Love it! It's on my room wall right now XD

I SWEAR it's bigger than the size of my computer table!

The first album I ever bought! I'm so proud! Never thought I'd buy an album! When you really love something you'll do anything to make it happen. I promise!

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To be honest, its not always easy sharing your love for your favourite group with other people. I get mixed feedback when I share news and photos of SNSD on my wall.

Some love the eye candy, some are SONEs like me so they don't mind at all, some just get irritated that I post so many stuff.

It kind of bugs me... I wonder why they don't change the settings on my page sometimes. Then they won't get spammed so much. If they from 'subscribed' to 'important only' or 'unsubscribe' then we would all be happy, no? It's strange. People can be really selfish even though I have the right to post stuff on my wall however I want and how MANY I want.

I won't change for anyone, except if I myself want to change. You gotta know your own rights. You have the right to be yourself, even when other people condemn you for being yourself.

So people can judge me all they want, I'm a true blue SONE. (it is pronounced so-one) A SONE is the term used for an SNSD fan. (for those who are wondering) I know that the girls will do a great job and make a global impact.

They are now number 3 on the youtube charts along with worldwide artists such as LMFAO and Justin Bieber.

They are leading the K-wave.

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We all have to understand one very important thing. All the things we do in life, not everyone is going to like it. Instead of trying to please everyone, just be yourself.

I realize that among K-pop groups SNSD does have haters. Not that many, but many compared to other K-pop groups. I always wondered why. They are really nice girls, and they never really offended anyone, why all the hate? Why all the 'oh they probably had plastic surgery?' Who cares? Listen, 50 years from now everyone will be getting plastic surgery. Lean in with the damned era man. We're changing.

Listen good, no one is perfect. Everyone has something bad about them. That makes us human. So are the girls.

I for one know that they work so hard. They deserve to be on top. Haters are just jealous. And really... Haters are just HELPING promote SNSD to the world.

Do you see me hating on another K-pop group? No. Because I respect the other k-pop groups for putting in their effort into being successful.

Years from now, you will see the legacy that SNSD has created. They are the chosen group to lead the hallyu wave and bring K-pop to a global scale. And know that I am a fan from now until forever, and if I had known them a few years back I definitely would have been their fan even earlier when they first started.

Someday, girls generation will be known as global generation. They will break records and make history forever.

Do you know how close these girls are?

Think about it, can these girls achieve the success they have achieved today without teamwork?

No! It is clear to me that these girls have done a great job in having tight bonds with one another and.

It is only when a team is in synchronized harmony that real STRONG impact can be made with their actions.

People may think its their looks that makes them popular and so they pin it on plastic surgery. They try to de-grade SNSD.

Let me make it clear that these girls are NOT flower vases.

What really helped them was their attitude and teamwork. They stuck together through thick and thin. From the beginning, 9, until now, still 9.

These girls have a humble and successful winning attitude. Trust me on this. I'm not blinded by their beauty or anything like that. I call it as I see it.

Again, you may think that it's their looks, but trust me, looks alone will get you NOWHERE in this world.

Let me elaborate more.

I used to only like Tiffany among all the 9 girls.

But the more I watched their variety shows. The more I came to understand all the other girls personalities.

The more I fell in love with ALL of them. You know I actually previously never thought that Jessica was pretty or anything like that.

But now, I honestly think she is GORGEOUS. You know why?

Attitude. Personality. That made her gorgeous in my eyes. That is why some people will NEVER comprehend why we are so in love with these girls

Most people just think its their surface that attracted us to them.

Trust me, their personality plays an even MORE important role in making us like them.

Don't ever just judge this girls based on their looks. They have hearts of gold. I vouch for that any day anytime. Have an open mind about them, and you will soon understand what I'm talking about.

Thank you for reading :) I had to clear my head today haha! lately been receiving a lot of comments that im posting too much SNSD stuff. I always have to tell them to change my profile settings to suit their spam needs.

Seriously man, they make a big deal out of nothing. That shows how free people are, to make a huge deal out of something so small.

Think about it, you think that if you had more important matters at hand you'd actually bother to make an issue about something like this?

The minute someone complains about something small like this, it just tells me how free they are and how small minded they are. Well, toodles :) hehe

Surprising... So surprising...

We're human. We make mistakes all the time.

Other people are human. Other people make mistakes all the time.

That is why it is our duty to learn how to accept our mistakes and apologize.

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Did you know? Right now I could still be angry over what happened over 30 minutes ago.

But I'm not. I'm okay now. So quickly.

Even though what happened 30 minutes ago could have shook the very stability of my club.

Apologizing the proper way, is so important.

Most people can't do this.

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The other person was right, I'm not the best president. Not yet, at least. I still don't treat everyone equally, even though I am trying.

I still get moody sometimes, even though I am trying not to be.

I still criticize, mostly inside my mind, about others, even though I am trying not to.

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Just now I could have just criticized back about my friend's mistakes.

But I didn't. I held my anger in.

I apologized.

I knew that, no one is perfect, and my friend just pointed out to me my mistakes.

It doesn't matter whether the other person made any mistakes.

What matters is that we need to realize our mistakes first, before anyone else's.

If I made mistakes, then who am I to criticize another?

And just like that, the tension and the anger between my side and my friend's side... subsided...

Just one apology, had that affect.

The power....

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On the other hand, what if I had lashed back?

What if I criticized my friend in return instead of apologizing?

I believe now I would still be in a heated argument, angry with myself and my friend.

I'm surprised at myself.

I apologized... even though I was ready to lash back... Why did I do that? How did I do that?

I don't know. Does it make me a better individual? If I'm willing to apologize for my mistakes?

Perhaps. It did make me feel better. It did make the tension subside. It probably would even improve future relations.

I'm a strange guy... Sometimes I don't understand myself either.

Still, I know many imperfections lie within me, most of it makes up who I am. That's what humans are, we're creations of powers from above filled with imperfection, and that in itself makes us beautiful, inside.

After all, we can only be ourselves, in the end.

I'm still sorry for all the trouble I caused for my friend.

I'm willing to apologize whenever it is required.

You apologize if you value a friendship and want it restored.

You don't apologize when you want to severe a friendship.

It's as simple as that.

Perhaps I'm really learning the essence of the bulwark of the ages. It is a shield that absorbs hate and returns kindness and love.

It's something very few people on earth possess. In comparison to the twin-edge sword most people hold in their hands.

Yes, it's so surprising.

I'm still really surprised.

I'll learn to be a better friend and a leader. It's a promise.

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Good night :)

Update on Life

Finally! I'm glad. The second event for my club is starting soon.

I'm happy we came this far. Looking back to a time where we had no members.

The hardships taught me a lot. Even now I'm still learning new things as we progress.

Even though there are many things we can improve on, and we are far from perfect. I still appreciate what we've got. And we're really bringing some change to the college.

It's exciting to see people who do not even know how to play ping pong join our event. It's really about participating and just getting experience and living college life to the fullest.

I tried really hard to have a females category going in our ping pong tournament, and it really happened.

Previously, I could easily say that not many girls would participate in a tournament, but now that we actually have the category running, people will start to change their opinion about that.

To those who joined, despite not knowing how to play, hats off to you. It shows you have the guts to do what other people who CAN play but are too afraid to do, which is join the tournament.

I can't thank you enough, to everyone, including participants, and my members, for all the support. We'll definitely make this tournament a success as well, just like last time, no, we'll be even better now.

We're going to really make a name for ourselves. We can do it. Even though many obstacles await, we shall challenge them and move forward.

Within the club I created a culture.

We laugh a lot. A hell lot.

We review books. A hell lot.

We play games. A hell lot.

We have fun. A hell lot.

We have events. A hell lot.

Where there is little laughter, there is little success :)

Someday, I hope that KBU's culture will change too. Everyone will be active. Positive. Happy. That day is yet to come, but I'm building towards it :)

I said this many times since a long time ago. If I can't even change my college, then how can I make a change on a bigger scale?

Even though for now my goal is to get married, my even longer term goal really is to change the world.

When I was younger, it really was my hope to change the world. It's possible, it appeared in my thoughts after all.

Even though that time I was less confident, and less courageous.

I still believed. Today, I still believe it will happen.

Just like how I believed that the female category WILL happen. And it did.

The power of truly believing in something, is really amazing.

I look at my members now and wonder... My, how young they are :)

Sometimes they are easily angered

Sometimes they are so active

Sometimes they are so emotional

Sometimes they surprise me

Sometimes they their potential shines like the light

Sometimes they disappear, and I don't see them for a while

Sometimes they don't realize that a really bright and happy future awaits them

But all the time, I believe in them.

They remind me of myself a few years ago when I first entered college.

I was a real rascal :) Now, I really have toned down a bit.

Still, I must say, my final year in college really couldn't be better :)

It's like... you could say it's a wonderful conclusion for me. Haha!

It's so strange... My circle of friends really change from last year. It's like a 180 degree turn.

Im fine with it though, I don't mind change, I think change is good once in a while :) Change teaches you many things.

hm... I suppose that's pretty much it for today :) no fancy pictures, I just wanted to express myself a little. :)

Great things are to come, and I cannot wait! :D

Gnite :)

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish

"Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish"

Those were the words of the late Steve Jobs.

Now, I know I'm not in much of a position to comment since I'm personally not an Apple user.

But after reading up about him, I discovered that he is quite a man.

He literally revolutionized and changed the world when it comes to handheld device technology, as well as various other areas.

Before we go on, I would like to share this video of a speech he gave at stanford 6 years ago, at the age of 50



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If you have watched it, then it will be easier to relate to what I am going to say.

This man is a powerful man.

You ask if this man has led a successful life? Yes.

Why? Because he has lived everyday as if it was his last.

He mentioned that knowing that death was nearing caused him to avoid feeling shame, pride and all other negativity in his life, and just make the decisions which made apple so great as it is today.

How many people can do that? Live every day as if it were his last?

If today was your last day, would you do what you would be doing right now?

If it is always no, then the time for change has come.

You can see from his speech that he is a real genius not only at his work, but also in life itself.

He knew that you have to love what you do, and he DID love what he did for a living.

How many of us can say the same?

We all know that we have to find our passion in life, but a lot of us are in fear, just sticking to what feels safe to us.

But not this man. He dropped out of college, and because he dropped out of college, he found what he loved doing.

Because he got fired at the age of 30 from Apple, he started two very successful companies, Pixar and NeXT, and eventually became CEO of Apple again.

Look at this man. Every bad experience that he went through just made him even better.

He even said that those experiences were what made him successful today.

How many of us can say the same? Just look at his exemplary life and tell me you could say the same about yours. The way he handled failure was incredible.

When you die, will people make tributes outside your companies stores? Will they make several Facebook pages just to show how much they care?

Will people weep tears of sorrow and anguish when you leave this world?

For Steve Jobs, the answer is Yes. People care, people weep, because they know the world has lost an invaluable inventor and individual.

This man has become a legend. A revolutionary.

What about you? What about me? Are people going to remember us when we die?

I don't want to die without leaving an impact to the world.

As much love as you give to the world, you receive in return, when you leave.

He has given love to the world through the passion and love for his work.

The whole world feels it,

And the whole world mourns. Come on, I'm not even an Apple user and I feel he's really a great man.

That's how far his influence extends. People can see if you lead a successful life, people aren't all blind.

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The reason I'm strongly affected by this is because I too...

Want to be a powerful man.

My failures are still small compared to what others like Steven Jobs go through.

Being kicked out of your own company has GOTTA be tough!

Yet I'm feeling like a failure already because I couldn't even get a Ping Pong tournament to get started since there wasn't enough participants.

If this great man can achieve so much and bounce back from failures, then I can too.

I can.

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People are going to remember me when I leave this world.

It's No Joke

We all know that the road to success is one filled with tons of lessons and hardships

It really isn't a joke at all.

Your emotions run wild. You feel like such a failure. You feel so useless.

It feels like all hope is lost.

Yes. That's what failure feels like.

And honestly, I feel a little like that right now.

Inside us is a wheel.

It constantly rotates.

At one point, you are at the top of the world.

Before you know it, you're back down at the bottom. Feeling a little miserable.

It's hard to go through failure, or to feel like you've failed someone, or even yourself.

Now I look at all those successful people and say..

"What did you guys really go through to get there?"

It must've been tough. But you guys, you guys pulled through.

You guys are amazing.

Can I be like you guys?

I ask that question, even though I know only I can answer it through my actions.

Sometimes you wonder, why do you work so hard?

Sometimes you wonder, why is it that you feel as if there is so much burden to carry?

Sometimes, sometimes... You just bottle up all emotions.

Until one day, you get so mad at yourself you just explode.

Other people around you are caught in the blast and are hurt.

It's really because we couldn't handle ourselves properly that we hurt ourselves as well as others.

It's hard to explain what I'm feeling right now.

To sum it up, I feel I can do a lot better than what I am now

But I don't know how. How? I just want an answer.

No answer comes.

What do I do? Just wait?

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Sometimes, sometimes.. I feel like a hypocrite too.

Honest to god.

I talk so much but do so little.

I still fail to do what I said I would do.

I no longer smile so much.

I no longer laugh so much.

It looks like a balanced life is really key to happiness.

I tend to overindulge in things, it makes you unhappy, you know, when you overindulge in something. Though at the moment you feel it's nice.

My two biggest weaknesses. Not doing what I said I would do.

And getting excited over an idea, and then not following it through to the end.

I hate it so much. Why can't I change?

I don't expect perfection but I do expect a lot more from myself.

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So after all, the person I was really angry with was myself, wasn't it?

Right now, I don't really know what to do.

But in life, there isn't a pause button. Life is always on play.

So what will I do now?

Sleep. That is what I will do.

The body needs rest. Perhaps I am over-thinking.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

That's why we shall start anew :)

Semester Begins

Ah. It's raining. Great weather to write out my thoughts. Lately much has been going through my head.

Semester just started today, and I'm quite happy, most of my classes start at 1pm

God must want me to enjoy my year 3 :) I'm thankful.

I also know what title I want to do for my final Year 3 project (it's 40 credit points out of 120)

Knowing what you want to do in life is really important. And I'm happy that I have made a decision on what topic to do for it. Not being able to decide would just be terrible, like what many of my friends are facing now.

Also, my game improved, in League of Legends. Overall, more wins than losses. That's great :) I shall continue winning.

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I've also made a decision.

Yes, we all need to make decisions and not hesitate when we do need to make one.

Was watching SNSD's 1st asia tour concert videos.

I was so touched by their performance.



It was their 1st album, so their songs had a more softer melancholy to it back then, it makes your heart feel touched in a way, when they perform.

I said to myself "If I don't ever see these girls live in concert, I will never forgive myself on my deathbed"

Yes. I must see them live. If they come to Singapore, or if they are in Thailand, that's close enough for me.

Next year I start working. I will save up money to travel to see them. Distance isn't a matter for me, these girls are worth the effort and time. Definitely. Without a doubt.

All of their concerts are always full house. Always. Man, if I could be there in the crowd cheering them on... What I'd give for that.

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Oh yes, I am most likely going to choose 3D-modelling and Virtual Reality for my optional subject in year 3.

I heard virtual reality has to do with games, so the choice is obvious :)

I have a wonderful life, I gotta learn to cherish it even more :)

I know one day, I will be wealthy not just in riches, but also at heart.

I know one day, I will be strong not just as a guy, but as a man.

I know one day, I'll get to see SNSD in concert, and I will enjoy it to the fullest to see our 9 angels perform :)

I know one day, I'll get married to the girl of my dreams. Someone I can truly love.

Why do I know? I just know :)

A friend told me I was getting tame. Not so crazy as last time.

True, perhaps I'm maturing quite a bit :) I'm 20 already, after all :D

Sometimes I feel like my life is already all set out for me. Good things come most of the time, and generally everyone is happy around me :)

That's really great, isn't it?

Some people think of me as an inspiration and role model.

I'm actually super pai seh when they say so. I'm flattered to think that this once shy boy (before college) could actually be highly regarded as a good individual to follow.

It's true when they say positive attracts more positive into your life :)

Well anyhow! On to the new semester ^_^! Good luck to everyone, may you live a blessed life.

Thoughts Thoughts

Surprisingly, many people wondered why I didn't go for the Pangkor trip

They're saying hey! Danny is the life of the party! A trip wouldn't be a trip without him!

I'm flattered :) but I think it's a little over exaggerated haha! Pai seh la!

Sure it'd be fun, but you know what

I didn't actually see a reason to go

Although it is slightly a little expensive, but the main reason is because there isn't a reason to go, at least for me.

Usually, you go on trips with people who you are really close to

But in this case, since I've left the council, even though I may know many of them, I chose not to go since the real point of the trip is so the members, the juniors can bond better with each other. That's the whole point.

I'm not a junior, there really isn't a reason for me to go. And spend rm200+. LOL.

People tell me I am overthinking it. No, I'm not, it's the truth. Why go for a trip if there isn't a reason to go?

Fun? I have fun anywhere I go :) It's all about perspective.

Danny Siah doesn't go where the fun is, the fun goes where Danny Siah is. Period.

You see, if it wasn't a council trip, maybe I would consider more about going.

But it is called, SC Island Trip for a reason!

Yes I know I am a senior member, but hey, it's time for the younger generation to have their fun :)

Man, if they really can't learn to have fun without me I'd SERIOUSLY be disappointed!

Having fun is really important, and you just need to go with the right company.

And look, what does a senior member do anyway? It's such a grey area. I haven't had to do anything ever since becoming a senior. Haha!!!! So what's the point really???

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If people still cannot see my point as to why I didn't go for the trip, then you must rethink it all over an look at it from a wider perspective.

The last SC trip I went for a few months ago, I was still a member. So I did go. It applied to me. But being a 'senior member' feels like you're sort of retired.

Do you go for a company-trip if you're retired from the company?

From what I know the main purpose of such trips is to build bonds so that future projects can be more easily executed because everyone knows one another better.

But then you add in all this.. outside unrelated friends and then... Is it really a company trip anymore?

No, it isn't.

The people who were not in SC who came along with us during the last SC trip would actually feel left out. Unrelated to the cause and the organization which is the council!

So I think that the organizer may have missed the point of organizing a Student Council trip. Everything must be done with a purpose, a reason. Why go for a trip just to have fun? Why not have a more deeper purpose? If you wanna have fun I can introduce more cheaper alternatives, if you JUST wanna have fun. I'm serious.

My family is just making ends meet on our overall household income. So if I can save a little, I think I should.

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And if SC really did organize it JUST to have fun, I would also be seriously disappointed. Everything must have some deeper meaning to it.

Otherwise you're just wasting time. I'm not saying fun isn't important, but fun isn't the only element you have to think about.

Yes, so that's my two cents on the reason why I feel it is a little pointless/inappropriate for me to go for the trip.

I believe strongly of my reasoning powers, and if anyone still doesn't understand, that is still alright.

You may have your own reasoning, and in fact you may be right as well, but it doesn't mean that I am wrong :) hehe

Well, just wanted to get that out in the open. Toodles! :D

Friendship

Friendship is a very peculiar thing

I can't remember the last time I wrote about it, it must've been a long time. My, time flies. Or was it recently? I can't remember. It's too late at night.

Lately this month I've come to realize

Friendship is something like uno stacko.

At first, when you meet a friend, and friendship begins, it's like the uno stacko game begins.

Each time you hurt a friend, accidentally or intentionally, you take a block out of the uno stacko, and you place it on top.

Again, you hurt someone, again you take a block out and put it on top.

Each time you put it on top, you return the block, and the friendship continues.

Each time, again and again, you keep building it higher, higher and higher

Until one point, when you take out the block, it falls. Apart.

Thinking back. I honestly can say, even though sometimes you look back and see that you really treat your friends so well all the time,

Just one wrong phrase, one mistake could cause it to crash and fall like the uno stacko.

Yes. I can say that I really treat my friends as best as I can. But I also understand that no matter how well I treat the uno stacko, one day it will fall, after all we all make mistakes.

When it falls apart like that, you can either leave it there, or build it up again.

Leaving it there in crumbles means the friendship comes to an end.

Building it up again from scratch means you want to save the friendship. You want to make it stronger. And you're willing to start all over if that means it's what it takes.

You start building, one block after another. Each time being good to your friend. Building, building, building, and crash.

There we go again. And then we start building and building and building. And crash.

But wait. Each time it crashes, we get more blocks. Now we can build it higher.

It crashes again. Now we can build it even higher.

Friendship is a lot like that. Every time you do something wrong, you crash your friendship. But once you restore it, it becomes strengthened. And the process repeats.

Most people view those crashes as a bad thing. In actual fact, it serves to strengthen the friendship only if you know how to see it as a good thing instead of a bad thing.

Most people do their best to avoid those crashes. But hey, if you never fight and never disagree what friendship is there?

I just crashed twice this month, but I will start to build them both up again. Definitely. Failure is never final.

Each of those blocks are precious. I feel that deep down, I have done my best to treat them well as friends. And regardless of whether it is true or not, I shall continue to build. I may not be able to control how others think, but I am able to control me. So I continue to build.

I can stop and think about how bad the crash was. Or I can just build on.

I can look at how many blocks or good deeds I have done. Or I can just build on.

I can leave the blocks crashed and not build them again and just look at it forever. Or I can just build on.

1 bad deed is enough to make you bad , even though you did 100 good deeds previously. That's why it's hard to be good. But that is also why being good is a greater challenge, the tougher part, and the harder road always reaps more experience and teaches so much more about life itself.

In both times I didn't actually mean to be bad. I was just being myself. I never intended to hurt them. But in fact I did. Somehow. Such is friendship. Such a fragile thing.

For now, that is. After a few times, no longer will it be a fragile thing. First, it was plastic blocks. Easily blown by even the winds. Then it became wood, even stronger than before.

Then finally it became steel.

But becoming steel was not enough.

Each time that steel is piled atop one another, it is melded together.

So every good deed stays. in tact. And after a while, it may no longer fall. And even if it does fall, it only continues to become stronger. As long as I am willing to start from scratch.

Funny, how life revolves around itself, how uno stacko can be related to friendship, how food can describe life, how your personality personifies itself through everything you do.

Friends. Even if some of them will only be close to me for a few years, I will make those years as memorable as possible. Then even if I see them many years later, I will smile and reminiscence the old times over a cup of hot coffee with them :)

So, that's the man I want to be. What about yourself?

Do you continue to build?

Grandmother said this...

OH MY GODDDDD!!

Last Monday (4 days ago) I went out for breakfast with a good friend of mine :)

We talked about lots of stuff

Then we came to the topic on masked riders (nerd topic alert)

I told her, I've always been wanting to watch kamen rider kabuto (I saw the advertisement somewhere)

Take note that my friend studied psychology at help and is currently working... She said OMG KABUTO IS AWESOME!!!!!! (or something along those lines)

So, trusting my friend's one line review of the series

I decided to go home and watch!

OH MY GODDDD!!! I LOVED IT!!!!!!

The first few episodes are the warm up episodes, when it gets to the deeper part of the story... Man there were so many WTF moments I really lost count!

That's one thing about any japanese drama/series

They can somehow come up with the craziest storylines and make you go WTF! This applies for any jap drama (if you have any past experience with jap drama's im sure you know what I'm talking about)

In this series they made the main character, Tendou Souji, simply GODLIKE!

And watching Kabuto makes you hungry cuz.. Tendou is apparently a GODLIKE chef as well (you can see his little sister's expression of deliciousness after each time she eats his cooking)

Also, the AMAZING and UNIQUE thing about this series is the AWESOME...

"Grandmother said this:" quotes! HAHAHAHAHA!

I absolutely loved them!

Tendou kicks a monster's ass? "Grandmother said this..."

Tendou cooks awesome food? "Grandmother said this..."

Tendou makes an unprecedented comeback? "Grandmother said this..."

SERIOUSLY EPIC!!! I LOVED IT SO MUCH!!!!

Also, food is a very huge part of the series, it lightens the mood of the series and makes it more fun to watch :)

And yes, I never get tired of seeing Jyuka (Tendou's lil sis) express how delicious her brother's cooking is EACH AND EVERY FRIGGING TIME! XD

Also, I mentioned earlier that there were quite a number of WTF moments in the series. Yeap, and that's what makes it even better (cuz it's unpredictable and not cliche like power rangers.. lmao)

Tendou's godlike-ness just makes the series even more enjoyable for me. I like it when the main character has this sort of arrogance that compliments his personality and abilities. Tendou is just Tendou :) That arrogant attitude suits him PERFECTLY.

And it suits him because his strength is REAL.

His opening line is as follows:-

"Grandmother said this: Walking the path of heaven, the man who will rule over everything. Tendou, Souji"

Tendou - Path of Heaven
Souji - Ruler of All

LOL!!!!! They really made him a bad ass rider :)

Also, the series forecasts many other riders (of course, Tendou is the best )

But each character has some depth to them and as you go along you'll find out the past of these characters. (Yes, some really WTF moments I tell you.)

I loved the transformation style too. It's only my second Kamen Rider series, and yeah! It's pretty cool! I like the whole "Rider Belt" idea (though it's probably not new)

Nevertheless it still looks awesome :)

The only bad thing I can say about the series is that.. hmm... After the second half of the series it gets a little slow.

But honestly I was breezing through the episodes so fast (i finished all 49 episodes already) that it really didn't affect me.

Still loved it to bits.

Enjoyed all the WTF moments.

Enjoyed all the awesome grandmother quotes

Enjoyed the awesome transformations.

Enjoyed Jyuka's smile :D

Enjoyed the storyline

Enjoyed Tendou's godlike-ness

Enjoyed the FOOD and COOKING!!! :DDDD

This series is like a 9/10 for me! Awesome! Maybe even 9.5!! :DDDD

Realistically, I don't think any series would achieve a 10/10, simply because nothing in this world is perfect :)

But who knows! Maybe there'll be one who would just tickle my fancy :) hehe!

Okay! Thanks for reading! If you did read this far, you are either

a) A kamen rider fan
b) A danny siah fan
c) A ceiling fan (i'm kidding XD)

Or you were just bored! Probably one of the above XD

Anyhow, if you are interested to watch this series of Kamen Rider Kabuto, you can do so at

https://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=207033499319363

All the links are there! (Yes, you can watch the ENTIRE series on facebook without downloading)

Or if you prefer to download, you can get the ENTIRE series on

http://tokuzilla.com/kamen-rider/kamen-rider-kabuto-complete/

Yeap! That's all folks! Hope you enjoyed it!

Hopefully more people can enjoy this awesome series filled with compassion, love, humour, kindness and FOOD! XD


Some people claim it is the best rider series ever (by 2 of my female friends, in fact!)

But is it for you? It's up to you to judge :)



(Note, this is a special episode, the zector bugs don't talk in the real series haha)

Gnite! :D

Bulwark of the Ages

Heya! I'm going to update about something non-related to girls today :)

Not really like me eh? Haha! Well, there will always be time in the future for such posts, as for now, on to today's post

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A few years back, I was a different guy. I was more immature, I was more rash, I was naive.

I had less control of my emotions.

It's the truth. I was one emotional dude.

Maybe because it was my teenage years. They say the hormones are raging.

On the other hand, I suppose I did do my part to make a change to my attitude, though there's still room for loads of improvement definitely :)

Lately, I realized how sometimes your words could hurt someone, even if it wasn't your intention.

I think everyone has had their fair share of problems like this.

But not everyone would apologize for it, because they feel it wasn't their fault, since they did not intend to hurt the other person.

Also, most people don't apologize because they feel it would make them look weak. Especially guys, they really hate apologizing. In public even more so.

When you take a step back and look at the bigger picture however, you ask yourself..

Is a friendship worth being jeopardized over these kind of misunderstandings?

No, in fact, it's actually a very small thing

but because no one wishes to apologize, and restore the friendship, things eventually go downhill and what could have been a long lasting friendship is gone just like that.

Something so small, became something so big, because no one wants to apologize and make up. Think about that.

It happened to me before. I lost a few friends this way. I learned a very valuable lesson about life. It's important to be brave enough and man enough to initiate the apology. If you don't do it, no one will.

In the end I sit down and ask myself... Was it worth losing a friend over these kind of things?

No. It wasn't worth it. So is it worth apologizing to restore friendships? Yes.

That's why now, I let my ego down and apologize whenever I can. It doesn't matter whose fault is it, a misunderstanding is a misunderstanding.

Blaming one another simply doesn't solve the problem. I've understood this.

Strangely I learn well through experience, but the price of experience is expensive. You lose valuable things along the way. Relationships, friendships. But I will not let it go to waste. All those things I've learned, I will use it properly.

On the plus side, I've learned to treat friends better. Much better than last time.

Even recently I offended a friend, though I didn't mean to. But I believe our friendship is valuable. It's not something worth losing.

It's hard for most people to do this. You need a lot of self esteem, otherwise you won't be able to apologize. People who have low self-confidence have a lot of trouble initiating apologies. High levels of ego is also another cause for not wanting to apologize.

I didn't care about face, friendship is more important. I was never concerned with my self-image or what others would think of me. I will be myself, no matter what happens :) So that's why for me, it is a little easier to apologize.

Your heart needs to become a shield that absorbs all negativity and turn it into positivity. Your heart must become a negative-to-positive energy converter.

That way, even when people tell you off, you will stay calm and not respond irrationally. Losing your temper only makes things worse when it comes to apologies and such.

Make your heart a shield. That shield is known as the bulwark of the ages, made from a wood called 'self-esteem'. It is rock hard, yet at the same time it will absorb the impact of the harsh words from others.

In that way, you will respond to other people's negative attacks with positive energy. Responding with negativity just multiplies it. Remember.

To me, the greatest example of positivity is the ability to respond to negativity with positivity.

So I will do so :) Since I am one of the few who are on the highly positive scale.

Sometimes I fail, but every time I fail I try again, and I become better. It's really the only thing keeping me going. Never giving up.

So far, it seems like I'm on the right track in life, may everyone's lives be filled with joy and happiness :)

And happy mid-autumn festival! Hope you guys have a blast :)

Gnite!

LoL

Just a quick post

A thought came to my mind just now

I was playing LoL (League of Legends)

It's an improved version of Dota you could say!



Anyhow, I realized that, whether or not you are a good player isn't based on how many wins you have.

It's based on how many losses you have, and how you view those losses.

I notice that most people, really hate losing. And that's pretty normal. I don't exactly like losing too.

At the same time, I realized that we should take a loss more positively.

Simply because losing means that we can still improve ourselves.

It also means that losing is an opportunity to learn about your weaknesses and improve on them.

Yes, losing is a passport to great wins next time.

And most of us really get blinded by our 'number of wins'

When we should really pay attention to our losses.

Why did we lose? How can I improve?

Instead, what most people do is... "That teammate of mine sucked balls, he's a noob, he doesn't listen to orders, he lacks teamwork"

I admit, sometimes I do blame other people in my team as well for losing

But hey. What's the point? I cannot improve my skills in LoL by blaming others, or being angry at them. Even if I am right, so what? It doesn't make me a better player.

I believe a really good LoL player can make teamwork happen, even in a team that has problematic members in it. Take note that as a team, you go down together, or you succeed together. So relatively speaking, your teammates flaws are your flaws, and their strengths are your strengths.

I must learn better to control my focus and emotions. Sometimes you get so caught up in an argument with a teammate that you forget to focus on the game itself. It is a little immature at times. I've been there, believe me. It has caused me many losses before.

Also another thing I notice, there is a 'surrender' option in the game.

I never use that option. Or at least, I stopped using it.

A man finishes what he started. So he does not give up, even if the enemy is really whooping your ass.

A lot of players give up and surrender half way through the game (or sometimes even earlier) because they are losing by a huge gap.

For me, no matter how bad the situation is, I will always vote no when asked to surrender. Never. I'd rather die another 100 times in that game than surrender.

Also, one more bad habit that some LoL players do (me too occasionally) is that we tend to get negative about the whole game.

Yeah... I often hear negative remarks, like "we are going to lose" or... "boring"... or "you feed!" or "enemy is so strong/fat"

I don't really see how it helps to see how you're going to lose, rather than try to see how you're going to win.

Sometimes I do say negative things, like 'gg' or good game, signalling that the game is already over, but now I only make sure to say it only as the game is about to end.

I try not to take things people say to heart as well. Sometimes they say things because they are angry, frustrated. Sometimes they lose again and again and they just want to take out that anger on someone. Don't take it to heart if people criticize you or scold you.

It's just a game after all :) we're in it to have fun, whether we lose or win.

Being able to handle a loss like a man and avoid whining like a girl/sore loser is a very important skill most gamers need.

Just my 2 cents, thanks for reading :) Even if you may not know the game, what I'm mostly talking about in this post is not the game, but your attitude in the game. And it reflects your life, mostly.

Eye Contact : A way to establish dominance

Hey guys! It's been a long time since I last updated!

Just enjoying the holidays too much! HAHA! It's been a great one :)

I'm still wondering if I should go for a Pangkor trip ending of this month, It's kinda weird cause I've left the council, so I don't really think it's suitable if I go.



Well anyhow! On to today's topic!

Eye contact, everyone knows that eye contact is a very powerful tool in order to leave an impression. This applies in dating, relationships, and all human contact, in fact.

So I will explain how to use eye contact to establish dominance which will aid you in leaving a strong impression as a guy, towards other females.

Also take note that you can establish dominance over other guys with this technique.

This takes practice, so here we go!

1) You need to be in college, shopping malls, or any place with a lot of people
2) As everyone passes by, look at them straight in the eyes
3) Each time you look at someone, DON'T look away. Keep your eyes locked onto theirs
4) Do NOT look away, until the other person looks away (doesn't matter if it's a guy or girl, it's for training)
5) If its a guy, and he asks you what's the matter, just tell him you thought that he looked like your friend

Now, if it's a girl, you will get various different responses.

First response, she looks away before you, this shows that she has a submissive/passive/timid/unconfident character

Second type of response, she smiles, and maintains eye contact for a long period with you (sometimes 10 seconds or more) Usually this kind of girl is confident, they almost always smile and maintain eye contact with you.

Do return a smile if she gives you one :)

Some girls might even say Hi to you! That's awesome! You get to talk to her just by using eye contact, now isn't that just great?

So, all my male friends, use this eye contact exercise to your advantage, and when you have mastered it, you can easily leave a strong confident impression on those you approach.

Also, remember, NEVER break eye contact first, the one who breaks first shows a submissive character. Now you don't want to appear weak do you? Hehe :)

Alright! That's all for today! I did this post especially for one of my loyal fans! Sheng Khang! He reminded me all about this blog haha! Kudos to him!

Have a nice day peeps ^_^
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A Father's Message to His Kids

Read an article about a dad who new he had only less than a year to live, and he went on to buy birthday presents for his children's 18th and 21st birthday, filmed DVDs, paid for his own funeral and all those other things, before moving on from life.

So here is his message to his kids when they are old enough to read it. He's such a responsible and wonderful dad.

A FATHER'S RULES FOR FINDING FULFILMENT

• Be courteous, be punctual, always say please and thank you, and be sure to hold your knife and fork properly. Others take their cue on how to treat you from your manners.

• Be kind, considerate and compassionate when others are in trouble, even if you have problems of your own. Others will admire your selflessness and will help you in due course.

• Show moral courage. Do what is right, even if that makes you unpopular. I always thought it important to be able to look at myself in the shaving mirror every morning and not feel guilt or remorse. I depart this world with a pretty clear conscience.

• Show humility. Stand your ground but pause to reflect on what the other side are saying, and back off when you know you are wrong. Never worry about losing face. That only happens when you are pig-headed.

• Learn from your mistakes. You will make plenty so use them as a learning tool. If you keep making the same mistake or run into a problem, you’re doing something wrong.

• Avoid disparaging someone to a third party; it is only you who will look bad. If you have a problem with someone, tell them face to face.

• Hold fire! If someone crosses you, don’t react immediately. Once you say something it can never be taken back, and most people deserve a second chance.

• Have fun. If this involves taking risks, so be it. If you get caught, hold your hands up.

• Give to charity and help those who are less fortunate than yourselves: it’s easy and so rewarding.

• Always look on the upside! The glass is half full, never half empty. Every adversity has a silver lining if you seek it out.

• Make it your instinct always to say ‘yes’. Look for reasons to do something, not reasons to say no. Your friends will cherish you for that.

• Be canny: you will get more of what you want if you can give someone more of what they desire. Compromise can be king.

• Always accept a party invitation. You may not want to go, but they want you there. Show them courtesy and respect.

• Never ever let a friend down. I would bury bodies for my friends, if they asked me to . . . which is why I have chosen them carefully.

• Always tip for good service. It shows respect. But never reward poor service. Poor service is insulting.

• Always treat those you meet as your social equal, whether they are above or below your station in life. For those above you, show due deference, but don’t be a sycophant.

• Always respect age, as age equals wisdom.

• Be prepared to put the interests of your sibling first.

• Be proud of who you are and where you come from, but open your mind to other cultures and languages. When you begin to travel (as I hope you will), you’ll learn that your place in the world is both vital and insignificant. Don’t get too big for your breeches.

• Be ambitious, but not nakedly so. Be prepared to back your assertions with craftsmanship and hard work.

• Live every day to its full: do something that makes you smile or laugh, and avoid procrastination.

• Give of your best at school. Some teachers forget that pupils need incentives. So if your teacher doesn’t give you one, devise your own.

• Always pay the most you can afford. Never skimp on hotels, clothing, shoes, make-up or jewellery. But always look for a deal. You get what you pay for.

• Never give up! My two little soldiers have no dad, but you are brave, big-hearted, fit and strong. You are also loved by an immensely kind and supportive team of family and friends. You make your own good fortune, my children, so battle on.

• Never feel sorry for yourself, or at least don’t do it for long. Crying doesn’t make things better.

• Look after your body and it will look after you.

• Learn a language, or at least try. Never engage a person abroad in conversation without first greeting them in their own language; by all means ask if they speak English!

• And finally, cherish your mother, and take very good care of her.

I love you both with all my heart.
Daddy x

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2017876/A-fathers-message-grave-My-darling-children-heres-live-lives-Daddys-gone.html#ixzz1Swy9gO00

So What's Next?

The badminton tournament is finally over.

So much hard work. And it is over. 4 long days.

Today, the finals, what awesome matches. I really had no idea.

I became so inspired. By the match. It was such a high standard match that it really made me feel. Wow.

Our college's very own national player faced off against the male singles champion.

In the end, the male singles champion won.

But the match was so great that I was really... Astounded.

She (the national player) showed some really amazing skills.

What really impresses me is her clever use of mind games and feign shots.

A smash shot turns into a drop shot just in like that! *flicks finger*

Tactics, strategy, planning. Wow. Just wow.

I feel so inspired right now. By her energy and her fighting spirit.

There is definitely the champion's aura from her. I feel it.

Unfortunately she has stopped playing for a month. Design course. You know how it is.

But if she had consistently trained, I think today's match would have ended quite differently.

She told me her training used to consist of waking up in the morning, training until lunch, then sleep for an hour or two, then train till dinner, then after dinner train till sleep. Everyday.

That's the national level for you.

Jia Lin you are one very amazing girl. Never have I met another like yourself. So that is, a national player for you. No wonder she made it so far.

It's a pity she did not continue training, otherwise I think she doesn't even have to study.

So what do I do now?

I am the president of the Rotaract Club. Our first real event in years I would say. This badminton tournament really made some name for our club.

There is progress.

But now I must focus and think of the very next step.

What should I do?

I already have an idea or a picture of what I want to achieve. Time to start taking action to draw it.

Thank you Jia Lin, for you have shown me the way, indirectly, without even noticing it. While the fire burns hot within me, I will do what it takes to make it happen.

Am I tired? What? Jia Lin played such a tough match while I just sat and watch. I shouldn't be complaining about feeling tired.

It isn't just about smashing hard. It isn't just about dropping the shot. It's about timing and precision of those shots. Where it lands. How to catch your enemy off guard, making them think it is a smash but making it a drop shot. Perfection of strokes.

Okay. It's time to move. Time waits for no man.

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Today I was Praised

Today a friend praised me

It is a little sad that when people praise you, the level of happiness is not the same as the level of hurt or sadness you feel when you are criticized

So because I should learn to be more happy about that praise, I will write about it

I was praised today.

A friend told me that a nice guy like me would not have trouble finding a girl!

And actually! I am quite happy! I just read that message again!

Sometimes I wonder how far along the journey I have come, and how long more there is to go.

The journey to becoming a real man, that is.

So many mistakes. But none of which I have regretted. For they have taught me so much. Without those teachings I would not be what I am today, so I am grateful, not regretful.

That day, last last Friday, in the Rotaract general meeting

I read a note out loud to the whole room. In front of 20 members.

The note was about my goal to get married by the age of 25. To be able to improve myself financially and also in terms of personal development to become a better human being.

Yes. I said it to all my members.

And because I said it I have to do it. Otherwise I would be a liar.

It was actually a little bit embarrassing to read it... It's the note that I would read every night before I sleep! And in the morning after I wake up!

I knew that it had an impact on a few of them in that room. I know that, a few of them understood the power of reinforcing your mind mentally consistently.

Yes. I got my message across. And I was happy.

Now everyone is waiting to see if it would happen.

Would Danny Siah get married by 25?

Would he?

Does his methods work?

Will it come true?

If I believe in it 100% then it would come true

If it doesn't happen it just means I did not do it correctly

So I must keep trying. Persistently. To make sure I get it done right.

To the few who understood my meaning that day. I hope you write down your goals and read them everyday consistently.

It will surely help you achieve what you want out of life. Do not underestimate the subconscious mind. It does things your conscious mind could only dream of.

And so I was praised today.

And I am happy.

What a wonderful thing to have someone have an impression of you that would let them say such nice things about you?

I will do my best in all my undertakings. I hope that I can learn how to love her properly. Despite all hardships and tough times, I'll learn to make things work and last. I'll read lots and lots of books. And I'll make sure I become as good as I can be as a man, in order to increase the odds of getting married at what most people would consider, a young age of 25, in a first relationship.

Odds are slim. But odds are always odds. They don't beat miracles.

So as long as there is a chance that it will come true I will continue to believe. At the back of my mind it will happen.

Every night before I sleep after I have read those goals. I try my best to picture it. Me getting married. Burn the image into my mind. Feel it. Sooner or later. It will come true.

It must. Because somewhere in the future.

It has already happened.

Goodnight =)

p.s. I was praised today

Danny Siah

Student Council and Rotaract

It seems that the Council has chosen it's path

It chose the path of professionalism

Today I noticed that, that was the way in which the council is headed

I realized that the executive committee holds the highest influence

And in that, the path of KBU's Rotaract club is in my hands as well

It is such a huge contrast to me

Why?

Simply because I am in both clubs

It gave me a different kind of perspective

There are two ways one could go in a club

The path that emphasizes professionalism

Or the path that emphasizes friendship

Now, the answer is subject to the people who are leading the club

Balance between both? What is the 'right' amount of balance between professionalism and friendship?

The fact is that, this balance depends on the people who lead the club

For person A, maybe 80% professionalism and 20% friendship is the 'right' way to go

For person B, maybe 20% professionalism and 80% friendship is the 'right' way to go

Is there really a thing as the 'right' amount?

Who is right and who is wrong?

There are those who are 50 50 as well

Well, to me, getting the 'right' amount of balance is not as important as having a united mindset

If everyone agrees at a certain amount, then the amount does not really matter anymore

What matters is unity.

Everyone having the same goal and same mindset

That has a higher priority than getting the 'right' amount

So if the executive committee feels that 80 20 is the right way to go, then 80 20 it is

As long as everyone has the same mind set, then slowly, but surely, the 'right' amount will come by itself

And it will not be any kind of fixed figure

Only because as a club we are always growing. So eventually we 'grow' into the right amount

Today, an executive committee said a lot of things

To me, what was most important, was not the words he used, but the 'action' of being able to express himself

That carries a lot of weight in itself. The action.

The words are secondary to his actions

The fact that he was brave enough to say all that he has said, is proof enough to me that he cares.

Understanding his actions, has led me to his intentions. He wishes a greater good for the club.

In fact all of us do. Just that all of us have our own ideal way of doing it

But no, if we all cannot come to follow one person's vision, then we will be lost trying to show each other how to do things 'right'

The important thing is to talk with your leader often, understand his vision, the way he or she sees things, and have faith in him or her. Build bonds. Friendship

In that way, eventually. Both Friendship and Professionalism will play its own role and show the way.

Let there be mistakes, for those are what makes us bond and become closer to one another. If we were too professional, our mistakes would show that.

If we were too friendly, our mistakes would show that as well.

I have made my own set of mistakes and it has taught me so much.

So do not falter. Do not fear. Just keep going. Keep staying together.

Persist, for at the start of everything, it is always hard.

But from there we learn. Thus the bonds are built and things will change. Always. For the better.

Unity within the club, then unity with other clubs, then unity, with all

Thank you, for reading a humble man's thoughts =)

Danny Siah

Depths of Perception

Finally! I started playing Dragon Age 2 =3

Even though it is the holidays I don't play as much games as I thought I would.

The gaming industry has improved so much and is expanding at a fast rate in most of the genres. You see tons of first person shooter games coming out, RPGs and all kinds of cool stuff :3

So pretty much my holiday is made up of planning for a college event, reading, and playing games!

Awesome? Haha! Okay la =3 I just need to change my habit of sleeping late.

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Have you ever wondered about the concept of perception?

Let me give an example

Let's say you are a perfectionist in a world filled with only perfectionists

Then being a perfectionist would be the normal thing

Because everyone in general has perceived it to be normal.

The same goes, if everyone was happy and expressive, then being happy and expressive is normal

However, in our diverse world, being a perfectionist, or being extremely hyper are seen as being a little more than abnormal you could say.

But that's the beauty of it.

However, I realized we should not be too critical of others, because if we are, then they will be critical towards us as well.

Each of us has at least one attribute which is considered abnormal or strange.

So before you talk about someone else being too... crazy... too hyper... too perfectionist, we should look at ourselves and realize.

That's what makes us humans so special. If everyone was a perfectionist in a world of perfectionist then everyone would be sad because nothing is ever perfect

The same goes if everyone was a hyper crazy person in a world of hyper crazy people then everyone would not get anything done and just want to have fun

So understand that it is our diversity in human personalities that are supposed to compliment one another and make this world a better place

So please, do not judge others for the way they act. We need to accept it as part of being human. I just understood this, 20 minutes ago after seeing my friend's comment about me needing to 'tone' down

I realized that it does hurt a little, when people tell you 'you should not be like this' or 'you should not do that'. I think we should all just learn to accept one another.

It made me open my eyes too. I always judged perfectionists very harshly. I did not understand why they cannot just loosen up and don't take things so seriously.

But that is wrong. I should accept and understand them. Just like how I want people to accept and understand me.

Sometimes you sit down and realize... It is really easy to hurt someone without realizing it. Even though it is not your intention. I think we just have to be more perceptive about others, how they feel, and learn to see things from their point of view.

Also I would like to say that, sometimes I can be a self-centered kind of person. I enjoy the spotlight and the attention I receive. It's the truth. I won't lie about it. I'm just that kind of person.

At the same time, I also realize that I can accept criticism fairly well. Most of the time I would not feel hurt by people's remarks. Except this time it did hurt a little. But a little sting is good if it makes you realize things about the world.

Sometimes I can be really expressive, and type in HUGE CAPITAL LETTERS. That's just me. Full of energy when it counts. And usually with friends I am comfortable with I can spread a contagious kind of energy that gets everyone hyped up and crazy.

Strange how it happens. But I just enjoy seeing others laugh =) So I am grateful to have this ability.

And lastly I must also understand that, most of the time, people don't intend to hurt you with what they say. They just didn't realize it. So you shouldn't take it too personally, or too seriously. Otherwise you will be easily hurt most of the time.

That is why I am working on my self-esteem all the time. It is my shield. So that I will be able to stand up for what I believe in and not be gunned down too easily by people's remarks. If I am easily swayed by what people say then I can never be a good leader.

So that is why. I build a strong wall of self esteem.

It is different from a defensive wall.

The wall of self esteem makes use of the important ingredients. The first of those ingredients is love.

There are 9 more ingredients. But I understand that without love as the foundation, the wall of self-esteem will never be strong, even with the other 9 ingredients.

So that is why I learn to love. Now and forever. For me and everyone else.

I feel much better now! Men are always better at expressing themselves by writing things down instead of expressing themselves verbally.

Thanks, I feel like I can be more forgiving and accepting of people now.

It just seems like any bad experience that happens to me, I always can make something good out of it. I don't know why.

Must be my optimistic nature =)

Well have a good night folks! Thanks for reading ^_^

Environmental Chaos

Lately I've been thinking

The environment around you surely affects you in one way or another

I've realized that given a situation to a person, say, myself, I would definitely act differently given the different environment and atmosphere

And I would say it applies to all human beings

It affects us even so when we are in our growing up stage

I still ponder about, what kind of environments generate the desired outcome

From my observations, some environments make things feel really competitive.

Some environments make you feel like you have to portray yourself excessively without even noticing it

Some environments feel very relaxed and very accepting

And even some, make people feel tense and they feel like even anything you could possibly say would sound wrong

And I really think that in order to grow the right way, we need to be in a positive atmosphere where everyone accepts one another

Without it, it would affect our mental growth

That started to make me think

What is the environment that I am mostly in?

I would say I am usually either in college or at home

In college, I usually hang out with the SC peeps

I don't usually see my Rotaract peeps often

Only once every two weeks or so

That explains why, I am more prone to be closer to SC peeps

In the house, nowadays I usually watch SNSD

haha... I am so addicted to them

But they are really talented girls and I always smile when I watch them

Only problem is sometimes they have haters, so yeah.

Other than that they brighten my day. So generally at home I have a pretty positive environment

And I am happy for that

Without a constant positive environment, we tend to stray from living the right principles in life

Even someone like myself often gets challenged by environment even when I have pretty sturdy morals and principles about life

It kind of makes you think, hey, maybe if I can control the environment I am in, then the outcome would also be in my control.

Yes. I need to be in control and merge with environment

Only by understanding the atmosphere, can I push it to the way I wish for it to be. Positive.

I hope to find a book about this. Then I can learn a lot more.

However, since I have yet to find something about this, I shall have to make my own observations and proceed from there.

A long time ago I learned about air pressure. Well, it seems that air is always exerting pressure onto our body

And from within our body, air is also pressing outwards

Which explains why, in outer space, our body will explode because the air inside of us pushes outwards due to the absence of air.

The key is balance. Without a balance all things will be destroyed. Our body, minds and soul and even this world requires balance.

And I think that if the environmental influence / aura is too strong, it pushes inwards onto our body

Which, in turn, in order to balance this, our internal thoughts / aura is suppressed.

On the other hand, if our internal body environment and thoughts are stronger, it will push outwards, and environmental influence will be suppressed, resulting in us being able to express ourselves easier

and be one with nature

However this is only my assumption. Things still need to be tested. I will hope to experiment for myself what happens when I strongly express my thoughts, to change the environment to make it within my control

There have been many times I have been unable to control the environment which I am in, resulting in me not being able to be myself, I feel like I am holding everything in. Not good.

So that is why I would like to learn, how to set the environment and atmosphere

I understand that this is very important and relates closely to human psychology.

I also feel that this has a lot to do with controlling your presence

With some method, you can actually suppress your presence, or even amplify it.

Probably with internal energy.

Your internal energy communicates with the external energy which is the environment

You have to feel it to understand it. I do not think that it is so easy to be explained in words

Learning how to control these... variables will aid greatly in putting situations under your control

and avoiding environmental chaos.

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Lately I tried a few experiments

The first one was that I made an event

To go out. I made it happen within 24 hours

I did it by expressing my views very strongly

And I did it with extra vigor and force.

I said we are definitely going to go. I did not doubt it

And we went.

The force was so overwhelmingly strong that others started to plan events as well

However, as of now, most of those events do not seem to be happening

At that moment, I controlled the environment

I made it such that having an 'event' was the in thing

I brought the momentum onto the table

It resonated and it made other people feel it, that momentum.

It drove them to create their events. It wasn't really the words I used, but the expression of those words, do you understand what I am trying to say?

However, when I stopped talking about it, after the event was over, the other events started to fall. They don't have that momentum anymore. It stopped. I was the cause of the momentum. And when it stopped, so did the other events

Only one event other than the one that I made is going to work out. Also partially because I encouraged it aahahaha.

That is one method of environment control.

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The other experiment

I expressed my views extremely strongly

Though it is not the most professional method to use, I did it nonetheless

Because I knew that the risks are low. I believe in them and in myself

I expressed my views about a certain topic which, was actually quite sensitive

And actually, most people would not object

But I made it into a big deal. And now everyone is concerned about it

This is important, because people did not realize that this topic is ACTUALLY that important to talk about.

That topic can cause a very huge misunderstanding and a lot of problems

So I did it. I became the fire-starter once more

The difference is because I am the fire-starter I have some control of where the results will be going

I can choose when to concede

I can choose when to push forward

I can choose when to stop

I can choose how deeply we need to discuss this matter

It is another method of environmental control which I am trying to experiment with.

And because there is so many layers of the organization, I can actually observe the different reactions and different views

It makes me feel in control of the situation

Even though it is risky

But look, I got nothing to lose. Except maybe some face? That's the most. But to me, a little face is worth losing, if I can learn how to control the environment.

Every interaction that I have gives me some experience and it makes me smarter, at least a little bit.

I feel like there is still more to learn about this, and I will continue experimenting

Until then, stay tuned :3

Goodnight, world =)

p.s. It seems the fire-starter methodology suits my aggressive nature very well ^_^

Expectations

There are so many times where things feel so tough and it feels so hard

The burden of responsibility is never easy

And because I have high expectations of myself, the feeling of not reaching those expectations just brings my heard down a lot

There have been times, especially lately, where I really feel that I am incapable of becoming a good leader

I just really wish so much that I could do a better job

But it also feels like I can't

It just feels like... You know... A leader should be this and that and this and that

And I don't know what to do

It's like... There are people who I really thought had potential, but they really disappointed me cause they didn't show up

If it was once, I would not mind, but it is a few times

It feels like they don't really care, and they don't even tell me that they are not coming

It hurts even more then

Am I such a terrible leader?

I don't want to criticize anyone

So I don't know what to do

But it feels like I should talk to them

Whenever this happens I lose confidence

HOW! TELL ME HOW!

Or am I just afraid of confronting them? Just letting it be?

No, it won't solve anything. If I don't face it then I won't ever become better than what I am now

So if I really want things to work out, I have to talk to them

Certain Things

I'm back from penang! Actually got back 2 days ago

It was a pretty cool trip! Had loads of fun and ate like crazy. Haha... I think I'll blog about it when I get all the pics =) Haha!

Man Im 75kgs now. So fat. I gained weight after penang. Like 3kgs XD

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Rave is this Friday, I may be the emcee once more. That's both good and bad. Bad because I really wanted to give this chance to some of the newer people to try emcee-ing since my time in the council is almost over =)

Good, because I suppose it would be fun. I don't know what else I would do at Rave other than emcee. That's why if I were to choose, I'd rather be really good at one thing, than be a jack of all traits. Cause people look for quality, and you will be sought after if you are particularly good in one thing.

Lately I've thought that my life, is now a bit messy, I could get organized. I really want to actually. But so many things go on at once, I get confused. A lot.

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Lately I've also been trying my best to talk to myself. To tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will lead a good life and be the man I want to be.

It's a simple process, but it takes discipline and commitment to do it. So in a way it is easy, in a way it is hard.

The smallest things that are done with consistency become a habit. And we must have good habits in order to lead a successful and happy life.

Today, like every other day, is a good day. Although right now I'm not at the peak of the day, there are times where I do feel inspired.

I feel like I could write a book. I feel so vigorous. I feel so filled with energy. But other times, I feel that energy drained. Perhaps I should stop sleeping so late.

What I know is not only mine, but it belongs to everyone. If I don't have the courage and bravery to share what I know with everyone, then what is the point?

Selfishness and everything else negative only brings more negatives into your life. So we shall not go there and practice it.

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I was watching some music videos just now. It made me can't wait to be in a relationship. It must be nice.

I wonder what my girl would be like. It still remains a mystery. And in a way, I like it just like that, and in another way, I feel like I want the mystery to be over.

So the only thing I can do is to tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will get married. That I will have a wonderful and beautiful life with her, whoever she may be. And someday, it will definitely come true.

And the other thing I can do is to continually improve myself. To make sure that I am good enough to be in a relationship. I can't be immature if I really want a successful relationship. Now though, I still got loads to work on, as sometimes I do feel I am childish and unreasonable.

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A man cries when he feels that he is really useless and cannot provide for his family. I know how it feels, at least a little bit. He cries when he feels incapable of being a man. It is a terrible feeling. To know that you are still not acting like how a man should.

I also wish to learn how to achieve peace with one's self. How to meditate. How to be relaxed. How to breathe. All these will enhance your life.

I know. So I shall one day make it a point to read up on these things and learn how to achieve peace. For sometimes I feel I am not calm, and make wrong decisions.

Sometimes also, I feel myself being influenced by negatives. It should not be that way. I should be the one to spread positivity. Not the other way around.

That is because my mind is not clear, it is easily swayed. So unless I start to have a clear mind, I will not be able to think clearly and properly. It all starts from within. External factors should have little affect on you if inside, you are firm and strong.

Mastery of the human mind is such a delicate art. I could not understand it fully. But as the years go by I will understand it more and more and finally achieve mastery in it.

With that, more and more things I will be able to attract to myself, all of which are good. And with that, I will be reborn with new life within me. I await that day.

Patiently.