It seems that the Council has chosen it's path
It chose the path of professionalism
Today I noticed that, that was the way in which the council is headed
I realized that the executive committee holds the highest influence
And in that, the path of KBU's Rotaract club is in my hands as well
It is such a huge contrast to me
Why?
Simply because I am in both clubs
It gave me a different kind of perspective
There are two ways one could go in a club
The path that emphasizes professionalism
Or the path that emphasizes friendship
Now, the answer is subject to the people who are leading the club
Balance between both? What is the 'right' amount of balance between professionalism and friendship?
The fact is that, this balance depends on the people who lead the club
For person A, maybe 80% professionalism and 20% friendship is the 'right' way to go
For person B, maybe 20% professionalism and 80% friendship is the 'right' way to go
Is there really a thing as the 'right' amount?
Who is right and who is wrong?
There are those who are 50 50 as well
Well, to me, getting the 'right' amount of balance is not as important as having a united mindset
If everyone agrees at a certain amount, then the amount does not really matter anymore
What matters is unity.
Everyone having the same goal and same mindset
That has a higher priority than getting the 'right' amount
So if the executive committee feels that 80 20 is the right way to go, then 80 20 it is
As long as everyone has the same mind set, then slowly, but surely, the 'right' amount will come by itself
And it will not be any kind of fixed figure
Only because as a club we are always growing. So eventually we 'grow' into the right amount
Today, an executive committee said a lot of things
To me, what was most important, was not the words he used, but the 'action' of being able to express himself
That carries a lot of weight in itself. The action.
The words are secondary to his actions
The fact that he was brave enough to say all that he has said, is proof enough to me that he cares.
Understanding his actions, has led me to his intentions. He wishes a greater good for the club.
In fact all of us do. Just that all of us have our own ideal way of doing it
But no, if we all cannot come to follow one person's vision, then we will be lost trying to show each other how to do things 'right'
The important thing is to talk with your leader often, understand his vision, the way he or she sees things, and have faith in him or her. Build bonds. Friendship
In that way, eventually. Both Friendship and Professionalism will play its own role and show the way.
Let there be mistakes, for those are what makes us bond and become closer to one another. If we were too professional, our mistakes would show that.
If we were too friendly, our mistakes would show that as well.
I have made my own set of mistakes and it has taught me so much.
So do not falter. Do not fear. Just keep going. Keep staying together.
Persist, for at the start of everything, it is always hard.
But from there we learn. Thus the bonds are built and things will change. Always. For the better.
Unity within the club, then unity with other clubs, then unity, with all
Thank you, for reading a humble man's thoughts =)
Danny Siah
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Depths of Perception
Finally! I started playing Dragon Age 2 =3
Even though it is the holidays I don't play as much games as I thought I would.
The gaming industry has improved so much and is expanding at a fast rate in most of the genres. You see tons of first person shooter games coming out, RPGs and all kinds of cool stuff :3
So pretty much my holiday is made up of planning for a college event, reading, and playing games!
Awesome? Haha! Okay la =3 I just need to change my habit of sleeping late.
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Have you ever wondered about the concept of perception?
Let me give an example
Let's say you are a perfectionist in a world filled with only perfectionists
Then being a perfectionist would be the normal thing
Because everyone in general has perceived it to be normal.
The same goes, if everyone was happy and expressive, then being happy and expressive is normal
However, in our diverse world, being a perfectionist, or being extremely hyper are seen as being a little more than abnormal you could say.
But that's the beauty of it.
However, I realized we should not be too critical of others, because if we are, then they will be critical towards us as well.
Each of us has at least one attribute which is considered abnormal or strange.
So before you talk about someone else being too... crazy... too hyper... too perfectionist, we should look at ourselves and realize.
That's what makes us humans so special. If everyone was a perfectionist in a world of perfectionist then everyone would be sad because nothing is ever perfect
The same goes if everyone was a hyper crazy person in a world of hyper crazy people then everyone would not get anything done and just want to have fun
So understand that it is our diversity in human personalities that are supposed to compliment one another and make this world a better place
So please, do not judge others for the way they act. We need to accept it as part of being human. I just understood this, 20 minutes ago after seeing my friend's comment about me needing to 'tone' down
I realized that it does hurt a little, when people tell you 'you should not be like this' or 'you should not do that'. I think we should all just learn to accept one another.
It made me open my eyes too. I always judged perfectionists very harshly. I did not understand why they cannot just loosen up and don't take things so seriously.
But that is wrong. I should accept and understand them. Just like how I want people to accept and understand me.
Sometimes you sit down and realize... It is really easy to hurt someone without realizing it. Even though it is not your intention. I think we just have to be more perceptive about others, how they feel, and learn to see things from their point of view.
Also I would like to say that, sometimes I can be a self-centered kind of person. I enjoy the spotlight and the attention I receive. It's the truth. I won't lie about it. I'm just that kind of person.
At the same time, I also realize that I can accept criticism fairly well. Most of the time I would not feel hurt by people's remarks. Except this time it did hurt a little. But a little sting is good if it makes you realize things about the world.
Sometimes I can be really expressive, and type in HUGE CAPITAL LETTERS. That's just me. Full of energy when it counts. And usually with friends I am comfortable with I can spread a contagious kind of energy that gets everyone hyped up and crazy.
Strange how it happens. But I just enjoy seeing others laugh =) So I am grateful to have this ability.
And lastly I must also understand that, most of the time, people don't intend to hurt you with what they say. They just didn't realize it. So you shouldn't take it too personally, or too seriously. Otherwise you will be easily hurt most of the time.
That is why I am working on my self-esteem all the time. It is my shield. So that I will be able to stand up for what I believe in and not be gunned down too easily by people's remarks. If I am easily swayed by what people say then I can never be a good leader.
So that is why. I build a strong wall of self esteem.
It is different from a defensive wall.
The wall of self esteem makes use of the important ingredients. The first of those ingredients is love.
There are 9 more ingredients. But I understand that without love as the foundation, the wall of self-esteem will never be strong, even with the other 9 ingredients.
So that is why I learn to love. Now and forever. For me and everyone else.
I feel much better now! Men are always better at expressing themselves by writing things down instead of expressing themselves verbally.
Thanks, I feel like I can be more forgiving and accepting of people now.
It just seems like any bad experience that happens to me, I always can make something good out of it. I don't know why.
Must be my optimistic nature =)
Well have a good night folks! Thanks for reading ^_^
Even though it is the holidays I don't play as much games as I thought I would.
The gaming industry has improved so much and is expanding at a fast rate in most of the genres. You see tons of first person shooter games coming out, RPGs and all kinds of cool stuff :3
So pretty much my holiday is made up of planning for a college event, reading, and playing games!
Awesome? Haha! Okay la =3 I just need to change my habit of sleeping late.
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Have you ever wondered about the concept of perception?
Let me give an example
Let's say you are a perfectionist in a world filled with only perfectionists
Then being a perfectionist would be the normal thing
Because everyone in general has perceived it to be normal.
The same goes, if everyone was happy and expressive, then being happy and expressive is normal
However, in our diverse world, being a perfectionist, or being extremely hyper are seen as being a little more than abnormal you could say.
But that's the beauty of it.
However, I realized we should not be too critical of others, because if we are, then they will be critical towards us as well.
Each of us has at least one attribute which is considered abnormal or strange.
So before you talk about someone else being too... crazy... too hyper... too perfectionist, we should look at ourselves and realize.
That's what makes us humans so special. If everyone was a perfectionist in a world of perfectionist then everyone would be sad because nothing is ever perfect
The same goes if everyone was a hyper crazy person in a world of hyper crazy people then everyone would not get anything done and just want to have fun
So understand that it is our diversity in human personalities that are supposed to compliment one another and make this world a better place
So please, do not judge others for the way they act. We need to accept it as part of being human. I just understood this, 20 minutes ago after seeing my friend's comment about me needing to 'tone' down
I realized that it does hurt a little, when people tell you 'you should not be like this' or 'you should not do that'. I think we should all just learn to accept one another.
It made me open my eyes too. I always judged perfectionists very harshly. I did not understand why they cannot just loosen up and don't take things so seriously.
But that is wrong. I should accept and understand them. Just like how I want people to accept and understand me.
Sometimes you sit down and realize... It is really easy to hurt someone without realizing it. Even though it is not your intention. I think we just have to be more perceptive about others, how they feel, and learn to see things from their point of view.
Also I would like to say that, sometimes I can be a self-centered kind of person. I enjoy the spotlight and the attention I receive. It's the truth. I won't lie about it. I'm just that kind of person.
At the same time, I also realize that I can accept criticism fairly well. Most of the time I would not feel hurt by people's remarks. Except this time it did hurt a little. But a little sting is good if it makes you realize things about the world.
Sometimes I can be really expressive, and type in HUGE CAPITAL LETTERS. That's just me. Full of energy when it counts. And usually with friends I am comfortable with I can spread a contagious kind of energy that gets everyone hyped up and crazy.
Strange how it happens. But I just enjoy seeing others laugh =) So I am grateful to have this ability.
And lastly I must also understand that, most of the time, people don't intend to hurt you with what they say. They just didn't realize it. So you shouldn't take it too personally, or too seriously. Otherwise you will be easily hurt most of the time.
That is why I am working on my self-esteem all the time. It is my shield. So that I will be able to stand up for what I believe in and not be gunned down too easily by people's remarks. If I am easily swayed by what people say then I can never be a good leader.
So that is why. I build a strong wall of self esteem.
It is different from a defensive wall.
The wall of self esteem makes use of the important ingredients. The first of those ingredients is love.
There are 9 more ingredients. But I understand that without love as the foundation, the wall of self-esteem will never be strong, even with the other 9 ingredients.
So that is why I learn to love. Now and forever. For me and everyone else.
I feel much better now! Men are always better at expressing themselves by writing things down instead of expressing themselves verbally.
Thanks, I feel like I can be more forgiving and accepting of people now.
It just seems like any bad experience that happens to me, I always can make something good out of it. I don't know why.
Must be my optimistic nature =)
Well have a good night folks! Thanks for reading ^_^
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Environmental Chaos
Lately I've been thinking
The environment around you surely affects you in one way or another
I've realized that given a situation to a person, say, myself, I would definitely act differently given the different environment and atmosphere
And I would say it applies to all human beings
It affects us even so when we are in our growing up stage
I still ponder about, what kind of environments generate the desired outcome
From my observations, some environments make things feel really competitive.
Some environments make you feel like you have to portray yourself excessively without even noticing it
Some environments feel very relaxed and very accepting
And even some, make people feel tense and they feel like even anything you could possibly say would sound wrong
And I really think that in order to grow the right way, we need to be in a positive atmosphere where everyone accepts one another
Without it, it would affect our mental growth
That started to make me think
What is the environment that I am mostly in?
I would say I am usually either in college or at home
In college, I usually hang out with the SC peeps
I don't usually see my Rotaract peeps often
Only once every two weeks or so
That explains why, I am more prone to be closer to SC peeps
In the house, nowadays I usually watch SNSD
haha... I am so addicted to them
But they are really talented girls and I always smile when I watch them
Only problem is sometimes they have haters, so yeah.
Other than that they brighten my day. So generally at home I have a pretty positive environment
And I am happy for that
Without a constant positive environment, we tend to stray from living the right principles in life
Even someone like myself often gets challenged by environment even when I have pretty sturdy morals and principles about life
It kind of makes you think, hey, maybe if I can control the environment I am in, then the outcome would also be in my control.
Yes. I need to be in control and merge with environment
Only by understanding the atmosphere, can I push it to the way I wish for it to be. Positive.
I hope to find a book about this. Then I can learn a lot more.
However, since I have yet to find something about this, I shall have to make my own observations and proceed from there.
A long time ago I learned about air pressure. Well, it seems that air is always exerting pressure onto our body
And from within our body, air is also pressing outwards
Which explains why, in outer space, our body will explode because the air inside of us pushes outwards due to the absence of air.
The key is balance. Without a balance all things will be destroyed. Our body, minds and soul and even this world requires balance.
And I think that if the environmental influence / aura is too strong, it pushes inwards onto our body
Which, in turn, in order to balance this, our internal thoughts / aura is suppressed.
On the other hand, if our internal body environment and thoughts are stronger, it will push outwards, and environmental influence will be suppressed, resulting in us being able to express ourselves easier
and be one with nature
However this is only my assumption. Things still need to be tested. I will hope to experiment for myself what happens when I strongly express my thoughts, to change the environment to make it within my control
There have been many times I have been unable to control the environment which I am in, resulting in me not being able to be myself, I feel like I am holding everything in. Not good.
So that is why I would like to learn, how to set the environment and atmosphere
I understand that this is very important and relates closely to human psychology.
I also feel that this has a lot to do with controlling your presence
With some method, you can actually suppress your presence, or even amplify it.
Probably with internal energy.
Your internal energy communicates with the external energy which is the environment
You have to feel it to understand it. I do not think that it is so easy to be explained in words
Learning how to control these... variables will aid greatly in putting situations under your control
and avoiding environmental chaos.
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Lately I tried a few experiments
The first one was that I made an event
To go out. I made it happen within 24 hours
I did it by expressing my views very strongly
And I did it with extra vigor and force.
I said we are definitely going to go. I did not doubt it
And we went.
The force was so overwhelmingly strong that others started to plan events as well
However, as of now, most of those events do not seem to be happening
At that moment, I controlled the environment
I made it such that having an 'event' was the in thing
I brought the momentum onto the table
It resonated and it made other people feel it, that momentum.
It drove them to create their events. It wasn't really the words I used, but the expression of those words, do you understand what I am trying to say?
However, when I stopped talking about it, after the event was over, the other events started to fall. They don't have that momentum anymore. It stopped. I was the cause of the momentum. And when it stopped, so did the other events
Only one event other than the one that I made is going to work out. Also partially because I encouraged it aahahaha.
That is one method of environment control.
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The other experiment
I expressed my views extremely strongly
Though it is not the most professional method to use, I did it nonetheless
Because I knew that the risks are low. I believe in them and in myself
I expressed my views about a certain topic which, was actually quite sensitive
And actually, most people would not object
But I made it into a big deal. And now everyone is concerned about it
This is important, because people did not realize that this topic is ACTUALLY that important to talk about.
That topic can cause a very huge misunderstanding and a lot of problems
So I did it. I became the fire-starter once more
The difference is because I am the fire-starter I have some control of where the results will be going
I can choose when to concede
I can choose when to push forward
I can choose when to stop
I can choose how deeply we need to discuss this matter
It is another method of environmental control which I am trying to experiment with.
And because there is so many layers of the organization, I can actually observe the different reactions and different views
It makes me feel in control of the situation
Even though it is risky
But look, I got nothing to lose. Except maybe some face? That's the most. But to me, a little face is worth losing, if I can learn how to control the environment.
Every interaction that I have gives me some experience and it makes me smarter, at least a little bit.
I feel like there is still more to learn about this, and I will continue experimenting
Until then, stay tuned :3
Goodnight, world =)
p.s. It seems the fire-starter methodology suits my aggressive nature very well ^_^
The environment around you surely affects you in one way or another
I've realized that given a situation to a person, say, myself, I would definitely act differently given the different environment and atmosphere
And I would say it applies to all human beings
It affects us even so when we are in our growing up stage
I still ponder about, what kind of environments generate the desired outcome
From my observations, some environments make things feel really competitive.
Some environments make you feel like you have to portray yourself excessively without even noticing it
Some environments feel very relaxed and very accepting
And even some, make people feel tense and they feel like even anything you could possibly say would sound wrong
And I really think that in order to grow the right way, we need to be in a positive atmosphere where everyone accepts one another
Without it, it would affect our mental growth
That started to make me think
What is the environment that I am mostly in?
I would say I am usually either in college or at home
In college, I usually hang out with the SC peeps
I don't usually see my Rotaract peeps often
Only once every two weeks or so
That explains why, I am more prone to be closer to SC peeps
In the house, nowadays I usually watch SNSD
haha... I am so addicted to them
But they are really talented girls and I always smile when I watch them
Only problem is sometimes they have haters, so yeah.
Other than that they brighten my day. So generally at home I have a pretty positive environment
And I am happy for that
Without a constant positive environment, we tend to stray from living the right principles in life
Even someone like myself often gets challenged by environment even when I have pretty sturdy morals and principles about life
It kind of makes you think, hey, maybe if I can control the environment I am in, then the outcome would also be in my control.
Yes. I need to be in control and merge with environment
Only by understanding the atmosphere, can I push it to the way I wish for it to be. Positive.
I hope to find a book about this. Then I can learn a lot more.
However, since I have yet to find something about this, I shall have to make my own observations and proceed from there.
A long time ago I learned about air pressure. Well, it seems that air is always exerting pressure onto our body
And from within our body, air is also pressing outwards
Which explains why, in outer space, our body will explode because the air inside of us pushes outwards due to the absence of air.
The key is balance. Without a balance all things will be destroyed. Our body, minds and soul and even this world requires balance.
And I think that if the environmental influence / aura is too strong, it pushes inwards onto our body
Which, in turn, in order to balance this, our internal thoughts / aura is suppressed.
On the other hand, if our internal body environment and thoughts are stronger, it will push outwards, and environmental influence will be suppressed, resulting in us being able to express ourselves easier
and be one with nature
However this is only my assumption. Things still need to be tested. I will hope to experiment for myself what happens when I strongly express my thoughts, to change the environment to make it within my control
There have been many times I have been unable to control the environment which I am in, resulting in me not being able to be myself, I feel like I am holding everything in. Not good.
So that is why I would like to learn, how to set the environment and atmosphere
I understand that this is very important and relates closely to human psychology.
I also feel that this has a lot to do with controlling your presence
With some method, you can actually suppress your presence, or even amplify it.
Probably with internal energy.
Your internal energy communicates with the external energy which is the environment
You have to feel it to understand it. I do not think that it is so easy to be explained in words
Learning how to control these... variables will aid greatly in putting situations under your control
and avoiding environmental chaos.
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.
.
.
.
.
Lately I tried a few experiments
The first one was that I made an event
To go out. I made it happen within 24 hours
I did it by expressing my views very strongly
And I did it with extra vigor and force.
I said we are definitely going to go. I did not doubt it
And we went.
The force was so overwhelmingly strong that others started to plan events as well
However, as of now, most of those events do not seem to be happening
At that moment, I controlled the environment
I made it such that having an 'event' was the in thing
I brought the momentum onto the table
It resonated and it made other people feel it, that momentum.
It drove them to create their events. It wasn't really the words I used, but the expression of those words, do you understand what I am trying to say?
However, when I stopped talking about it, after the event was over, the other events started to fall. They don't have that momentum anymore. It stopped. I was the cause of the momentum. And when it stopped, so did the other events
Only one event other than the one that I made is going to work out. Also partially because I encouraged it aahahaha.
That is one method of environment control.
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.
The other experiment
I expressed my views extremely strongly
Though it is not the most professional method to use, I did it nonetheless
Because I knew that the risks are low. I believe in them and in myself
I expressed my views about a certain topic which, was actually quite sensitive
And actually, most people would not object
But I made it into a big deal. And now everyone is concerned about it
This is important, because people did not realize that this topic is ACTUALLY that important to talk about.
That topic can cause a very huge misunderstanding and a lot of problems
So I did it. I became the fire-starter once more
The difference is because I am the fire-starter I have some control of where the results will be going
I can choose when to concede
I can choose when to push forward
I can choose when to stop
I can choose how deeply we need to discuss this matter
It is another method of environmental control which I am trying to experiment with.
And because there is so many layers of the organization, I can actually observe the different reactions and different views
It makes me feel in control of the situation
Even though it is risky
But look, I got nothing to lose. Except maybe some face? That's the most. But to me, a little face is worth losing, if I can learn how to control the environment.
Every interaction that I have gives me some experience and it makes me smarter, at least a little bit.
I feel like there is still more to learn about this, and I will continue experimenting
Until then, stay tuned :3
Goodnight, world =)
p.s. It seems the fire-starter methodology suits my aggressive nature very well ^_^
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Expectations
There are so many times where things feel so tough and it feels so hard
The burden of responsibility is never easy
And because I have high expectations of myself, the feeling of not reaching those expectations just brings my heard down a lot
There have been times, especially lately, where I really feel that I am incapable of becoming a good leader
I just really wish so much that I could do a better job
But it also feels like I can't
It just feels like... You know... A leader should be this and that and this and that
And I don't know what to do
It's like... There are people who I really thought had potential, but they really disappointed me cause they didn't show up
If it was once, I would not mind, but it is a few times
It feels like they don't really care, and they don't even tell me that they are not coming
It hurts even more then
Am I such a terrible leader?
I don't want to criticize anyone
So I don't know what to do
But it feels like I should talk to them
Whenever this happens I lose confidence
HOW! TELL ME HOW!
Or am I just afraid of confronting them? Just letting it be?
No, it won't solve anything. If I don't face it then I won't ever become better than what I am now
So if I really want things to work out, I have to talk to them
The burden of responsibility is never easy
And because I have high expectations of myself, the feeling of not reaching those expectations just brings my heard down a lot
There have been times, especially lately, where I really feel that I am incapable of becoming a good leader
I just really wish so much that I could do a better job
But it also feels like I can't
It just feels like... You know... A leader should be this and that and this and that
And I don't know what to do
It's like... There are people who I really thought had potential, but they really disappointed me cause they didn't show up
If it was once, I would not mind, but it is a few times
It feels like they don't really care, and they don't even tell me that they are not coming
It hurts even more then
Am I such a terrible leader?
I don't want to criticize anyone
So I don't know what to do
But it feels like I should talk to them
Whenever this happens I lose confidence
HOW! TELL ME HOW!
Or am I just afraid of confronting them? Just letting it be?
No, it won't solve anything. If I don't face it then I won't ever become better than what I am now
So if I really want things to work out, I have to talk to them
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Certain Things
I'm back from penang! Actually got back 2 days ago
It was a pretty cool trip! Had loads of fun and ate like crazy. Haha... I think I'll blog about it when I get all the pics =) Haha!
Man Im 75kgs now. So fat. I gained weight after penang. Like 3kgs XD
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Rave is this Friday, I may be the emcee once more. That's both good and bad. Bad because I really wanted to give this chance to some of the newer people to try emcee-ing since my time in the council is almost over =)
Good, because I suppose it would be fun. I don't know what else I would do at Rave other than emcee. That's why if I were to choose, I'd rather be really good at one thing, than be a jack of all traits. Cause people look for quality, and you will be sought after if you are particularly good in one thing.
Lately I've thought that my life, is now a bit messy, I could get organized. I really want to actually. But so many things go on at once, I get confused. A lot.
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Lately I've also been trying my best to talk to myself. To tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will lead a good life and be the man I want to be.
It's a simple process, but it takes discipline and commitment to do it. So in a way it is easy, in a way it is hard.
The smallest things that are done with consistency become a habit. And we must have good habits in order to lead a successful and happy life.
Today, like every other day, is a good day. Although right now I'm not at the peak of the day, there are times where I do feel inspired.
I feel like I could write a book. I feel so vigorous. I feel so filled with energy. But other times, I feel that energy drained. Perhaps I should stop sleeping so late.
What I know is not only mine, but it belongs to everyone. If I don't have the courage and bravery to share what I know with everyone, then what is the point?
Selfishness and everything else negative only brings more negatives into your life. So we shall not go there and practice it.
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I was watching some music videos just now. It made me can't wait to be in a relationship. It must be nice.
I wonder what my girl would be like. It still remains a mystery. And in a way, I like it just like that, and in another way, I feel like I want the mystery to be over.
So the only thing I can do is to tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will get married. That I will have a wonderful and beautiful life with her, whoever she may be. And someday, it will definitely come true.
And the other thing I can do is to continually improve myself. To make sure that I am good enough to be in a relationship. I can't be immature if I really want a successful relationship. Now though, I still got loads to work on, as sometimes I do feel I am childish and unreasonable.
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A man cries when he feels that he is really useless and cannot provide for his family. I know how it feels, at least a little bit. He cries when he feels incapable of being a man. It is a terrible feeling. To know that you are still not acting like how a man should.
I also wish to learn how to achieve peace with one's self. How to meditate. How to be relaxed. How to breathe. All these will enhance your life.
I know. So I shall one day make it a point to read up on these things and learn how to achieve peace. For sometimes I feel I am not calm, and make wrong decisions.
Sometimes also, I feel myself being influenced by negatives. It should not be that way. I should be the one to spread positivity. Not the other way around.
That is because my mind is not clear, it is easily swayed. So unless I start to have a clear mind, I will not be able to think clearly and properly. It all starts from within. External factors should have little affect on you if inside, you are firm and strong.
Mastery of the human mind is such a delicate art. I could not understand it fully. But as the years go by I will understand it more and more and finally achieve mastery in it.
With that, more and more things I will be able to attract to myself, all of which are good. And with that, I will be reborn with new life within me. I await that day.
Patiently.
It was a pretty cool trip! Had loads of fun and ate like crazy. Haha... I think I'll blog about it when I get all the pics =) Haha!
Man Im 75kgs now. So fat. I gained weight after penang. Like 3kgs XD
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Rave is this Friday, I may be the emcee once more. That's both good and bad. Bad because I really wanted to give this chance to some of the newer people to try emcee-ing since my time in the council is almost over =)
Good, because I suppose it would be fun. I don't know what else I would do at Rave other than emcee. That's why if I were to choose, I'd rather be really good at one thing, than be a jack of all traits. Cause people look for quality, and you will be sought after if you are particularly good in one thing.
Lately I've thought that my life, is now a bit messy, I could get organized. I really want to actually. But so many things go on at once, I get confused. A lot.
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Lately I've also been trying my best to talk to myself. To tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will lead a good life and be the man I want to be.
It's a simple process, but it takes discipline and commitment to do it. So in a way it is easy, in a way it is hard.
The smallest things that are done with consistency become a habit. And we must have good habits in order to lead a successful and happy life.
Today, like every other day, is a good day. Although right now I'm not at the peak of the day, there are times where I do feel inspired.
I feel like I could write a book. I feel so vigorous. I feel so filled with energy. But other times, I feel that energy drained. Perhaps I should stop sleeping so late.
What I know is not only mine, but it belongs to everyone. If I don't have the courage and bravery to share what I know with everyone, then what is the point?
Selfishness and everything else negative only brings more negatives into your life. So we shall not go there and practice it.
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I was watching some music videos just now. It made me can't wait to be in a relationship. It must be nice.
I wonder what my girl would be like. It still remains a mystery. And in a way, I like it just like that, and in another way, I feel like I want the mystery to be over.
So the only thing I can do is to tell myself good things. To tell myself that I will get married. That I will have a wonderful and beautiful life with her, whoever she may be. And someday, it will definitely come true.
And the other thing I can do is to continually improve myself. To make sure that I am good enough to be in a relationship. I can't be immature if I really want a successful relationship. Now though, I still got loads to work on, as sometimes I do feel I am childish and unreasonable.
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A man cries when he feels that he is really useless and cannot provide for his family. I know how it feels, at least a little bit. He cries when he feels incapable of being a man. It is a terrible feeling. To know that you are still not acting like how a man should.
I also wish to learn how to achieve peace with one's self. How to meditate. How to be relaxed. How to breathe. All these will enhance your life.
I know. So I shall one day make it a point to read up on these things and learn how to achieve peace. For sometimes I feel I am not calm, and make wrong decisions.
Sometimes also, I feel myself being influenced by negatives. It should not be that way. I should be the one to spread positivity. Not the other way around.
That is because my mind is not clear, it is easily swayed. So unless I start to have a clear mind, I will not be able to think clearly and properly. It all starts from within. External factors should have little affect on you if inside, you are firm and strong.
Mastery of the human mind is such a delicate art. I could not understand it fully. But as the years go by I will understand it more and more and finally achieve mastery in it.
With that, more and more things I will be able to attract to myself, all of which are good. And with that, I will be reborn with new life within me. I await that day.
Patiently.