My 2011?

Yehhhh, it's 2012 now.

2011 is officially over! Anddddd there's a ton of homework waiting for me to finish XD

Honestly, I just wanted to express my thoughts so here I am writing. It feels good to write again after a long time.

Truth be told, this year, many things and many times I made mistakes. It just makes me realize how human I am, you know? Mistakes define human existence

I realized I didn't always keep my promises. I also realized I didn't do everything I said I was going to do.

Most of the time, I'd say in my mind 'okay, I'm gonna do this', but in the end, I never did it.

If there was one thing I'd want to change about myself in 2012, it's this. This one thing. This habit of not doing the things I promised and said I would do.

Why? I believe that a weak mind cannot control his actions. A strong mind, however can control the body and perform well.

The best case scenario, is that in 2012 I can overcome this huge obstacle and really do what I say I'm gonna do. Get myself more organized. And everything.

Surely, it's no easy task, but that's why it's worth doing, ya know?

I had this same problem in 2010. Not sure if I improved much in 2011.

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Hey, I know I know, it's not good to only focus on my bad points. I did do some good things in 2011 too.

Sometimes in public I do help people out. There was once in a book store I lent someone in front of me my popular card so she could get the discount.

I also helped a guy move his stall in Singapore when I was there for SNSD's concert

it feels good to do these kind of small deeds, it's hard to explain the feeling, but yeah. This year I did help quite a few strangers.

Mm... I must say, many good things happened to me this year too.

Memorable ones are like when I went for SNSD's concert in Singapore. Seeing them was already a huge thing for me.

But I also received fan service from Tiffany, my favourite SNSD member. The flying kiss, heart, two thumbs up and bright smile she gave me, those 5 seconds I will remember forever.



I also managed to see SNSD off at the airport. Only those who had a flight and were inside the terminal could see them board the plane. The rest were outside the terminal (cause they don't have a flight) I was one of the lucky ones (only about 5-8 other people were there compared to the hundreds of people outside)

My love for SNSD grew a lot. Ever since the concert. I became even more loyal.

It's hard for people to understand. I know how people can wonder "how can they be so crazy over SNSD? Are they that special?"

Truthfully though, I don't blame anyone for making that kind of remark. Why?

Because you can't fully understand the reason, without seeing the situation for yourself

Does anyone really know why we love SNSD so much?

Most of my friends think I love SNSD because they're so pretty and gorgeous.

Yes, but that is only 20% of the reason I love them.

Think about it. If we loved them ONLY for their looks, then our loyalty would never last. Why? Because there are definitely so many beautiful artists around. Same thing if you are with someone because of their looks, it won't last, because you will meet someone who is better looking than your partner one day.

Yes, I don't love them just for their looks. It's their personality. It really captured my heart. Hundreds of thousands of people like me have also fallen in love with them. That is why, everytime we see a picture of them, we always talk about how wonderful they are.

When we say they look beautiful, it means that they look beautiful inside and outside. And it shows in the pictures. How many people can understand?

There are 9 girls in SNSD. Each of them have beautiful personalities, and they are special in their own way, they compliment each other's personality well. If you fall in love with any one of these girl's personalities, you will slowly start to learn about the other members in SNSD and realize how close they are, how beautiful their hearts are. It's because we know how they really are like, that we can love them so much. It's not just about looks. True SONEs will understand what I mean (SONE = SNSD fans)

Most won't understand, until they see for themselves, how the girls truly are behind the scenes.

That's why. Do you see me saying anything bad about another k-pop group? No. Why? Because I don't know their personalities. I don't know how they're really like behind the scenes. I don't know, and because I don't know, I don't judge any of them. I think all k-pop groups are great, and they all are helping spread the hallyu wave. Why hate any of them? It's a waste of time. Unnecessary hatred is generated.

But I can tell you this, I know what the girls are really like. And I'm the kind of guy who tries his best to see everything from a neutral perspective.

For instance, you know that Sooyoung from SNSD has her own solo version of Sway by Michael Buble, where she does a latin routine dance with a professional male latin dancer.

A friend of mine commented "not as good as the original michael buble sway"

I agreed with him. It's true. Sooyoung did pretty okay with her vocals, but it isn't as good as the original. But the dance routine was amazing. Sooyoung totally nailed the latin dance. My jaw hangs wide open whenever I watch it.



I still look at things from a neutral perspective, even if SNSD is my favourite girl group.

And as for those who give nonconstructive criticism and hatred, I just learn to ignore it. There'll always be such people, and I don't believe they deserve to be a k-pop fan if they put in so much effort to hate any k-pop group. They should grow up and just concentrate on loving their favourite group.

Aigoo, you can see, half of this post I talked about SNSD. That's how much I care for SNSD at the moment. It's a big part of my 2011

Becoming a SONE, that is (SONE = SNSD fan)

Yeap, it happened in May 2011. I'll never forget :)

SO if you ask me, yes, 2011 was an amazing year.

2012 will be even more amazing!

Resolutions for 2012?

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It's a simple one, finish college and start living life :)

Of course, to support SNSD all the way too

One day, I'll have my own cozy home. I'll be sitting at the veranda, admiring the dark starlit sky, loving everything about life. That day will come soon, I'm sure :)

p.s. Life keeps getting better and better :3

p.p.s Thank you fany! You made me so happy at the concert! May you stay happy always and meet the man of your dreams! ^___^

Tears

Never did I realize the real beauty of tears up till now

It's so magical

It's almost like leaving a small, yet meaningful part of you behind

Don't you think so?

Tears show that you care

So much, that you want to leave a portion of your memories there

When you part with friends, you cry, because it's so sad to have to leave

It's just... so touching

As a guy, I understand the value of tears

When someone cries for you, never take it for granted

They truly care for you so much

That they are willing to shed tears that signify how important you are

We go through life, meeting and leaving friends

Though you may meet friends, you will not always be with them

Your life may take a path that requires you to be somewhere else

So you have to leave

The important thing to remember is that

You won't be with a friend forever, but your parting won't be forever either

You will meet again :) I promise

When that time comes, you'll be much happier

The more painful and sad it was when parting, the happier you will be when you meet again

So smile!

Be happy! Life is to be happy :) all the time!

Those memories, will forever be locked within us.

The joy and the sadness of parting

The great times spent together achieving miracles

Even if we may not see each other for a long time, I will never forget all the friends that have come into my life

For they are the ones who made my life richer and more meaningful

Those memories I will cherish, forever :)

People often say, emotions are so dangerous, people who lose control will do terrible things

But without emotions, we lose one of the things that makes us human

That's why, emotions are beautiful, aren't they?

Tears, are beautiful, aren't they?

Sometimes I look at my life and think

You know, the best things in my life are really simple

It's just being able to feel powerful emotions

To understand that by using our attitude to produce the proper emotions, we can get through the hardest days in our lives

Right now, I feel so touched, and inspired, after watching how human bonds and relationships can be so beautiful and precious.

It's really true when they say, the most special things can never be seen, they can only be felt.

Such as love.

I also understand that as a leader, I have to understand human emotions well.

Being able to project the proper emotions is so important.

It could even change someone's life.

For me, there's a long long way to go in life, and I can feel great things await me up ahead.

And I'll be sure, to savor every single heartfelt emotion.

That's what makes life special.

Even if we had the brain to think rationally, without emotions we would just be robots.

I think today was a day well spent!

Goodnight everyone :) May everyone have an awesome and wonderful life!

Being Yourself

Today! Is such a good day for me! XD

I went to watch Real Steel! Awesome movie, totally added to my wonderful day!

Good and touching story, it is a TOTAL must watch! No regrets watching it :)

Also, since I was waiting for the movie to start I wondered into the CD shop and bought SNSD's latest album the Boys! XD

No regrets purchasing it! RM70!? Meh! I love SNSD too much for that to be expensive!

Plus they give lots of photocards and a HUGE poster! Awesome! Love it! It's on my room wall right now XD

I SWEAR it's bigger than the size of my computer table!

The first album I ever bought! I'm so proud! Never thought I'd buy an album! When you really love something you'll do anything to make it happen. I promise!

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To be honest, its not always easy sharing your love for your favourite group with other people. I get mixed feedback when I share news and photos of SNSD on my wall.

Some love the eye candy, some are SONEs like me so they don't mind at all, some just get irritated that I post so many stuff.

It kind of bugs me... I wonder why they don't change the settings on my page sometimes. Then they won't get spammed so much. If they from 'subscribed' to 'important only' or 'unsubscribe' then we would all be happy, no? It's strange. People can be really selfish even though I have the right to post stuff on my wall however I want and how MANY I want.

I won't change for anyone, except if I myself want to change. You gotta know your own rights. You have the right to be yourself, even when other people condemn you for being yourself.

So people can judge me all they want, I'm a true blue SONE. (it is pronounced so-one) A SONE is the term used for an SNSD fan. (for those who are wondering) I know that the girls will do a great job and make a global impact.

They are now number 3 on the youtube charts along with worldwide artists such as LMFAO and Justin Bieber.

They are leading the K-wave.

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We all have to understand one very important thing. All the things we do in life, not everyone is going to like it. Instead of trying to please everyone, just be yourself.

I realize that among K-pop groups SNSD does have haters. Not that many, but many compared to other K-pop groups. I always wondered why. They are really nice girls, and they never really offended anyone, why all the hate? Why all the 'oh they probably had plastic surgery?' Who cares? Listen, 50 years from now everyone will be getting plastic surgery. Lean in with the damned era man. We're changing.

Listen good, no one is perfect. Everyone has something bad about them. That makes us human. So are the girls.

I for one know that they work so hard. They deserve to be on top. Haters are just jealous. And really... Haters are just HELPING promote SNSD to the world.

Do you see me hating on another K-pop group? No. Because I respect the other k-pop groups for putting in their effort into being successful.

Years from now, you will see the legacy that SNSD has created. They are the chosen group to lead the hallyu wave and bring K-pop to a global scale. And know that I am a fan from now until forever, and if I had known them a few years back I definitely would have been their fan even earlier when they first started.

Someday, girls generation will be known as global generation. They will break records and make history forever.

Do you know how close these girls are?

Think about it, can these girls achieve the success they have achieved today without teamwork?

No! It is clear to me that these girls have done a great job in having tight bonds with one another and.

It is only when a team is in synchronized harmony that real STRONG impact can be made with their actions.

People may think its their looks that makes them popular and so they pin it on plastic surgery. They try to de-grade SNSD.

Let me make it clear that these girls are NOT flower vases.

What really helped them was their attitude and teamwork. They stuck together through thick and thin. From the beginning, 9, until now, still 9.

These girls have a humble and successful winning attitude. Trust me on this. I'm not blinded by their beauty or anything like that. I call it as I see it.

Again, you may think that it's their looks, but trust me, looks alone will get you NOWHERE in this world.

Let me elaborate more.

I used to only like Tiffany among all the 9 girls.

But the more I watched their variety shows. The more I came to understand all the other girls personalities.

The more I fell in love with ALL of them. You know I actually previously never thought that Jessica was pretty or anything like that.

But now, I honestly think she is GORGEOUS. You know why?

Attitude. Personality. That made her gorgeous in my eyes. That is why some people will NEVER comprehend why we are so in love with these girls

Most people just think its their surface that attracted us to them.

Trust me, their personality plays an even MORE important role in making us like them.

Don't ever just judge this girls based on their looks. They have hearts of gold. I vouch for that any day anytime. Have an open mind about them, and you will soon understand what I'm talking about.

Thank you for reading :) I had to clear my head today haha! lately been receiving a lot of comments that im posting too much SNSD stuff. I always have to tell them to change my profile settings to suit their spam needs.

Seriously man, they make a big deal out of nothing. That shows how free people are, to make a huge deal out of something so small.

Think about it, you think that if you had more important matters at hand you'd actually bother to make an issue about something like this?

The minute someone complains about something small like this, it just tells me how free they are and how small minded they are. Well, toodles :) hehe

Surprising... So surprising...

We're human. We make mistakes all the time.

Other people are human. Other people make mistakes all the time.

That is why it is our duty to learn how to accept our mistakes and apologize.

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Did you know? Right now I could still be angry over what happened over 30 minutes ago.

But I'm not. I'm okay now. So quickly.

Even though what happened 30 minutes ago could have shook the very stability of my club.

Apologizing the proper way, is so important.

Most people can't do this.

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The other person was right, I'm not the best president. Not yet, at least. I still don't treat everyone equally, even though I am trying.

I still get moody sometimes, even though I am trying not to be.

I still criticize, mostly inside my mind, about others, even though I am trying not to.

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Just now I could have just criticized back about my friend's mistakes.

But I didn't. I held my anger in.

I apologized.

I knew that, no one is perfect, and my friend just pointed out to me my mistakes.

It doesn't matter whether the other person made any mistakes.

What matters is that we need to realize our mistakes first, before anyone else's.

If I made mistakes, then who am I to criticize another?

And just like that, the tension and the anger between my side and my friend's side... subsided...

Just one apology, had that affect.

The power....

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On the other hand, what if I had lashed back?

What if I criticized my friend in return instead of apologizing?

I believe now I would still be in a heated argument, angry with myself and my friend.

I'm surprised at myself.

I apologized... even though I was ready to lash back... Why did I do that? How did I do that?

I don't know. Does it make me a better individual? If I'm willing to apologize for my mistakes?

Perhaps. It did make me feel better. It did make the tension subside. It probably would even improve future relations.

I'm a strange guy... Sometimes I don't understand myself either.

Still, I know many imperfections lie within me, most of it makes up who I am. That's what humans are, we're creations of powers from above filled with imperfection, and that in itself makes us beautiful, inside.

After all, we can only be ourselves, in the end.

I'm still sorry for all the trouble I caused for my friend.

I'm willing to apologize whenever it is required.

You apologize if you value a friendship and want it restored.

You don't apologize when you want to severe a friendship.

It's as simple as that.

Perhaps I'm really learning the essence of the bulwark of the ages. It is a shield that absorbs hate and returns kindness and love.

It's something very few people on earth possess. In comparison to the twin-edge sword most people hold in their hands.

Yes, it's so surprising.

I'm still really surprised.

I'll learn to be a better friend and a leader. It's a promise.

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Good night :)

Update on Life

Finally! I'm glad. The second event for my club is starting soon.

I'm happy we came this far. Looking back to a time where we had no members.

The hardships taught me a lot. Even now I'm still learning new things as we progress.

Even though there are many things we can improve on, and we are far from perfect. I still appreciate what we've got. And we're really bringing some change to the college.

It's exciting to see people who do not even know how to play ping pong join our event. It's really about participating and just getting experience and living college life to the fullest.

I tried really hard to have a females category going in our ping pong tournament, and it really happened.

Previously, I could easily say that not many girls would participate in a tournament, but now that we actually have the category running, people will start to change their opinion about that.

To those who joined, despite not knowing how to play, hats off to you. It shows you have the guts to do what other people who CAN play but are too afraid to do, which is join the tournament.

I can't thank you enough, to everyone, including participants, and my members, for all the support. We'll definitely make this tournament a success as well, just like last time, no, we'll be even better now.

We're going to really make a name for ourselves. We can do it. Even though many obstacles await, we shall challenge them and move forward.

Within the club I created a culture.

We laugh a lot. A hell lot.

We review books. A hell lot.

We play games. A hell lot.

We have fun. A hell lot.

We have events. A hell lot.

Where there is little laughter, there is little success :)

Someday, I hope that KBU's culture will change too. Everyone will be active. Positive. Happy. That day is yet to come, but I'm building towards it :)

I said this many times since a long time ago. If I can't even change my college, then how can I make a change on a bigger scale?

Even though for now my goal is to get married, my even longer term goal really is to change the world.

When I was younger, it really was my hope to change the world. It's possible, it appeared in my thoughts after all.

Even though that time I was less confident, and less courageous.

I still believed. Today, I still believe it will happen.

Just like how I believed that the female category WILL happen. And it did.

The power of truly believing in something, is really amazing.

I look at my members now and wonder... My, how young they are :)

Sometimes they are easily angered

Sometimes they are so active

Sometimes they are so emotional

Sometimes they surprise me

Sometimes they their potential shines like the light

Sometimes they disappear, and I don't see them for a while

Sometimes they don't realize that a really bright and happy future awaits them

But all the time, I believe in them.

They remind me of myself a few years ago when I first entered college.

I was a real rascal :) Now, I really have toned down a bit.

Still, I must say, my final year in college really couldn't be better :)

It's like... you could say it's a wonderful conclusion for me. Haha!

It's so strange... My circle of friends really change from last year. It's like a 180 degree turn.

Im fine with it though, I don't mind change, I think change is good once in a while :) Change teaches you many things.

hm... I suppose that's pretty much it for today :) no fancy pictures, I just wanted to express myself a little. :)

Great things are to come, and I cannot wait! :D

Gnite :)

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish

"Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish"

Those were the words of the late Steve Jobs.

Now, I know I'm not in much of a position to comment since I'm personally not an Apple user.

But after reading up about him, I discovered that he is quite a man.

He literally revolutionized and changed the world when it comes to handheld device technology, as well as various other areas.

Before we go on, I would like to share this video of a speech he gave at stanford 6 years ago, at the age of 50



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If you have watched it, then it will be easier to relate to what I am going to say.

This man is a powerful man.

You ask if this man has led a successful life? Yes.

Why? Because he has lived everyday as if it was his last.

He mentioned that knowing that death was nearing caused him to avoid feeling shame, pride and all other negativity in his life, and just make the decisions which made apple so great as it is today.

How many people can do that? Live every day as if it were his last?

If today was your last day, would you do what you would be doing right now?

If it is always no, then the time for change has come.

You can see from his speech that he is a real genius not only at his work, but also in life itself.

He knew that you have to love what you do, and he DID love what he did for a living.

How many of us can say the same?

We all know that we have to find our passion in life, but a lot of us are in fear, just sticking to what feels safe to us.

But not this man. He dropped out of college, and because he dropped out of college, he found what he loved doing.

Because he got fired at the age of 30 from Apple, he started two very successful companies, Pixar and NeXT, and eventually became CEO of Apple again.

Look at this man. Every bad experience that he went through just made him even better.

He even said that those experiences were what made him successful today.

How many of us can say the same? Just look at his exemplary life and tell me you could say the same about yours. The way he handled failure was incredible.

When you die, will people make tributes outside your companies stores? Will they make several Facebook pages just to show how much they care?

Will people weep tears of sorrow and anguish when you leave this world?

For Steve Jobs, the answer is Yes. People care, people weep, because they know the world has lost an invaluable inventor and individual.

This man has become a legend. A revolutionary.

What about you? What about me? Are people going to remember us when we die?

I don't want to die without leaving an impact to the world.

As much love as you give to the world, you receive in return, when you leave.

He has given love to the world through the passion and love for his work.

The whole world feels it,

And the whole world mourns. Come on, I'm not even an Apple user and I feel he's really a great man.

That's how far his influence extends. People can see if you lead a successful life, people aren't all blind.

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The reason I'm strongly affected by this is because I too...

Want to be a powerful man.

My failures are still small compared to what others like Steven Jobs go through.

Being kicked out of your own company has GOTTA be tough!

Yet I'm feeling like a failure already because I couldn't even get a Ping Pong tournament to get started since there wasn't enough participants.

If this great man can achieve so much and bounce back from failures, then I can too.

I can.

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People are going to remember me when I leave this world.

It's No Joke

We all know that the road to success is one filled with tons of lessons and hardships

It really isn't a joke at all.

Your emotions run wild. You feel like such a failure. You feel so useless.

It feels like all hope is lost.

Yes. That's what failure feels like.

And honestly, I feel a little like that right now.

Inside us is a wheel.

It constantly rotates.

At one point, you are at the top of the world.

Before you know it, you're back down at the bottom. Feeling a little miserable.

It's hard to go through failure, or to feel like you've failed someone, or even yourself.

Now I look at all those successful people and say..

"What did you guys really go through to get there?"

It must've been tough. But you guys, you guys pulled through.

You guys are amazing.

Can I be like you guys?

I ask that question, even though I know only I can answer it through my actions.

Sometimes you wonder, why do you work so hard?

Sometimes you wonder, why is it that you feel as if there is so much burden to carry?

Sometimes, sometimes... You just bottle up all emotions.

Until one day, you get so mad at yourself you just explode.

Other people around you are caught in the blast and are hurt.

It's really because we couldn't handle ourselves properly that we hurt ourselves as well as others.

It's hard to explain what I'm feeling right now.

To sum it up, I feel I can do a lot better than what I am now

But I don't know how. How? I just want an answer.

No answer comes.

What do I do? Just wait?

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Sometimes, sometimes.. I feel like a hypocrite too.

Honest to god.

I talk so much but do so little.

I still fail to do what I said I would do.

I no longer smile so much.

I no longer laugh so much.

It looks like a balanced life is really key to happiness.

I tend to overindulge in things, it makes you unhappy, you know, when you overindulge in something. Though at the moment you feel it's nice.

My two biggest weaknesses. Not doing what I said I would do.

And getting excited over an idea, and then not following it through to the end.

I hate it so much. Why can't I change?

I don't expect perfection but I do expect a lot more from myself.

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So after all, the person I was really angry with was myself, wasn't it?

Right now, I don't really know what to do.

But in life, there isn't a pause button. Life is always on play.

So what will I do now?

Sleep. That is what I will do.

The body needs rest. Perhaps I am over-thinking.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

That's why we shall start anew :)