Why Women Can't Do Reverse Parking

*Jeng jeng jeng jengggggggggg~~~!!! *

ZOMG! IT IS THE QUESTION WE'VE ALLLLLLLLLLLL BEEN WAITING FORRRR~! =)

Why.can't.women.do.REVERSE PARKING!??!?!!?!?

Like seriously now. HAHA! I mean no disrespect to women, but truthfully, only 1/10 women can do reverse parking successfully on a first attempt.

It might be even less than that

Haha! In my very very TOP secret and ultimately CRAZY research, I shall enlighten you to WHY women cannot do reverse parking~!

Oh yes, do take note, that I am talking in general, not ALL women will have problem with reverse parking, but most do. Same goes with men, although generally men are good with it, doesn't mean ALL men can do it well. So remember, it's a general topic =)

Are you ready?

Are you ready?

Are you REALLY ready?

Seriously are you ready?

OF COURSE YOUR NOT! We need a little of...

THIS before we get started =3333

The car just HAPPENED to be in the picture *rolls eyes*

Once again, I do not mean any disrespect to women, I am just here to enlighten and to help people understand why reverse parking is SUCH a problem for women.

Before I go into details, I need to tell you guys a story.

A story about our ancestors long longgggg ago....

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Hundreds of THOUSANDS of years ago, there were cavemen and cavewomen

Men were the hunters. Their job was to hunt for food and bring it back to their family everyday.
He was in other words, the lunch-chaser

The women were nest-defenders that keep the children safe while awaiting the men to return from hunting.

For this very reason, ever since man was created, he was gifted with abilities for hunting.

This included ability to

a) Estimate distances and how long they need to run to reach the target and at what speed
b) Estimate timing when launching projectiles
c) Estimating how long before it hits the target
d) Estimating how far the target prey is
e) Estimating angles
f) Estimate how much force they needed to kill their prey with a weapon

This also explains why MEN have TUNNEL vision (Longer distance)

This ability of men to estimate distances, timing

is what we call SPATIAL ability

The ability to estimate angles, distances, timing, etc etc

It has now developed over hundreds of thousands of years until now

which shows why the top engineers and mathematicians are GUYS.

Once again, I mean no discrimination to women, it is just that women's expertise and abilities are elsewhere other than the field of engineering and mathematics.

Since women were nest-defenders and never had to hunt, their spatial abilities were never fully developed

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Come back to hundreds of thousands of YEARS into the future.

Spatial ability also involves rotating 3-D objects in your mind

Studies have show that, while girls are skilled at 2-dimensional objects, boys have the ability to see a 3rd Dimension, giving more depth

That is why, most men pursue careers related to sports and spatial ability

While women are more prone to pursue careers that require other abilities

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COMING back to reverse parking

Studies have shown that women actually do better than guys in reverse parking during driving training

THIS is because as long as the conditions and surroundings don't change, women excel at performing the task better than boys.

On the OTHER hand, in real life situations, where every corner, every turn represents a NEW situation, women find it really hard to perform REVERSE parking

This is once again, because hunting was never in their job prescription in the old days, it was never much developed.

The spatial ability is located in the frontal right hemisphere for guys

While for females, there is no specific area for spatial ability, hence explaining why women are particularly weak in this area of ability.

You will find that most women will prefer to park their car in a larger space somewhere far off and WALK, than to reverse park into a TIGHT space.

It is USUALLY better to reverse park, as it is safer when you want to come out later. Accidents do occur when you don't have eyes at the back of your head.

But this has not at all appealed to women.

MOST of my girl friends NEVER do reverse parking. PERIOD.

This is because reverse parking requires estimation of distances and angles.

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However, while it is true that guys are better reverse parkers than women

Women are FAR more safer drivers than men.

Testosterone, a male hormone present in men, is what gives them their spatial ability.

At the same time, this hormone provides a kind of competitive attitude and dare-devil kind of feeling that men might find themselves familiar with

Often times they PUT their spatial abilities to the TEST on the roads and drive recklessly

I feel guilty

On the other hand, since women lacks testosterone, they are generally safer drivers (though sometimes there are reckless women drivers, probably had too much testosterone from her dad or just a mood swing)

An insurance company recorded that, while make more claims per year than men

Men are the ones that make HIGH payout claims and total write-offs

Women have the tendency to wait a few seconds at certain areas even when there is nothing to wait for before proceeding into a roundabout

This caution sometimes leads to accidents

Though they are mostly just scrapes and bumps

So while women cash in the low pay-out insurance more frequently

Men cash our the HIGH-payout insurance, although less frequently

Funny how things work eh?

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IN professional motor-racing, it has been reported that there have been almost no female winner

But when it comes to DRAG-racing, about 10% of participants and winners are women.

Why?

Because in drag-racing, you race in a STRAIGHT line.

WOMEN dominate here, where there are no angles, speeds, corners, overtaking and any need of spatial ability.

The winner is usually the person who has the FASTEST reaction to the green light.

Which is why women have the advantage over men.

Sound familiar? HAHAHA!

I hope you found this post informative, and HOPEFULLY, it has solved your QUESTION on WHY women cannot do reverse parking.

REMEMBER! Women are safer drivers, and they LOVE straight roads and HATE reverse parking! =3

TILL NEXT TIME PEEPSSSS~!! BWAHHAHA!!

I'll be out tomorrow evening, so I don't know if I have time to come back and make a post.

So stay tuneddddddd~! =DDDDD

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The Best Pickup Line

Heya guys~! Just a little bit about my day before I go into the details of this post.

Funny thing! This morning, I drove in to college, then saw my classmate drive and park her car, and after I parked mine, POOF! She was gone. From her car.

I guess she saw me and walked off real fast into college. LOL! I kinda made her angry the day before, so yeah, I don't know XD Sometimes us men don't realize what we say when we say what we say. XD So IM SORRY! If you are reading this! =D

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Well, first thing's FIRSTTTT!!!! Let me get this straight.

The GOAL and AIM for me to write these kinds of posts is really to educate men about women. And perhaps vice versa.

Sometimes men can be really insensitive and really defensive, so I apologize on behalf of the race of men. And we promise to become better guys to you girls =D

So the more PEOPLE who read this, the BETTER. So do us all a favour and SUBSCRIBEEE over there >>>> andddd SPREAD THE WORDDD to your friends who you think COULD use this kind of information!

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Many men feel nervous and anxious when approaching women to start a conversation.

Going way back, this was when pickup lines were INVENTED

You see, men ARE natural born problem solvers, they think "hey, if this doesn't work, maybe this might work? Or this? Or that?" Men often look for solutions to their problems. (Which is why they are reading this right now)

So they invented the famous thing we call "pickup lines".

It was their "solution" to the problem called "how do I approach a girl?"

But the problem with that is that most of the time, pickup lines don't work

And even if they do, you are being inauthentic. Meaning that you are projecting a superficial/fake image of yourself towards the girl.

And she will not know who you really are. It also clearly SHOWS that you are trying to get her instead of getting to KNOW her. There is a difference believe me.

Think about it, would you want a girl to like you for who you are, or someone you are not? Remember that girls like GENUINE guys. Not fakes, not pretenders.

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So now, how DO you start a conversation with a woman?

When you are a guy who is self-sufficient, self-amusing and able to laugh at yourself and you are generally fun to be with, "How" to start a conversation is the LAST thing on your mind.

That positive energy that flows out of a man is what really attracts a woman. Be that man, and literally anything you say will be attractive no matter WHAT it is!

In FACT, if you can master that positive energy and vibe, sometimes you don't even have to say ANYTHING! Even a handshake, a hi-five, these non-verbal actions COULD start a conversation! Think of the possibilities!

To give some guideline, a possible GENUINE pickup line is "Hi, you looked so adorable I had to come and meet you!" You aren't hiding anything, and you honestly just wish to get to know her. Women want a strong man who will show his intent in his action. Definitely an A.

Or even "Hi, my name is so and so". OR you could comment on something she is wearing like that accessory or dress or shoes etc etc. Believe that you are someone unique with years of experience and someone who DOES have things to talk about.

So the best pickup line is not any line, but the projection of your inner positive energy outwards and hence attracting them females MAGNETICALLY!

You don't need no fancy lines if you have that kind of awesome PARTY inside you!

The ability to generate these positive vibes is the GREATEST asset you can have, and the question of "HOW to start a conversation" will be the furthest thing from your mind! Guaranteed~!

So stay pimpin' and GET THEM CHICKS!

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On a side note, I am actually preparing something interesting to post tomorrow! Stay tuneeeeeeeeed! Teehee! =D

How to Impress a Woman (DAMN! My head.....)

Yo guysss.... Man!!!! My head is so FUCKED!

Seriously... Argh.... Had some panadol and drank some stuff my mom made me.... Mannnnnnnnnnnn... I felt better but still... urgh.... I can't even do my assignment in this state.

So I thought! Why not Blow off some steam by blogging? Though it is a little bit hard to think. While looking through girl pics also I wasn't really having a good time and they all seemed ugly to me.

Probably cuz I'm not feeling too good.

Well anyhow! I just thought that I should talk about...

How to impress a girl =)

You know it's kind of funny,

Cuz the only thing a man MUST do to impress a girl is actually

NOT to try to impress a girl.

Confused?

Well, you see folks, there are MANY guys, and I mean MANY, who do MANY MANY MANY things to impress a girl.

Buy her gifts

Do things for her

Fetch her everywhere

Take her for an EXTRAVAGANTLY EXPENSIVE MOUTH-HANGING WALLET POPPING dinner =)

Bla bla bla, you know the drill.

JUST to impress a girl.

And yet girls have had GUYS do this to them over and over and over again till they really just get sick of it.

Might I remind you that were in the getting-a-girl phase, not a relationship phase =)

So anyhow, it doesn't really make sense to do ALL of the things above if she isn't even your girlfriend/wife in the first place!

Hell, ask the married husbands if they do HALF of the things above XD HAHAHAHAHAA! You'll get some pretty.... intriguing answers =D

So actually, by treating her special, buying her gifts and always trying to make sure she is happy, does not actually impress a girl

In fact it makes them turned off~! By your advances. Really.

Even if she does like you it's probably gonna be temporary and you're probably gonna feel used by the end of the whole thing.

Meaning that she likes you for the wrong reasons. *Cough* Slave* Cough*

You could go ahead and try this method anyway. Hey, I'm no preacher, you do whatever the hell you want man =)

I'm just here to share what I think is true about the subject




The real one and only thing a man MUST do to impress a girl

Is simply to have a STRONG self-belief in your ACTIONS and DECISIONS in life.

What do you believe in?

No matter how beautiful a girl is, she should not affect who you are as a person.

For some very weird reason, girls enjoy barking commands and getting guys to do certain things

The guys who BEND to their will and follow what they say usually end up becoming unattractive in the girl's eyes. It is the men who REFUSES to bend that attracts a woman.

And this is TRUE, and I have GONE through this before so I know =) TRUST MEEEEEE~! And it sucks to bend to the will of a woman

When a girl asks you WHERE you want to eat, you don't say... "Errr, I don't know..."

or "MAYBE somewhere near?"

or "I THINK we should go to..."

Girls are disgusted by mens indecisive-ness. It is VERY unattractive. And so the next time a girl asks you something, BE DECISIVE.

An even worse thing to do is to BE the one asking WHERE TO EAT.

Like I said before, be CLEAR and have a STRONG belief in your decisions.

Make the decision. Be a man, do the right thing (Russel Peters Quote Bwahaha!)

If you are the kind of guy who does not KNOW where he is going in life, chances are women will be less attracted to you.

SO get your ass on the chair and start thinking about it.

And hey, don't worry so much about making mistakes, we all do sometimes =)

It's part of learning, SO RELAX MAN RELAX!

But don't lose sight of where you want to be. Hell, start off by at least knowing where you want to be.

Even I myself get lost sometimes, but I do talk to people and ask for advice. Then I get right back on track and start feeling great again =)

So yes! Stay alive, stay focused, and get them chicks =)

Like they say, behind every successful man, is a scary woman =D

Teeheee~! Ciaoz Peeps =3
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p.s. Finally feel better after Panadol =)

Why Chicks Lurveeeee Fat Boys =3

YOU! My friend, have clicked on this blog thinking "What the heck is he gonna talk about now?"

Well hell YEAH, I'm gonna talk about chicks? I got tired talking about myself a bit, so I'm taking a breather from that XD I might go back to doing that sooner than I think though hehe =)

Don't think I'll ever get tired of "certain" things though... hehehe...

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This is practically the conversation we have had at LEAST once with our friends before.

"WHY THE F*** IS THAT FAT DUDE WITH THAT SMOKING HOT CHICK?!?!?!?!?"

"THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR! I'M LIKE 30KGS LIGHTER THAN THAT PILE OF MEAT!!"

Yes, oh, the irony the world presents TO YOU!

Don't you just feel like hanging yourself choking and cutting yourself up, or simply just eating to put on another 30kgs JUST SO YOU CAN BE LIKE HIM!

Yeah, the world can make being fat actually look like a GOOD thing

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Let me explain things subtly, you see......

Guys are visual people. WE NEED TO LOOK AT ZE HOT CHICKZZZZZZZ!!

It's a general rule of thumb that if you just wanna attract a guy all you gotta do as a girl is look SPANKING H-A-W-T =3

On the other hand, girls LIKE a guy based on how they make her FEEL.

Not how many packs you have whether it's one, two, 3, 6 or NO pack.

I've had first hand experience of girl friends of mine who tell me that they really like guys based on how they make them FEEL.

And it's true.

Because guys are physically and visually driven by how a girl LOOKS.

And girls are emotionally driven and it's really about how you make them FEEL.

A lot of guys right now go... "ohhhhhhhhhhh...."

A lot of girls go... "Yeah well we knew that about guys a LONG time ago. NEXT!"

So guys... stop trying to get that hot-rip six pack body and simply FOCUS on learning how to play the dating game.

Cuz really, physical looks is WAYYYYYYYYY overrated for a guy.

And I don't even have to prove anything, just take a look around.

Ever wonder why there are MORE hot girls than hot guys?

*TADAAAAAAAAAA!!!*

"OH MY GOD!! I DIDN'T REALIZE THERE WERE MORE HOT GIRLS THAN HOT GUYS!!"

*GASP~!! SO GUYS DON'T NEED LOOKS TO GET A GIRL?!?!!? OMGGGGG!!!!! CRY*

So there ya go. The evidence presents itself.

Though looks does help, just that it's not the main factor for guys to get a chick.

And hey. Girls actually find fat guys cuddly =3

So when your about to blame your messy hair or your terrible one pack for NOT being able to score a date with that chick, just remember how fugly and fat the other guy looked =D

If you still haven't figured that out, all I can say is... toodles my lovely =3

So the next time you see a fat guy with a chick, don't say "oh, damn, I wish I had such a hot girl"

Say, "Oh damn, I need to take lessons from this guy" XD BWAHAHAHA!

Cuz he sure knows his stuff =3 Either that or he's just, you know, rich =D

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OH! Before I go, just wanted to share something interesting I read yesterday night

I love the nights just reading a book, staring into blank space as I laugh at the books I am reading, they are just so entertaining!

Guys check out girls ALL the time.

BUT THE REVERSE is ALSO TRUEEE~! =) Girls DO check guys out

Just that girls are more discreet, hence they are less likely to be caught~!

When a guy CHECKS out a girl, they literally TURN THEIR HEAD in the direction of the girl.

When a girl CHECKS out a guy(or girl), they do it WITHOUT turning their head

Why?

It's actually because girls have a wider range of sight (WIDER)

Whereas guys have a longer range of sight (Longerrr)

WHICH explains why guys find the need to TURN their heads when they look at girls... unless they are skilled =)

Whereas girls can scout the whole room without really even moving a muscle =)

Girl : Hey, look at that couple over there...

Boy : Where? *turns head*

Girl : DON'T TURN YOUR HEAD YOUR BEING SO OBVIOUS!

Sounds familiar? Aha =)

So yea! Don't believe for a FRIGGING SECOND that girls are innocent =)

Cuz since they are more discreet, it also means they are more likely to check out guys =)

Hoho~!

The end =D TEEHEE~!

Why Assholes get the Chicks =3

Heya! I've been busy with assignments, but ya know, everyone needs a break hoho =33333

Assign *cough* ments *cough*

So I'll get straight to the point, ever WONDERED why assholes get all the chicks?

You must really feel that ahhh, I should just be an asshole if that's what it takes to get the girls.

But look here, that's not really the point.

The point is that assholes are just being what they really are, ASSHOLES!

Read that line again.

They are not putting on an 'act' or trying to be oh-so 'good' to chicks. They are genuinely being what they are.

And the same goes with everything.

Girls appreciate a genuine person

So if you're horny then be horny!

If your not a virgin don't go and lie about it!

Girls H-A-T-E liers and pretenders.

So if people already found out that your not a virgin, then what the heck! Don't go around trying to prove your some 'angel'. You're just showing that your a phony person.

Based on experience, girls still talk to me even if I'm horny! Fuck hell yeah~!

You think I care what people think about my horniness? I'm being who I am and no one can stop me. Oh yea *heart sign*

So, take a second look at that asshole, and understand that at least he is being genuine about what he really is and not putting on an act in public.

Girls want someone who has a strong personality and belief in themselves.

Not some half-assed actor whose not even brave to embrace his own reality and personality.

Self-expression is an art, so is self-belief, and both can be learnt

So the next time you meet a girl, be genuine and real.

Otherwise, you'll have to face the reality that assholes are just better than you at getting chicks.

Dan the man OUT~! =3

Am I really back? Aha =)

Hm, I suddenly logged on to facebook yesterday~!

And I replied all my friends who wished me for my bday =D

It's never too late yea! =) Haha... I'M SURE THEY LIKED MY SMALL TOKEN OF APPRECIATION~! XD

Bwahahaha~!

Though I might have offended some people, I don't really mean to XD Usually you have to look at people's intentions instead of their actions

And I understand that there's a critic in every crowd, you can't please everyone =D So I actually just accept everyone's comment~! That's the right thing to do, at least in my opinion

Good or bad, it doesn't matter, the fact that people commented is already such a great thing to have! It shows that they care aha! =D

But I've come down with a slight fever and flu. Hm. Must have overheated from all the hot girl pics I was screening from.

Hey! I spent two hours searching for girls to put in that album ya know! XD HAHA!

Man, some things about me never change XD In fact I think I became more pervy as time goes by.

Man ohhhh man.

At the same time though, I see that we too often label and judge each other. I think we should just accept each other, no matter how hard it is to do so.

To be completely honest not even I am capable of accepting just anybody. I have my troubles too.

But it's the right thing to do. It's not easy, believe me. Sometimes it's really painful ya know? But you still gotta accept it. Otherwise you would never move on. And that's just sad.

the next month is gonna be tough for me. SO yeah, I am so dead XD what a time to go back to facebook?

OH,... It's my mom's birthday. Don't think I'm getting her anything. But at least we are going out for dinner.

I find it nice that some people do miss me on facebook haha! It sure feels good to be welcomed back =)

But still, it does feel... A little different. But hey, look at the bright side! I just put an album of 20 pics of hot sexy steaming girls~! XD well most of them anyway XD

HAHA!

Hm. I wonder if life is really so tough? I have my worries. Ya know. My studies. The club. My personal life. Etc etc.

It must be the transition from teenage-hood to adult-hood.

Man oh man, adult-hood sure does suck XD But hey, at least I'm getting closer to marriage age no?

There are things to look forward to in adult-hood i bet~!

Sometimes I don't really understand the future. How could that possibility be possible? It just seems impossible at the moment for that kind of future.

God, if you are up there, you sure are giving me hell with my feelings right now =) About everything.

Well, some people say you have to go through hell before heaven. I wonder if people ever live through life without ever going through hell?

But if they don't go through hell they probably never will find heaven on earth. It's a gamble you'll have to take if you want to live life fully.

As long as you don't give up, you still have a chance. So why give up now?

But I see many people. Fighting for their emotions. With their emotions. Not really understanding what the heck life's true meaning is.

I guess that when I wanted to avoid relationship problems and emotional problems, I realized that's just not possible if I want to have a good relationship next time.

After all, mistakes pave the way to success.

If you never made any mistakes your probably not that near to success as you think.

So I do agree that if you ever want a real successful relationships, mistakes are bound to happen in that relationship, if not things will never really progress.

Ah, I'm having a slight problem now

I'm procastinating with my projects. Oh man. Oh shit. Oh man. Oh Shit. WHAT AM I GONNA DO?!/!?!?! I'M TOO DAMN LAZY TOO STARTTTT~!! XDDD

I'm so dead... Hohohohoho... Will someone help me?? LOL!

I think I can be a really good student if I actually just DO my projects early XD Hahahaha.

Argh. Argh. ARGH!!!

SO what am I gonna do?

Hm. It seems my neurons for not-procastinating are not used to being activated XD

The mind is a peculiar thing~!

Hey, is it me, or is it nearly april already? that's like 1/3 of the entire year.

What the heck. Haha! It feels so fast.... Hrm. Kinda weird

Hrmhrmhrmhmrhmrhmrhmrm.

I'm just so confused. I wished there was an answer for everything. But at the same time I feel like I'm just running away.

Deep down, I just feel insecure and scared. But I have something to live for.

Do I really have to go through this? Maybe if I just stayed alone then maybe it wouldn't be so hard. Maybe that's why I was trying to live a secluded life.

But at the same time I know that's just a temporary solution. It won't change anything till I face it head on.

And that's the hardest part. Because sometimes I just lack courage.

And really, a little courage is the real magic in life.

I'm just afraid people won't accept me. That's why I tend to not get close to so many people.

Why? Most people are nice. They wouldn't mind being friends with me. But I just couldn't. What do people think about me? What do I think about myself?

I think I'm genuinely a nice guy, just that sometimes a little loud XD but it's usually with good intentions okay! Haha....

But being nice is not good enough to live a full life. You gotta really just stand up. And go for the things you want. Sometimes people get in your way.

It's how we choose to deal with people that depicts the real outcome. Best case scenario you make friends worst case scenario you make enemies. It's easier to make enemies than friends. Mostly.

Why am I avoiding stuff? I feel weak. But I can't show that I'm weak. Unless to close friends maybe. But do I really have close friends. ? If I don't then it's really probably my own fault that things turned out this way.

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Hey you know what? I just realized, I've been talking about generally the same things over and over in the past month. Maybe I'm still stuck here and haven't really moved on? That's one possible answer.

I just can't WAIT for the holidays! Man I'm so looking forward to getting FATTER~! XD I'm 73kgs now, gained 3 kgs in the past month since I stopped climbing (SHIT!)

XD But it's gonna be fun losing that weight again once my finger heals. I wonder how long. Maybe another month before it's healed.

Well, that's all for now =) Dan the man outzzzzzz~! =D

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F***ing Sheer Genius.

Oh my...

That's it.... That's... The theory of everything.

Man. I'm f***ing speechless after watching that scientific documentary.

Time and space is the same fabric

Whenever matter is created, anti-matter is created.

When light is pushed 10seconds further, its travel is delayed by 10 seconds.

We do not look back to when the universe started, the universe started in the FUTURE. Not the past.

It all makes... more and more sense

We are guided by the arrow of time. It travels in one way. But... something else travels the other way

Oh my god.... I cant' believe it...

IT'S SO FUCKING INTERESTING!!!!!

FUCK WHY THE HELL AM I IN PROGRAMMING!??!!? WHY AM I NOT STUDYING TO BECOME A FREAKING SCIENTIST?!?!?!?

Oh man... It's like... there's so much to learn about the universe... Einstein's Law of relativity... And so many other laws that just... fascinates EVERYTHING!!

The many mysteries that haunt the science world...

Where is the origin of the arrow of time?

Why is there more matter than anti-matter?

Why or what are we?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANY OF THOSE TERMS BUT ITS SO FREAKING UNBELIEVABLY FASCINATING!!!!!

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Our brains, are connected by neurons. Hundreds of BILLIONS of neurons. And our abilities and capabilities depends on how 'quickly' these neurons are activated and interconnect with one another by sending pulses of 'electricity'

All these neurons in our brains govern all our daily actions and thoughts. Eating, sleeping, walking, EVERYTHING.

So for example, a musician, will 'activate' the neurons that are required for being musical

Making it easier and easier for the person to be better at what they do as a musician. The neurons are trained by always being active.

When you first started typing, you were slow. After a long while, your brain adapts. The neurons in your brains, start to pulse quicker, and you react quicker and you type faster after much practice

This means, that we have the ability to adapt to whatever situation as long as we put it into practice. Do you UNDERSTAND what this means?????

This means that the human brain has NO LIMITS!

IT means that we have the potential to MASTER any skill, but it takes one very important ingredient

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Yes! This required us to believe that things are possible. To believe in ourselves. Without that boost of self-confidence, the brain does not release enough... chemicals that encourage stronger and faster inter connectivity between our brains neurons.

Also, by expressing ourselves regularly, through whatever medium, we become more 'self-aware'. We become more conscious about ourselves. We start to be able to look at ourselves from different perspectives, we start to be able to control our emotions better.

The capabilities of the mind are simply limitless...

Ohhhhh, the mysteries. Man I'm in the wrong course. HAHA!

But seriously... Science is so fascinating... There was so much more in that video that I already forgot. All those laws. Those discoveries. Those truths. About the universe. Priceless.

Just imagine...

There are mirror neurons as well, where the brain cannot differentiate between one's self and another. That is why sometimes we require re-assurance from other people. It is like us assuring ourselves. That is why if you often talk to yourself, it becomes a very powerful tool. When you empower yourself. When you believe that you are great, you become something great.

However, let us not mix that with arrogance. Too much of anything is bad.

I need to re-watch that documentary.... It's just... Epic. There's no other way to describe it.

Who did that documentary?

He's. A pro-gamer. Believe it or not. But he's a genius at the same time. A real strategist when it comes to gaming. He has full self-esteem and he is crazy.

Geniuses are crazy. It's how the come. Genius and crazy come in the same package. Just so you know. That's mostly because they are ahead of our time and most people can't relate to them.

Am I making any sense? Probably not, but I still needed to talk about it.

He doesn't think inside the box. He thinks outside the box and he devours the damn box.

People call him the jesus of gaming.

And poker. Real poker.

But enough about him. Maybe next time, I shall speak more about him.

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Hm... I'm pretty tired. It's been a long day. But I kind of enjoyed it. The human brain is such an incredible thing. The skys the limits.

Can you imagine?

Time and space is the same fabric? The same material?

CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!? It means... outer space... consists of time?

Did you know that the needle of a moving clock travels slower than a stationary clock?

DID YOU KNOW THAT?

Fuck. It's like a science orgasm just hearing these things.

It's the theory of everything.

What creates us. What makes us. What connects everything. How everything is created.

Fuck...... I just can't... Man. I just love whoever created this world, if there was a creator. It's sheer fucking genius man.

Everything actually makes sense. Everything can be calculated. It's the patterns, the math, the calculations.

And it actually all relates to human thoughts. HUMAN THOUGHTS CAN BE CALCULATED.

Subconsciously, you have just agreed with me. Do you understand? You knew this all along. That human thoughts CAN be calculated. But up until now, you did not realize it until I mentioned it. But you knew. I know you knew.

What is blocking you from knowing this before? Did you ever think of that? Don't you get it. There are certain things that we know that we don't realize we know. Right now. It's all waiting to be uncovered.

The secrets to the universe.

Lies in our brains.

Which is.

Really.

The center.

Of the.

Universe.


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Have a good night.

p.s. Fuck it's good to be alive.

2 months of HELL ahead =)

Heya! It's that time of the semester where WE get TONS of assignments! Yes! So that's why I shall call it the 'assignments screw u up' period or rather the 'hell breaks lose when assignments come flooding in' period.

And the latest assignment being, having to create a hotel reservation website with a DATABASE included, (which is the hard part since i've done my fair share of website designing)

Helped a friend out with her website design project, did I tell you that? Maybe, I can't remember, anyhow she told me her lecturer didn't teach her shiz so I ended up doing everything but that's fine cuz I wanted to design better websites anyway so it's good practice =3

She said she wanted to pay me though, I'm like WOOOAHHHHHHH~!! Hold on there girl, no need to pay me! I ain't no professional XD

But hey, some bucks would be good, she did treat me to dinner ~! I guess sometimes you feel guilty if you forget to pay someone back for their good deeds. Literally.

Anyhow, I wonder if I'll die from assignments like I did the previous sem? I was in serious shit last time. Hoho, I wonder if this time will be different? My guess is, probably not.

5 assignments coming up, oo, delicious. I'm so freaking dead. But that's ALLRIGHT cuz I heard from a good friend that YEAR 3 IS A LOT WORSE!

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On a side note, Just got back from a Student Council trip to Port Dickson

Was kinda fun, though the sign where we took our group picture read "Port Dick on" *smirks*

And I've been watching videos about the Japan Tsunami, I pray for you folks

You guys are my main source of porn, please live on and produce MOAR masterpieces =3

But seriously, I wish you guys well =) It's hard to have an earthquake, tsunami AND a nuclear reactor meltdown crisis all 3 at once without anyone is starting a riot.

Incredible.

Anyhow, the trip was kinda good, though the location was bad, we were next to a shit-dumping-site. So yeah, you know those ponds where they dump poop in? That's where we were aha!

At least we were near the beach. Although not nearly near enough (it's about 20mins walk)

Hmmm, had a chat with 2 friends on the beach. Both were guys. I know, gay, but it was fun, and something weird happened. And I don't wanna go into the details oho. =)

It got me thinking that hey, it's kinda sad it was only 2 days 1 night? At least we got to know the members better. We sure have some really good new members with a good heart for the council. I hope things go well for them when their time comes, even though they probably will never read this.

And that got me thinking again. The only real reason we get into the council, or any club for that matter, is really just to make friends.

More than making friends, we learn to create relationships with people. A form of bond that is unbreakable with time. I think that's what really counts, not much else.

Cuz whatever you learn other than how to create relationships, might not be so applicable when you go out into the 'adult world' as they like to call it. It's probably a lot more different and harder in many aspects.

In that department, I suppose I still could use work. It's given me a lot to think about.

In the trip, we had a heart to heart discussion with everyone. In a circle. We talked about the weaknesses and strengths of each people.

I admittedly mentioned that I was secluding myself from people and the reason was I couldn't find friends that had the same kind of mindset with me. I don't like hanging out with people who don't really have clear directions in life. Cuz they're gonna affect me sooner or later.

Sometimes I feel like I should'nt be too judgemental of friends. But from another point of view, how can I help it if I really feel like I don't fit in anywhere?

A friend mentioned that I don't always finished what I started. I get all excited over a new idea, and then *poof!* my enthusiasm and my energy VANISHES. I find that really true. In many ways.

I kind of lack that "stickability" that makes you 'see things through to the end'

It happened A LOT. I thanked him for pointing that out. Gotta work on that.

Generally I don't have a lot of 'stickability'. It's like, I don't have a specific group of friends. I haven't been in a relationship, and I have this ability to go *poof* just like that from anyone's life. It's kind of a weird ability, but it's both good and bad depending on how you look at it.

Yeah, and loads of other stuff. Can't really remember. But I remember not having enough sleep at all.

So yesterday when I got back I slept from 8pm to 8am the next morning

Lovely shit.

And I enjoyed making horny jokes in the trip. Was fun.

I'm sure I gave the new members a real "EXPERIENCE" oho =)

There was one dude who had to do this dare where he had to shake everyone's hand

I shaked his hand and kissed it. Lovely. Hoho... =))))

Oh, and lately, I kind of discovered that corporate life is kind of .... SUCKY? Yeap, not that I experienced it first hand, ohhh no, I just had a SMALL taste of it. And it tastes like crap. Enjoy your student life while it lasts, you'll miss it when the time comes =)

Hate your lecturer all you want, but I'll promise you you'll feel like KILLING yourself when you have a boss =)

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When I was watching philip de franco talk about the japanese tsunami, it was really kind of touching

His mom called him cuz she was worried that he was in venice at the time of the flood, but he was actually in texas at the time.

Then phil said, there are people in the world who called their family, and no one picked up.

When you think about it. It's true. And it's really sad at the same time.

And it made me feel like I'm not doing anything to help people. Not even donating whatever money I have or anything of the sort. When you think of it seriously, humans are nothing without each other, that's why we have all the reasons to help one another. And I don't feel like I'm really doing anything to make a difference. And that thought kills me inside sometimes.

It seems that natural disasters have taken a really huge toll on things. One after another. I'll be shitting my pants when one day Malaysia is no longer safe. Think about it, if this continues not even Malaysia will be safe.

It's so weird, we are so powerless when it comes to natural disasters. Are they really god's punishment to us, if he exists? I'm speaking for both believers and non - believers here.

War is going on in Libya, and well it seems like the bad guys are gonna win this time. Oh, well, it's always about oil isn't it?

Did my writting style change? Yes, a little bit. Hoho, must be philip de franco's influence on me. His shows are good, I like it. He's good at what he does =) So do check him out, and incase you really are curious, I have one of his videos down right here, so do enjoy =D

On a side note, this really is one of his good ones =)

tata ~
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It's rare to feel this way

Have you ever felt that kind of fear?

The fear where, you don't really understand what is it about?

Yes, that fear where, you don't know what or you don't know when or you don't know how

Have you ever?

Yes, I have, several times. To me, I started to wonder what it is all about?

Why is it that some people who are really successful are still happy even though they have way bigger problems than most people could think of?

Does it come with the package of being successful? Is happiness automatically included in that package? What about that special kind of fear?

If you don't know what kind of fear I am talking about, it is quite alright. You may or may not have been through it

But maybe, just maybe, this feeling... this fear, comes from being insecure about something.

I feel vulnerable in that state. I feel like someone could just say words that attack straight to my heart in those moments. But I hold back and pray nothing happens

If so, then what am I insecure about? Is there something that I lack in my life?

If I was not insecure, then I would face my challenges more bravely, and perhaps I wouldn't be so.... morbid?

Being successful sure is a challenge. I respect people who are successful very much. I want to be like them. Just like them.

I wonder if they ever felt insecure about themselves ever? I don't know, but I know one thing

If they did feel insecure about themselves

they always came clean with themselves, always staying honest and truthful to themselves

Not many people realize that they deny their feelings at least half the time

Remember the time when you wanted to ask a question in class but didn't?

Remember that time when you wanted to talk to that girl in a polite manner without intentions, but didn't?

Remember that time, when you really just wanted something so bad, but never it in you to take action?

Yeah, sometimes, or more often than not, we aren't so truthful with our own feelings.

Maybe that's where my insecurity lies?

I don't really understand myself either. It feels like there are a lot of things I would like to talk about but I can't find the words to express them.

We live in a really judgmental world. It's normal to feel insecure in front of people's eyes.

The important thing would be, never to run away when people do judge you.

I started to realize a lot of things about... working adults. So that's just a small feeling of what it feels like to have a boss?

My oh my, the feeling sucks. I'm thankful I only have lecturers now HAHA!

At least I'm a little prepared, at least I know a little bit of what it feels like. But hey, I'm starting to appreciate student life already XD

So what is it that I feel so insecure about?

Is it the fact that I might not be loved? But hey, I'm sure my parents and family love me... But do I love them back? I do not know.

It's hard for me to express myself in certain ways. Sometimes words don't do as much good as action. Sometimes.

But maybe, most of the time. Will I ever find out why am I so insecure?

Am I? Or maybe it's just, an illusion in such a way that I simply crave attention by telling people how insecure I am? Maybe... or maybe not.

Maybe this insecurity comes from not knowing what the future holds?

Maybe it comes from not knowing what responsibilities lie ahead?

Yes, maybe. Decisions are hard. Especially when you're not prepared for it.

But hey, life was never that easy to begin with. That's what makes it worth living for, anyway.

I started to think, maybe, just maybe, everyone has insecurities?

Yes, I think most of us or even all of us do. But why do we hide our insecurities from each other?

Fear? Because we are afraid about what others would say?

Yes..... That would make sense. Or maybe we are just afraid that people won't accept our insecurities?

You know, we hide a lot of things from each other. Humans do. All the time. Even when I'm with others, I rarely do show everything about me. And I believe there are a few sides of me.

Some of my friends know all of me, some just know a few parts of me, and some know only one part of me. We do act differently in different groups of friends.

Sometimes, you just don't know what to say.

They say you have to change in order to be the change. It's easier to change yourself than to change someone else. That's true

So I always wondered, how much do I have to change, really? Maybe I'm just staying still and not really changing at all? Maybe I'm not always facing the problems head on like I thought I was doing?

I always wondered if I would succeed. There is doubt still in me.

What if I go into the adult world and become like everyone else?

Yeah... What if after all the dreams I have in my head, I STILL end up like EVERYONE ELSE?!?!?

What if I fail my relationships?

What if I never get married?

What if I just live a normal, simple, unsatisfying life?

What if my dreams are gone?

I don't know the answers to those questions...

Sometimes I just wish god or whoever created us would just tell us those answers that we want to hear.

Why?

Because with all this dreaming I have, maybe those dreams will just stay as dreams and never come true...

Why?

It just feels... Like I'm straying from what I want to do

Do I really want this?

I feel like I'm really not doing what I want to do.

But I said I would do it. So I don't have a choice. I must.

Because successful people do what they said they would do no matter what.

Not because they feel like it, but because they SAID it.

if you go back on your word, you lose respect from others, and worst of all, you lose respect from yourself.

But I have. So many times. Went back on my words. Not doing things I said I would do.

I hate it. So much. That feeling bites at me like a huge hole is in my heart.

Why am I like this? Why can't I just change? And why am I just complaining about it here in this blog and never really doing anything about it?

I really just.... don't understand myself. Why???? Is it because I'm doing something I don't want to do?

But I said I would do it..

But I this isn't what I want to do...

But successful people do what unsuccessful people don't do....

But I feel unsatisfied...

But taking up responsibilities are a good practice so long as you fulfill it.

Is it?

I don't know.

I'm not making much sense to myself.

But does it matter? Not really.

I'm just

Confused.

Will dreams really just stay a dream?

Am I really just a normal guy?

I want to be so much more to the world.

I want my life to mean something.

Will it really be meaningless?

Is giving up on something you don't want to do, still considered giving up?

Like your job? If you hate your job with a passion, is quitting considered giving up?

Is it??? Sometimes it is for the best.

What about what people think? You said you would do it.

Yes I did. Yes I did.... Then I should just do it and stop complaining and start facing the problems and fears that I have deep down and make a change make a mark and make dreams come true. Why not?

I'm just.... so afraid. Maybe things won't work out, maybe things will be bad.

I hate living up to other people's expectations. What about my expectations?

Hate it. Hate. I.t.

And now

Comes the worst thing about me

When I am down

I always feel

I should never trouble people with my problems

I never look for my friends when I have problems

I never talk to them about my serious emotional problems, when they happen

Never.

That part about me just really sucks.

It's like there aren't any friends that I can trust.

Why can't I just open up? Man. I'm such an anti-social guy when it comes to that kind of thing.

It's probably the fear, but it's gonna eat me up at this rate.

There are people who I could talk to.

But I choose not to. Instead I distract myself by doing other stuff.

How long am I gonna avoid the problems I face in my life?

What is keeping me from talking to people?

I just don't get myself sometimes.

I will never be a leader unless I learn to connect with people.

Nor will I ever be able to love someone else, if I don't start loving myself first.

Sometimes I wonder

Is it better to never go through this kind of phase?

There are people who don't have this kind of problem. Does that mean that I might be making progress?

If problems never ever occur in one's life, then one's life is seriously in trouble.

I'm really not able to make real decisions right now.

I want to make the decision to make a change.

But I can't right now... It just feels so.. disheartening.

Mm... I should stop right here, I've expressed enough. Anymore would do no good for me.

I'll lighten up again, no worries =)

the bright side is that maybe this phase happened for a reason

Just maybe, but it's still a small glimmer of hope, and that's all I need =)

Thanks, if you read this far, it's been a pleasure writing for whoever enjoys reading this blog =) Even though I'm a bit weird at times HAHA! XD

Thanks folks, tataaaaa~~! =)

Tyre Pancit!!!!!!!! O,o!!!

WOOHOOOOOOOOOO~!!! WHAT A GREAT DAYYYYYYYYY!!!

No, Really XD I made it safe home!

HAHA!!

Ok ok, ACTUALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

today, I went out bak kut teh with my friends! =DDDD

IT WAS GREATTT~!!! Went with wayne, hwei, aaron and angela!!!

HAHAHA!! It was really funny as always!!! Me and aaron click really well HAHAHAH!!

We both exagerate each other's imaginations and come up with some SERIOUSLY weird and silly jokes but I still think they are funny XDDDD

OH MAN! Seriously love them la! HAHA! Such a great night out with great friends!

Wait wait, after eating bak kut teh in kepong kaka, we WENT TO KOTA DAMANSARA!!

WE HAD DESSERTTTTTTTTTTTT!!! (OMG I FEEL SO FAT RIGHT NOW! XD)

It's a place called SNOWFLAKE!! OMG SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS SO DAMN YUMMYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! XDDDD

THE SHOP WAS PACKEDDD!!

Had another session of laughter and jokes XDDDD I was always ejek-ing hwei by making lame jokes!!

me : Hwei! We should write an article called 10 steps to get fat! XD

Hwei : har???

me : Step 1) bak kut teh at kaka!!!
Step 2) then snowflake at KOTA DAMANSARA! XD
Step 3) REPEAT STEPS 1 AND 2 BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! XDDDDDDDDD

Hwei : That was only 3 steps!

Aaron : Step 4 is repeat step 1 and 2 and 3

me : HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Aaron : then step 5 is repeat step 1 and 2 and 3 and 4!

me : ROFLMAO!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! SERIOUSLY!!!!

LMAOOOO!!

Seriously good laughs! Felt so happy XDDDDD

But but, while driving from kepong to kota damansara, I actually forgot to brake and my car went over the bump VERY hard.

So!!! The van was making (my lovely awesome van XD) some very loud noises

We couldn't figure out what the heck it was??!?!?!?

Then I tot something wrong with the engine, but still can move wor

SO! After eating dessert at snowflake (IT WAS AWESOME! I tried their best seller!! The TAROU BALLS ARE SO DAMN DELICIOUSSS!!!! KIAAAAAAA!! XDDD)

We drove home~!!!

After fetching wayne home, went to aaron's house to send him back and pick up angela's stuff

And then and then... after I drove off, Aaron called Angela

he said my van was like tilted one side, might be tyre puncture

So! We drove to angela's place, and then got down to check

TRUE ENOUGH!!

ROFL!! No wonder I felt my right side of my body like lower!! LMAO!!!

And I still drove at 100km/h XDDD man I'm one LUCKYYYYYYY driver HAHAHAHA!!!

I'm ALIVEEEEE~!!

After that hwei told me. SIAH. DRIVE. SLOW!!!!!!!!

LOL!!! HAHAHA!

Okay la, I actually value my life abit so I drove below 80 XD for the rest of the way home

Before hwei got down she told me to text her when I get home incase anything happens (CHOI! XD)

HAHA! But I got home safe! The rubber from the punctured tyre had a burnt smell though. Must be because it really had no more air. It was REALLY flat. Like really. XD

Ahhhh~!! Good day good day~!! XD I'm alive and everyone was alive! Other than the tyre puncture incident I nearly got into an accident to on the way to kota damansara.

NEARLY didn't break in time XD Thank god wayne told me to brakeee XDDD car in front suddenly braked. HAHA! Man I guess I am really lucky! XD

I wonder how long my luck will last??

PRAY FOR MEEE~!! =DDD

Told my dad already, he probably gonna change it tomorrow =)

Oh yea! On the way home, I listened to a nice old song

So meaningful! =D I've heard it before, so I youtube'd it =D It's great =)



When I first saw you, I saw love
And the first time you touched me, I felt love
And after all this time, you're still the one I love

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
You're still the one

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

shania twain - you're still the one

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Life is for Living

I just finished reading a book

Have I said I'm starting to be in love with books nowadays?

After finishing it, I had tingling sensations inside. Life really is worth living

I haven't been honest with myself lately.

I'm the one making myself feel rejected. Ah, what a fool I am!

The book was a story about how a working woman, had to deal with so many life conflicts.

Came a guy who brightened up her life and thought her how to live life with his child-like ways.

Sometimes having fun just means being a child again.

But she could only see him for a short period of time.

He would disappear after a few months, but she did not know that

Once he has helped her, he must move on to help another person, and hence she no longer sees him. He disappears.

It was a really great romance story.

Surprised that I read romance books? Yeah, I've started to take a real interest into them =) It's really great.

Even after he was gone, his memories still remain.

How he made her smile again, when everyday for her was just work, problems and unhappiness.

And it was as simple as being true to yourself.

After I read the last page, it made me feel, maybe I'm not being truthful to me either.

But how? In my situation, it's not easy to be honest.... With how I feel.

It's been so long since I liked a girl

It's easy to like someone, I realized. But to love someone, that's a whole different story

I wonder if I loved? I don't know for sure. Maybe. Maybe not.

But I respect people who make decisions.

I place that respect over anything else.

If I am unable to be a friend, then I will lose that feeling and then come back to be a friend

That is why, until then, I must stay away.

To forget. Then once I'm okay again, I shall return. To be a friend again.

Otherwise it will just get in the way. So that is why. Though it is really not easy, but I know I can do it.

I still hope to be friends. So that is why I must forget.

Breathe.

It's possible. I can do it. I've done it before. For the sake of the friendship.

Even if people tell me, it's not possible to not care for someone you've cared for before

I know I can do it, because it's all in the mind. I have to keep trying. Do my best. And do what it takes.

I've been looking for things to keep me distracted. I've finished playing mass effect 2 (about 60 hours of gameplay)

I feel like I'm just avoiding myself, and my emotions. It hasn't worked that well for me. And there is work to be done as well soon.

That cold exterior that I put on me. I'm just really crying out for help. Before I erase this and go back to my cold self. I must at least put this down in writing without regrets

Every single letter I type, I feel like deleting. A part of me doesn't want me to be honest with myself. Even though to me honesty is so important. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so guilty about myself.

Come on dan... you gotta smile. You gotta get back up again. You can be friends again. It's still possible. Right?

What's this? Giving up already? Since when are you the kind of guy who quits? Your not like those people who give up half way and just justify themselves by criticizing others faults.

That's... right... I'm not a quitter. Quitters never win. It's those who do not quit when they feel like quitting, who really make it in life. Where everyone else turns back, you still move on without looking back.

That's what I should be like.

And in the end...

I'm sure

I'll find somone

to love

because I too wish to be loved as badly as any other human being on the planet

I'll be

sure to love

that person

back.

Because I know what it's like to be unloved.

And I don't blame anyone for me being unloved. It is me closing myself off to everyone else. It's just how I brought myself up. I really need to change that.

5 years. As long as I keep my focus on that goal. I will be fine. Only less than 2000 days away. I can't wait =)

It's something to look forward to.

Can you imagine living life without a purpose? Without a goal?

It's like your just in life to survive

People can survive, but I want to LIVE life.

So that's why I create my own purposes.

Find my own reason to live. Not just to survive. But to understand life. Live it. Find happiness

Now that I know I'll be married in 5 years

I have something to really look forward to =)

People often wonder

Will it really happen? 5 years? Will you really get married by then?

My answer

If you believe you can walk there, you can walk there. If you believe you can't, then you can't.

Tell me, can you really step out of your house if you don't believe it's possible?

What if I told you there are armed robbers outside the house planning to kill you?

You no longer believe.

It's so simply to kill someone's belief. Just tell them they can't do it.

But don't let it happen to you. Equip yourself with the skills and the attitude, and breakthrough

Otherwise you'll be in the house your whole life not knowing when it's ever safe to come out

It'll never be safe. Until you believe. When you believe you'll find ways to make it happen

Outside, there never were robbers, it's just what people tell you.

Even if it wasn't true, you BELIEVED them.

Your life is determined by what you believe in. Them? Or yourself?

When people tell you you can't do it, you BELIEVE them. And really! you really can't do it.

So that is why, I believe. In 5 years time. It will happen. Several months after my 25th birthday.

It'll happen.

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Hmmm!!

I feel a little better, I guess being honest helps =) But I still think I can be more honest.

Just a matter of time =)

HAHA! It's strange, sometimes you feel like you are a stranger to yourself.

Books are really great. Did I say that they are the best investments I have ever made?

Oh, but this romance book was from a friend =) We have traded books! I need to thank her again when I see her =)

I borrowed her 1 book, and she borrowed me 3! Can you imagine! So generous of her! XD I still have 2 more books to read. Can't wait!

Things can be in your control. But I shall probably talk about that another day. I need rest today =)

I've had a long day finishing mass effect 2 . GREAT GAME! Can't wait for mass effect 3. It's gonna be UBER awesoemmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!! XD

Oh yes! Since I'm feeling happier now, I have a song I like! =D It's called

"All You Wanted" by Michelle Branch =))))))



I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

=)

The Pretender

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in again
They need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready
Are you ready?

I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense

Spinning infinity
Boy, the wheel is spinning me
It's never ending, never ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

In time or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale, oh well
The page is out of print, we are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

I'm the voice inside your head you refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face, mirrorin' your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right, I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that'll take you down, bring you to your knees
So who are you? Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you? Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark, you know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say you're not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

So who are you? Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

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