Kepongggggggggggg~! I FEEL SO PREGNANT RIGHT NOW

OH.

MY.

FRIGGING.

GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!

I'VE NEVER EATEN SO FULL BEFOREEEEEEE!!!

LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!

That was a very EPIC and very STOMACH-FILLING bbq and steamboat SESSION LOLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!

I SERIOUSLY FEEL PREGNANT RIGHT NOW! STEPPING ON THE ACCELERATOR AND PULLING THE HANDBRAKE FEELS SO DAMN HARD TO DO!! XDDDDD

Oh man.... That was... I'm speechless, really.

Haha! It was a pretty great time! I haven't been to a bbq/steamboat beforeeee~!

Once again I've not seen Bianca since our lunch a KBU! It's good to see her again~!

Wayne eats a HELL lot man. I eat a lot la, but in the long run, he has better eating stamina ROFLMAO!!!

It's like I'm a sprint eater and he's a marathon eater HAHAHAHAHA!!

Hwei is always the same! =D Cute and funny as always! =DDD HAHA! Man, good times, good times! =D

Meow couldn't make it though, maybe we'll see her next time~! =)

IT FEELS LIKE I CAN GO ON WITHOUT EATING FOR 3 DAYS RIGHT NOW XDDD

Sure is good to go out with friends. I guess staying home too much gets boring after a while XD The busy times resume again.

Was looking forward to it the whole day~! =D

Talked about some funny stuff after eating XDDD

IM SURE BIANCA MISSED MY PERVERTED JOKES BWAHAHAHHAHAH! XD Had a good laugh! =D

Bianca : Eh, drive van today? Where's your Unser?

Me : Where's your question? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd

SERIOUSLY MANNNNNNNN!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Drove them home after eating, just like the old days~! =)))

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Ahh, peaceful days.

I've been more into reading books now adays. Did I say that before?

Hm, don't think so, but yea! I start to love books more nowadays. Books are great friends when none are around.

It's surprising, how some books can really speak to your heart and soul.

Everyone of us carries our own rhythm with us. The music of our own soul. Sometimes books really speak right into your soul. It's something very special in my opinion.

It's almost like a friend who doesn't judge you, but instead talks to you and allows you to sort things out.

After reading a bit, I started to see the areas in which I can improve myself, to make myself a better individual, and in being so, I can help myself and others. In various ways.

Learning from books is great, because the author is bestowing his experience onto you. It's valuable. Years and years of experienced poured into producing that kind of book. It's special. I started to value books more after becoming a more at home guy.

I wish to trade books with friends someday. Maybe there are people who have really good books that I can read sometime. I can't wait. I sure have changed. At least my attitude towards books has changed.

There are books on relationships, love, courage, success, confidence, speaking to people, and tons and tons of books. A lot of experience and knowledge in those books that is simply priceless. Books are really the best investment I've ever made. It's in a sense even better than playing games.

I always always feel that, this change in lifestyle, perhaps really isn't so bad after all. With change, you start to see life in a different way. You can even learn to enjoy it in that different kind of way. If I just stuck to my old ways and never changed, I might have never understood how valuable books are.

A succesful man once said.

Leaders are readers. Read.

Leaders cast vision. By knowing where you want to go, others will automatically follow you if you have the confidence to lead the way.

Leaders have integrity. When you have integrity, it means you say what you SAY you are going to DO.

If you say your going to do it, then DO IT. Don't just say it.

Otherwise, you have no integrity. You are a liar.

Leaders don't make excuses

Leaders don't judge people

Leaders concentrate on how to improve themselves instead of blaming and hating others.

Leaders understand how to build strong bonds with others and work in a team.

Most of all, leaders are able to love themselves, and by loving themselves they are able to love everyone else. Even their enemies. That's true leadership.

I too, wonder if I can be a good leader.

It's true, that at this point, I'm still.. Incomplete in many ways, from the man that I want to be.

Nothing should stop me. As long as I keep believing it seriously, and keep thinking about it, someday..... It will come true. And even if it doesn't, then I don't stop trying until it happens.

I will admit that, though there is a lot of hardship, but it doesn't compare to what most people face. I know that I can't change what's already happened, but at least I can learn from what I've done, and don't make the same mistakes in the future.

There is still some doubt in me. But, if I start learning to love myself more.... If I have the courage to really start loving myself more and making myself feel more emotionally secure. Then I can get rid of all doubt

Like that guy. That guy is so full of confidence and he has no self doubt about himself. Simply amazing, that's what got him so far in life. When people meet him, people understand what an incredible aura of confidence he has just from meeting him! When you look into his eyes, his eyes look into your soul.

He understands people's hearts. He knows how to lead people. He knows how to believe in what he believes in. He knows how not to care about what others think about him. Most of all, he knows how to love himself.

Someone as successful as him, I can learn much from just watching him speak. I am utterly impressed at his self-confidence and self-worth. Simply. Spectacular. Thank you, for speaking, on that day, because I never knew I could learn so much from a man. Not just your words. But your posture, the way you stand, the way you speak. It tells a lot. Body language.

I was looking at a real man. Someone who knows where he's going, what he wants to do, how he's going to do it, by when he's going to do it. He has a goal. A real direction. I don't meet many men like that, not even my dad. He is a good role model. I always needed a good role model to follow as a guy. Not many are around.

In the journey of self improvement, I have to learn to fully love myself first. Just like he does. If I can't do that, then I can never find real happiness. Because I'll always judge myself, and always be unhappy, and always be unsatisfied with life. It's not what I want.

This change is good, although a little quiet sometimes. I like being around activity. But I know that this change is good.

You can't expect life to give you a good and easy path. It's those who take the hard path who eventually find real happiness. You might lead an average normal life, travelling the normal path, but it does not compare to the personal growth and development of taking the hard path. Every successful person can vouch for this.

There is no shortcut to success. There is only one road. The road of hardships. You will be met with all kinds of obstacles and challenges

And if you have the thinking like "oh, I don't feel like doing things I don't like" then you'll have a hard time for sure, and possibly never make it. Why?

Because life doesn't always give you what YOU like to do. Stop being selfish and start doing things that unsuccessful people would never do.

Like take up a huge responsibility and finishing it to the end. Giving up means that you have just give up on yourself. It's going to cost you a lot of self-esteem and self-belief.

Like exposing yourself to more knowledge that the world has to offer. Most people just live in their shells and just think about themselves. That's silly. There's so much things to learn about the world, and here we are thinking "Hey, I'm smart enough, I know everything, what is there to learn anyway? I'm good enough as it is"

You never stop learning as a human being. And if your going to close yourself off to more knowledge, then it's your own loss, no one else's

It's crazy. What I see is just pure focus. Focus focus and focus. That guy just keeps going and going and going and going. Relentlessly pursuing his goals. Non-stop. Full on out. Without a doubt. Like a bullet train. I need that kind of focus. I need that kind of stubborn-ess. I need that kind of energy and motivation and spirit. It is something that most people can only hope to have.

The burning desire to achieve your dreams, no matter what the cost, you desire it so BADLY that you would rather DIE than not achieve it.

You think it's easy to want something? Most people just "want" it.

But succesful people WANT it. WANT it with a burning DESIRE. They WANT IT so BADLY that they would do ANYTHING to achieve it.

That's what differentiates normal people from successful ones. Is it any wonder that they are where they are right now?

They WANT it so bad, that if they had to TALK to people even if they don't like TALKING to people, they would DO IT

They WANT it so bad, if they had to READ BOOKS, they would READ them even if they HATE READING.

They WANT it so bad, even if it takes more than 5 YEARS to achieve it, they would do it, and not give up half way or even way before that.

It's all about knowing how to want something. Once you really truly want something, then your body does what it has to do to achieve it.

It is so much more on a subconscious level than we think it is.

Come on Danny Siah. I know your tired. I know you have a lot of problems that you have to deal with. I know that your studies is getting heavier as time goes by. I know that you have gone through some hardships in the past.

But none of that really matters. What really matters is what you want. Don't you want to get married? By 25?

Don't you want to change the world? Don't you want to help people with their lives? Don't you want to learn how to love yourself and others?

Yes. I do. I do.... I do. Very much. I want all those things, and more. Very badly. If I never achieve those things in my lifetime, then I would regret living this life. I don't want to die with regrets. I want to achieve my dreams in this life. Otherwise my life would have been a complete waste of time.

Then you would do, whatever it takes to achieve them?

Yes. Yes I would.

Even if it meant reading books?

Yes.

Even if it meant a lot of work?

Yes.

Even if it meant sacrificing a large portion of your time?

Yes.

Even if it meant going through a lot of unhappiness and hardships?

Yes.

Even if it meant that you will be hurt by your friends and hurt them along the way?

Yes.

Even if it meant that you would risk failure and bankruptcy to some degree?

Yes.

Even if it meant that you might lose everything that you ever had?

... Yes.

Yes. Yes. That's what I'll do to achieve what I want to achieve.

When your dreams become reality, that's when your life has meaning.

And so, till that day comes, I shall keep dreaming and pursuing it =)

Ciaoz peeps =)