New Year's Resolution... REALLY?!?!?

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Yo peepsss~! =) What a day.

MY NEW YEARS EVE WAS HELL I FRIGGING TELL YOU!!!!!!!!!

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IM HALF DEAD!!!!!!!!

Let me explain. I was up doing my assignments yesterday till 3-4am

Went to sleep, woke up at 9 something

Went to meet up a friend and climb. We shall call this friend PL.

You see, whenever I climb with PL, I NEVER SURVIVE.

WHY?!?!? BECAUSE OF ALL THE FRIGGING TRAINING AND BODY CONDITIONING HE MAKES ME DO!!!!!! GARGHHHH!!!! *$&*&*!@#(*!#(!@)#@!

IM IN PAIN NOW!!

We lead 3 routes

Then we did about 20 chin ups.

Then we did about 10 normal push ups, 20 alternate hands push ups, 10 CHEST pushups (the one you make the heart shape with ur hand) AND FINALLY 5 DIVING MONKEYS PUSHUPS WTF?!?!?!?!?! I SWEAR TO YOU MY ARMS ARE GONE!!!!!!

Okay, that was not all.

I SWEAR TO YOU HE MADE ME WALK LIKE A FREAKING MONKEY!!!!!!!

What do I mean? I'll tell you. You have to bend down on all 4, and WALK like a monkey.

CAN YOU IMAGINE!!!?!?!?!? 3 SETS!!!!!!

And also, SIDEWAYS LIKE A MONKEY!!! )*!&#$*(!&@#*)(&!@*(#&!@*)#&)(!@*#(!@!!!

It's parkour training... *!%*&#)@!*#(!*(#!@)#)!($)

MY LEGS HURT!!!!!

So my chest hurts, arms hurts, and legs hurts.

BUT IT WAS NOT OVER YET!!!!

I HAD TO DO 20 V-SNAPS (the one you lift your leg and chest up at the same time)

20 RUSSIAN TWIST!! (legs 1 inch from the ground and you twist your body left and right)

20 BICYCLES!!! (elbow touches your knee, left and right is counted as one)

20 ASS HAILS!! (hard to explain)

20 OF SOME KIND OF WEIRD THING I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN BUT IT INVOLVES THE ASS AS WELL!!!! !@#*!&@#!@

5 x 20 = 100!!! that is 1 set

I HAD TO DO 2 SETS!!! (*$&!@*#&*(!@&#*!@&#!

I COULDNT EVEN GET UP AFTER THAT!

Then, CONTINUE LEADING!! OMG! I did some overhanging route, I managed to reach the top after.... 8 falls?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?! DAMN CRAZY LAAAAAA~!

Next time show you guys.

Anyhow, after that, go to the cave area, BOULDERINGGGG~!!!!

we were doing a circuit. We have to climb 40 HANDHOLDS!

3 SETS!!!

120 HANDHOLDS!! ($&!(@*#&)(!@*#)(!@*#!@(#!

So yea, I'm literally DEAD RIGHT NOW!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!

I came back from 1u, oh man, it was pretty jam.

AH! Why am I here? Cuz, assignments due on tuesday and wednesday haha! That's y

So yeahhhh, would love to celebrate new years, but oh well! Studies =)

I can't screw up haha!

SO! What Have I learnt in 2010 :-

1) In the end I cut my hair~!

Yeah, I said I wouldn't but I did. Ahhh, well, it was for a good reason. But still, I did say I wouldn't cut it =/ A guy shouldn't go back on his words.

2) I didn't achieve 7a in climbing, my highest was 6b+ =/ Well! It's allright, I'll make it this year through practice and consistency =)

3) I learnt a lot about friendship and relationships. Good stuff. I enjoyed it, actually. I understand humans more. It's going to help me greatly, and I have more to learn about it =)

4) When someone hurts you, love them. No matter what. Be their friend. True story.

5) I learned that when you are faced with pain, you have two choices. Be weak, or be strong. It's a matter of choice. So choose =)

6) I know little of this world =) There is so much more to learn, that I have yet to expose myself to.

7) There are a lot of people in this world. Yet the world is a small world. Always remember to do good. Karma will come back at you. If you do good you receive good. If you cause pain and hurt to others, that's what you receive in the end. We have to understand whether we have good karma.

8) The pain and suffering enlightens us to the truth of the world. It's true, happiness is great, but it cannot exist without sadness. I'm happy to have gone through pain this year. It makes me feel alive, and I have learned much. Everything happens for a reason. And I have benefited from it =)

9) Count your blessings. There were times maybe I wasn't so appreciative of what I had, and simply neglected it. So yeah, we should always count our blessings. Often times we tend to hurt people without knowing it. So instead of looking at the bad things , look at the good things too, and you will really enjoy life =)

10) Life, is full of surprises. Yes yes yes. In fact I went through one of my biggest surprises this year. Who knew? Let's say that it was the most UNEXPECTED x 10000000000!! I still don't believe it till today. But yeah, when I was told THAT, I seriously was shocked. Ah. Man, I still don't believe it. Yeh, STILL don't believe it. okay, AND I STILL DONT BELIEVE IT DID I SAY I DONT BELIEVE IT??!?!?!

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I'm expecting even more surprises in 2011. Cuz that surprise I received in 2010 was.... yea, I STILL DON'T BELIEVE IT.

Can you imagine!?!!??! Danny Siah does not believe in something. CRAZY RIGHT?!?!?!? HAHAHAHA!

Anyhow! Let's start with 2011 resolutions~!!!!! :-

1) Reach 7a FOR REAL.
2) Keep my hair =D
3) Focus on my dream to change the world.
4) Learn more about money
5) Study hard and get a 1st class honors.
6) Understand human nature and life better
7) Gain the insight ability
8) Learn learn learn learn learn learn
9) Never give up.
10) Freedom. of. Expression. Which is so so so sosososossososo important to me. FREEDOM. =)

I want to be free someday. Travel the world with more than enough money. Then one day when I am financially independent I'll give away money to those who need it more than me. So in order for that to happen, I need to understand the concept of money and master it. Use it for a good cause.

Of course! It's a dream, and it might change. Not change, more like, evolve. I definitely need to take a look at the world. There's so much to see. It'll be nice to travel.

Yes, I need to be inspired by the world, in order for me to make a change. The world has to change me first. So that is why I must go far away.

I believe that if I ever go somewhere, I will definitely change. And evolve, and become a different Danny Siah than what I am today.

And that new Danny Siah, will go on to learn even faster, be less lazy, and be more dream driven than ever. He will definitely come back and shock the world. That's who he will be =)

To the future me. 5 years from now.

You are 24, and I am 19.

This is my letter to you. I hope that, by 24, you have found the love of your life, I think that she will be very lucky to have you, and you will be lucky to have her. Love and marriage is not something selfish. I hope that you have mastered the art of being kind, and giving to those around you, whom you deep down really cared for, but was just too afraid to admit it and show love to them. And by that time, you would have a great career already, I believe, because you know how to be responsible. You know that it is important to be financially sound and independent. You know that in order to benefit everyone you need to continue learning, and giving away what you have learned so that everyone else can benefit. You love this world a lot, and by 24, you would have seen much more of this world, and love it even more. But still, you probably want to see even more of it. You will be inspired to become a great person that will bring great change to this world. Because you believe in yourself, and deep down you know you have the capability to do it. The best thing I can do now as I am at 19, is to pave the way to success for you. I will work hard, get a good grade so that you at 24 can be at your best potential. The future looks really bright right now. Because I see a man, 24 years old, standing in the distance. Yes, a man, not a boy, not a kid, but a man. He's smiling. Reading this old passage back. Thinking back of all the old memories of the 19 year old Danny Siah. Thinking, "oh, my how I've changed" So that is why, it is our promise, to make a change to the world. We share the same dreams of getting married by 25 too =)

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It's funny, I can really see him now. That 24 year old version of me. I just don't know how to explain it. Like I really see him. Yeah, that's me. That's who I'll be in 5 years. I even know what hairstyle he's going to use. It's really funny... If you ask me whether he's happy.

He definitely is. Happier than ever. He's already achieved a lot at that age. I don't know, but I just know it. He understands people, and loves them. Dearly. He is the man that I cannot be today, at the age of 19.

And I see him, grabbing my hand, telling me never to give up. Never. Go on with your dreams. You have really beautiful dreams. Go get em tiger =) Is what he said to me.

So that is why, I shall pursue my dreams, and learn more about life. And that 24 year old man, will be my inspiration and motivation.

Life continues to surprise, so don't be surprised when life surprises you =)

I can't wait. Let 2011 begin.

TO A GREAT NEW BEGINNING! =)
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p.s. My body still hurts HAHAHAHAHA! XD Happy new year guys, may all your dreams come true =)

True Strength

I've been phased with a thought recently.

What is true strength?

Often times people think that 'strength' comes in the form of physical power.

But to be honest that is not where true strength comes from. Sure, being physically fit helps, but nothing beats the strength of the mind.

Now comes the question. Do you have 'true strength'?

A pretty good question, isn't it? We are beings of question. We should often question, and then find answers =)

If you ask me, I think that I do partially have true strength

I have yet to fully grasp it and master it. I don't know how partial is that strength, but I know it exists in me somewhere.

When did this true strength help me?

1) Enduro, I remember that my body was beyond its limits, climbing for 21 hours straight. I was only able to make it because of that factor
2) The sleepless nights where I had to constantly work on my assignments
3) The recent roller coaster of emotions I went through
4) The times where I just simply wanted to give up on life

And many more, which I cannot remember.

No matter how physically fit you are, it doesn't matter if you aren't mentally and spiritually fit.

I am unable to fully awaken it though. Only during certain situation can I harness its power. It's going to take me a few more years to master it fully.

Oh yes, one more situation where I can harness 'true strength'

5) When my second personality takes place

I realized lately that I have this ability to inspire people and think from a neutral point of view about this world. Looking from the outside in, not from the inside out like most people do.

I don't know if it's a natural talent, but I do know that it is something special about myself. And it cannot be seen physically. This trait of mine. You look at me and you wouldn't think I had it. That 'knowing' ability.

And yes, I cannot always use it. Only during certain situation can I do it. When I feel inspired by some external factor. Or when I listen to motivational speeches. Or sometimes it just happens naturally for no apparent reason.

All in all I don't have full control over it yet. I can't just do it, you know? The situation and environment has to be right.

It feels like

The combination of the mind, body and soul. I don't know how to explain it, but all 3 definitely play a role.

It's something higher, which I think can be practiced and learned. It is just that I somehow got a 'head start' in it compared to most people.

So if you ask me again, if I have true strength, than I would say, maybe, if this is what you call true strength.

Then perhaps I have it.

How important is this strength?

Very. I would say. It is so important to be able to think clearly from a natural point of view about this world.

It will help you in relationships, friendship, studies, career and everything else.

Nearly every aspect in life is influenced by true strength.

Can a normal person have it?

Yes, anyone can have this. In my opinion if I can have it then there is a possibility that others can have it too. How?

I can't give u a fool proof way, but I can tell you what I did, that helped me attain some of it.

1) I always reflect on my life. I always looked at things from a neural point of view. Mine, and the other person's. Compare and contrast. Then decide what's good for you.

2) Think. Use the mind. Exercise the mind. How? Talk to people, share ideas, think of your own viewpoints of the world. Share it with people. You are sure to grow if you do this. Do not be afraid to express your ideas. You will constrain your growth if you do not express yourself freely.

3) Learn. Keep an open mind. Be open to ideas. Don't push them away too soon. You might actually get some inspiration or idea from others. There must be a reason why the other person would think that way, right?

4) Positivity. This is really healthy for any individual. With great positivity you actually broaden your minds to large number of perspectives. Being negative would result in a lot of depression, hence making your mind focus more on your emotions rather than what's out there in the world. Very unhealthy, so be positive.

5) Release the de-limiter. What I mean here is, do not limit yourself. Often times we say things like "I can't do it". Say "how can I do it?" Think, we have a mind for that reason. Once you say I cant do it you are doing a lot of harm to your mind by NOT allowing it to think.



Well, you can see mostly what I focus on is the mind. True. I am very mind oriented in a lot of ways.

Emotionally and spiritually, you could say I might lack experience there. But when it comes to the mind I'm pretty sure of what to do and what not to do.

Though, I am still learning, I believe there is still a long journey ahead for me. And I cannot wait to learn more.

Hopefully I will learn more about spiritual teachings and emotions handling.

Then perhaps, my 'true strength' will be more complete. Now it's still weak, I cannot control it and use it at will. But in time, it will grow, with more experience, with more knowledge, with more thought power put into it, it will definitely grow

Then I can slowly start to motivate people, see the truth in people, and love them for what they are.

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You know, I also had another thought lately. Couples.

They don't have to be 100% compatible. I've seen many couples in my life that have made a success out of their marriage. Despite not being even 50% compatible.

Why?

To me, I think it's because they put in effort in their relationship and marriage. They take time to fully understand each other, and learn more about another. And spend time with one another. Relationships take nurturing.

We still need to spend time with our spouse after marriage, not just in the early dating phase.

So if you want a relationship to be really successful, make sure it is during a time where you can 'afford' to spend time and money to nurture the relationship.

Otherwise it might just go to waste and affect both you and your spouse.

Now you wouldn't want that right? Of course everyone wants the best for each other.

So, you know you might even be 100% NOT compatible

But with a lot of effort, and a lot of acceptance I believe that it is possible. Although it is hard.

You might ask why would ppl be attracted to each other if they are 100% incompatible?

My answer, is that most of the time, it is lust.

Well, it doesnt take a lot to have lust. Just the right environment, right timing, and if you both are genuinely good looking, then lust is not a problem.

So usually lust has little to do with personality. I said little, not none =) But it's definitely easy for most people to generate lust with each other

So after lust comes the real test of love, usually. Where personality plays a more important role.

So the compatibility factor is just a small portion of the picture. Even if you are 100% compatible, but you cannot spend anytime with each other due to being too far away from each other OR too busy working OR simply just neglecting the relationship

It will 100% not work

But a couple who has 50% compatibility with each other, but they put in quality time to spend with each other, always go through problems with one another, support one another, and care for one another constantly.

I would say it has a much higher chance of working out. It just makes sense.

So yes, I just saw a quote on facebook, so I quote

'love is not finding the perfect person, its finding all the imperfections in the person perfect'

in other words

Acceptance, in my perspective that's what it is, in one word.

Practice it, you'll find it will do greatly in the relationship

so the 3 important elements in relationships are :-

1) Time
2) Sincerity/Honesty
3) Acceptance

There are other factors but of course if you got these 3 its pretty good.

But remember, there are things you can do to spice up the relationship. Well, I haven't been in a relationship so I can't say what those things are. If I do try it someday I'll definitely share it =)

Having True Strength in a relationship helps a great deal.

One would think it is easy to accept everything about your other half. But no, from experience I don't think it is easy to accept another individual.

So really, it's not about finding someone you can love, more like you are finding someone you can accept.

Does that make sense? Acceptance comes before love, in my opinion, not the other way around.

But lust comes before acceptance.

Hmmmmm

Sorry, I was just inspired =) hahaha, it's a bit hard to explain

I would like to meet more great couples and learn from them.

Well, naturally, if you follow people who fail in their lives your gonna end up like them.

And if you always follow people who succeed your bound to succeed. So be careful who you seek advice from

Chances are the advice they give is going to be based on their own experience. So, take care who you ask =)

But I'm eager to learn. I wish I can meet those kind of people and ask them.

What made their relationship work? There has to be some reason.

Join me as I indulge further into the world of understanding humans

I would like to type even more, but, my stomach is not feeling well ahha!!

Too much chocolate cake, maybe?

So that's all for now! toodles =)

HAHAHAHAH!

You know!! Me and my niece have some HISTORY when it comes to rock climbing!! BWAHAHAHAHA!!

Thinking about it makes me LAUGH!! LAWL!!

Okay, here's the story.

Last thursday, we climbed~! And GUESS WHAT! I thought my niece LEAD CLIMBING!

For those who don't know what lead climbing is, it's where you bring your own rope, and you have to clip the rope as you climb up the wall. You might have seen walls with many clips on them. That is specially for lead climbing!

THE THING IS! It's RM200 for the course. Soooo, I decided to save my niece's money, and teach her! =D

So you see, funny thing, the course is usually about 4 hrs. I taught her in 15 minutes XD HAHAHAHAHA!!!

SO you understand why I nearly died on 23rd December. Nuff said XD

HAHA! So you see, she had to learn how to "clip" the rope in. We did some exercises on that

And OFF she went!

And after that, she had to learn how to belay me.

SO! Funny thing is, usually when a first timer does a LEAD climb belay, someone else has to supervise.

WELL, since I was climbing, I COULDNT SUPERVISE HER AHAHAHAH!! HOW RECKLESS RIGHT?!?!!? NO ONE SUPERVISED HER BELAYING MEEE~!!!

AND I EVEN TOOK MY LEAD FALL!!!! XD on purpose~ and im ALIVE!!

I knew she wouldn't let me die XD If she let go of the rope i wont be typing this here today already XD

OKAY OKAY HERE COMES THE FUNNY PARTTT~!!!

Today right. I wanted to make her get USED to lead FALLS

Sooooooo!! What happened was, there was one point, she wanted me to tighten the rope!! So that she wouldn't have to fall so hard.

HAHA! BUT ALL I SAID WAS

me : No la~! JUST FALL!! BWAHAHA!!

niece : PLEASEEEE!!!! TIGHTTT!!!

me : No =)

niece : PLEASEE!! UNCLEEE~!!!

me : no way =)

niece : PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! WOIIII!!!!

me : =D

niece : F*** YOU UNCLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me : HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH!!!!!

niece : F*** YOU SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me : LOL!!!! SO GARANG!!!! but you still have to fall =)

niece : WEI!! SERIOUS LA!!!

me : okay la, I will tighten only if you can reach the next clip =)

niece : OMG!!!!!!

IN THE END SHE DID REACH THE NEXT CLIP!!

SEE I KNEW SHE COULD DO IT!! BWAHAHAHAHA!!!

man im so osososososo evil!! But you see!! SHE HAS POTENTIAL! Just that she lazy only. Pampered only. THERE'S NO WAY IN HELL I'LL GO EASY ON HER MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!


BWAHAHAHAHAHAH!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

The first day I thought her how to lead climb, SHE TOOK HER FIRST FALL!! about 3 clips

SHE SCREAMED AND THE WHOLE GYM HEARD HER!! BWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

MANNNN~!!! I was shocked too~!!! LOL!!

But ahhhh, her screams, music to my ears! =DDDDDD

HAHAHA!!

But it's quite fun climbing with her. I HAVE SOMEONE TO TORTURE BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! SO FUN TO TORTURE TORTURE TORTURE

AND THE BEST THING IS?

SHE CANT TORTURE MEEEE~!! BWHAHAHAHAHA!! BECAUSE I DARE TO TAKE LEAD FALLS!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

So you see, lesson here, JUST FALL LA! It's not so bad. Lmao. Once you get used to it you sit the genting space shot nothing onez leh. HAHA!

SO NIECE! HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT TIME TODAY! IM SURE I DID!! WE'LL CONTINUE OUR NEXT SESSION OF TORTURE ON WEDNESDAY BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

ahhhh, rock climbing is so fun

I'm gradually getting better at leading ,but gotta train more, get some strength, do harder and higher grade routes.

And I'm healing better thanks to supplements! Really glad for them. It's hard for the body to take tough training when it isn't well nourished.

THE FIRST OBSTACLE IS THE FEAR OF FALLING! So we gotta overcome that, it applies in every aspect of life. When you fear something you should run towards your fear not away from it. Cuz it's gonna chase you forever if you don't decide to face it.

SO YEA! That's all for now! HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS POST NIECE HAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHA!!! SUPER LMAOOOOOOO~!!! XD ciaoz =D

To my BFF

Ah! It's my 111th post! SO HAPPENS! HAHA!

GUESSSSS WHATTT~!!!! My best friend's birthday is Today~! It's going to end soon though~! I thought I would just dedicate a post to her =)

I have a BADDDDDD feeling by the time I finish typing this it'll be past 12am, but no matter! =D

HMMMMM~! Where do I start.... I can't remember... LOL!

She was the first to really consider me as a best friend. It didn't really matter whether it was serious or not. That's actually one of her good traits, she has the ability to win people over without much effort , with just her charms, really.

To be really honest, as a best friend she thought me a heck load of things. You have no idea. It's just simply crazy how much things has happened since I met her erm... 10 months ago? It's been a wild ride. I can't believe the last 10 months actually HAPPENED.

Life is really just unexpected. You never know what it throws at you.

Yeah, who knew life would throw a fat cat my way? HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!! *prays hard*

The best thing about this friendship here is that we can curse each other freely. AIN'T THAT AWESOME??!??!!?! And say what we want at any given point of time =) FREEDOM is so so sososososososos important! At least for me XD I can't stand having a best friend where I have to control what I say.

HAHA! Although I DO get hit often when I talk about pervy stuff. HELL I'LL SAY IT ANYWAYZ! BWAHAHA!

But I also understand that, in every friendship, misunderstandings happen, and sometimes there are certain things that you have to accept about your friend. No one is perfect. I started to learn so much more about friendship after getting to know her.

I didn't know it was possible to get close to people. I am a distant guy when it comes to friendship. I never really kept close friends. Never had any fixed group of friends. I was always all around. Who knew? But she's different, she has the ability to get close friends in short amounts of time. It's really shocking, to me at least.

I started to learn, more about people. Learning how to be a good friend is really important. I am sure I have made mistakes along the way of our friendship, but it is part of the process and journey of being friends.

You know, everyone is actually a good person. I want to believe that. And I know she is genuinely a good person too. Sometimes, even good people will hurt others, it is normal, even I hurt people too without knowing it. It's not that we want to hurt people. It's just that sometimes we just didn't know it would affect others so badly.

Most would think, heyyyyy, after being friends, that's it. All is good =) But nahhhh, since when is life so easy? Life is a test of how well you get to know your friends. The more you know someone, the more you see their true colour, and that's where the test of friendship begins. Everyone has two sides of them, at the very least. I am no exception.

It's easy to be nice to strangers. But it's hard to be nice to your best friend. Really. You want the best for them. And you can't always be nice if that is the case.

So I apologize for the times I've hurt you. I know that there were sometimes where you didn't say it, but it definitely happened. Till now I don't know, but I am sure there were such times.

I want you to know that due to circumstances, maybe we cannot hang out so often anymore. But still were BFF's till the end. I'll do my best to be a best friend.

Friendship teaches acceptance. It teaches forgiveness. It teaches trust. It teaches so much, and words cannot really express how much there is to learn from it.

She places friendship in a really high place. More than I do. That is something I need to learn from her.

She has so much potential.

You know I used to think, "my, she's such a kid".

But that IS HER! That's what she is like. That's her character. That's Lam Suk Ling!

That's what makes her HER! I didn't get it until now hahahaha!! Omg its so funnyyyy!

And I started to see that that's what's so special about her. Why in the WORLD am I trying to change her? It's so silly.

So what do you do as a best friend? Accept. That's right. You accept, your best friend, for what he or she is. And appreciate it. There is good in everyone.

That's what friendship is. It's good to correct each other, but its more important to show compassion, trust, and care.

And guess what!

I appreciate it! I appreciate it when she's not kind to me. I appreciate it when she curses me. I appreciate it when she's brutally honest to me.

Why? Because I'd rather not have a fake friendship.

I appreciate it that she is willing to be her real self. It's not easy to show your real self to someone. So that's why I appreciate it.

Very few people have gained my trust to such a level.

It's a bad trait I have.

I am stupidly loyal to those I trust.

And I am stupidly loyal to old things. My phone, my wallet, my silly awesome van XD

They are all old and worn out, but I still use them! It's so silly! I never want to change them! I don't understand it either.

Whatever pain that is going to come in this friendship, I'll take all of it.

It's the price to pay, and I am willing to go through with it.

I don't know what's going to happen.

But why does that matter? As long as you BELIEVE in the friendship. As long as there is TRUST. Then what else matters?

What is trust? In a friendship?

Trusting someone, to the extent where you still take them as a best friend, even WHEN they hurt you. It is going to happen.

You hurt the people closest to you without knowing it. It IS going to happen. That phase will happen. You have to be prepared for it.

My only FEAR, is that one day you'll be afraid of me! I don't ever want that to happen. I don't want you to be afraid of hurting me. I don't want you to be afraid of talking to me. I don't want you to be afraid. That's the worst thing that could happen.

I can accept whatever you throw at me. It's the truth. Because I am stupidly loyal. That's just so stupid I don't know how else to describe it XD

That's why I am not afraid to write this. If I was afraid you think I would dare to write such things? LOL! I might get taken advantage of man.

But I believe, so I'm not afraid =)

Thanks for being a friend =) I want this friendship to last a longgggggggggggg time. It's gonna be hard for sure. But hey, nothing great has ever been achieved without hardship =)

Most friends are there when times are happy and great.

But only real friends stay when things are terrible.

SO eat, pray and love life, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ~!!!! =)

I'd put ur pic but later got some random person stalk you or something HAHAX~! Merry Xmas =)

P.S. REPLY THE FB INBOX LA GOD DAMN YOU!!!!!!!!! XD

I always wanted a Girlfriend

A longgggggg time ago, in my secondary years, I always wondered what it was like to have a girlfriend.

I thought that you need to be good looking to have a girlfriend.

Then I got to college. I saw that, it really isn't just about looks at all.

After that just recently I understood, that love is not the same as lust, though a bit of lust is good to spice up the relationship

But you know what?

I always did want a girlfriend.

Always. All this while. I want one so much that I'm not going to mess it up for sure.

I want my first girlfriend to be really special

I want her to really mean something to me

I want her to be someone really important to me

Someone I'll cherish forever

And I don't want to hurt anyone, in the process. I know that, if I just do trial and error, I will hurt a lot of girls that way.

And to avoid it, I started to learn how to control my feelings.

It is not easy, but what's even harder is hurting other people. So if all it takes is to control my feelings, its definitely possible.

People often would say that they want to get some experience in relationships

I don't want experience

I want to get married.

Love is the most important ingredient in anyone's life, and marriage is no exception.

I want to understand what love is all about. I still think that I haven't fully understood it yet.




Isn't it nice? I always felt it would be nice

To have someone pack lunch for you

To have someone to come home to

To have someone you can talk to about anything

To have someone you can spend time with talking silly things and laughing

To have someone you can lie down with and just look at the stars

I'll eat her home made lunch box, I'll come home and just can't wait to see her, I'll talk to her about all our problems, and laugh over silly things that don't make sense. I'll lie down and watch the stars with her.

I'll proudly tell my friends this is my girl. And so what if others laugh at the lunch box? It doesn't mean anything to them =)

I know it's not good to promise too many things, but I'll definitely do my best in the relationship, because I know relationships require effort.

I want that so badly. I want someone to take care of me when I'm not feeling well. And I'll do the same for her too.

Ahhhh... man... I'm crying now... How shameful....

It's just.... really lonely.. sometimes, and it's really painful.... Whatever I'm going through

Life is just... so hard sometimes

I feel really stupid.... I just don't understand myself....

...It's my own fault for being like this. I don't blame anyone for it

But I'm not weak... It was really good to cry.

I'll be, much stronger now, after letting it out. Things are going to be okay. Things are going to be okay.

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I know this, the time will come for me one day, it's not that far, it's just a few more years =)

I didn't know that I wanted to be loved so badly. It's okay, I can definitely wait for the right person to come by =)

That special someone is somewhere in the world right now. I'm just waiting for the day we meet each other one day =)

And when that day comes

I'll give my 100% into it.

I'll be a responsible boyfriend.

I'll make sure I am capable financially and mentally to take care of her, otherwise I simply don't deserve her.

I'll make sure I get to know her parents. I'll make sure I treat her parents with respect, as much as I do mine.

I'll do what it takes. To make it a great and wonderful relationship =)

That's my biggest dream.

That dream burns deep within me.... It's the greatest desire I have

So that's y I work hard from now, so that at that time I have spare time to spend with her. I know things will definitely pay off if I just keep focusing.

I'll also do my best to keep trying to understand women better, even though it's hard to understand them as a guy haha!

But I'll keep trying. Someday I can definitely understand.

Ahhh... I just cannot wait for that day that I meet her... I'm obsessed with it. It's like I love her already. But I can't guarantee that claim, because I don't fully understand what love is yet. Maybe just a portion =)

Hm, assignments waiting for me, I'll be off then. I feel better now haha....

Nitez peeps =)

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p.s. Faster come into my life la silly girl =)

Relationships

I'm here to talk about relationships. To all out there who misunderstand what a relationship really is about.

No, it's not about "i love you you love me i want to be together with you forever"

No, its not about "i need you i want to feel you i want to touch you"

No, its all about "i'll go through all the hardships with you, and I believe in our relationship no matter what"

It's not about being all lovey dovey with one another. That's just satisfying each other's sexual desire. A relationship based on sexual desire is just bullcrap. Don't give me that, that's not a real relationship.

Neither is a relationship that is based on "i want to look good and i want to make other jealous and i have the hottest guy or girl as my bf or gf"

that's just ego. That's just wanting to make yourself look good for the sake of your low self esteem. That's just another pile of crap. Together with sexual desire its just a pile of dirt and rubbish.

What is a real relationship?

A real relationship is where you go through PROBLEMS together. No matter what happens. Go through it. Don't just comfort him or her, go THROUGH it with him or her. How can I help? Is there something I can do?

What else? It's about revealing your true self to the other person. YOU THINK that by being nice to each other, everything is going to work out? BULLSHIT. Being nice is PRETENDING. It's not being honest with each other. HONESTY is EVERYTHING. It's easy to be nice, hell I can be nice to strangers, even.

Get to know that person you like before making any move. Go through problems with that person, as a trial run. Have some misunderstandings. Get to know him or her better. Then you know, if both of you can handle arguments, and misunderstandings. How the HELL are you going to solve problems when it happens in a relationship otherwise?

ARGUMENTS are HEALTHY. Why? As I said, it lets u know what the other person really is about. Does that person avoid problems? Does he or she have some kind of fear or some kind of attitude problem? All these things need to be addressed BEFORE you get into a relationship

You CANT like someone just for their GOOD part. You gotta like them for their BAD part too.

You think relationships are simple? NO, its not, because its all about acceptance. TOTAL acceptance of the person you like. Sure, things are great when you guys are not arguing. BUT what if you are fighting? Will things just solve by itself? Well, you wish.

Can you accept someone else, who has a totally different opinion? HELL NO, it ain't easy. Try living with your family you'll know that its hard, EVERYONE has different opinions. It's all about understanding one another, and accepting.

So you think you can pull off a relationship by just going through the good times? Dont give me that crap, it ain't gonna work off in the long run.

NO ONE is perfect. If you think that guy is super duper nice or he's so good to you, then don't buy it. There is definitely a catch. Get to know what that catch is. No one is perfect. No one. There is no mr or mrs perfect out there. Unless you identify the flaws, don't even think of getting into the relaitonship

Not just identify, TALK about it. Relationships are about COMMUNICATION, not just physical contact. DO NOT be afraid to talk about each other's flaws. It is IMPORTANT. If you don't talk about it it's just the same as avoiding the problem. Now what's that gonna get you? It's just gonna eventually blow up one day and it's going to end in a terrible way, I am sure.

What else? A REAL relationship requires a GOAL

Whats the goal of the relationship? A one night stand? A short term relationship? Long term? Or marriage?

THE ONLY way a relationship succeeds is MARRIAGE. That should be your INTENTIONS when you enter a relationship. You don't enter a relationship with the thought "Let's just get together". What's your goal? Whats your reason? If you don't have the goal, your not gonna get very far, and even if things DO work out, it is NOT going to be a very happy marriage.

BECAUSE YOU CANT EVEN TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT.

Imagine not being able to be honest with the other person for the next FIFTY YEARS. How is that? Are you going to last? Gonna keep lying to yourself?

Trust me, things are going to be so unhappy for yourself if you do that to yourself. I can only pity and sympathize you.

But the choice is not mine, it belongs to everyone who is alive. You make the choice.

I've done my part. Now it's yours. Think if it's worth it to blindly go into relationships without knowing that person's BAD side. And without knowing how you both HANDLE arguments. And without even knowing what you WANT out of that relationship.

Invest time, learn about the other half. You'll appreciate it in the long run.

Welcome problems, it builds foundation, makes the relationship stronger. As long as you make it through. Welcome it. The world has problems for a reason. So that you become stronger. That's all there is to it. Without problems no real relationship can exist. GET THAT.

So what is a relationship really all about? Now I hope you understand

Its not about lust/sexual desire

It's not about ego

It's just about acceptance. Total acceptance. That's how you love someone.

NOW

Let me just use Alviss Kong as an example

Hey dude, let me say, you don't understand what the hell love is.

Because if you UNDERSTOOD what love is, you would have learned to ACCEPT your ex-es DECISION when she told you it's not going to work

YOU COULDNT ACCEPT IT THAT'S Y U FRIGGING JUMPED DOWN. THERE YA GO.

That's y acceptance is so important. It was just lust, for alviss, and he didn't even notice it, and it was ego too

Lust, because it is so obvious that the relationship is based on sexual desire

AND ego, because he posted it of facebook just to increase his self esteem because it was way too low.

These two factors. Use him as an example

Learn the real meaning of love

Make your relationship a success.

Accept the one you like, then you can love.

Acceptance.

Remember that.

Nitez folks =)

Hohhhhhhhhh =)

Ah! It's been... 2 weeks? Since my last post? Hmm, how busy oh how busy =)

It's funny, it feels like I'm a different person from 2 weeks ago.

How do I explain this... When you get to a certain level you look at life... Way differently than you would before.

SO, I'm juggling many areas in my life right now. Next up on my plate I got like 3-5 assignments due 21st dec? Ohhh, it's gonna be an awesome 2 weeks of assignments I tell ya =)

Just handed in one today. AHhhhhhh, college life =)

But enough about college Life. What comes next?

It might be weird but I'm already preparing for my life 5 years in advance.

SO what have you done to secure your future? It's definitely important

LIFE is not so easy. We might feel safe now, but next time, you never know, what may happen to us. So it's always good to plan ahead. You don't plan events one day before, ya know?

What do you think should I plan ahead about, you say?

Simple, your career. Go get yourself some side income. You can't survive on just one income. Wonder why most people still stay with their parents, that's why =)

Relationships. Well, build some good relationships with people, that's pretty basic. Build it in a sense that, when you do part ways, it's gonna be easy to maintain the relationship, since there is such a strong base. It's good to have a few good friends from each phase of our lives.

Self development. Have you ever thought, "hey, what's my life gonna be like many years from now? Is that where I want to be? Do I even know where I want to be?" Simple questions like these are important. You may not think so, but in time you'll find that unless you ask yourself these questions, you ain't getting nowhere in life. In the first place you don't know where you want to be! Does that make sense to you? Or does it not?

Let me elaborate further on self development.

Ask yourself these questions: What do I want my future family to have? Is there anything I can do now to give them that?

Also ask, what do you want your future family to say about you? Do you want your wife to say "My husband is a great man" or do you want her to say "man I so regret marrying him"?

Do you want your kids so say "I have the best father in the world" or "I wish I was never born in this family"?

Know the answer to these questions. It's the first step to becoming a responsible individual. You might say I sound old, but hey, if you plan on taking life seriously, then you'll have some serious fun next time, believe me =)

Isn't it fun, to have an incredible family?

Isn't it fun, to know that you have some secure future?

Isn't it fun, to know that you can become a full time parent someday?

YES, you have no idea how fun those things will be.

I'm quite a futurist, who knows why? Not important. What's important is I am, and the 5 years from now me will thank the current me for thinking about him. Definitely =)

So, yeah, start thinking about it. Start taking life seriously, then you can have some serious fun. Haha.

What's more fun than achieving your dreams? You have no idea =) So yeah, dream, then, turn it into reality. Once you do that everything would have been worth it.

Have direction. So many youngsters don't have a clear direction. Don't be like that. Make a change.

Motivate yourself. Think about your purpose of living.

To achieve freedom?

To get married? (This contradicts freedom in some way HAHA)

To achieve happiness?

To find your true purpose in life? What?

Talk to yourself. Ask yourself things. It's healthy, eventhough you might not think so.

The mind evolves. That's y each generation of humans is getting smarter than the previous. Were uncovering more sophisticated mathematical solutions, discovering more previously unknown facts about the world, and were becoming more technology savvy, which actually has both good and bad.

Open your mind. You are underestimating your own brain. More than you think you are.

Why? Because you always tell yourself "I can't do it, it's not possible"

This limits yourself in ways you can't ever imagine. You know that you ARE talking to yourself when you say those things out loud, let alone think about it.

Be careful what you tell yourself, because that's EXACTLY what your gonna be, believe it or not.

Tell yourself, it will happen, I will do it, no matter what the cost, it will happen

And you'll surprise yourself. The only hard part is programming your mind into a believer. In impossibilities. If you can do that your well on your way to achieving impossible stuff. Trust me.

We all have limitless potential. And sad thing is most of us never really achieve our true potential because we don't believe that we are capable. So yes, since you TELL yourself your not capable, that's what you're gonna be. Period.

Conditioning your mind is important. Why else do you set goals? Why else are you asked to read them all the time? Do you think it's for fun? It's conditioning your mental state and subconsciousness. I cannot stress how important goal setting and reading is.

You are subconsciously more powerful than you are consciously. Subconsciously you know if someone likes you or hates you, from body language. Subconsciously you know if an event is doing well or not. Subconsciously, you know that whether your future is going to be bright or not.

THE FUNNY THING IS

You sometimes don't realize this CONSCIOUSLY!

Funny isn't it?!?!?!??!!

This is because you have not been exercising your brain well enough. You haven't been feeding it with the right positive information. Your always surrounded by negative stuff and negative people. Why do you think I don't mix with certain groups of people?

Because I know that if I mix with them that's EXACTLY how I'm gonna be. Group influence. It's powerful. Be c careful who you mix with.

Hmmm, I've been going on and on and ON haven't I?! AHAHA

It's just great to exercise my mind again. It's so good. I did not realize that the mind is so so powerful, more so than I thought. Actually it's limitless, how far into the future the brain can think.

I have an idea of where I want to be in 5 or 6 years.

Married =) That's 1. There are a few others. But perhaps I'll go into them next time

Marriage. Hmmm.

Were so concerned that, maybe I won't meet the right guy or girl.

Don't.be.silly. You will meet the right guy or girl if you program yourself to think that way. Just try it.

I don't have doubts that I can get married by 25. It's just how badly I want it, that's all. I will definitely meet a girl who can accept me, and I can accept her. It is going to happen. Without a doubt.

And when I go into a relationship it's aiming for MARRIAGE. I am really serious and I don't take relationships as a joke or as a fling or as a just-for-fun-we-try-and-see-if-it-works kind of thing. It's for real.

I will go to that girl's parents and tell them, I want to be your daughters boyfriend.

BECAUSE I respect her parents. That's all there is to it. I won't date their daughter if they won't allow me. Not until I have proven myself to them.

And lets face it, logically if I'm aiming for marriage i HAVE to meet her parents, they're gonna be my in laws! I have to set a good relationship with them and make effort. That's the responsibility you have to make.

Funnyyy, most people still go through the trial and error method. It's just so so funny. YOUR probably gonna get more ERRORS than SUCCESSES

because the only way a relationship is gonna succeed is if you manage to reach MARRIAGE.

But even marriage is not the end of the journey yet. You still have to stay together, it's a challenge that is definitely no small or easy task.

Well, you could argue that trial and error is the only way to know if a relationship works.

Look, there are certain things you can only find out or unlock during the friendship stage. Once your together then it's gonna be hard to know certain things about each other because you HAVE to be nice and good to each other.

Does that make any sense to you?

Subconsciously, you know that made sense. HAHA I'm making use of the subconscious thing XD Remember, consciously you might disagree, but subconsciously you know that a relationship won't be healthy if it proceeds too quickly.

Why do you think so many marriages fail? Because they fail to understand each other well enough.

Have you heard of guys cheating their wives? Many times. But when she said "I do" to him, she probably didn't think that he would ever cheat on her, CORRECT?

What I'm trying to say is, take time to know who your dating. It's worth it, trust me.

There is only one person I will date and marry. There is only one person whom I will ever say "I love you" to, other than my family.

It's not something that I will just say to anyone. It's not something so liberal.

It's not something you take for granted. It's real. And I would never give it away so simply to just anyone. Believe that. If I can give it away after knowing you for 2 weeks then heck, my love must be so darned cheap am I right?

So when I do say I love you to someone someday.

Then that person would know that it is such an incredible privilege to be the only person to receive that kind of love =)

That's the kind of price I put on myself. I ain't cheap. I ain't just dating anybody.

Know your price. Don't sell yourself short. Your valuable. And so is your love. Don't ever forget that.

Man, it's good to exercise the brain, did I say it before? HAHA, okay, climbing tomorrow with pet niece, can't wait. It's a good week

And well, I can't wait to torture myself with more assignments the next 2 weeks, it's gonna be fun and skull-cracking, literally =)

Nitez peeps. Think about what I said and evaluate where you are and where you want to be. And whether you want a real relationship.

Ciaosu~! As reborn says haha~!

Misconceptions of love Part 2: Competition

OH GODDDDD~! The deadest every climbing session was TODAY!

Climbed from 3-9pm WTH MAN?!?!?!?! LOL!

Before that went for lunch at A&W, DID YOU KNOW THEY HAVE WAFFLES IN A MUG?!?!?! LOL SO COOL!!!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!! Hahaha! My niece totally loves waffles + ice creammmm

Met an old highschool fren! Hope she's doing well =)))

Hmmm, forced my niece(not blood related) to start climbing first... then i lazy around like hell in the gym.

Then you know what? I just want to close my eyes and like sleep a few mins

AND EVERY 30 SECONDS MY NIECE WOULD ALWAYS DISTRUB ME

WTH!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!? !? CANT I CLOSE MY EYES?!?!?!??!?!?! FOR A MINUTE?!?!?!?!!?

WTHHHHHH!!! Man, WHY DO GIRLS TREAT ME LIKE THIS!!??! O.o!!!!!!!!

For.example.

Niece : Danny

Me : What?

Niece : NOTHING

Me : ............................

Niece : Eh danny

Me : What?

Niece : NOTHINGGGGG

Me : )$)!*#!(@#!@#)+_!)#+!)^(@*#$$@#)*)(**)_(_+

Someone.kill.me

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! GGNESS SOAEKOIUAJSDSLAKJDA

SO anyhow, bouldered, then only we went top ropinggggg. Then you know what?

I FORCED MY NIECE TO DO A ROUTE THAT NEARLY OBLIDERATED HER AHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Then in the end....... SHE KEPT HITTING ME!! WTH?!?!?!? I SWEAR SHE HIT ME 3 TIMES!! OR MORE!! LOL! AND STEP ON ME ALSO! AND ALSO CURSE AT ME?!?!?!?! O.O!!!!!!!!!!

Girls are so violent these days XD

Then in the end she made me do the route alsoooo, but it wasn't htat bad for me la, managed to finish it. IN YOUR FACE PT HAHAHHA!

She learned a new word today... RETRIBUTION WTH?!?!?!?!?! Man, ben you SO thought her a wrong word.

Niece : *hits danny*

Me : What was that for?!?!?!?!?!?

Niece : RETRIBUTION

Me : YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!!!!!!

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!

BWAHAHAHAHAH!! Funny times man funny times

THen then... laterrrrr, you know whattt??

WE HAD TO DO HER FRIGGING ABS TRAINING AGAIN $*!&$)!)#*!@*#(!*#(!@

AND MY NIECE HAD A NEW ADDITION TO THE TRAINING

What was it? WE HAD TO BECOME A FRIGGING PLANK THAT'S WHAT THE TRAINING WAS OMG!??!?!?!!?!

Yesssss, AND MY BACK HURTS BECAUSE OF ITTTTTT!! GRRR!! And my abs too.

And THEN! Pooi lum comes, and gives us some even more FRIGGING FINGER TRAINING OMGGGGG!! LOL!!!!

That's y we only left around 9.30

Headed for supper~! Woops, actually dinner, we actually wanted to go waffle world.. But closing liao lor~ So went hainan coffee shop in tm instead. HEhe!

THENNNNN, back homeeee, had a bath its already 11.30pm... O.o!

Oh ! AND I LOVEEEEEEEE rihanna's new song! Only girl! Oh man, chorus is so so so sosososososos awesome and i simply love it =)

Maybe its just me aha!

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Okay! Time to get to serious stuff!

You know what, I've been thinking lately.

You know all these years, we've seen those... Dramas where people actually compete in love triangles etc etc.

In my opinion, love is NOT a competition

Don't get me wrong. Many cases where, 2 or more girls like one guy, or vice versa.

However, I disagree that people have to get jealous over each other.

YES, you will tell me its impossible not to feel jealous, but hey, don't let it spoil whatever friendship you have.

Surely you'd say, how can you say such a thing? It's like your losing on purpose since your not competing?

When was this ever about competing? Are you supposed to be better than the other guy or girl? Is that what your trying to prove?

Your being silly.

It's not about who is richer or who is smarter or who is handsome-r or prettier

It's about who better suits that person.

You'd say, exactly! that's what i've been trying to prove. That I'm better suited than the other person.

I disagree, you don't have to prove anything to ANYONE. Your just supposed to be yourself.

Nothing else. You don't have to ... See and compare and compete who spends more time with the guy or girl, or who makes him or her laugh more, or who makes him or her happier

Rubbish.

You don't need to compete. That's not love. That's ego.

People who have low self esteem are especially the ones to compete. Because they don't believe in their own self worth

They think "ah, what if im not better than the other guy or girl? I must do more, to prove that I'm better"

This is CLEARLY because you don't have any self esteem. Otherwise you wouldn't doubt your own value.

YOU are valuable. Just that, maybe the other person is better suited. Live with it, there'll be someone for you. And you gotta believe that your valuable

You ain't gonna be played into competing for someone. That's just... lowering your self worth.

SO say this. You are valuable. And you don't have to compete for anyone. The person who sees your worth will eventually be the one who appreciates you and live a good life with you.

So if you really think you need to compete for someone, then your probably portraying ego, and not love.

Understand love. Slowly you'll know what it is like

I am not sure either. But I think.. It's a warm feeling

I don't know, if it's that. But eventually, one day, I'll find out.

That's all for tonight folks~ CIAOZ! =D

p.s. So many mysteries =) can't wait to find out more about relationships =)

Misconception of Love part 1 : I'll do anything for you

Yo! I just had a strange thought today, so I'll get down to writing about it

Have you ever seen.... The situation where... A guy or girl falls in love with someone

And that guy or girl would do ANYTHING for the person they love?

Yes, we've seen it happen before, regardless of gender

SO what is the problem here? Isn't it right to do ANYTHING for someone you love?

YES, but that depends WHERE in the relationship you currently are at.

If you are already in a long term relationship or even if you are MARRIED, then yes.

If you are NOT with the person yet, then NO. You should not do anything and everything for that person. This also applies to couples who have not built a strong foundation in their relationship yet.


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Why is this so? Isn't it proper that we show how much we care about someone?

It's simple, really, when you give love away simply like that, it is usually taken for granted.

Why? Because you gave it away at no cost.

Sureeeee, love is priceless etc etc.

But you have to look at it from this perspective. You gave love, something so priceless, away at no cost.

Have you ever received something for free and just chucked it away in your house somewhere? To be lost forever? Same story.

Becareful how you give it away. I'm not talking about the normal kind of love where you care for your friends, that's okay, but when it comes to relationship-kind-of love it's totally a different thing.

Maybe you might defend by saying our mom gives us love unconditionally. Sure, because she is our MOM. What about the girl or guy we like? Are they our mom or dad? No... Nothing can replace a mom's love. Nothing.

So that's why, when you would do ANYTHING for someone. Of course they wouldn't give you the same in return!

You never checked whether she would be willing to love you in return.

Yes, love is not expecting anything in return, but IDEALLY the other person would love you back.

Okay. So you say, I don't mind giving it to him or her, even if he or she doesn't return my love. Okay, if your happy with that then it's totally fine. Really. Problem is for most people when the love is NOT returned they get seriously upset and depressed.

SO NO. You don't be a slave for the person you like. That's totally and utterly nonsense. Neither do you be overprotective. Or do you place your EMOTIONS for him or her in front of your FRIENDSHIP with him or her.

Never ever ever ever ever ever x infinity start a relationship prematurely. Golden rule. Believe it or not it's really not healthy even if the relationship works out.

But nah, I'm not worried, everyone will sooner or later realize this. Just that, I happen to know this a little earlier is all. How do I know this? Just observing people is all. You don't have to be in a relationship to know certain basic things.

And remember, everything I say, the purpose is not to make anyone believe me, it's just for people to take note. One day if it applies to you then you will understand yourself better. That's really all my purpose really is.

SO don't worry about whether this is true or not. Time tells everything.

Ciaoz peeps, gotta go read liar game manga man oh YEA =D

Age

You know what? I just had a pretty interesting thought.

When we are young. What's really important to us?

Surely, it's about having a boyfriend or girlfriend.

Yesss, that's one of our main concerns in the early stages of our lives, as a teenager.

And most of the times when things goes wrong when you are going after the person you like, you'll get extremely upset

Or unhappy, sad, etc etc

But when we get older, say about 25?

What's most important? Money perhaps? Since we probably won't live with our parents anymore by that age. Even if we did it further implies that money is a problem.

What about 40? Around that age?

I see that people around that age do not put relationships as a main concern. It's not a real concern anymore, having a boyfriend or girlfriend

If you are married then, probably you still love your family a lot, but not the same way you did when you first saw your wife.

That... Infatuation feeling. No longer exists, probably.

Sometimes

I feel like I think ahead of my own time

Meaning it's like... I maybe 19 now but I'm thinking like a 25 year old. You know, about getting married and preparing a good financial income etc etc

When I'm 25 I probably will think like a 40 year old. It's the time we usually try to explore the world with what money we have saved up

When I'm 40 I'll probably think like 60? Probably I'll be thinking about ... What I've accomplished in life so far, was my first 40 years worth it?

By the time I'm 70 I'll probably think like I'm 110 years old? Hope I don't go nuts at an early age ahaha. I'll probably think, the knowledge and wisdom I have gained all throughout my years in relationships, money, career and everything else, should be passed down to the next generation. Otherwise it'll simply be a waste

Is that... good or bad? The age of the mind is... not the same as your physical age. Did you know that? I'm sure you do, subconciously we do know.

It can be good, can be bad, it's all a matter of perspective.

A 19 year old can act like a 10 year old

A 25 year old can act like a 19 year old

a 40 year old can act like a 25 year old

a 70 year old can act like a 40 year old

There's no right or wrong, just a matter of preferance.

It depends on what you want.

But believe me, succesful people live simpler lives than you'd think

It's un-succesful people that make their own lives complicated and create drama to attract other people's attention.

Go figure.

Really. I've seen some really succesful people, and in truth their lives are really simple. They really enjoy their life and they really have no worries.

Isn't that just simple?

I'll tell you what is complicated. Having a fixed schedule, going to work everyday. Having to worry about money, having to make a biggg deal out of small problems. Not being able to do what you want, instead you do what others want you to do. That is complicated.

You gotta know that the formula to success is really simple, everyone knows it, but not everyone has the will to do it.

Just ask anyone, how to be succesful?

Work hard, it's the most basic answer people will give you.

It's simple, people just like to make things complicated I tell you.

I sincerely believe you can be succesful as a business owner investor or employee, as long as you work HARD.

Only difference is the time you take.

That's all.

So it's okay, we might actually feel that employment isn't such a good field, but in actual fact there ARE people who do well there, and they are happy because it's what they like doing.

So yeah, just live your life the way you want it to be.

Though, problem is, only a very small percentage of people are happy with just employment.

So work hard at looking for an alternative. You'll find it.

Just follow that rule. Don't think too much.

Everything falls into place when you work hard.

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Going back to age. What is the age of your mind? Have you ever wondered?

Is thinking ahead good or bad?

Generally I find it is good, for me, but problem is the group of friends I mix with are still in the age where fun is a priority.

I still do have fun, but it's no longer a priority for me.

Securing a good future is a priority.

So yeah, I do feel a bit left out sometimes, but I am who I am, I'll live a better future if I invest time in it now.

Wait.

Actually, to be honest, fun STILL is a priority for me.

Why? Because when I invest in the future, it'll be easier for me to have fun NEXT time.

SO yeah, the future me will thank my past self for making this decision

Just like the future you will thank you if you start studying now for your exam that is 2 months from now.

Just think of it that way.

Studying for the future can't be a bad thing right?

The same goes for planning your future. Think about it.

Use your awesome brain and think. You'll get what I mean.

Think. Peeps. The world doesn't revolve around PRESENT fun, but FUTURE fun as well. What's really the most fun thing is just achieving your dreams.

And if you don't believe me, that's okay, I'm not here to convince anyone or satisfy anybody.

But in a few years time, you might think ... hmm, maybe he did make some sense

Several years time you might think... hey, what he said actually came true

So you might not believe me now, but you will, someday.

It does not matter what people think of you, as much as you think of yourself.

And I think, thinking far ahead is not a mistake. It's a deed to yourself.

In fact, subconciously most of you know this, but are just plainly in denial. The next thing I will hear is excuses popping out. Spare me.

Take control of your life. Otherwise you'll just be another normal human being going through a complicated life.

Being normal is more complicated than you might think, you just don't know it.

Being normal means satisfying everyone else but yourself, because you want other people's acceptance so badly.

Being normal means you don't dare to stand out and be unique and be yourself. Because your afraid other people might not accept it. So you just be normal.

Being normal means you don't live your dreams. Because normal people don't dream at all. They just care so much about what other's think about them that they forget their dreams. Their dreams remain as fantasies that they once upon a time thought, could be possible, but no more.

People just have to tell you "har? It won't happen lar"

And poof, there goes your dreams. Because you believe what people tell you.

Now that, is complicated. Living a life where you want to SATISFY everyone. You think that's simple?

Step out of your comfort zone, and you'll realize there's so much in this world, that you've missed out on.

Live a simple life. Work hard for your dreams. Ignore what people tell you. The only people that you should listen to is god, if you believe in him, your parents, your wife, your kids and yourself. The rest don't really matter. Really.

All of us are blessed with the ability to bring change. And we are all special.

Take a good look at yourself.

Those boundaries that are holding you down right now, they don't exist. Period =)

Nitez peeps =)

P.s. it's been a long time since I had a double post =) I feel much lighter now

Mixed Feelings

Just got back, and I've had some pretty mixed feelings

Let me get myself sorted out first...
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*breathes in breathes out*

Is this what the world really is like?

I can't believe there was so much I did not know. And there is even more that I do not know. Yet.

So that's... What it's like huh?

Today was definitely eye opening for me.

What's going on?

I am convinced even more now that humility is the way of life.

Wanting something is good, but wanting something that harms other people's lives is horrible.

I probably am thinking too much, but yeah, I need time to absorb those things.

I just don't believe it.

But it's real, and that doesn't change, whether or not I believe in it.

I am even more convinced now that I should help other people realize the predicament they are in.

It's more than just money. Money is merely a tool.

We humans think we know everything, when we don't. No one knows everything. Even at a later age, we might think we know MOST of the things going on, but no, I don't believe so. I believe there's so much more going on that we don't know about, not a single clue.

The thought just scares me. This world. The truth. It chills me to the core.

But I will learn to accept it. I can't escape it anyway. I just have to face it and pull through, no matter what.

We'll do it for sure. We'll escape this vicious cycle.

Have a good night peeps.

It feels so dark. Inside.

My Mom's Dreams

This is the 100th POST OF THIS BLOG!!! And I am going to dedicate it to my mom, hence this post will be called, "My Mom's Dreams"
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Got home a while ago

For 19 years, I lived in my house

And today I asked my mom

Me : Mom, do you have a dream?

Mom : Dream? You mean goals in life?

Me : Yeah, I'm sure you have them

Mom : My first dream when I was young was to get away from Sarawak, my hometown

Me : Oh? But what about now?

Mom : I wanted a good husband

Me : Mm...

Mom : And I wanted my children to be better than I am. If I can't speak english well I want my children to be able to speak english well. And I wanted you to finish learning guitar. Now you stopped halfway, you can't play anymore. I dream for my children to finish what they started.

Me : Yeah, I can't really play anymore

Mom : What about your mandarin? What happened? No one teach you anymore?

Me : Mm... No lah, I just lack the initiative to learn

Mom : Haha, I don't want to use the term lack of initiative, its LAZY.

Me : HAHA. Lack of initiative means lazy lor

Mom : You should get a mandarin speaking girlfriend so you'll learn it

Me : Uhuhhhh ...

Mom : My dream is for you to get an honours in your degree. Education always comes first. Business can come secondary.

Me : So my main focus should be studies la...

Mom : Yes. It is my dream. But I know this business is good, I don't stop you, but you must focus on what's more important first.

Me : Okay, I won't neglect my studies. I will manage somehow

Mom : Even all your club activities, it's not really as important as your studies. Once you get an honours you can do whatever you like, and if your business doesn't work out you can always fall back to your job.

Me : Mm...

Mom : And, you set such high goals for yourself

Me : How you know ?

Mom : I know la... You've been my son for 19 years

Me : Haha...

Mom : But imagine you work so hard to achieve those goals. And just because you speed on the highway, and you get an accident, all is gone. Just in the blink of a second. Is it really worth it? It doesn't make sense to work so hard and then lose it all just like that.

Me : *nods* I understand. I'll try not to drive so fast



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My mom, her dreams are her children.

I didn't know she cared for me that much. And my bro too of course.

I know that if she ever lost me she would never be able to live with herself.

Sometimes I do feel that I'm pretty selfish, in a lot of ways, like for instance when I do drive fast. It's kinda selfish.

I didn't know that my mom's dreams were that

We kind of take it for granted. You know?

19 years, and I didn't know that all my mom wanted for her dreams, was for her children to live a succesful life

That was why she pushed me to study. That was why she always told me to seek her out for advice whenever I needed help. That was why she unconditionally loved me

Eventhough I'm not really a good son, in my opinion.

But today

My mom told me

She was actually really proud of me, though sometimes she is sarcastic with me.

Me : Why is it that you don't support me trying this business?

Mom : No, it's not that I don't support you, it's just that your priorities should be study. Don't neglect your studies.

Me : I won't. I just wanted you to believe in me at least

Mom : I do. I am actually really proud of you. You don't drink, smoke or gamble. Or do you?

Me : No, not at all

Mom : What more could I ask of a son? Except excelling in his studies?

Me : mm...

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My mom isn't wrong, she does have a point. She knows I am not the best at balancing my time. Sometimes I'm too engrossed in something till I neglect other areas in my life.

But I have to presevere and make it through somehow

If I want it badly enough I'll definitely get it.

I wish to make my mom's dreams come true as well. It will happen. Because I just have to really really want it

The only reason a dream never comes true is because you don't want it badly enough

If you want it badly enough, you will do whatever it takes to get to your dreams.

If you have a dream that hasn't been accomplished. Chances are you never wanted it badly enough in the first place.

Think about it.

It's time for us to think, spend some time in the future instead of just having fun. I'm not saying don't have fun, have FUN, but have a plan for your future as well.

This is not my gain. It is everyone's gain. Learn, be open, persevere, you'll get to your dreams, I promise =) Thanks

Have a good night peeps ^^

P.s. Thanks mom for everything =)

AH chiuu~!

I'm down with a slight flu XD

TODAY I CLIMBED LIKE CRAZYYYY~!! AND I EVEN WENT FOR BADMINTON BEFORE THAT~~!!!!! MY LEGS ARE SO DAMN DEADDDDDDD~!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GODDD!!

Not only my legs

My abs

My arms

My fingers

My FREAKING ASS HURTS OH MY GODDD!!!

Badminton + climbing combo is the WORST! LOL! But it was a pretty fun day out with my niece XDDDD

Did so many silly things with her zomg.

Hard to describe what happened, but super silly stuff lar XD

COME ON I SERIOUSLY HATE HER SILLY ABS TRAINING PROGRAM THINGY!! OMGGGG AFTER DOING IT I SO COULDN'T WAKE UP ANYMOREEEEE!!!!

LOL!! THAT'S HOW BAD IT HURTTTT!!

hahaha!! Hmmm, my endurance level is the PITSSS~! totally need to work on it again XD

Hmmm, other than rolling around the matts and a bunch of other silly stuff, it was a pretty good day~~!

I showed her how to ROLL AHAHA WTH?!??! She said I looked like retardo james bond LOL!!!

We had waffles toooo, with ice cream, she really likes ice creammmm~~ Actually the waffles there are not bad XDDDD

After climbing also another round of ice cream HAHA! Oh my god I feel all the calories I lost have been gained back just through the ice cream XD

Did I mention im having flu? YES I DID IT ALL WHEN I HAVE FLU!! Im so crazy XD But it beats staying home feeling sick XD Fresh air alwayssss helpsss~~~!

We started climbing around 3?? After waffle world. Lol, thennnnn, ended around... 7.30?? WTH MAN! Damn frigging long XD reached home 8.40, superrrrrr tired. Ate dinner. That's y I'm still feeling full XD

Overall it was still damn fun despite the long day! Missed lunch with my good friends though, felt kinda bad, maybe next time

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You know I was thinking

People do ask me, why you know, are you so.........

Don't you want to enjoy your teenage life? Y suddenly so serious about life?

Well, I kind of realized

I've already passed that phase of my life.

Meaning I'm not so into having fun anymore.

Not that I don't wanna have fun, but hey, there are more important things than just fun la when you come to think of it.

I'm going to be 20 soon, in a few months. I have to start thinking properly about what I'm gonna do eventually.

So yeah, you might want to have fun, but I'm really sort of passed the "I just wanna have fun in my teenage years" period. I've had loads of fun already.

And now in order to have more QUALITY fun, you have to succeed in life. How else can I travel someday?

Hey hey, life doesn't revolve around your teenage years okay. Your gonna definitely make your adult life even better than your teenage life, okay!?

So yeah, invest a bit in your future. Do it. Take time to think and act for long term.

It'll definitely pay off. The greatest leaders always foresee the future and act upon what they see. Not the person who only plans tomorrow.

Think of it. =) I'm sure you guys can do it.

You'll understand eventually, what I'm getting at. It's just a matter of time. So why not start now? =)

Nitez peeps ^^

Life

I don't really understand sometimes. How come?

Why can't people think ahead?

Sometimes I feel most people are so... Childish. They think short term most of the time.

Like what you say?

Career.

Have you really given some thought into whether you can sustain a good life with your future career? Really? Like really? Have you ever considered other options?

Relationships.

Whyyyy short termmmm? Do you really put in effort to ensure a long term relationship? Most teenagers are just in it for the fun of it. I don't really get why people enjoy short term pleasures instead of long term?

Health.

Okay, think of it this way. Now you can do everything with your life. Sleep late eat as much as you want. Etc etc. But for how long? A SHORT while that is. Maybe 20 years down the road you might regret. I'm not saying you gotta strictly control your diet but do keep yourself healthy at least through exercise.

You ask me WHY?????

I'll ask you WHY NOT?!!?!!?

Why not think about the future? Don't you care about your future?

Sometimes I really wonder why people are so blind....

Why can't people see what's really worth spending time for?

I just don't get it. Really. I don't. Why? Are humans so easily stereotyped?

To be so afraid of so many things in this world. Be open to new ideas. For once.

Haizzzz... I'm so totally in a bad time these days. Not as bad as previously but yeah...

Why? Why? Open your eyes and see the world for what it truly is.

I would say if I wasn't open to new Ideas then I wouldn't have seen the world for what it really is.

Grow up people.

Seriously.

Do something to chase your dream. Or it'll just fly away.

There are bigger things than relationship problems. Believe me. Grow UP!

Look at the bigger picture. Look at the longer term. Then you'll realize

Where your level of thinking currently is.

Suree, you wanna have fun, but how long can this short term fun last? You tell me.

The world as we know is slowly degrading and your there crying over someone not replying your text message?

Okay, cry, but get over it. Then get up. Then face the world and think of bigger things.

The biggest success in life

Is the success of life itself.

For when you are succesful, then money, marriage, and everything else falls into place by itself.

So grow up, and look at the bigger picture. And if you can't take me being direct, go cry somewhere in the corner. Forever.

I'm tired of being nice, it doesn't work that way in this world. If you are a friend you'll take my honesty and be honest to me in return.

Im actually being nicer by being honest believe it or not!

Kids. They're not those below 12 years old, there are those older than that, who are still kids, believe me.

and this applies to those above 20 or 30 years old. And I am NOT kidding.

Sit back and think about how many people you know who actually think like adults.

The definition of adult?

-He or she thinks about career 10 years down the road
-He or she thinks about relationships 10 years down the road
-He or she thinks about health 10 years down the road

So how many people actually plan their life 10 years ahead? You tell me. I can bet you you'll be surprised how few there are.

You know lah, kids, they just plan for tomorrow, or they dont plan at all. really.

For those who DO plan, at least you have some sense of maturity in yourself.

But you need to refine that plan. If you plan to work the next 10 years then you should really consider more options. Working a job isn't gonna guarentee you a good life.

SO think about it. Put your emotional woes away right now and think what's really important

now

Or the future?

So what's your plan?

You see people just find the easy way out. They marry someone richer. End of story.

But how many people can do that? You relaly think you'll get someone rich huh? And you want to marry someone out of money? How low can you get seriously?

Why do I say your low? Because your marrying someone for your own gain. Think about that for a second. Is that really a sincere way of getting married to someone?

Okay so you might not believe me, but in years to come you will. Then you'll think of what I said and say "he was right, if only I wasn't so naive back then"

Yeah, so to stop that from happening, change now.

If this still doesn't convince you then you really have no direction in life. Good luck getting to your dreams I say. If you have any.

Everyone has dreams. Even getting married can be considered a dream.

HEY! You think everyone can get a good marriage? Go and look at the divorce rates for pete's sake.

So getting a good marriage is a really good dream. So don't say that you don't have a dream. I sincerely believe EVERYONE has a dream.

Sheeshhhh, excuses. I end up creating them for you and answering them. See how predictable you guys are?

No time?

Yessss, EXACTLY, there is no time so that's y you should start looking for alternatives rather than just a job

No money?

OHHHHHH, yessssss, you got no money but when it comes to girlfren/boyfren... ada money ma =) when it comes to gambling ada money ma =) when it comes to showing off ADA MONEY MA! When it comes to spending on EDUCATION and KNOWLEDGE, tak da money worrrr.

Stupid.

These people just want short term pleasure.

Kids. Once again I'll say. Kids...

Third excuse?

I'm still young/ I'm too old

God damn. What???? Are you saying your too young to try something new? Or it's too late for you? WHEN is the right time?? Huh? When your 18 your too young, when Your 25 your too busy with work or family, when your 40 YOUR TOO BUSY TELLING PEOPLE HOW OLD YOU ARE AND THAT YOU HAVE KIDS.

I'll tell you when is the right time. WHEN YOU STOP MAKING EXCUSES FOR YOUR LAZY SELF. THAT'S IT. PERIOD.

Excuses just make us such assholes la. You have no idea how much we lie to ourselves through excuses.

IF there is actually some sense in you you'll start to realize what I'm getting at here.

If not then... yeah good luck with life. I hope you'll make it somehow to your dreams.

Yeah, last note, I'm not directing this at anyone. Just generally telling. If you feel this applies to you then by all means, please take action on your life to change it.

Otherwise.... Either you already understand what I mean, or your you understand but dont care. Or don't understand and dont care.

Hope you guys found this helpful. Nah, no reason for me to apologize for the tone =) it's my blogggg, and I should have the freedom to express how I am feeling about people.

It's just simply depressing. Believe me.

When you get to a certain level of thinking, you'll understand. Gnitez for now =)

Pissed.

I have not been this pissed since god knows when.

I'm unsatisfied with so many things in my life right now.

What? You ask? Hmmm, let me see, club, friends, studies, business.

Yes, I am unsatisfied. WHY don't I deserve better?

Yes, I deserve better. Totally. I don't see why I deserve less.

I've been trying to put effort in all 4, but where did it get me so far?

Sometimes I am just speechless with my life. What is this?

What???????? There must be something I am doing wrong with my life.

Am I not balancing well? Am I focusing on too many fields at once? Come on, tell me, tell me what to do.

Today my friends asked me what was wrong with me?

Everything.

They asked me to tell them. How can I tell them? How? Just like that? You have got to be kidding me.

It's an array of problems, not just one. Come, sit and I can talk with you for one hour about my problems. But what will that help you? I'd rather save your time.

Not only that, you don't deserve to be ranted on and become my sponge. You deserve better too. All of you who read this, deserve better. ALL of us deserve better in life.

I don't know, but this must be my PMS of the year or something.

Life is really frustfrating for me right now. But I'll hang in there. And with time I'll be back to my usual self. Well, let's hope so shall we.

There might be a slight change in me eventhough I'm back to my old self. Who knows? I'm just saying. Anyone can say anything.

Ciaoz. Have a good day tomorrow.

What a Man Must Do in Life

1) A man must have a direction in life.

2) A man must respect women.

3) A man must know what he wants out of his life.

4) A man must plan at least 10 years ahead and not just tomorrow.

5) A man must think that he already has a family to feed, and prepare for the day it happens.

6) A man must not give in to sexual desires.

7) A man must respect others who are in a relationship and not interfere except giving advice.

8) A man must be loyal to his people and his wife.

9) A man must value friendship over his own emotions.

10) A man must think long term, not short term.

11) A man must be a good listener.

12) A man must be brave.

13) A man must not go back on his words.

14) A man must have the courage to stand up for his loved ones.

15) A man must not be afraid to love his parents and his siblings.

16) A man must face his fears.

17) A man must respect it when a girl says no.

18) A man must not demand respect, but earn it.

19) A man must be humbled down enough to admit and learn from his mistakes.

20) A man must understand that his ego is not as important as he thinks it is.

21) A man must help those who need help.

22) A man must be decisive.

23) A man must learn how to be sensitive to a woman's feelings.

24) A man must never give up on life.

25) A man must not touch a woman for a woman's body is a sacred place for the man she loves.

26) A man must ask questions when he is lost.

27) A man must treat others well eventhough he is not treated the same in return.

28) A man must put himself in other's shoes before acting too quickly.

29) A man must always think, not why, but why not?

30) A man must put others before himself.

31) A man must not be lazy.

32) A man must work towards his goals, for his future family, even if it does not exist yet.

33) A man must be learn to handle rejection.

34) A man must be strong willed.

35) A man must be sure of himself and has self confidence.

36) A man must have high self esteem of himself.

37) A man must be mature about his own emotions.

38) A man must learn to enjoy life, with the ones he loves.

39) A man must learn to appreciate life, so he lives his everyday like it was his last.

40) A man must learn and educate others throughout his life.

41) A man must not play with women's feelings.

42) A man must accept whatever life throws at him, and emerge victorious.

43) A man must be open to new ideas and possibilities.

44) A man must believe the impossible can be possible, and becomes the first to do so.

45) A man must accept criticsm like a man.

46) A man must understand that showing his softer side is not something to be ashamed of.

47) A man must learn to love himself, for only then can he love others.

48) A man must not be selfish in love, even if love may be selfish.

49) A man must be kind to everyone.

50) A man must respect his parents and listen to them.

51) A man must not always think he is right

52) A man must dare to dream big.

53) A man must know when he has to leave it all up to faith and take the plunge.

54)A man must try whatever is in his power to make a change to the world and make it a better place for generations and generations to come.

That. Is a real man =)

In da Club =)

Yo~! YESTERDAY evening, I went to climb, my ass hurts~

TODAY morning~! I went badminton... nearly 2 hours.... my ASS hurts~!

THEN just NOW ~! I WENT CLUBBING~! My LEGS HURT~!!!

In conclusion NEARLY MY WHOLE BODY HURTSSSSSSS~!!!

OMGGGGGGG~!! HAHA im soooooo dead tmr morning XD and its 3.15am now~!

But we should all enjoy our teenage years =))) it'd be a waste if we didn't~!

So yeahhhh, after going badminton, came home and took a nap

Woke up in the evening, for dinner LULZ~!

Got ready, fetched up my pals =)

I was.. a little late XD

DROVE to MOS, the queue was LONGGGGGGGGGGGGG~! We were lucky to get in =) one of my friends knows someone who got us the passes. Halloween eve! no wonder so many~!

You know whatttt, we were late, we were afraid that we couldn't get in, so I dropped my friends off first

Then I went around looking for parking. NO PARKING~! Seriouslyyyyyyyyyyy~ It's crazy man... Everywhere there is cars~!

In the end my friend called me, saying that she needed me to be there to go in LOL~!

I was like "SHIT SHIT SHIT OMG WHAT IF I CANT FIND A FRIGGING PARKING IN TIME?!?!?!?!?"

IM DOOMEDDDDDDD~!!!!! >.<

So, what DID I do? I just

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BADLY.

VERY BADLY.

Yes, I just really really really really really really really really WANTED a parking.

badly.

AND, to my surprise, ONE APPEARED OUT OF NOWEHRE! a car reversed out

I was like... OH SHIT, maybe the person in front of me wants to take the parking! oh no~!

Then the he didn't take the parking~! SO THE PARKING WAS MINE~!!!!!! =))))

You just need to WANT something bad enough, to get it.

The reason we don't get a lot of things in life, is because we want it, but not to the extent where we'll put in the effort or mindset to get it.

The mind is a powerful tool, the subconcious knows no limits

You think that, everything is physical? That physical is more important? that physical more powerful than mental strength?

Your so so so so incorrect my friend =) Everything in this world requires mental strength and mindset.

And you might know this, but do you apply it? It's two different things. So that's y I'm mentioning it =)

You might know this, and not believe in it.

Everything. Attraction, sex, studies, human relations, you name it, it's all about the mind and how we condition our minds to think and apply it physically.

It all starts from the mind. Most people just say... "yes, i know i know, i know what you mean"

No, you won't really know until you can really practice it =) it's not something so simple

Nothing is simple until you truly understand it. Why do you think most guys in general find most girls in general complicated? because they dont understand girls. Girls only become simple when they understand them. Simple as that =) am i confusing you? And yeah, in general guys are simple and predictable, soooo, nothing to say on that =)

Back to clubbing~!

After that I rannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn all the way to MOS~

LOL~! the wind felt good =))))

Got there , lined up outside, while waiting for my friend to get us the passes =)))

AFTER THATTTT~! Got in, went on top to drink~! but I just drank coke la~ the rest of my friends mixed alcohol and cokeee =D

In the end, me and aaron went down to the dance floor, went arounddddd~

It was pretty hot la~! the girls on stage too =))) Some of them really can shake ittttt~~ =) it would be nice to dance with them on stage, but guys aren't allowed =)

Soooo, we went around and around and arounddddd~

You know what??? I tried dancing with this girl

But, no reply LOL~! She just looked away, ahhhh, failed XD

Thennnn, second attempt, another girllllll, you know what?

I put my hand around her waist, then her friend pushed my hand away LOLZ~! ahhhh, failed again XD but it's okayyyy =) maybe i'll learn how to initiate it properly next time =D

I probably used the wrong approach~~~~ =)

WELL, there were a few times me and aaron were like close to the stage. next to it actually

Seeing the girls shake their assets off in CLEAR and NEAR view is really really really awesomeeeee =))) no words can describe it lolzzzzz~!

Heyyyy, if a guy doesn't look at girls something is wrong kay~~ haha~! XD oh well, I think I just need more confidence to dance with girls

SADLY, we had to end early... My friend had to go back home

SOOOO, we left at 2 =(((( I would've wanted to stay for another hour

Drove home, but yeahhh, I DID drive a bit fast laaaa....

I really need to control myself... I just always drive a slow van, so when I get a fast one I just... LOL

But yeahhhhh, I feel bad la... my mom adviced me not to drive fast, but I still do. Haiz, I really need to just ... control myself and think rationally.

My mom raised me pretty well la =) I'm glad I turned out this way =)
AND YES THAT IS INCLUSIVE OF THE PERVINESS~!!! =)))

haha!

Sooooo, here I am blogging, with my whole body aching XD

oh well~! tmr, helping my friend shift his stuffs from his condo~

I wonder what time i'll wake up?

HAHA~!

One day, I'll DANCEEEEEE WITH ALL THEM GIRLS~!!! MUAHAHAHHAHA~! =)))

Just for fun =D Nightz folks~! =D twas a good night indeed =)))

It's a full moon tonight =)

Hey, I just got back home. Did you know it's a beautiful full moon? When I got out of my car, the dim light shined down on me. I looked at myself. And I thought. It was quite an experience tonight.

Well, prom was great and all, but it was what happened after that made me feel the night was kind of special.

IT was my second time emcee-ing

We reached one world around 10am. started rehearsing, I was a bit tense the whole day

When you are tense you tend to be kind of nervous about yourself.

HAHA! You know, damn funny, Dato Teo belanja us rm500, so mr hoo went and you know, buy us 40 sets of BURGER KING LMAO!

We ifnished everything... except... THE FRIES!

So you know what we did? WE dumped ALL the fries to one area, then we started to eat. 2kgs+ of fries i tell you! vs 9 of us sc members

Sc members lost la XD

We still left about 1.5kgs of fries ahahahah!!!

Damn killer wei those fries XD So we threw it into the dustbin.. SO WASTE LMAO!HAHA!

After that, went home.

Went back, relaxed on my bed a while, then after dressing up, I went to the saloon

I don't have pics now, maybe next time XD I will post some pics up =D

After that, went to one world, met many people.

MM... to be honest I missed out a few important lines. Like important ones la.

I do feel bad... But I shouldn't beat myself too hard. I should just learn from it and do better next time =)

I did do not bad, maybe above average, definitely better than when I emceed last years prom. But still there is room for improvement =))))

Anyhow, hmmm, didn't eat much, thanks meow for saving me some food lolz! if you read this XD

Most of the tables were full XD so didn't really have anywhere to sit.

But I didn't eat much la... ITS BECAUSE OF THE BURGER KING FRIES I TELL YOU! THOSE DAMN MONSTERS ARE STILL IN MY STOMACH!!!!! O.O!!!!!!

FELT SO DAMN FULL!! LMAO!

fries = cancer XD

I went around, talked to people =D I felt that, I should try to entertain everyone I can =D So I went around talking to people XD

That was before emceeing XD

Then we had a slow dance session, danced with sheng khang and kerina. ROFL!

When I was with sheng khang it was kinda gay la... lol. But it was........ an experience! To dance with another guy XD

Then, when dance with kerina EVER FUNNIER!!! SHe is such a pleasant person! and so nice to get along with XD we ended up talking about other ppl dancing, it was pretty hilarious. Talk about her boyfren working etc etc! SO FUNNY! While we are SLOW DANCING!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! Had much fun =))))) she's superbly nice =D

Went wild on the dance floor with my super spinning move too XD haahah! I soooo need to practice that XD

After that, in the dressing room, we had one de-briefing.

Our president, dwayne, sincerely thanked everyone in the room. I think that is really important.

And that is why I think he is a really great president. He understands the importance of every individual in completing the puzzle.

And he really cares for us all.

Though, he has class tomorrow la, so he couldn't join us for yamcha XD

Oh! Funny thing happened

Funny and enlightening

You see, after that, I had to fetch two friends home

But one of my friend needed a newspaper for her assignement or something.

Point is, she really desperately needed it, or she will die by her lecturer's hands lmao

So we went around hunting for NST newspaper XD went to 3 7 11s, couldnt find any!

So fetched my other fren back first cuz his house nearby

Then after that.... WE GO ESSO PETROL STATION GOT ROFLMAO!!!!! XD So funny!

I guess not many ppl buy paper from esso XD

So after chatting a while sent her home XD it's pretty good. We always talk about intellectual things, really like conversing with her =))) The best thing its natural too =) it's not something forced

Actually, after that I had to go yamcha with my friends... I wanted to go ss2 , but another friends mom was in damansara utama, so we had to go DU. Sorry to those who were in ss2! that I didn't make it >.<>.<

I was like... oh damn... I'm in deep shit

No money... how eh? lesen kena gantung then need to pay rm300

Soooo, I went back to the policemen

me : Bang... ATM saya tak ada wang ... Ibu bapa saya dah ambil keluar dah wang tu"

actually, i dont know why but I couldnt check my balance or withdraw money, so I just used this reason lor... maybe not enough money gua in the acc

"ohhh, kalau begitu... saya kasi satu saman saja la"

omg, i was like OMFG!!!!

NOOOOO!!

Then I said... "erm... kalau saya boleh panggil ibu bapa?"

then the other policeman said "tak payah lah"

me : "atau... saya panggil kawan saya dekat sini?"

he said again "tak payah lahhhhh . you masuk kereta dulu"

i entered the car. He said "kali ni saya kasi chan... lain kali jangan buat lagi."

WHEN I HEARD THAT I WAS LIKE OMG IM SAVED!!!!!!!

me : "TERIMA KASIH BANG! saya takkan buat lagi!!" XD

then he said "drive safe... pandu selamat ya"

terima kasih bang!

HE LET ME GO AND I DONT EVEN HAVE TO PAY RM1!!!!!!

omgggggggg im so lucky!

But ... then I rushed to the outside medan selera... Then my bianca call me, say they want go home already... so i was.... lol.... its okay laaaa XD So after that I just.. drove home...

Ahhhh, what a day, I didn't make it to either yamcha session XD

But you know what... I think that was quite a good experience

I learned something

If you are polite and humble towards others it greatly improves their impression of you. I mean, he really did let me go because I admitted my mistake from the start and talked to him really politely.

Maybe not exactly the words, but more of the tone.

And .... Perhaps the way I dressed helped also la LMAO!

In the end, I just made him feel that he had the authority.

In the end My licence is not taken away and i didn't have to pay anything!

It was quite a relief =))))

SO SORRY I DIDN'T MAKE IT FOR THE YAMCHA! XDDDD sooo many things happened... I really do have a knack for being late! XD I suppose its not really an excuse la...

After that, I reached home. Got out, And that was when I saw the moon =) And later when I got home, I had a bathe... And funny... the colour spray on my hair started washing away in red droplets. It's just... I felt mesmerized by that moment for some reason. Maybe.... It symbolizes something. Or maybe, I'm just being weird! HAHA!

But overall

It's such a good night =D

Goodnight friends!!! =DDDDD